disappointments Options

[xj_liana_tx]

my life is just full of disappointments, it's like some people (like god) is playing a joke on me. i try to be content and think positive, but it's just so hard to do, especially right now. two of the most important events of the year were yesterday and today. yesterday was our NFL(national forensics league) districts, and i've been looking forward to it ever since i found out about it. i've been practicing ever since and i started to pray for myself to go to nationals and to prove myself to others (especially my parents). I was at my rounds and i did my best, i thought that i would AT LEAST get into semi-finals. But when they posted the results for yesterday, i got eliminated right after the preliminary rounds... i just stood there in disbelief.. i mean.. i've made it to FINALS in EVERY SINGLE TOURNAMENT! And the people who usually didn't make the prelim made it to the next round while i was one of the few who got ELIMINATED. I mean.. i just stood there.. i was sweating and i felt like crying really bad, but i had to hold it. I just don't get it... the people in my rounds.. BROKE THE RULES of the event big time, and they were still in. it's just... so not fair (yes.. life is not fair blah blah blah)! So i went home, and i called my best friend, and i cried for a full hour till my phone was all wet and she was being supportive. I had to sleep in the dark by myself because my parents weren't back. The next morning, i got up and felt a little bit better, until... that is, my parents asked me about how it went. i told them and i started to cry again, and my parents were just being really unsympathetic. my dad was just going "Well you can't blame anyone except for yourself because i never saw you practice... see that's why i tell you to memorize the sat vocabs so you don't cry when you take the sats... you have really low emotional IQ, how can you cry at something like this? You can't take on anything.. how do you expect to be a leader if you cry over something so little?" and just things along these lines.. i mean, i started to cry more after it, because these are the LAST thing i need at the moment. and... little?? how can you call something little when i spent so much time working on and stressing about for the past 2 months? Something that i really want, i really want it that i am willing to sacrifice things for? So i also had my solo/ensemble festival (music competition) today, and i thought if i make it to state in that, i might feel better. I got there, and we played, i did my best, but my partners got some notes wrong, so i was praying for the judge to have mercy on us. then i got the result.. we got a 2 (the best score was 1, you need a 1 to go to state), and... suddenly, i just felt like crying again because .... the two things i really cared about just... they were gone... just like that... and now all i have is my homework and some tests coming up. i can't even concentrate.
i don't think that i've ever been so disappointed in my life.

well, that's my biggest disappointments..
what are yours?

[EmmalieV]

wow but all the guys ive been with are dissapointments and im sure that counts.

[*tweeak*]

right now, not being able to do ib

not my biggest dissappointment ever, but it certainly pisses me off

[*Kathleen*]

Aww. NFL quals are around this time, too. Are you a senior? If not, there's always next year. What do you do? Speech? I'm sorry about that. As for me...disappointments...actually, it does go back to forensics. A couple tournaments ago, I felt confident in myself (I do LD debate) for once - which is rare - and I honestly thought I went 4-1, but I actually only went 1-4. It made me so upset. I've tried and tried again, but it never seems like I ever improve no matter what. And...I didn't get in Governor's School for creative writing, which is better for my future. I got into theatre, though. Still...I felt that I'm stronger in writing than I am in acting. Bleh.

[*salcha*]

wow, i hope you feel better :/
i know, my biggest disappointment right now is probably my social life. im always so locked up, all my best friends turned away from me. Since I'm at a new high school with nobody I know, I still don't have any friends there. (and it's March, sad..). So I turned to church where my friends cared a lot about me. But now, it's all a disaster now. A girl who I used to be best friends with now hates me for who knows what. I guess she found better people to hang out with other than me...she doesn't even talk to me now, ignores me on purpose, and she even kicked me, she makes it look accidental, but I know it was on purpose.

So yeha, life is unfair. Today when I was washing my mom's car, I climed onto the roof and just soaked up the sun. It made me feel so much better, the sun..flowers...yeah, life.

[sheddingtears]

i'm disappointed in myself for being lazy & having the crappiest grades this year making other people who i love like my parents disappointed in me too.

[dancingkait]

my disappointment for the moment is not making first honours. i still got a good 3.4ish gpa but i've always gotten first honours. i cried my eyes out when i got my report card. i've since moved on and decided i'll just kick it up a notch or two

[njgurl412]

my biggest disappointment was not getting accepted to a violin school, its like one of the best in the state and only like around 20 students are accepted each year.. since i didn'y get accepted i quit playing the violin.

[Just_Dream]

Life's not perfect. There will always be disappointments and things that don't go your way.. But that's just life. I always feel like someone's out to get me or something, that all these bad things happen because I have bad luck, etc. god hates me becuase I'm athiest, etc... But I realized that there are still a great number of good things that happened in my life.

Just realize that you can't always expect something great each time. This will teach you to try harder next time, to improve. Although it may be your partners' faults about messing up during the competition thing with the music notes and stuff, remember that winning isn't everything.

There are times where I want to kill myself and crawl in a hole and never get out because my life is so terrible. But I realized that there are a lot of people a lot worse off than me...

[xj_liana_tx]

Aww. NFL quals are around this time, too. Are you a senior? If not, there's always next year. What do you do? Speech? I'm sorry about that. As for me...disappointments...actually, it does go back to forensics. A couple tournaments ago, I felt confident in myself (I do LD debate) for once - which is rare - and I honestly thought I went 4-1, but I actually only went 1-4. It made me so upset. I've tried and tried again, but it never seems like I ever improve no matter what. And...I didn't get in Governor's School for creative writing, which is better for my future. I got into theatre, though. Still...I felt that I'm stronger in writing than I am in acting. Bleh.

i used to do LD but then i quit because i don't think i have the talent in that. I mean, LD is probably the hardest event in tournaments. I started to do DI (which is what i did at the tournament). No, i am a freshman, people tell me that there is always next year, but i really wanted to be an exception, you know what i mean?? i mean, i really don't want to sound conceited, but, i really thought that i had a chance at going national this year just because i got into finals in VARSITY/NOVICE combined tournament the second time i've done DI, and that would really mean something to me, just to prove others wrong (no one really thought i could do it), and now... well, all is done. (p.s. kathleen you are really nice, i thought you were really apathic, i wish you the best for your future.)

wow, i hope you feel better :/
i know, my biggest disappointment right now is probably my social life. im always so locked up, all my best friends turned away from me. Since I'm at a new high school with nobody I know, I still don't have any friends there. (and it's March, sad..). So I turned to church where my friends cared a lot about me. But now, it's all a disaster now. A girl who I used to be best friends with now hates me for who knows what. I guess she found better people to hang out with other than me...she doesn't even talk to me now, ignores me on purpose, and she even kicked me, she makes it look accidental, but I know it was on purpose.

So yeha, life is unfair. Today when I was washing my mom's car, I climed onto the roof and just soaked up the sun. It made me feel so much better, the sun..flowers...yeah, life.

talk about social life, my situation is really close to you. i've moved to 3 different schools, and my best friends in everyone one of them always turn against me after a period of time. one backstabbed me and threatened me, another ditched me and just left me there hanging. and i really just... don't have any real close friends who i can talk to except my best friend (i just started to open up to her), and i really need people to talk to especially my parents really don't understand most of the things i talk to them about (trust me, i tried). i guess friends are just temporary, i mean, when i moved, a lot of my old friends probably forgot about me, which is normal, since i don't interfere with their lives anymore.

[*Kathleen*]

i used to do LD but then i quit because i don't think i have the talent in that. I mean, LD is probably the hardest event in tournaments. I started to do DI (which is what i did at the tournament). No, i am a freshman, people tell me that there is always next year, but i really wanted to be an exception, you know what i mean?? i mean, i really don't want to sound conceited, but, i really thought that i had a chance at going national this year just because i got into finals in VARSITY/NOVICE combined tournament the second time i've done DI, and that would really mean something to me, just to prove others wrong (no one really thought i could do it), and now... well, all is done. (p.s. kathleen you are really nice, i thought you were really apathic, i wish you the best for your future.)

Aww...I know exactly what you mean with the whole trying-to-prove-others-wrong. When I did LD last year, I felt like I'd get ahead and that I'd be good enough to at least get into States, you know? But yeah...that didn't happen. Wow. That's awesome on your part, though. Seriously, I wish you the best of luck next year, too.

[Nicolatofu]

Sorry to hear about you not winning in what you tried so hard for. I hate when all people can do when you are really disappointed is lecture you and point out your mistakes. Luckily, my mom is realls upportive and comforting. My biggest disappointment is myself. I always have this feeling that everything I mess up on is because I didn't try hard enough, or that I just don't care. So I get really frustrated a lot because I feel like I'll never be good at anything. I can do something that turns out great, but inside I don't believe I did my best. So when I think about disappoint, I think about how it's not other people's fault that I didn't do well, it's mine.

[*jooleeah*]

I get really disappointed when I can't achieve my goals. I get really down and I don't think straight. I'm actually quite disappointed in the guy at norcross that does the schedule changing, cause he hasn't emailed me in a couple days about my schedule.....which I am going crazy over. But I can't expect to much....so I shall be patient.
Hm. Oh. I'm disappointed in myself right now because of dance class. I can't seem to get the steps right and that's something I'm not used to. It pisses me off that I cant get the steps no matter how much I practice.

Er, i'll think of more later. They're not really major disappointments.....but yeah.

[whomps]

I'm waiting for Anna to say something like.. "They didn't choose you because you're Asian."

But anyways.. my biggest disappointment was.. getting a C on my progress report? There's another thing but I can't remember.

[demolished]

Why does your dad act like an ass ? What kind of father is he when he doesnt support you or make you feel better. Your dad is sooo wrong and he doesnt know anything. the reason why your dad dont see you pratice cuz you are probably busy with other importnat stuff all the time. Hopefully, you'll feel better.

My biggest disappointment is when my family members accused and blame me every little things and big things. They think i'm the only youngest one who causes trouble and they think they are ALWAYS RIGHT ABOUT ME AND THEY ACT LIKE THEY KNOW MY WHOLE LIFE. THAT'S BULLSHIT, I NEVER TELL OR TALK ABOUT ANYTHING TO THEM ABOUT WHO I AM. THEY'RE f**ked UP .. WELL YEA I HAVE A MESS UP FAMILY ..

[*krnxswat*]

And that's why your posts per day is 20.7.

[yukichan]

sorry to hear about that...=(
i cant believe that ur dad isnt supporting u...gosh...i thought parents were suppose to support and criticize...
my biggest disappointment was when i didnt make it past the semi-finals for the geography bee..i felt so sad...i like said up late just to study for that...

[*krnxswat*]

[avalon*]

well my biggest disappointment this school year was i got my first c. but i had many more times of happiness so it's all good

[demolished]

And that's why your posts per day is 20.7. 

haha, your very comical.

nekochan1018 Posted Mar 5 2005, 7:55 PM
sorry to hear about that...=(
i cant believe that ur dad isnt supporting u...gosh...i thought parents were suppose to support and criticize...

yep, her dad is so harsh, cold-hearted, brutal, and pain in the ..

njgurl412 Posted Mar 5 2005, 3:10 PM
my biggest disappointment was not getting accepted to a violin school, its like one of the best in the state and only like around 20 students are accepted each year.. since i didn'y get accepted i quit playing the violin.

that's sucks, i have a friend who quit violin because he got an " c" and he was afraid that he'll fail if he stay in that class any longer.

[xj_liana_tx]

Why does your dad act like an ass ? What kind of father is he when he doesnt support you or make you feel better. Your dad is sooo wrong and he doesnt know anything. the reason why your dad dont see you pratice cuz you are probably busy with other importnat stuff all the time. Hopefully, you'll feel better.

My biggest disappointment is when my family members accused and blame me every little things and big things. They think i'm the only youngest one who causes trouble and they think they are ALWAYS RIGHT ABOUT ME AND THEY ACT LIKE THEY KNOW MY WHOLE LIFE. THAT'S BULLSHIT, I NEVER TELL OR TALK ABOUT ANYTHING TO THEM ABOUT WHO I AM. THEY'RE f**ked UP  .. WELL YEA I HAVE A MESS UP FAMILY ..

i am only child and my parents basically put everything on stake for me... and that's a lot of pressure, so naturally, they are really afraid that i am going to mess up and disappoint them. my dad... well, he is just really anxious to see my accomplishments so he'll know that i have a bigger chance at going to a better college and these things. he didn't see my practice because mostly i practice in my room, and whenever i am practicing in the living room, he was either not looking or he is just too mad at me to care... well... yeah
my family don't accuse me all the time anymore.. not really anyways.. we had a lot of trust issues going on.. because when i was younger, i disappointed them big time.

[*stephinika*]

yeah i've had my fair share of disappointments...i can't think of really specific instances at the moment...but some of my disappointments in life can be found to be rather silly, but some things somehow end up meaning more to me than they should so sometimes, i get disappointed easily...which is kinda bad.

[demolished]

i am only child and my parents basically put everything on stake for me... and that's a lot of pressure, so naturally, they are really afraid that i am going to mess up and disappoint them.  my dad... well, he is just really anxious to see my accomplishments so he'll know that i have a bigger chance at going to a better college and these things.  he didn't see my practice because mostly i practice in my room, and whenever i am practicing in the living room, he was either not looking or he is just too mad at me to care... well... yeah
my family don't accuse me all the time anymore.. not really anyways.. we had a lot of trust issues going on.. because when i was younger, i disappointed them big time.

Are you telling me, even though your " only a child " .. does that mean your dad has the right to abuse for who you are, and mentally abuse. that's outrageous !

[waccoon]

God. This was a long thread D:.

+pretends to have read everything+

I feel your pain.

[*xcaitlinx*]

lately--ive been crushing HARD on this kid. and i thought that he liked me back, so i told him how i felt, and i was wrong. he doesnt. =\

[rOckThISshYt]

Wow.. I'm really sorry to hear that. Your dad really needs to go f*ck himself. He should learn to sympathize for his own daughter. I mean.. COME ON!

Also, there are some things you just can't control. No matter how hard you work for them, it doesn't turn out the way you hoped or expected. But I'm really sorry. Try feeling better. =/

And, I duno.... Like... I duno. lol.

[pbear]

oh man.

so there was this guy and i THOUGHT we had become really good friends because everything was going fine and then we haven't talked for over a month and i thought it was going to last forever too.

[xj_liana_tx]

Are you telling me, even though your " only a child "  .. does that mean your dad has the right to abuse for who you are, and mentally abuse. that's outrageous !

i know that sometimes he just... doesn't choose the right words, and a lot of time i feel really hurt because of the things he say, but i can't blame him. no matter what he is still my dad, and he does want what's the best for me. last year, my dad was rushed to EMS because a virus was found in his heart, and he also has diabetes, so it really makes me appreciate him more, and i just really don't want to let him down and the last thing he needs is me blaming him and make him angry. when he is really angry at me, he tells me that if he dies because i've been making him so angry, and he tells me that because of his age and everything... he says that he won't... i mean, i'd rather he just keep taking it out on me instead of talking about his death, it just.. well i am off topic.
so, the reason why they are often angry at me is because they invested so much in me, and they really wouldn't like it if i give their hopes up and become the biggest disappointment in their lives.

lately--ive been crushing HARD on this kid. and i thought that he liked me back, so i told him how i felt, and i was wrong. he doesnt. =\

same here, last week my friend told my crush about me liking him and she kept on asking him how he feels about me, i just ran off because i don't want to hear what else he has to say after he said "No." that was a disappointment because he's actually given me a lot of hope, well, now i know.

[Brneydgrl]

it does sound like your parents are being harsh on you. i think that it's just them, not you. don't liek them put all these expectations on you. it's too much, it sounds like.


i'm sorry you didn't make it as far as you wanted in your competitions, that really sux. i wish there was something i could say to make you feel better about that, because i've certainly been there before.

as for your comments on friends and you moving a lot. i didn't have what i would call a best friend until college. i don't know what it is, but people are catty in college, very clique-y. when you go away to college, suddenly you're on your own again, and i think that wakes some ppl up with how they treat other people. when you lose your friends, and have to go back to making new ones all of a sudden, you appreciate them more. you'll find your best friends in college, trust me :)
i hope that helps :)

[starlette]

I'm sorry about ur comp. I know that sucks. My biggest dissapointments have been happening the most in the last few years. I'm trying to become a singer, but everytime an opportunity opens up that I think can help me get somewhere, something always goes wrong. Like I was supposed to move to california with a producer who works for sony pictures, and then three days went by and he didnt work with me at all and ended up leaving me stranded at LAX for 7 hours before my flight arrived. Now, I've been trying to go to Florida to work the club scene out there ( live in texas btw) and everything seemed to be going okay cuz my mom and her fiancee had a job set up out there to help with the hurricane relief, then the guys they were supposed to be working with never got in touch with them, so now I cant get to florida. Everytime something good seems to come my way regarding opporunities in my carreer, something always over shadows it. But in light of the bad stuff, there are a lot fo things that have happened, like my mom halped my deaf uncle from going to jail for 6 years for a crime he didnt do, soething she couldnt have done if we had gone to florida. He would have been defenseless and alone, but she was here to help him. So I guess everything happens for a reason. But I'm sorry stuff didnt work out for you. Sounds like ur dad isnt any help either. but I'm sure everything will turn up. just be positive. :D

[xj_liana_tx]

as for your comments on friends and you moving a lot. i didn't have what i would call a best friend until college. i don't know what it is, but people are catty in college, very clique-y. when you go away to college, suddenly you're on your own again, and i think that wakes some ppl up with how they treat other people. when you lose your friends, and have to go back to making new ones all of a sudden, you appreciate them more. you'll find your best friends in college, trust me :)
i hope that helps :)

wow, i thought that i can relax after i get into college, and that's why i did everything i could while i am still in high school. I thought that when you get into college, there are no more cliques, and that everyone hangs out with everyone and that no ones minds anyone elses' business. wow...

[*Azarel*]

Ew. Self-pitious prick.
Disappointments? Him.

[angel-roh]

Wow Jay that's so much pain and anger! Hm... your parents should've at least be so supportive on you, I mean you just lost your favorite sport. Not to be rude or anything, but that was very rude for your parents to say that. I mean you're trying your best, right? And heck ya you wanna do something other than studying all day! but don't worry, maybe next time, you'll do much better! Don't let the negatives let you down. Ignore your dad's words. Also going state is pretty hard. If your partner messed it up, that's the end. No more mercy of course. But hey, at least you're alive haha. I'm not saying going state is no biggie. Just saying that you still have more chances later in the future. I don't know if you believe in God. But God has plans for you.... so I think what you should do is wait and not blame it to God. Don't know if you are blaming to God. but if you are, just stop and wait.

Anyways... I did had one disappointment today. I was supposed to meet with my tutor and discuss about my homeworks and my schoolworks. But I told her that my dad will come and visit us until 2 nights. I should've just let her stay until my dad comes. I'm just so mad. So much anger is in my right. Regretful too... I just missed my 2 days of tutoring from my tutor, Mrs. Blair. I feel bad because she came all the way from her far house from me. Every time I think about it... it just gives me stress and stress... and makes me wana cry, thinking that I'll never get my school credits at all.

[nightsong]

Ew. Self-pitious prick.
Disappointments? Him.

Ditto. Except not with the 'him' you are referring to.

xo, Pauline

[perfectxflaw23]

-Dropping out of ballet, gymnastics, field hockey, and most importantly.. swimming.
-Myself.
-My Family.
-Jon (exboyfriend, he killed himself..)

I don't much feel like talking about them right now.

[DavidJ2318]

-Dropping out of ballet, gymnastics, field hockey, and most importantly.. swimming.
-Myself.
-My Family.
-Jon (exboyfriend, he killed himself..)

I don't much feel like talking about them right now.

you must be pretty strong to put up with all that.

i admire your courage

[krispy_kreme333]

i know how it feels to have all the pressure, im an only child too.

wow, dissapointments, i have alot of them. ive screwed up everything and lied to all my friends and my family and made fake promises. ive done a lot of stupid things that i regret. i barely talk to my friends or anyone anymore. and at school and work i have to be someone that im not and act like everything in my life is just peachy. and my mom is completly(sp?) oblivious to everything. she thinks that my life is okay now when its really not, and she acts like she knows everything about my life when she doesnt even though i tell her pretty much everything she doesnt know it all. i have quit almost everything i have tried. (ice skating, gymnastics, singing, guitar, drums, dancing, modeling, etc.) ill try stuff and then wont finish. thats how ive been my whole life. wow im rambling and getting off topic. sry if its too long or winey(sp?)
i know how you feel somewhat on being a dissapointment.


(that felt really good to vent)

[xj_liana_tx]

Wow Jay that's so much pain and anger! Hm... your parents should've at least be so supportive on you, I mean you just lost your favorite sport. Not to be rude or anything, but that was very rude for your parents to say that. I mean you're trying your best, right? And heck ya you wanna do something other than studying all day! but don't worry, maybe next time, you'll do much better! Don't let the negatives let you down. Ignore your dad's words. Also going state is pretty hard. If your partner messed it up, that's the end. No more mercy of course. But hey, at least you're alive haha. I'm not saying going state is no biggie. Just saying that you still have more chances later in the future. I don't know if you believe in God. But God has plans for you.... so I think what you should do is wait and not blame it to God. Don't know if you are blaming to God. but if you are, just stop and wait.

that's what i tell myself, i am lucky to be alive. when i compare myself to the kids picking corn in africa, i get a little bit settled down, but still. and no, i don't believe in god, i don't know, i might... there aren't going to be many chances in the future, i've only got 3 more years, and i really wanted to make these two events as a freshman, and that would mean so much to me. well, i don't blame anything on god, i mean, i am not even sure if i believe in him, whatever i do, it's my fault or the judges' fault. well, everything's done, so i need to heal from it.

people say that disappointments/obstacles make you strong, but i don't think it's true, i think a lot of times, it goes the other way, because when you get really hurt by something, you will always remember it and always be hurt, in my case, it was just a huge confidence attack.

[*instantmusic*]

im disapointed because i still dont have the 2 things that will propel me to excel in life. i wont say what it is cuz im too emberrased.

but when i get these 2 things. its all over. the world will bow down to me, for i will be unstoppable.