i cant stop crying..., i just want them to treat me EQUALLY Options

[enyceXaddiction]

[this is going to be really long just hope you people would read it all and help me out here cause im in serious need of help right now ]

this past week i cant stop crying in school. i just became so sensitve, and i start crying for the littlest things but most of the times i hold it in. i told 2 of my trustworthy friends, i feel much better but it still just doesnt help!!!

what i think is leading to my sensitivity if the way people in my class has been acting towards me. there just so mean!!! i use to be kind of a b*tch [hitting people for no exact reason, annoying people, cursing etc] but i was just joking around and they knew that cause they never said anything for the past 8-9 months and they all seem to like me. Besides ive been nicer now i dont hit them or anything i dont really even hang around them anymore i leave them at peace but they have been bugging me for no reason these days.

for example once when we were entering science i was just sitting there minding my own buisness taking out my notebook when these three guys that i talk to alot [there kind of the guys that joke around alot in class] were joking around next to my lab table. then all of the sudden when the bell rang they went to take their seats but they had to pass me so one pulls my hair and flicks my ear, another one starts cursing me out [you fu*king b*tch] and another one slaps my forehead. i almost started to cry but i held it in.

there was another time when we were all in health class and one of the guys got in trouble for sitting at the wrong seat he usually sits next to me and then he went back to his original seat [next to me] and he looked like he was about to cry [eyes&nose were red] so i asked him sweetly as i can be "are you crying...?" and he just goes "sh*t the f*ck up"

every time something like that happens i always think about one stuff...this girl in my class is extremly polite, nice, sweet yada yada yada [she doesnt curse or anything] and everytime the three guys joke aound they curse or talk about nasty stuff but when they find the girl standing near them and when shes making a disgusted face they get embarassed and apoligized to the girl and everything. i know they would never ever curse at the girl or even lay a hand on her. [shes one of my closest friends] i just feel so...well i cant exactly explain it i mean cant they just give me a little of respect like they do to the girl?

esspecally when another one of the guys gave me this entire speach how i should be more like the other girl like how shes so polite and everything. and he started telling me i dont deserve her as a friend and he started telling her that she should just dump me as a friend cause she doesnt deserve a friend like me cause im so rude and b*tchy. i got so bummed out about that i was mad or pissed of or anything like that just dissapointed and started to find it true.

i really cant help feeling like this but what can i do? all i can do now is cry and cry as i said before i talked to two of my friends and they were all just surprised and shocked i guess. when i told them about hiis i juss start bursting into tears while telling them adn everything. just thinking about it feels so uncomfortable...

[soulless727]

purple ponies (self-deleted 12/06)

[angelrevelation]

well you're starting to change, become a better person so... i guess they're sort of paying you back for being really rude before. maybe the only thing you can do it try to avoid them, but still be nice or w.e. and they'll leave you alone (eventually). or maybe talk to the teacher

[literemix24]

You're only 12, you've got your whole life ahead of you. lol

[topsyturvy]

i guess they're sort of paying you back for being really rude before.

Agreed. Even though you're starting to change, others might see this as a perfect opportunity to get revenge for the bitchy things you've done to them before. Not to sound harsh, but what's done is done, and i guess these are just consequences..

[separatewings]

Well, Honey, I hate to say this but you kind of brought this down on yourself. But I can tell you one thing. You gotta hold on for just a while. You are what? 12? You have a life ahead of you. I believe if you were to continue to make people see you in a different light (which is not being bitchy). Then, I think you will definately have a chance of people treating you equally. I know it won' t be instant. But it is going to take quite some time. I know how you are feeling. I have been there before. So, take comfort of the friends you have and hold on.

[beautifuls0ul_x3]

well like some of the others said that they are probably treating u like u were treating them. even though they knew u were joking, it can get annoying sometimes and hurt people's feelings. cause u said urself "i use to be kind of a b*tch [hitting people for no exact reason, annoying people, cursing etc]" not to sound mean or anything but this is kind of ur fault. but even though they shouldn't treat u that way. if things get out of hand then talk to a teacher or something. hopefully things will turn around.

[gOODpIRATE]

i think that the only thing that you really can do i stand up for yourself. i am similar to you in many ways. accept in my situation before, people just walked all over me, made fun of me, made me feel like sh*t. i wen't through that a lot (and trust me A LOT) in middle school. but now that i'm in high school, older, and wiser (i guess), i learned that every one around me is equal to me, and no one is better than anyone else. when i first started thinking that way, i kind of saw everything in a new light. when i started to stick up for myself and didn't take peoples b*ll sh*t anymore, people started to realize that they were just pulling stupid crap on the wrong person. but keep in mind, i am a peaceful person, and i've never gotten into a fist fight in my life. you see, their are ways to stick up for yorself w/o fighting, and you will learn how to do that as you grow older.

keep your chin up and try not to cry okay? when they see you cry, then they know that you are weaker than them...and your not.

[yukichan]

Well, Honey, I hate to say this but you kind of brought this down on yourself. But I can tell you one thing. You gotta hold on for just a while. You are what? 12? You have a life ahead of you. I believe if you were to continue to make people see you in a different light (which is not being bitchy). Then, I think you will definately have a chance of people treating you equally. I know it won' t be instant. But it is going to take quite some time. I know how you are feeling. I have been there before. So, take comfort of the friends you have and hold on.

agreed..give it time and prove to ppl that u've changed..

[aera]

what everyone said.. theyre probably getting back at you because of what you used to do to them.

[xlaydee_v]

amy.. its called karma

[thatoneasiangirl...]

amy.. its called karma 

agreed.

[FoOd]

What goes around comes around I suppose.

Well anyway, I am not going to say you deserve this. Try to work it out with the guys or something. Try to find a happy medium between you and the guys.

And if they start cursing you out, hitting you or anything, then they deserve a bitch slap. You shouldn't take anything like that from anyone and it sounds alot like bullying.
Tell a teacher or someone if it gets out of hand.

[sweetdreamsx3]

Maybe you can apologize to all the people that you've been a rude bitch to and let them know that you want to change. If the guys continue to bother you after you apologized, kick them in the balls.

[enyceXaddiction]

ehh people keep telling me to tell the teacher thats not me i dont like doing that. and i HAVE apoligized. i todl them what i did in the past everything im sorry. and i HAVE changed their just to stubborn to know what it means

[loljuliana]

i wish i was in your class =( then i would be able to help you out and all. but since i'm not; i dont know exactly what's happening. i guess you should just; be more aware of what you say or do. that way; they wont be able to say anything to you. and when they really do say something to you; just ignore them. dont say anything back or give them faces. ive done that to people before; it just makes things worse. x_x i'll talk to you later on; cause i'm braindead right now

[*iNyCxShoRT*]

Aww, don't worry babe. I would never "dump" you. Ahaha I chose who I want to be friends with and who I don't. And you are one of my friends =) Eh, don't worry about them. They do that to everyone p_p; I think you should just be nice to them. it might die down the bullying. I mean if you ignore them, it won't do much. I can tell them to stop if you want, I mean it's mean =( I guess they see you as one of type of girls they pick on. Just go on what you do, and try not to cry as much if you do don't let them see you p_p; well I know one of them will apologize to you *cough ERIK cough* I'll talk to you about it later. Love you huns<3

[beautifuls0ul_x3]

ehh people keep telling me to tell the teacher thats not me i dont like doing that. and i HAVE apoligized. i todl them what i did in the past everything im sorry. and i HAVE changed their just to stubborn to know what it means

well then since you said you did everything you could and you don't want to talk to a teacher about it then there's nothing really else you could do. and if they keep treating you this way then don't be overly nice to them cause then they might take advantage of you, just be kind and normal i guess. try and get your friends in school to help you with your situation.

[technicolour]

QUOTE(separatewings @ Jun 4 2005, 9:56 PM)
Well, Honey, I hate to say this but you kind of brought this down on yourself. But I can tell you one thing. You gotta hold on for just a while. You are what? 12? You have a life ahead of you. I believe if you were to continue to make people see you in a different light (which is not being bitchy). Then, I think you will definately have a chance of people treating you equally. I know it won' t be instant. But it is going to take quite some time. I know how you are feeling. I have been there before. So, take comfort of the friends you have and hold on.

I agree, but also....you might be starting to change...the whole womanhood thing...ugh..i was like that..sorta [being all "emotional"]..my parents thought i was going crazy
But just take a deep breath, act normal, be normal, accept the bad, give out good, and it'll work out eventually.

[CrazayChristian]

Well, I had bad experiances with people and stuff. But, I don't know anyone who would sink so low as to hold agrudge like that. (Of course I'm 3 years older...) But, it sounds like the time of life you and your friends are at. Thing'sll change they always do.

[mouse_3k]

crying over the little things?? uhh..its time you grow up honestly. U will be faced with ALOT of other challenges then that. Toughen up or you will be eatin up in the real world.

[*suddenly she*]

what i think is leading to my sensitivity if the way people in my class has been acting towards me. there just so mean!!! i use to be kind of a b*tch [hitting people for no exact reason, annoying people, cursing etc] but i was just joking around and they knew that cause they never said anything for the past 8-9 months and they all seem to like me. Besides ive been nicer now i dont hit them or anything i dont really even hang around them anymore i leave them at peace but they have been bugging me for no reason these days.

karma. have you ever thought that the reason they never said anything because they didn't want to talk to you? it's not so hard to act, you know.

i'm not even going to tell you to stand up for yourself. turn the other cheek and wait it out until they're satisfied. you'll be glad you did in the end.

[*XLilAznGrl592X*]

someone who kinda knows how i feel.. I cry all the time, just no one knows it. But for me, its a little different. I'm the nice one.. yeah, sure i yell and curse but like everyone in class curses. I try to act nice to everyone but they just ignore me and they talk to the mean ones... sometimes it hurts a lot. That they leave me out and i act so nice to them. Like they only leave me in for a little while when they want me to do their xangas and myspaces, anything besides that they leave me out of. Sometimes i just wanna punch them so badly... Gosh i wish u were in my class...

[jue]

awwn; chin up amyy(:
ignore them and dont let them hurt you. And im always here for you. Dude i've known you the longesst (= since we were fivee. And when yu were younger i have to say; yu werea b*tch to me and i forgaive you. They shuld find it in there hearrts to forgive you to.

[daonlylonely1]

someone who kinda knows how i feel.. I cry all the time, just no one knows it. But for me, its a little different. I'm the nice one.. yeah, sure i yell and curse but like everyone in class curses. I try to act nice to everyone but they just ignore me and they talk to the mean ones... sometimes it hurts a lot. That they leave me out and i act so nice to them. Like they only leave me in for a little while when they want me to do their xangas and myspaces, anything besides that they leave me out of. Sometimes i just wanna punch them so badly... Gosh i wish u were in my class...

yeah..sometimes at night..i cry myself to sleep[[but nobody knows it]]or sometimes i cry in the shower! everybody in my class curse!=] probably mood swings...a couple of weeks ago i was lyk sooooo depressed! ask xlilazngrl592x!!

[gothicdork]

just let it go. they're (the guys in ur class) just being pricks. they'll grow up eventually if they dun. the little saying is always here...:what they do to you will come back 10 times worse for them. Its just how tings are. Let the steam cool down. If they dun change just fight back amy dear.

~*~*~DeCePT10N -ess~*~*~

[alliegrl_x]

this is only the beginning to torturing dramas of school.
you need to stop crying and be alot more braver than that. you are only 12, there are so many things ahead of you you must learn to endure.

and like everyone else said, they have their own reasons for treating you this way, and you are the one who gave them that reason. but i know you are upset because they are going overboard.
theres nothing you can do but apologize and wait it out. you've brought this on yourself, and now you have to deal with it. stay neutral dont dont be a b*tch.
im glad you are changing into a more mature person. you have apologized already. so if you stay at this state they shouldnt hv a reason to bug you anymore. toughen up and look for support among other friends.
best wishes. =)