dispersing the nightmares Options

[*Tainted Euphoria*]

The same dream haunts me night after night. No matter how many times I wake up screaming in cold sweat, I know I'm in for more. For so long I've tried to push this experience to the back of my mind so that I might be able to go about my life as happily and normally as possible, but you just won't let me, will you? What did I do wrong to deserve such torture? What did I do to deserve the nightmares you've left me with?

That night changed me. You hurt me so much, inflicting wounds that will never heal. You might as well have stabbed me, because slowly, but surely, life is bleeding out of me. I have very little will power left. I can't fight the pain anymore. Darkness threatens to break down my door, and I'm too tired to keep it at bay.

I've been forced to rethink every aspect of my life -- question my worth. If I was truly worth anything, why would this happen to me? Why would you happen to me?

In so many ways, I'm damaged - broken. I remember that look in your eyes as you ran toward me. It was something I'd never seen before. I truly feel that that night, I looked into the eyes of a murderer.

You took me to the ground in one strike, and in another you nearly rendered me unconscious. Clawing, ripping, shredding every obstacle, you barrelled your way to your goal. I've never felt so vulnerable in my life. When first I tried to fight you, you stopped, giving me hope that this horrible attack was over, but I was wrong. My eyes caught sight of the steely vessel of danger you held over me, and from that moment, I was helpless but to surrender to you.

The things you did, the things you said, they've been perpetually engraved into my mind. You left with a piece of my soul, something I'm sure you'll add to your collection. You've turned me into another notch on your belt of women trembling in fear.

In writing this I hope to eliminate the trepidition you've instilled in me. After trying to avoid the memory, I'm ready to end this, now. I'm ready to shoo away the crows hovering over me. If it's the last thing I do, I'll kill the memory of you. I swear, I will.

[xTINAA]

Wow Naomi. That was truly a great piece of writing. I like how it was I geuss somewhat vague yet very detailed if that makes any sense at all. But anyway, I could just feel the pain and fear and everything. I'm sorry for that happening and I tol dyou I'll kill someone :]

[SKDMNLE]

Aye, very nice m'dear. Intense and deep it was. You'll get through this. <3

[yummy_delight]

Naomi, my love!

You're so talented. I don't know exactly what happened but I could really feel your emotion.

I'd like to kill the guy who hurt you.

[illumineering]

I looked into the eyes of a murderer.

That line is absolutely bone-chilling.

I have also witnessed this in a completely different context, but can nonetheless appreciate the baseness of this visual imprint upon your psyche.

I was left for dead after a rollover in a car by the driver who said he was my friend. He set up the scenario that I was driving the car to the people who stopped to assist. As coached "witnesses" they set the lie he planted into stone. I was unconscious at this time w/ a faint pulse, unable to defend myself. The driver thought I was going to die, so he figured his lie would work.

I woke up in the hospital emergency room and was immediately mirandized. I fought for the truth as a result of the actions of my "best friend" who had a warrant for a FTA unbenounced to me.

After the cops questioned him, he came to my house w/ a gun, stick of dynamite and club intending to kill one or both of us for telling the truth and not taking the rap for him. Thus, my appreciation of the primitive emotions of your writing.

I wish you well on your journey of healing. Writing of this nature is an empowering way to reclaim your personal power and transform this experience into a memory that will no longer grip your spirit and steal the gift of life from you.

[Rachel]

Naomi, this is amazing. I love you and I will hurt that son of a bitch.

[*stephinika*]

^^
i couldn't agree more.
naomi, you truly are talented in your writing abilities. this is amazing, i can just feel the emotions.
and you'll get through this.

[RiddleMeWonders]

You are awesome. You are strong. You can do anything.

[*suddenly she*]

that was great.

The things you did, the things you said, they've been perpetually engraved into my mind. You left with a piece of my soul, something I'm sure you'll add to your collection. You've turned me into another notch on your belt of women trembling in fear.

that part was .. wow.

[emazing]

Very deep and well-written.
I love the thoughts and the emotions you put in the writing.
The title also sets a similar mood, I like it.

[starlette]

Well I promised I would go look at your work, and all I have to say is Wow. Imean seriously. I wish I could express myself in words the way you have. I don't even know what to say. All I know is I have an all new found respect for you. Stay strong doll