why do i care? Options

[Wishful_Dream]

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okay, i dunno why.. but it just hit me today that maybe I cared too much... x.x like, i'd rather make a lunch than spend my lunch money because i'm afraid my family would go to the poorhouse, while my sister doesn't care. x.x

i'd rather wear my old clothes than buy new ones, because i don't wanna waste money.. and i'm afraid my parents would run out of money. when my parents told me they were gonna buy another house, i thought we were going to go into the poorhouse cuz i found out they were still indebted.. or something..x.x" my parents yelled at me to stop thinking like that...

before, i forgot my friend was supposed to come over.. and even though it was an hour after.. i ran all the way back to school which was a 30 minute walk..x.x and then i phoned all her friends, including her family.. to find out where she was.. and she was at another friend's house.

this guy kinda bullied me before.. in a way.. he's mean, because he insults me.. when he was like kiddingly saying, "i bully myself." i was like, "are you okay?" by accident.. and i went to check if he was OKAY.. x.x""" and he laughed at me.. x.x"

yes, i must be pretty weird huh? or maybe, I'm normal =x yes.. maybe i'm normal. -nod nod- so do YOU sometimes feel like you care TOO much? x.x" and is there any possible way to care less? =x

[magnificentmike]

uhm. well, I do care. ALOT, but i dont freak out. I just try my best not to ask for more than I need. because I'm well aware of all our taxes and stuff like that. and yeah, we're probably going to be back in debt in about a couple of months.

i dont think either of my brothers are aware of this, my little brother is so spoiled and my parents spoil him so much which makes me angry.

but oh well, i've learned to deal with it. besides it's probably not gonna be my problem until i'm an adult.