confused, my parents dont know about my boyfriend Options

[usv04babe]

My name is Lia. I have been with this kid for a little while now. Everytime that we talk, I feel something. I really care about him, and he really cares about me. There is a big big problem though. My parents do not know about him, because if they did, I would be probably in an early grave. I met him on-line. Yes I know meeting people on line is not the best thing to do, but we just started talking one day, and one thing lead to another, and here we are today. My parents are very like old fashion, very strict as well in certain areas. They dont mind me going out with guys, and they can stay at the house because they know I wont do anything with them, but they hate with a passion the internet because they think it can lead to horrible things and this and that. I wish they could just understand that meeting someone online is just like meeting someone at the store. You still have to get to know them and such. His parents support him and they really like me. His mother always jokes me with about being her future daughter in law. I want to try and find a way to tell my parents about him, because we have plans this summer to meet up somewhere, and spend some time together. His idea is for him to come down here and then we can tell them together. I thought maybe I was just being stupid and such, and that this really isnt happening, but I can not stop thinking about him. I really care about him more than I have ever cared about anyone else. I have not been happy lately, and he makes me so happy with the little things he does and say. I just want to be happy again. I want everything to be ok. I mean I am happy now, but it is eating me up inside that I have to like hide him from everyone. I am so confused. I really do not know what to do. I wish there was an easy way to tell them. Please someone help me. Thanks. Lia.

[usv04babe]

I have thought about this a lot. He is worth in some ways of upsetting my parents. My parents are there to help me, support me, and guide me, but I am 18 and I need to finally learn some things on my own. I am not very close to either of my parents where I am able to talk to them about anything. I am very close to my brother however, and I tell him everything, and he knows about what I want to do, and he said he will always be there to support me. I need to learn to be on my own, to make mistakes, and to learn from them. I have realized that ever since I really strated to stress and worry about this, that everything else in my life has went down the hill. I am a straight A student in college. I actually took college classes while in high school to get ahead of the game. I should be done with my AA by May, but now I have like no motivation to go to class anymore, and I am like so sick feeling, and always tired. It's like I am depressed because I am worrying way too much about this problem. I know this kid exist and that he is real. We have talked everynight on the phone, we have seen pictures, we have seen video tapes. I have spoken to his mother, his father, all his little sisters, quite a few of his cousins, and his aunts/uncles, some of his friends and what not. They all have told me how happy he seems now after he met me. His ex girlfriend told me that she is happy that he finally found someone that really cares about him, and that she has never seen him this happy. My parents know that I talk to someone out of the state because of my cell phone bill. I told them that it was my friend Mike who I go to college with and who actually used to live out where my boy lives now. I know I could never really tell my parents the truth. They know everything about my boy except that his real name isn't Mike, and that I really did not meet him at the college I go to, but everything else about him, like his little sisters, his hopes and dreams, the stupid shit he has done, all that is the real him and not the made up Mike my parents think he is. *sorry if that does not make sense to you*. I know that no matter what it is going to be my desicion. No one can change anything. I really have to sit down and think and really decide what I want to do. He wants to come down here and tell my parents together so then it's easier on me, and so then they get to meet him, and judge him, and whatever else parents do. After he spends some time down here, he wants me to go with him so see his family, which I am not worried about because they like already know all about me, and they call me even when he isn't home just to talk and say hi, and see how I feel about little things up there. His mother, and oldest sister like include me in the stuff they do which makes me feel like already part of their friends and family circle. I am going to be very very very careful. I just want to say that I am happy someone can finally relate to my situation. Thank you so much karamelle. You made my day 10 times better because now I feel a lot better about my sitation, and don't worry about your post being so long. You really have helped me realize a lot more things. Thank you for caring so much about me, and you don't even know me, that means a lot. Well everyone I don't know what else to say. I am still very confused, and would like any kind of feedback you can give me. Thanks.