If only if only, feeling so lonely Options

[Paradox of Life]

Feeling so lonely,
If only if only,
If someone could hold me,
If only if only,
If only I wasn’t so coldly neglected,
If only this motive I could’ve suspected,
If only if only,
I’d been more wise,
This wouldn’t have come,
As such a surprise,
If only if only I’d known.
This curse would be cast upon me,
These shadows so cold,
In this world so accusing,
Of lies untold,
If only if only,
I could help myself,
But I’m trapped in this darkness,
I can’t find my way out,
I’m depressed and suppressed,
I’m helpless and lonely,
If only if only, if only if only…

Don't bug me about the rhyming scheme. It's just an expression of my feelings right now.

[Midnight Faerie]

Wow. I love it, Katt. But if you are so lonely, why'd you break up with... OH. That. Nevermind. Anyhoo, I love it.

[illumineering]

if I only I could see the gift of being me
of living life today
knowing i've done my best
and given without expectation

if only i could trust myself
and not give away my power

if only i remembered
life can begin anew
after walking through the darkness

if only i could realize
life is what we make of it
each and every moment

if only i could build a dream
i'd never judge the past
and expect my life to change

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another what if...
it's just a spontaneous response
i hope you feel better soon