tears on my pillow, ...pain in my heart caused by you. Options

[x3chrissyx3]

I’m having huge inner turmoil with the fact that I think in 2 or so years I will probably break up with my boyfriend. Don’t get me wrong, I love him with every piece of my soul…and I’m not sure why I feel this way…I just don’t want to do him any wrong. I would LOVE to marry him, and have a family, and have the life we always talk about, and now for a week I’ve been sitting in tears because I’ve been thinking about 2 years from now. With every part of me, I believe he is my soul mate, and regardless if we’re together or not, he just…is. There will NEVER be anyone who can replace him and what he means to me, at all…but, I just feel like it’s something I have to do. Some day, someone in his life will thank me for letting him go. He deserves nothing less than the best…and I’m just…not the best…and I wish I was. We are perfect together, perfect for each other…just…perfect, and I don’t want to even think about doing this…but I am, and I feel horrible inside, and when I talk to him it tears me apart…but everything is changing so quickly…and I feel like I need to have everything change. Then again, I’m speaking 2 years in advance. I pray to god he breaks up with me beforehand, even though it’ll hurt, it’ll hurt a little less than knowing I’m hopelessly in love with someone, in tears and I’m ending everything. I’m miserable about it, I just love him so much…and I think by giving myself 2 years, I’m in a sense absorbing all of our relationship, and understanding how much we mean to each other, while preparing myself for the most heartbreaking and heartfelt “good night’s” I will ever make in my life. I wish it could stay this year forever, and I could always have it this way, but sometimes life just isn’t fair like that. It’s times like this you know you have a heart because you feel it breaking…and…yeah, I’m crying…so I’ll stop.

I don’t know what kinda feedback I want…I just wanted to vent a little.

Thanks for…reading.

[conster]

if u love him so much why do u wanna end it??? he probably doesnt feel that wya.. u say that he deserves the best and u said that its not u, but u never knoe... u may not think ur the best but in his eyes u probably are his one and only..

all i can say is that 2years is a long time and u never knoe wut will happen in 2years.. maybe u guys will still be together and ur relationship will be stronger.. its not definite.. but u shouldnt worry about it now until it comes... maybe u'll break up next year next month next day who knows?? as long as ur happy now in the present, thats all it matters i dont think u should be worrying about something so far away

[mouse_3k]

enjoy ur time now then. dont think about the end. I think about my end with my bf at times and it gets me really depressed. dont think about it and just try to enjoy ur time with him.

[sunissed14127]

if u love him so much why do u wanna end it??? he probably doesnt feel that wya.. u say that he deserves the best and u said that its not u, but u never knoe... u may not think ur the best but in his eyes u probably are his one and only..

all i can say is that 2years is a long time and u never knoe wut will happen in 2years.. maybe u guys will still be together and ur relationship will be stronger.. its not definite.. but u shouldnt worry about it now until it comes... maybe u'll break up next year next month next day who knows?? as long as ur happy now in the present, thats all it matters i dont think u should be worrying about something so far away

i toatally agree w/ u

[*CEP*]

Whoa. Did you cheat on him or something?
Never seen someone be that emotional about breaking it ooff with someone without doing something horrible.

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[dragyn]

if you truly love him, and you think he deserves the best, and that you're not the best, then chances are that he thinks he's not the best for you either and that you deserve the best.

he's just hoping you wont see that "he doesn't deserve you"