Ugh, I have to talk to someone about this, just give me your advice Options

[OverratedStupidi...]

Alright, so last year I liked this guy (Kevin). We started going out mid-December and broke up on February 7th. He broke up with me. It was kind of a bad break up, out of no where sort of and he told me a bunch of reasons, but none of them really made sense. Some of them were like.. he would be graduating in a year, and it would be easier to break it off then (he was a junior, I was a freshman.) He also said stuff like, track was starting for me, so we wouldn't get to see each other anymore. I mean, the reasons sounded more like he was trying to convince himself. Nonetheless, he stated that he didn't even think we could be friends.

Anyway, I never *truly* got over him. I went out with another guy, whom I liked a lot, but I never was really as interested in as I was in Kevin. During this second relationship, I had pretty much no contact with Kevin. Well I broke up with this guy over the summer and we remained friends. (that really has nothing to do with anything I guess )

Um, well then band camp started (he is now a senior, I am a sophomore). This was not a very good thing because, although it is not completely necessary for me to see him, I was friends with everyone in his section. (he plays in the pit a.k.a xylophones) All of these friends are also not in any of my other classes this year, so bad is the only time I get to see them. Well at the beginning, Kevin and I just ignored each other. Then I tried to start talking to him again.

That didn't go too well. He told everyone I was annoying and a slut.. which I have no idea where he got that from. Well anyway, he really was hurting my feelings so I stopped trying to talk to him. It's not like I was even talking to him about anything like.. annoying, just about whatever was going on, and we were usually talking in a group.

Well, I still really really liked him, but I tried to pretend I didn't. Then something really bad happened. I broke my leg. Now see, normally it wouldn't involve him, but one of my friends in his section also broke her leg on the same day, so we pretty much stayed together. Also since his section doesn't march... I was made by the directors to stay with him, considering he was the section leader.

Well, that was about 3 weeks ago. So, at the football games I've been talking to him, and it's been going pretty well, he's actually listening now. Well he told one of his freshmen that I'm really not too bad, but I shouldn't just keep trying to be his friend. Well I wasn't really trying all that hard, its just I talk to people when they are around, I'm a pretty friendly person.

Well I tried to just forget about it, and not really talk to him all that much. You have to remember that I really really like him still. Well then I was in the room with all the tubas and pit members. Well one of the tuba kids likes me and he was trying to get me to like him (hes one of those guys who always gets the girl he likes, I hate those guys) Well he started tickling me, and well, I'm pretty ticklish, so I laughed but I'm like.. dude get off of me, (remember, I can't move, my leg is broken) but he wouldn't. Well I look over to my side for some help, and all I see is Kevin, and hes giving the kid (or maybe me) a very evil/jealous look. Finally, this other tuba kid tells him to stop being a slut.

Well anyway, while my leg was broken, I learned how to play the xylophone. Well I'm pretty decent considering I've never played before. My friends in pit are telling me to try out for our drumline, but I know that Kevin will be the section leader for that. So here is my first question. I really want to do drumline, but should I try out or not?

Also, he's a senior, meaning he will graduate (I hope). So I want to tell him how I feel, but I don't want to be embarrassed. I mean, it would be better if he knew, but it would also be better if he didn't have something over me. So second question.. should I tell him? and how?


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Well, I forgot to add in what happened last night. I was giving "his freshman" a hug. (He calls him his freshman because he thinks the kid is his mini me or something) Someone said that it looked like I could be his mom, so I'm like, yeah, this is my child. Well Kevin turns around and he goes, dude, thats my freshman and tries to get my hands off of him. Well he like intentionally just grabs my hand and holds it for about 5 seconds. I look up at him and he just kind of lets go and acts embarrassed.

Then, we are going to put our stuff back in the band room and I'm again in the tuba/pit room. My sister is calling me from outside the window and I'm standing there on crutches holding my stuff. Shes like... get your ass out here, and I'm like.. I can't carry this stuff, you need to help me. She just walks away and I'm like.. ugh I hate you. I didn't realize that kevin was right in front of me. He goes, what? and kind of has a sad/evil look on his face. I say, I wasn't talking to you, I don't hate you. He's like, you're just saying that, you know you hate me. I'm like.. no I really don't, and he just walks out.

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

GO for drumline. If its something you really want, no one should get in your way.

Anf as for the dude. he sounds like an assholio, but if yo ucant help your feelings for him i say tell him. Just maybe it will help you get over him. I dont see how hed have something over you, [ i dont quite get what you mean by that ] but if you mean he has something to like .. put over your head and tell peopel then you shouldnt be worried about that. If you like him, you like him. If people find out, then they find out. They cant talk shit because you already went out with him, the least they can say is your stuck. I think you should just tell him and see the outcome. If its bad, try your hardest not to think about him and try your hardest to move on.

[OverratedStupidi...]

Yeah, I mean, like something to use against me kind of. I really do love playing the xylophone, it is so much fun and I'm good at it!

[runforfun529]

Sounds like a problem... I would tell him, but try to get over him anyway. I mean.. he probably doesn't like you...

But do drumline if you really like it.

[sweetest-emotion]

umm, sorry i don't understand. why the HELL would you still like a guy when he calls you a slut??!!! if any guy, ANY GUY said that about me....sorry butt-head, but your ass is gone. and i dunno, i'm still trying to get completely over my ex...but i just gotta get over it. so i'm tellin ya this: GET OVER IT! teh reasons this guy gave you with your break up are lame lame LAME. they make no sense. like the graduation thing, wtf?! you guys can still be going out and cross that bridge when you get to it later this year. and with u starting track?? umm he could go to your meets, duh. lol. i dunno. i just think you should get over him cuz he's not worth your effort right now. i'd say that you should instead find a different guy to get involved with, and NOT compare him to kevin. the way i see it, kevin is done with. just stick to what you're good at, and if u wanna try out for the pit, then go for it. but...i can see that the only reason you wanna tryout for it is to get closer to kevin. wrong choice! if you still think kevin's worth going for, then do wat ya wanna do, but i just think he's not the right decision.

[HelplessCry]

yeah i agree if any guy called me a slut i would be like...ass eff off. but wow...im sure we all understand what your going through. Its hard getting over that ex...It might take forever to get over him. But I think maybe you should tell him. So that everything will just get off your chest and you'll be free... you know what i mean? like it wwont be all bottled up inside you to keep hurting you the rest of the years. and then maybe you can finnaly move on. and he kinda showed some signs that he still did like you...you should say how you really don't hate him...well maybe hate him fr breaking up with you. but yeah iunno...follow your feelings i hope i did my best to help :) goodluck with the situation

[aera]

go for drumline.

you probably should tell him your feelings. but here's a problem: if he likes you back, he's going to go to college so theres not a lot of time for the two of you to see each other and just get back on track. and if you never tell him, then you two may never be together again.

but really, i think you shouldnt. after all, even if he says yes, it wont amount to much.

[topsyturvy]

If he called you a slut and ignored all your attempts to be friends.. i don't think he's worthy of your time and affection

[carah0xx]

If you really want to do drumline, I say GO FOR IT.

About Mr.Kevin...I definatly think you should tell him. He seems to be hinting at wanting you back. But I'd be careful about going back out with him if he called you a slut. You never know if he's saying stuff about you.