if you made this mistake.. what would you do ?, broken hearted Options

[BrokenHeartsKILL...]

okay. i was going out with this guy named jaron. we were in love and everything. but i had a best friend named kevin. he HATED him and wanted him dead. after bout 2 months into the relationship things were shaking up and stuff. but i really really was in love with him. and he liked me like a lot. but; kevin convinced me to break up with him. he was always saying just break up with him and saying he was gonna fight him. i didnt want anything to happen to jaron. but i didnt break up with him. kevin screamed it to him when i asked him not to. but when he did. jaron just looked at me then started to hurt himself. he called me that night crying for me back. but i felt so bad i couldnt say yes. after all kevin did it. i got in depression.. but that wore off about a month later.. then the day after that; kevin was like umm ur going out iwth brandon. and i liked him; but i loved jaron. i went out with this guy for about a month and a half. then i broke up with him; well actually kevin did. then me and kevin somehow hooked up. it lasted 3 days. heh. after all that was through. i started talking jaron. kevin was grounded. when he got off; i asked him if he woukld mind if i went out with him. he said, " you can either have me as a best friend and hate jaron. or you can go out with jaron and me hate you ".. weLL i never decided. but jaron wore off ; he stopped liking me. that was last year. i refuse to go out with anyone ever since. me and jaron ont relaly talk anymore. but i love him so much. i carved his name on my waist. crazy. im like obsessed. but like , i dont know. me and kevin arent best friends anymore. we are jsut close. i have a new best friend now. i feel reallly bad now. last thursday would of been me and jarons one year if i didnt break up with him. does anyone know what i should do?

[Kriegsgefangene]

Don't let friends push you around like that.
If they don't respect the way you feel about someone, they don't deserve to be your friend at all.

Kevin should have nothing to do with you.
He might seem like your best friend, but he is too controlling, and that is never good, in any kind of relationship.

Kevin may be just jealous, or he has no intention of really being your friend.

If that is how he truely acts, he shouldn't even live, by my standards.