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[avalon*]

a few thoughts from my journal, so they might not make much sense, but you could probably guess..haha.

i cry when he's sad. i laugh when he's happy. his eyes are deep pools of dark water. they reflect and sparkle. i can't stop smiling when i see him. the things he does are ambiguous. what can i do? tilt me backwards. sleep on pochacco. talk to me. laugh with me. sit right next to me. intentionally. what would i tell her? i stole him away. no. i didn't. do you think i did? maybe. maybe not. you should talk to him. when you're gone, i'm the only one. i'm the only girl. when you come back, he'll like you. switching. always. unless it doesn't mean what he's trying to do. he's weird, i know. that's why i'm here. that's why i'm writing. that's why i'm thinking. what if? what if he never tried to get me with shaving cream? how did he know my name? i wonder. he loves football. me too. we can watch together. i can yell at the redskins if they don't get better. does he know? or maybe he thinks he knows. or maybe he doesn't know. make up your mind. talk about colleges. play the guitar. make me laugh. do whatever you do best. i'll still be here.