just tell me Options

[Heathasm]

my problems...
-my parents are going through the longest divorce ever and are screaming stealing and hurting each other every day
-im having eating problems due to depression
-lately i've been sore all over for no reason...im thinking its due to stress and/or depression
-problems with people at work
-sleeping problems (aka i sleep more than 12 hours a day)

and now my bf..
-hes the greatest sweetest sexiest thing in the world and i love him alot
-hes horrible at comforting and just doesnt understand
-he doesnt know my bad side very well and i know ill never show it to him
-my parents wont let him near me in their presence

my bf takes away the pain, hes sort of a numb sollution that makes me forget about every thing that is going wrong with me right now
1. if i keep seeing him i feel like ill never be able to fix myself
2. i notice that my attitude and self lately are having and effect on him and i fear that ultimately i will end up hurting him more later and in a slow torturous way than i would if i broke it off now
3. basically i fake every thing im feeling when im around him, but i like doing it because it makes me feel good for some sick reason

if we stopped seeing each other i would be forced to confront every one of my problems and not use him as an escape and he could get over me and find some one who is happy and to make himself happy

and now...i need an outside opinion
do i need to break up with him as soon as possible?
i dont need advice on what else to do..this is how it is and i dont know what to sacrifice...but maybe i do..i need other people's opinions

[sweetdreamsx3]

I think you need to if you're being fake around him since it's not you.