my letter Options

[alphanumeric]

March 23, 2006

Babyboy,

Does it feel good to finally be called that? Yes, my babyboy. We finally have each other. I'm yours, honey, I'm yours. You know, I almost didn't want this all. I waited so long, I cried so hard, I yearned so bad. Why should second chances be available after all that? I didn't like what I saw coming. But I looked at you one last time, I started remembering the way I felt for you. Do remember July? The first time we met, I fell hard, like a fallen angel. I was lost in you, I knew you came into my life with a purpose. And August? And September? Babyboy, those were the times. I loved you like no other and I said I'd carry you in my soul, my heart, forever. I hate how I'm always right, but I'm grateful that it was a good thing, those words I said this time. Because I realize now how true they were and how I said it was so pure. Every word of passion that comes from your mouth is everything I breathe to keep me alive. Does it sound crazy? Babyboy, only because you're what I'm crazy about. I love you. I do. I love you. And what about October? Oh, I almost lost myself, you did, too. Another lover, it seemed, had me for a while. But I ran away from him, I gave up my joy with him, and I could never forgive myself for being with him, because I knew I still had you. So, November passed by and came December, it was my turn then to lose you. The emptiness lasted so long! How I missed you and dreaded each new day I'd hear about her. There she was, and I saw such a difference. What you see in her, I never thought you'd see in me. She is a blessing, though. For you, and me. While she wasn't around, there was you and I, babyboy, and we were so close, closer, and we've never been more solid. She's helped us more than ever, to keep what we had going, what we had paused, staying strong. January, Febuary, babyboy, there was another boy again. And this time, you knew him. But I thought you were still happy with her, I never thought you'd care. But you did! My love, you gave her up for me, as I gave everything else up for you. And there was the wall that kept us apart. She was, too, a curse. How could I possibly betray her? Let her feel decieved by me when she finds you and I were in love? I couldn't. I can't. The bond me and her had, babyboy! It was undeniable. But I'm willing to deny. I gave up all as you did. Here we are, March, and spring. A new beginning, a new romance, and a new chemistry. I believe in what we have, I believe in what we will establish. Babyboy, I'm truly yours. My whole life is yours. Because I'm your babygirl.

Love,
Me.

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Don't say anything at all =) It's love, this is a letter, I didn't wanna make it too over the top and whatnot. But this is for him, inspired by him, alive for him<3