Letter To My Baby Options

[Heewee]

I miss you so much and I cannot imagine what life would be like if you were still here with me today. I know that for your short life you were a fighter. You were strong, but you were in pain. It killed me to see your tiny body with all those wires and monitors on it and every time that one of the alarms went off, I would get so scared that this could be our last minute together. When you peacefully passed away in your sleep, I convinced myself that it wasn't real. At your funeral, it hit me--- hard. And I lost it. I was and am a mother and, while I was nowhere near ready to be somebody's mom, I was never prepared to lose a child.

I want to thank you. Even though I couldn't save you, you saved me. You turned my life around, starting from the minute I knew you were coming. I had to change my lifestyle and pull myself out of the black hole I was living in because I knew that you couldn't survive in that type of atmosphere. Even though I didn't want to, I had to stop drinking and abusing OTCs. I gave it up for you but now I realize, it was for me too. You made my parents keep a better eye on me and you made me get into trouble--- a LOT of trouble. I got help and because of you, I have a much better relationship with some of the most important people in my life. If you had never come along, I don't know where I would be in my life right now.

A long time from now, when I have more children, I will always think of you and how life would be so different if you were still here. You will always be my first born baby. I know I will eventually see you again in Heaven but for now know that mommy loves you, Brooklyn. Mommy will always love you. And please keep your great grandpa company for me. He always wanted a little girl named Brooklyn Delaney but he got two sons instead.

Love Always,
Mommy



Brooklyn Delaney Keegan
March 1, 2005 - March 10, 2005
R.I.P

[HoodieObsessed]

Awwww, that is so sweet. I'm so glad you stopped drinking and have a better life now, but I'm so so sad you had to lose your baby.

[megan_x3]

Awww.. I'm really sorry to hear about your baby. But I'm really glad that you eventually turned away from the bad side of the world and actually look towards the good side. It's pretty hard for people who has been drinking. And eventually you quit it, and I hope it won't become an addict to you anymore. Although it's awfully sad about your daughter, I hope you will eventually forget about the sad past. But don't forget about what your daughter has done to you.

[demolished]

=] Thats a good impact in your life.


By the way .. what do you mean by "atmosphere " ?

I'm thinking of a room clog with cig. scent.

[ichigofan]

I am soo sorry for your loss, I couldnt imagine the feeling of loosing a child, but I know that your baby will watch over and I think that in a way he was sent to you like an angel to protect you and to change your ways.. Im so happy that your in a much better place then you were before and I hope that your angel blesses you again with another child and youll live a long and happy life =D

[Heewee]

=] Thats a good impact in your life.
By the way .. what do you mean by "atmosphere " ?

I'm thinking of a room clog with cig. scent.

I just meant the tension and the verbally abusive relationship I had with her father.

[BarreL]

that is so sad.
i'm so sorry for your loss
i'm sure its horrid

but you faced it head on i assume
you changed all your bad ways for that little girl
so feel a sense of mind that shes no longer in pain
and that theres always someone watching you

and she had a beautiful name by the way .

[Spirited Away]

beautiful name for a beautiful soul.

[pyrochick19770]

I'm terribly sorry for your loss.
You would have made a great mother.

[F_L_I_P]

awwwwww. thats so sweet. im sad now ........ it doesnt happen to me often...you have touched me. im so sorry for you loss.

-Phil-

[*xcaitlinx*]

im very sorry for your loss. this is a touching story and im sorry that you had to go through that.

[absinthe]

oh god. hilary. *hug* i didn't know since i haven't talked to you in a while. i can't even imagine what that was like. i'm so sorry. :\\

-- agiri

[littlewhite]

I am really, really sorry about what happened.

[silver-rain]

Wow... I'm so sorry about what happened. I'm glad you were able to quit drinking and all, but I'm sad about what happened to your baby.

[*jeanna*]

too bad that you had to have someone die to realize you needed to stop. yes, i am cold-hearted.

how old are you anyways?

[Se7eN_x]

i`m truly sorry about your loss. it sucks that you went through so much but i`m happy that you`ve stopped drinking..

[ParanoidAndroid]

aww that was sweet. i can't imagine your pain. I can't even know a hint of imagination from it. But it is really assuring that instead of being a cold hearted mother you were a caring one (like most) and very loving. I am sure your child had a happy life even though it was only a few days. It's very inspiring, the changes you went through for the little form of life you mothered.

[mai_z]

I'm so sorry, losing a child seems like a pain I could never even imagine. Its nice to know that even though something this unfortunate happend, your life became better in some way because of it. What doesn't kill us will only make us stronger.

[OhXiet_ItzDonnA]

Aww...that is so sad. I'm sorry about what happen. I hope your ok.

[*Azarel*]

too bad that you had to have someone die to realize you needed to stop. yes, i am cold-hearted.

Wow, not only are you heartless, but you're also a fucking idiot. She stopped before her child was even born.

In any case, Hilary, I never did hear what happened until I read this, and I can't even begin to imagine how it all felt.. Beautifully written, your heart shines through in your letter.

[*Tainted Euphoria*]

This is such a beautiful display of the love you feel for your baby girl. Yes, even though her body is in slumber, her memory, her spirit, I know you'll keep it alive.

[kpx_danny]

THAT IS SO SWEET

[Paradox of Life]

Yeah. That was really sweet and sad. You could've posted it in here though..

http://www.createblog.com/forums/index.php?showtopic=97735

I'm so sorry about your child.

[Rachel]

too bad that you had to have someone die to realize you needed to stop. yes, i am cold-hearted.

Hey, IDK if you can f**kin read but try this out:

I want to thank you. Even though I couldn't save you, you saved me. You turned my life around, starting from the minute I knew you were coming. I had to change my lifestyle and pull myself out of the black hole I was living in because I knew that you couldn't survive in that type of atmosphere.

YEAH THAT MEANT IT WAS BEFORE SHE HAD THE CHILD. I wish you would go away. Not only do you have NO right to say anything like that, you weren't even correct. f**k, if you are going to be "coldhearted", at least know you are right. If you could go now, that would be lovely, whore.



Anyways, I am soo sorry for your loss. You are extremely strong and I am glad that you are changing your life around.

[xquizit]

Hilary, I'm very sorry to hear about your loss but I'm glad that the pregnancy helped you to turn your life around. Stay strong.

[sandy_lumpy_shor...]

I'm very sorry. I could never feel the pain that you must have felt. You really put an impact on me. i'm happy that you stop your old ways. Stay strong. And take care.

[toodlepops.]

I'm really really sorry. But I'm glad you turned your life around.
Your letter touched me.

[racoons > you]

too bad that you had to have someone die to realize you needed to stop. yes, i am cold-hearted.

aww... drop dead

= )

[demolished]

too bad that you had to have someone die to realize you needed to stop. yes, i am cold-hearted.

No one isnt is perfect.


For an example:

Your mom probably slap a your face for breaking things(or anything) on purpose. You know you had to have someone to slap you to realize you need to stop your immature acts.


---

afterall, it's good to learn lessons in life.

edit

ok, i'm stupid

[racoons > you]

^
i think you mean no one is perfect

[demolished]

^
whoopies, thanks. i'm horrible in English.

[becomingAWARE]

i'm so incredibly sorry to hear all of this. i'm glad you changed your life around, and i think you are an incredible mother.

[*Weird addiction*]

Aww...i'm so sorry! Beautiful baby name!

[HongKongDong]

too bad that you had to have someone die to realize you needed to stop. yes, i am cold-hearted.

how old are you anyways?

Well well.... nevermind. Seems as though a lot of people have already torn you up.

I'm really sorry Hillary. Doing so much to change for your baby. You would of been a great mother.

[parallel]

Omgosh Hilary. I had no clue this happened.
I'm so sorry.

[misoshiru]

oh, i'm so sorry for your loss. she had a beautiful name, but at least, you know that she helped you turn your life around.

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

that was a wonderful letter.
heart-touching. im glad these aspects in your life have turned out to help make you better.

[*jeanna*]

Hey, IDK if you can f**kin read but try this out:
YEAH THAT MEANT IT WAS BEFORE SHE HAD THE CHILD. I wish you would go away. Not only do you have NO right to say anything like that, you weren't even correct. f**k, if you are going to be "coldhearted", at least know you are right. If you could go now, that would be lovely, whore.
Anyways, I am soo sorry for your loss. You are extremely strong and I am glad that you are changing your life around.

wa wa wa cry me a river.

[Spirited Away]

wa wa wa cry me a river. 

... are you serious?





Fae's Black List:
Jeanna

[*jeanna*]

... are you serious?
Fae's Black List:
Jeanna

no, i am just trying to be an ass. shake things up with stupidity. why not the grey list?

[Spirited Away]

no, i am just trying to be an ass. shake things up with stupidity. that's what i call fun.  why not the grey list?

you find fun in someone else's grief? and you're not trying to be an ass, you are already acting like an ass. anyway, take your disgustingly lack of respect away from this topic, please.

not the grey list because there's an actual historic meaning to blacklists, but you wouldn't know that, of course.

i'll be watching you

[*jeanna*]

you find fun in someone else's grief? and you're not trying to be an ass, you are already acting like an ass. anyway, take your disgustingly lack of respect away from this topic, please.

not the grey list because there's an actual historic meaning to blacklists, but you wouldn't know that, of course.

i'll be watching you

i'll be sure to be licking my lips the whole entire time

[Spirited Away]

i'll be sure to be licking my lips the whole entire time 

this is your verbal warning. for what you ask? for pissing me off and being a jackass to another member. try it again and say "bye bye" for a few days.

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

wa wa wa cry me a river. 

wow, that is amazing. i hope you lose your baby. and have someone say all the mean things you have said. KARMA hunn`. thats how the cookie crumbles.

well said robb0.
HeeWee, im sorry. no mother should have to lose their baby. I hope your life has improved since then. your baby girl must have been beautiful. I love her name.

[*xcaitlinx*]

wow, that is amazing. i hope you lose your baby. and have someone say all the mean things you have said. KARMA hunn`. thats how the cookie crumbles.

well said robb0.
HeeWee, im sorry. no mother should have to lose their baby. I hope your life has improved since then. your baby girl must have been beautiful. I love her name.

why the hell would you say that? you're just like her by saying that. why would you want her to lose her baby? that's just cruel. it's bad enough that she's so cold-hearted that she would say something like that, but to take it out on an unborn child and say that you hope that SHE loses a baby is just...disgusting.

[demolished]

this is your verbal warning. for what you ask? for pissing me off and being a jackass to another member. try it again and say "bye bye" for a few days.

WOOHOOO ! YOU GO, FAE ! Let see if she still wants to provoke.

[*tweeak*]

why the hell would you say that? you're just like her by saying that. why would you want her to lose her baby? that's just cruel. it's bad enough that she's so cold-hearted that she would say something like that, but to take it out on an unborn child and say that you hope that SHE loses a baby is just...disgusting.

i'm sure it was a typo. she already did lose the baby (and I'm incredibly sorry Hilary, I really am) and plus based on the rest of the post it just wouldn't make sense. He isn't Jeanna

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

i'm sure it was a typo. she already did lose the baby (and I'm incredibly sorry Hilary, I really am) and plus based on the rest of the post it just wouldn't make sense. He isn't Jeanna

oopsy. yeah it was a typo. i would never wish that on another person. so before you start rollin` words off your mouth hold your tongue because i would never say that to anyone. i hold my tongue everywhere around cB bcos if i didnt everyone would hate me cos i could be the biggest b i tch here.

[megan_x3]

I'm pretty sure that no one wants her to lose her baby. And afterall , I do again wish that you will remember your baby, but always move on with your life. No one wants see you sad, and fcuk those people who said crap. Look on the bright side.

[demolished]

I think you're refering to jeanna, arent you ? lol.

[sheepy]

=[ rip. i'm glad you learned to changed...