disappointments Options

[xj_liana_tx]

my life is just full of disappointments, it's like some people (like god) is playing a joke on me. i try to be content and think positive, but it's just so hard to do, especially right now. two of the most important events of the year were yesterday and today. yesterday was our NFL(national forensics league) districts, and i've been looking forward to it ever since i found out about it. i've been practicing ever since and i started to pray for myself to go to nationals and to prove myself to others (especially my parents). I was at my rounds and i did my best, i thought that i would AT LEAST get into semi-finals. But when they posted the results for yesterday, i got eliminated right after the preliminary rounds... i just stood there in disbelief.. i mean.. i've made it to FINALS in EVERY SINGLE TOURNAMENT! And the people who usually didn't make the prelim made it to the next round while i was one of the few who got ELIMINATED. I mean.. i just stood there.. i was sweating and i felt like crying really bad, but i had to hold it. I just don't get it... the people in my rounds.. BROKE THE RULES of the event big time, and they were still in. it's just... so not fair (yes.. life is not fair blah blah blah)! So i went home, and i called my best friend, and i cried for a full hour till my phone was all wet and she was being supportive. I had to sleep in the dark by myself because my parents weren't back. The next morning, i got up and felt a little bit better, until... that is, my parents asked me about how it went. i told them and i started to cry again, and my parents were just being really unsympathetic. my dad was just going "Well you can't blame anyone except for yourself because i never saw you practice... see that's why i tell you to memorize the sat vocabs so you don't cry when you take the sats... you have really low emotional IQ, how can you cry at something like this? You can't take on anything.. how do you expect to be a leader if you cry over something so little?" and just things along these lines.. i mean, i started to cry more after it, because these are the LAST thing i need at the moment. and... little?? how can you call something little when i spent so much time working on and stressing about for the past 2 months? Something that i really want, i really want it that i am willing to sacrifice things for? So i also had my solo/ensemble festival (music competition) today, and i thought if i make it to state in that, i might feel better. I got there, and we played, i did my best, but my partners got some notes wrong, so i was praying for the judge to have mercy on us. then i got the result.. we got a 2 (the best score was 1, you need a 1 to go to state), and... suddenly, i just felt like crying again because .... the two things i really cared about just... they were gone... just like that... and now all i have is my homework and some tests coming up. i can't even concentrate.
i don't think that i've ever been so disappointed in my life.

well, that's my biggest disappointments..
what are yours?

[starlette]

I'm sorry about ur comp. I know that sucks. My biggest dissapointments have been happening the most in the last few years. I'm trying to become a singer, but everytime an opportunity opens up that I think can help me get somewhere, something always goes wrong. Like I was supposed to move to california with a producer who works for sony pictures, and then three days went by and he didnt work with me at all and ended up leaving me stranded at LAX for 7 hours before my flight arrived. Now, I've been trying to go to Florida to work the club scene out there ( live in texas btw) and everything seemed to be going okay cuz my mom and her fiancee had a job set up out there to help with the hurricane relief, then the guys they were supposed to be working with never got in touch with them, so now I cant get to florida. Everytime something good seems to come my way regarding opporunities in my carreer, something always over shadows it. But in light of the bad stuff, there are a lot fo things that have happened, like my mom halped my deaf uncle from going to jail for 6 years for a crime he didnt do, soething she couldnt have done if we had gone to florida. He would have been defenseless and alone, but she was here to help him. So I guess everything happens for a reason. But I'm sorry stuff didnt work out for you. Sounds like ur dad isnt any help either. but I'm sure everything will turn up. just be positive. :D