message to anyone, v13 Options

[*mzkandi*]

Ok, new version up. You all know what to do......


_________ I'm glad you're my best friend =)

_________ Seeing you cry made me cry. I'm sorry you had to lose your mother. I cant even imagine what life would be like without mine. I love you and will always be here for you.

[misoshiru]

_______:
what's to come next? personally, i think that we walk on the fine line of "friendship" and "more than friendship." that we don't know on which side we'll land in. i know you're scared. do you think that i'm not? the thing is, if you're not willing to risk it...neither am i. i'd be able to accept the fact that we're going to be friends, never anything more. it'd be easier in a way i think. none of that tension, no more having other people asking us if we're going out or not, or people wondering why we're not going out. too bad there's just not an easier answer to life.

______:
you funny kid. it's kind of strange though. i feel that in a way, we're alike in the fact that we flirt without knowing it...which is rather attractive. but i hope you stay like this forever. you're wonderful.

tok hwk:
i swear...if i don't do well on this, i am going to kill someone.

[redpeony]

you're really lovely underneath it all
you want to love me underneath it all
i'm really lucky underneath it all
you're really lovely...

hahaha... i am weak :(

[*stephinika*]

ilu. friday is taking way too long to get here i've decided.

you're annoying.

i hate you people.

[Rachel]

COME OVVVVVER, WE NEED TO WIN THE BET!

[to-devastate]

__________,
what the fcuk. i hate you now. why do you ignore me? you can't face me anymore? huh? what? you're such a fake. i use to look up to you but haha now i see what a fcking liar you were all along. you don't want to make me feel like that?! WELL LOOK AROUND. What "message" do you think you're sending to me that you're not talking to me but to everyone else. Yes, I do notice things. No, I'm not retarded as you. But you know what? Who cares. I'm so done with you because you aren't even a friend anymore. You're just trash I use to treasure. Thanks for the 3 years, biatch. I've really had enough of you.

[*tweeak*]

Humdedum. I can't decide what I'm going to do about this. I need to talk to you. Also, don't call me that. I get confused. No one calls me that but Gilbert. Ever. And it bothers me when he does too, so I'd prefer you not. The odder thing is, you're not really around when he does this. So did you call me this on your own? Because again, I'd prefer you not.

[KissMe2408]

_______: see..things are better now right? I'm glad you are doing okay, and glad you got a second chance, because that was something that never happened to me.
______: I always think about you around homecoming. I don't know why, it just happens. It kills me actually. It's been how many years now? I miss you. Sometimes out of nowhere i remember the little things. Sometimes i wonder if the same thing happens to you around homecoming.

[xmkaex]

to_m:
i saw you again... i miss you

[Looow]

You,
Ahh.. BUT my friend LIKES you ..

You,
Ahaha it was way fun being on the bus with you today. Gosh freaking trains. " Nothing but trouble. Watch the car accident! THEY SHOULD BE BANNED! Oh no, the grudge picture." rofl.

You,
I'm having lunch with you tomorrow, huh? Wheee.

You,
Ugh don't be mad.

You,
Uh you piss me off .. a lot.

[5ayuri]

Dear you:
Sunday was fun. =)

Dear you:
But I don't.

Dear you:
It's hard NOT talking to you.

Dear you:
It was cute when your eyes were watery.

[xTINAA]

Dear You,
I miss you. I love you. I want to see you, talk to you. I want to apologize. I want to make it right again. I want you back. I want to stop crying. I want to stop doing stupid things that not only hurt me but other people. I want to do well in school. I want to finally succeed. I want to stop pushing people away. I JUST WANT YOU. PLEASE. THIS IS KILLING ME. OTHER PEOPLE SEE IT, WHY DON'T YOU?! THIS IS BREAKING ME. I CAN'T DO THIS. PLEASE. I'M SORRY. I'M SORRY. I'M ALWAYS SORRY. I'M STILL SORRY. COME BACK. PLEASE. Why did you say those things? Why?! WHYYYYYY?! DON'T EVER TELL SOMEONE YOU LOVE THEM WHEN YOU DON'T MEAN IT. EVER. I BELIEVED YOU. STUPID ME, I BELIEVED YOU. I LOVE YOU. I'm sorry that when I said it, I meant it. I'm sorry that I'm too stupid to have realized that you didn't. I'm sorry that I wasn't good enough for you. I'm sorry for being me. BUT YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME. LIAR. You said it. FIRST. I told you not to, I TOLD YOU. YOU DID ANYWAY. You said so much. That I was the only one who could make you happy, that because of me that was the happiest you've been, that your heart beat only for me, that you could marry me, that nothing else mattered but me, that you would sacrifice your own life for me. HOW COULD YOU SAY THOSE THINGS? I would never say anything like that unless I meant it. EVER. That's so inconsiderate and messed up. WHY? IF YOU LOVED ME WHY AREN'T WE TOGETHER? WHY? Love is supposed to conquer all. WHO MADE UP THAT LIE? It obviously doesn't conquer all. IT DOESN'T. I'm sorry I believed that too. I'm sorry I tried so hard. Again with trying. I am always trying and never succeeding. I at least thought that this time, this time it would work. THIS TIME. That God would be with me. That you and I were both trying. That no matter what LOVE WOULD COME THROUGH. Why? I'm so confused. I want to ask you so many questions. SO MANY that will NEVER get answered. Is it really because you're too immature for a relationship right now? Is it because you know what you should have but want something different? Is it because you straight up lied? Is it because you're going through hard times and need space? WHY? NONE OF THOSE ARE GOOD ENOUGH anyway. Why? Because you said you LOVED ME. When you love someone none of that matters. When you say you love someone that automatically should mean that you are mature enough for a relationship especially when you are the one that approaches someone and specifically asks for a long term serious relationship. When you say you love someone you not only know you should be with them but you WANT to be with them. When you say you love someone YOU DON'T LIE ABOUT IT. When you say you love someone it doesn't matter what hard times get thrown your way, that gives you all the more reason to lean on that person that YOU LOVE because that is one of the reasons why they are there, not to push them away. When you say you love someone YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO MEAN IT. I can't believe you told me you loved me. That you told everyone else that you loved me. That you couldn't be without me. That you needed me, wanted me. That this was going to be different, this was going to last. HOW COULD YOU? When problems came YOU WERE THE ONE TRYING TO RUN AWAY. NOT ME. I stayed by your side the whole time. I was always there. YOU KNEW THAT. Damnit. I still cry. I STILL LOVE YOU. I hope you know that. I hope you know that I was being truthful, that I was forreal. And most of all, I hope that one day, SOON, you realize it. You realize that you really do need me and you'll come back. Just like other guys have come back for other girls, you have to come back to me. You have to. I don't know what I'll do if you don't.
-Me.

Dear You,
I'm sorry. It's my fault. I haven't told you yet but he said we can't be friends anymore. That he's cutting off our friendship. I'm sorry. I do everything wrong.
-Me.

[o0olaalaa]

______, i hate how you get mad at your friends for stupid reasons. like when she didnt open the door for her and you ignored her for the whole day. or wen you needed a pen i and i didnt have one and you were like wtf is rong with you how come u dun have a pen. ugh you make me sick.

[ichiban]

- i like you sososososo much, i know its weird but i think youre almost perfect and i wish we could be friends. and i like how you smile and laugh, it gives me butterflies.. :)

- i want to smack you so hard. UGH.

- ahh, i miss you, i miss everything you told me, we dont even talk anymore..

[5ayuri]

Dear you
Actually, it does bother me.
Just stop.

[*Azarel*]

"Separated lovers cheat absence by a thousand fancies which have their own reality. They are prevented from seeing one another and they cannot write; nevertheless they find countless mysterious ways of corresponding, by sending each other the song of birds, the scent of flowers, the laughter of children, the light of the sun, the sighing of the wind, and the gleam of the stars - all the beauties of creation." - Homer.

I hope you know.

[*Solipsist*]

Dear Person a certain number of posts above me,

Cheer up, man. You seem so sad everytime I see your posts. Remember when you were the opposite? =(

- Solipsist

[*disco infiltrator*]

Old school CB buddies - I miss you guysss.

_____ : I like youuuu. But I don't think you have the slightest bit of interest in me. Boo.

[ANG33ZY]

Wait.. you're leaving? Don't go. :(

[silver-rain]

Haha, I had a lot of fun today, shopping for pajamas. So what if we're losers who buy pjs the day before pj day? Hah. Ahh, too bad I couldn't find anything I liked. I'm going to bring in my camera tomorrow and take many pictures.

Haha, it was odd seeing you in the store, but it was the same purpose we were there. Haha can't wait to see your pajamas tomorrow.

[eunie03]

You make me wish I had a pistol.

[*stephinika*]

chrissy, if you ever need to talk or rant...i'm here. i hope things look up for you...i mean that.

______, friday seems so far away...i can't wait. not just cause of THAT but because it'll be so good to see you...then saturday night too. i hope it all works out.

____, you can be so immature sometimes and it bothers me.

____, thats so sweet. i'm excited.

[Retrogressive]

When I talk to you, I really need alcohol.

[topsyturvy]

_ x2:

Wow. We're going on the same trip.

.. 她到底是誰? What's she doing here? Am i missing something?


___ __:

I'm living without you. Pretty hard to believe, huh? And what a day to post for you. The 20th.

[*Azarel*]

People always ask me how I know that you're real, and I just tell them that I know. They try to convince me that you're not, and it's simple to disregard them - I trust you, more than I've ever trusted anyone. People wonder how I can just let you back into my life after you've been gone, and the truth is that I've never felt the way I have with you. This is what passion feels like. And people tell me that you'll never come here, but you already have - you visit my dreams.

It's incredible how I can have you for the night and then have you slip away in the morning with the opening of my eyes. The joy and dream is enough to last me the day.. I just wish it would last longer.

I miss you.

[redpeony]

MMMM going to the hockey game with you tonight... I am actually kind of nervous... hahahahaha. You're gonna see my crazy screaming side.. and maybe i'll get to see yours. lollllll..... gotta do my homework now =[ better be a good time tonight.

[xTINAA]

Dear Jose,
Was your message to me? If so, yeah I remember being happy and that's what makes me so sad and bitter now because I USED to be happy. I don't know if that makes sense. If it wasn't to me, then disregard this message, haha.
-Me.

Dear Steph,
Thanks for being there. I think that I'll probably take you up on your offer one of these days.
-Me.

Dear You,
I'm sick of writing messages to you but I can't help myself. I miss you. I dreamed about you today. It was really odd. I'm going crazy.
-Me.

[yummy_delight]

Dear Best Friend:
I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings when I told you online relationships are silly. But the truth is, I really think they are. I should never have introduced him to you on AIM. Just because he moved away doesn't mean he's a complete stranger to me. I know him better than you since I practically grew up with him, and I know how he is. He's playing you, babe. I tried to tell you, but you just wouldn't listen. I'm done telling you and now I'm just going to wait till you find out for yourself.

This is why I don't get involved with people I've never met in real life.

Dear Jerk:
You really need to quit it with the 3rd grade mentality. Making fun of me and pointing out everything that's wrong with my face is not the way to let me know that you like me. I was stupid to think you were mature enough to handle me. I'm so done with you.

Dear Me:
Stop being attracted to idiots.

[lilliannnn]

K-
I love you. Yesterday was very enjoyable. I love you.

_______-
I think I have a thing for tall, white, soccer players.

DEEP-
We're you...gasp...FLIRTING with me today? You're pretty cool.

[BrokenDream]

dear me,
you seriously need to stop being attracted to 'players' around my school because they turn from hotties to notties and sometime just plain naughty.

dear love,
heh. i guess we flirted a little bit today.
you know what? it was pretty darn cool too.

dear lover,
so i was nice to you today. umm. you need to stop getting close to me, i don't like it anymore. actually i never did so you might as well stop. okay, thanks.

[*danielle_x3*]

to you.

why?

[silver-rain]

Dude, I thought we were moving forward, and then when I saw you today, it was as if we went back to where we were last year... I can't believe you did that. Really, you can't even stand to see me that you had to turn around and walk away? I'm sure you saw me today, but what are you running away from? Can't we at least talk? At this rate, we're never going to even pass by each other in the halls neutrally again.

Heyy, I'm glad you wrote an email. But it kinda sucks that it was because of our "fight" and that you needed a little prodding to do it. But, I hope to see you tomorrow! I love you.

Heyy, today was so good and fun. Hehe, seeing the seniors all dressed up in PJs, it felt good to be a senior. Ahh. I wish I had taken more pictures.

[Looow]

You,
I hate it how you just stopped trying. It makes me think it might have been all my fault. Last time I talked to you, it was like 1 month ago and I was a bitch. What was I supposed to say? Ugh you just NEVER understood how I felt. You always worried about yourself. You always expected me to treat you like nothing ever happened and like you never treated me like shit by ignoring me for 14 f**king years. Shit, I gave you a little taste of your own medicine but I guess you couldn't handle. How about me? I handled all your f**king lies and bullshit. So far, I'm doing a better job of trying not to think about you. I don't want to hurt myself anymore by thunking about you. You mess up everything thats good. You're a f**king idiot. I realized that I do way better without you and that I don't really need you or anybody to replace you afterall.

You,
Today lunch was weird. I don't know, I didn't feel the connection that we had. We don't really TALK. Hmm, maybe it was just today. For some reason I expected it to be different. Ahh we just kind of fooled around and called each other funny names. Our relationship is definitely one of the weirdest ones I've ever had but I can't get enough of it. It's like whenever I don't talk to you, I feel like something's really missing. I'm glad its not like one way with you though because you told me you feel the same way ah i really hope you transfer into my english and p.e class. that'd be super fun, man. too bad i can't transfer into YOUR classes. oooh & please don't try to to get into that fight. I don't like him too much either butt here's no reason to fight. You're just going to get into deep shit and things are going really well for you.

[*Tainted Euphoria*]

Dear Chrissy,

I want you to feel better sweetie. Remember, I'm always here is you need me. If not, e-mail me, alright? I'll always respond.

[*Azarel*]

You want to fucking start shit for no reason over some lunch tables? Bring it. It's not your property, it's not exclusively yours. First come, first serve bitches. And we were courteous about it on Friday - just two of us. You've crossed the line, though. Don't think you're hot shit; you're not. Don't think that we won't retaliate; you're wrong. Y'all are pussy, even bringing the grudges into class - not straight up showing face who you are but rather cowardly throwing papers; how scary. Not. Just for you, I'll sink down to your levels. I've nothing to lose; you've got plenty - watch all your shit, watch your cars, watch your backs. Shit's going down tonight.

I'm sick of high school drama.

[*Programmer*]

^preach it sister preach it...high school drama=bullshit

TO____: stop calling me a manwhore..i don't appreciate it --. im asking nicely......don't get me mad...

[*jooleeah*]

: I love you, Grandpa. Don't die on me now. Please.

[*Programmer*]

^ i prey for your grandfather

TO:___: i mean it stop...

[*tweeak*]

Oh, don't talk to them!! I did already, and I nearly got detention for it. They're not going to raise my grade just because we want them to. I studied A LOT, I swear. Ugh, awful, awful day. It just isn't fair. I don't think it's my fault...well, maybe history, but none of the physics issues that have occured were, and that's for certain. Precal is just...hell. And I'm not that intimidated by him typically, that was just insane. I could not play like that. He made me nervous, and I couldn't remember a certain note. I'm so annoyed. You were understanding this afternoon. I can't cry for 7 hours. Your attitude towards ths subject doesn't have to change just because my action have.

[me1issaaaa]

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU.


Did you get that? [: CALLLLL MEEEEEEEE NOOOOOOOOWWWWWWW.

[Lightner]

You are the best thing ever that happened to me. If it wasnt for you i dont know what mistakes u could have gotten into. You understand me, you like me as for who i am, not what you want me to be. You know of my kind heart, but a slight temper deep inside... You always forgave me for any of my faults, u never let down to my problems will solved. *I love Kaarin*

i write poem for her all the time.. she always loves them =)

[silver-rain]

I hope tomorrow works out. I hope my little present idea works out. The guy at the newstand ripped me off! Psh. I'm sorry, I just really really don't like those Asian smilies, and I know that I've said it numerous times, but I guess it just isn't really important to you... And, good job at sticking it on me again. Sure, just ignore the fact that I had told you that I was tired, frustrated, and had a sh*t load of work, but yeah, go ahead and dump another assignment on me. It's not as if I have been staying up till 3:30 AM every night working on your stupid present. You take me for granted way too many times...

[ANG33ZY]

wtf man.

Tomorrow i'm leaving and hella stuff is going on.
The damn clubs carnival.
The damn rally which i would ditch if i weren't leaving.
Geometry test.
And now I find out tomorrow is your last day and I won't be there cause I have to go somewhere. damnit.. omg. I'm sorry we never got the chance to really talk.. er.

gosh i feel so weak. it's those butterflies i tell you.

[Looow]

You, You, You, and You. ( The four of you) :

Stop leading me on . Stop flirting.

[*Azarel*]

Tonight was fun. I love you guys. The huge bruise on my left hand was totally worth it. 's too bad we didn't get to do everything we planned. But I still have those stinkbombs...

[*stephinika*]

chrissy, not a problem. and if i'm not online, i agree with naomi, email me, whatever. i'm always willing to listen.

ahh, tomorrow, tomorrow!

[*salcha*]

Tonight was fun. I love you guys. The huge bruise on my left hand was totally worth it. 's too bad we didn't get to do everything we planned. But I still have those stinkbombs...

You trashed someone, didn't you?

[*Azarel*]

You trashed someone, didn't you?

NO OF COURSE NOT. HOW COULD YOU ACCUSE ME OF SOMETHING LIKE THAT?

.. My lips are sealed.

[anniepiee]

____:
I miss you. Happy 7 months! i hope everything goes well for you. so you dont have to get pissed off so often =( i hate hearing you mad over the phone and i cant hug you..
Pumpkin carving!! cant wait =) I Love you.


____:
I didn't replace you, i dont think. you lost what you had. by your words and actions. I didn't take anything from you. You broke it up with him, yet you stayed attached with him. telling him you "miss him" after ive been going out with him for 5 months. and as for the other people, they chose what they chose. i am completely strange with their choice and why they chose it. I dont have anything against you. i dont dislike you.
but i'm sure things get awkwards at times for you as well. i dont want this to ruin the chance that i should of got to know you better. =)

[*stephinika*]

sigh. tomorrow is STILL too far away...i'm leaving my house in 12 1/2 hours. yes i'm a complete dork but whatever.

i hate you people. i can't WAIT to leave this hell hole. honestly. you guys need to fcuking learn that i'm not 10 years old anymore. fcuk.

[*salcha*]

NO OF COURSE NOT. HOW COULD YOU ACCUSE ME OF SOMETHING LIKE THAT?

.. My lips are sealed.

I've nothing to lose; you've got plenty - watch all your shit, watch your cars, watch your backs. Shit's going down tonight.

[*Azarel*]

.. I didn't do anything.

Innocent until proven guilty, dammit.

[dancingkait]

----
you are simply adorable :) you brighten my day and i can't wait for our "date" tomorrow

----- and -------
you girls make my world soo amazing! i can talk to you about anything and you'll be there with open arms. luv ya!

my guys
you guys are awesome. you let me be me and not the token girl in the group. thanks boys!

[redpeony]

That was awesome!!!! Especially the 3rd period! And then getting free yogurt at the end! hahahahah... the going to billiards after was kinda pointless, but that's okay, more time with you =p.

Hahaha that moment in the car listening to classic rock..
You saying, "You can be Diane and I'll be Jack... or you can be Jack if you want"

And yay for getting wearing your comfy sweater and "accidentally on-purposely" keeping it on when I left

teehee.. i'll return it... eventually
I'M SORRY IT'S JUST SO COMFY... AND AWESOME.. plus it belongs to YOU
that's 3 great reasons why I should keep it!!!!
so i think i should be able to!
hahahah love you =p

you can call me a fool, I only wanna be with you

[Winter]

Almost two years ago, you told me to hug my pillow and think of it as you whenever I needed someone. I never told anyone, but I still do it now, even though I couldn't possibly be any happier. The truth is, I miss you, the old you. The war's changed you.

[silver-rain]

Aww, I kinda did enjoy today, even though it was a bit routine, and I expected it. But just seeing you today made me happy. You still owe me money though! (Haha, but my/your money is our money eh?) I love you, happy 11 months tomorrow <3.

Hmm, for a brief moment there, it seemed like we were acting like I would usually act with Stephen. I don't know what our deal is, we're friends, but more touchy-feely with each other than I am with my other friends, and we're not that close. I don't know if you're doing this because you do it with everyone, or because you like me. Hmm, I suppose we'll see.

[*danielle_x3*]

why did you do that to me today?

[lilliannnn]

First to CB because this thread = my life. I can get out so much feelings here...

JC-
Wowwww, flirt? Yeah. Is it bad that I don't mind? Is it bad that I kind of want to relive what happend last year? I want to see you on Sunday but I'm scared of what I might do. Or maybe what you might do....

AS-
CUTIEEEEEEEE.

DEEP-
You hugged me today? That's cool. You're cool.

DL-
MY LOVVVEEE. I miss you so much. I miss last year soooo much. I had sosososososoosos much fun tonight, thank you for making it an amazing night. We should definitely hang out much much more because we always have the greatest times. I love youuu.

TH-
ACK, what to say? You're the best. That hug was kind of awkward and now I'm thinking of some things I shouldn't be. Can't wait til Sunday..... You're the best, once again.

PHIL-
MY TWIN. I'm glad we're friends.

And last but not least K-
I love you. Even though you're really annoying because you always have to play football with your friends, who I hate. But... you're so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeee and we have the best times andddandnananadndn I don't know. Thank you for everything, I don't even know. I love you.

[Looow]

You,
Wow. Ahhh. I think I like you but that'd just be wrong. Uhm, you're just uh so easy to fall for. Kind of weird, though. Really sweet guy. Except for when you smacked my ass. That was just .. no.

You,
Talk more, talk more! I like you, you're cute.

You,
I don't want to do this to you.

[*stephinika*]

______,
today was fun. i love spending time with you, no matter what we're doing. ilu so, so, so much...
its so weird though, i WANTED to...i really did, i just...get nervous/shy i don't know...guess i'm afraid i won't do so well or something, i don't know. mind you...i've gotten farther than usual with you =p haha so i'm improving. i don't know. i'm weird like that.
the great part is though you don't really care....too much i don't think. but i wanna tell you this but...its so hard to for some reason, i don't know.

all of you people,
you guys are so effing immature. our business is OUR business. you're all being so ridiculous. we lied to be nice but no, you guys had to be fcuking stupid about it. well you know what? i don't care.

[MetalChick77]

_______ : oh god, stop giving me mixed signals. I have no idea what your feelings are for me and its starting to bother me.


_____: talk to me more..please.

[*Solipsist*]

I'm so cold right now. Your words made the temperautre drop. My monitor started to shiver.

whaaaaat

- Solipsist

[dancingkait]

all of you people,
you guys are so effing immature. our business is OUR business. you're all being so ridiculous. we lied to be nice but no, you guys had to be fcuking stupid about it. well you know what? i don't care.

^ my thoughts exactly. why the hell do you care so much? so we're not off getting drunk with you what's the big deal? we kept it from you so that you wouldn't feel left out but this just made things much worse. omg deal with it please! it better not be awkward on monday thats all i have to say...

and to you
you are so freaking amazing! i can't believe you asked me!! wasn't expecting it at all! ilu so much. hopefully things will evolve from here. but this is awesome for now

[Winter]

Yay I get to see you tomorrow! I've missed you like crazy bro. Glad the semester's over.


What am I supposed to do? There's nothing I can do now. Let's move in together after graduation.

[xTINAA]

Dear You,
I think I've made a decision. I can't live like this. I can't. I can't go on wishing, waiting, hoping you'll come back. I can't pretend that things will turn out okay or that you're thinking of me. I can't continue to dream that soon you'll get your head straight and say you love me and mean it this time. I just can't. Life is hard enough. I don't need this. I can't continue to cry everyday. I can't continue to get weaker and dig myself into this whole that gets bigger and bigger. I need to stop. Catch myself, my breathe. I'm really going to try to move on. No matter how many tears are going to have to be shed in the process, no matter how much it's going to hurt, I have to. Sitting here waiting for you hurts just as much, if not more, and it's detrimental to every aspect of my life. I want so much for you to come back, I want so much to continue to love you, miss you, and I want so much for you to want and need me. But it's not what I need, or at least I don't think so. I don't need to spend every second of my life thinking about you because honestly it's not getting me anywhere. In fact, every second I spend thinking about you is a second of my life wasted, I'll never get it back. All these times that I've been dreaming about you were wasted times. And all those times I spent crying, pouring out my heart, were spent wasted. It hurts to think like that, to move on. It really does. But I'm just praying that it will get better, it needs to. I can't live like this. I'm praying I'll be able to breathe and stop this vicious cycle of breaking down, crying, and feeling like shit. Is it all really worth it? I mean deep down, I think that I sincerely know you're not coming back, that it's over. And for the past month I've been desperately trying to hold on, trying to wait it out for you to come back, even if I knew it wasn't going to happen. It is all tearing me up inside to the point where I don't understand my whole life, I don't understand why I act the ways I do or why I think certain things or why I consider certain people my friends or why I let my self get this far or whatever. I need to get back on track, I need to regain focus and composure, I need to move on. I always knew I needed to move on but it's not what I wanted. And you know the more and more I think about it, how the hell do I know what I want? Since when does anyone really know what they want? Some little girl wants a pony, but does she really want it? And more importantly, does she need it? I'm like that little girl. I want you but then again, do I really want you? How do I know what I want? I'm obviously unsure about basically everything else in my life so how can I be sure of my wants? You can't be. You can only be sure of your needs, as long as you don't get them mixed up in your wants. I said I needed you but truth is I wanted you. I don't need you. You don't need me. This is becoming apparent to me and it's breaking my heart but in a way I think it'll help too. All I know that I know for sure is that I deeply care for you, love you, miss you, and want you. I also know for sure that I need to move on, that this is hurting me, and I'm stuck in a rut. So my decision is going to be moving on. I'm really, really going to try. I need to for the sake of my own life, in order to get my life back. I just wish it could be easier because God knows I'm going to struggle and fall down and fail a million times over but I hope that I have the strength to get back up again. I felt like I couldn't ever get over you and that I'd never be able to stand on my own two feet. A part of me still feels that and that part is trying to drag me back into the safe, comfortable area. The area where I just sit there and cry and do nothing for myself. The area where every thought is you. I need to break out of that and take this risk and try to move on. And who knows? Maybe one day you will come back but at least, I hope, by that possible time, I'll be stronger and standing on my own two feet. I'll have regained my life back. I know it's going to be hard. I know that it's not going to happen soon even if I want it to. It's going to take a long time and a lot of hard work, pain, suffering. I'm going to try. I'm sick of trying but I still need to do it. And no matter how hard I try I also know that those thoughts of just taking the easy route are going to be there, battling in my mind. I hope to overcome that because I need to; again, I just can't live like this. There's just a few things I need you to know though; I love you and always, really will. I miss you entirely. I'm going to always be thinking of you, be reminded of you and us. I'm going to move on and become stronger. And lastly, I don't need you. I don't. Just typing that, thinking that, is making me cry, hurts my heart. But I have to accept it.
-Me.

[aznhunnie6o1]

-I saw you todayy. I don't think you were paying too much attention to me though.. I feel like your avoiding me even though your my Homecoming date.. Maybe your just shy.. I don't know.. I talked to your younger brother.. He's really nice.. I really like you. Like me back? :D
-Your annoying, stop being so annoying. Quit liking guys just because they flatter you or you think they're hott. That's kind of shallow.
-Quit being so.. Attention whorish and self centered. Just because you know a lot of sophomors doesn't make you any different. It's really dumb that you've become really snobby. I hate the new you.

[*Azarel*]

True love prevails, my dear.
Feel better, okay?

[BrokenDream]

______:
why did we talk so long on the phone tonight? we talked for 3 freaking hours and we are just my boy as a friend. i don't believe this, but i may have a little bit of feeling for you. not too much because i love someone else. just a tiny bit.

_____:
what the freak? okay, you barely eve said anything to me. oh, and i saw you with your girlfriend too. how sad for me. lucky for you. i wish i was in that girl's shoes. she's lucky to have a guy like you.


_____:
I HATE YOU. seriously i do. i actually want to thank the teacher for moving you away from my crush. how could you? we use to be friend. you let me down. what is it? are you jealous? i have to admit i feel mad when you flirt with him, but girls that flirt with every boy they see are jerks, and guys don't like that... and least that's what my boy as a friend said. haha. you are a jerk.

[*lolita kitty*]

____ and ____,
oh man. i had the best time with you two at language arts today. i can not wait until next monday when we dress up as the mean girls for halloween [at school, not our real costumes]. hehehe that was fun when we snuck out of class and ran off to the bathroom to change.

____ and ____,
you two, please make up. i hate seeing you two fight. it makes me sad. neither of you are whores, got it? good, now stop being preppy and stuck up and make p already.

______,
ahahahahahaha that pumpkin costume was hilarious. you are so cute.

_____,
hey sexy.

________ and the other three of you nms kiddos,
i cant wait to see you all at my party. i have made the invitations, will send them out this week!

[Ilaem]

Dear you;
I should have listened to the deprived world as they adviced me that this love would end up in pain. I love you. Those words are poison. Yet, i know you are the only one for me. These tears haunt me& i don't know what to think. You don't call me. I hate that. I'm not sure what you're thinking, and these secrets are killing me. See, i miss you. I took you for granted. I'm sorry not for loving you for all you are when I was in your arms. The assurance made me weak. I'm afraid that everything i had said was taken lightly. I am sorry, deeply, truly. Please forgive me. Let's stop breathing so i can pretend this is all we'll ever need; each other. You're immaturity makes me sick. You bottle your emotions because you are afraid of revealing what is inside of you. You leave me in the dark because you are afraid to love me in return. you cringe at the thought that I, am truly for you. Please, come back. Only you can heal me.

xxxx

[*stephinika*]

yay for understanding. ilu.


get OVER yourself for fucks' sake. god.

[KELLYYY]

You,
The more I like you, the more you lose interest in me. It seems like you forgot about me. Is it because I sat next to her today? I'm sorry. I'll sit next to you tomorrow.
<3

[IIIIIIIIIIIIIIII...]

sorry if it was kinda weird today, I felt dizzy so I took nap haha. I know sometimes you cannot understand me, you prolly ask why the fck I act like this. Believe me mahal, I may never be the perfect guy but I always do my best for you. Gusto ko sana sabihin sa iyo na ikaw ang laman ng aking puso. There are times that i get "selos" lol, its something that is hard to avoid. But come to think of it, if I dont get "selos" then thats mean i dont care about you.. right? hahaha. Well, I just hope you would be able to read this lol

Nite nite
Selena - Dreaming of you

[topsyturvy]

To all that've forgotten me :

What's happened to you all? Just because i'm not there doesn't mean i've completely disappeared. Hello, i'm still here, acknowledge my existence please. Dammit.


___ __ :

You chicken. I repeat: chicken. What's so hard about clicking on my IM contact name and typing a few letters of acknowledgement? Hello, i'm still here, in case you forgot. I'm over you, in case you didn't know. I'm gone, in case you didn't notice.

I cried night after night because i thought (or knew) you don't care anymore. I bottled everything up because i thought it would all be okay again someday. But guess what, fairy tales are fairy tales after all. The magic dust is blown away in the end. Like all good things that happen to me, there is an ending. Jane Smith is right, happy endings are for stories that haven't finished yet. When i thought i was living my happy ending, turns out it was only the beginning of something called suffering. Not that i expect you to understand that.

For the first time in my life i quote Avril Lavigne: So much for my happy ending.


_ x2 :

I'm so confused.. what did it mean? Explanation, please? Knowing i'll get to spend a week with you away from everything is the most exciting news since October. But first, i need to know who she is. What she is.

[lilliannnn]

ajklasjd and WHY am I thinking about you?

[BarreL]

All our love and all of our pain
Will be but a tune
The sun and the moon
The wind and the rain
Hand in hand we'll do and die
Listening to the band that made us cry
We'll have nothing to lose
We'll have nothing to gain
Just to stay this real life situation
For one last refrain

- Tears For Fears' " Famous Last Words "

[[ things hopefully will work for the finest , even if i do secretly wish she would just go ahead and stop messing around when even she knows its probably not too awful possible ... feh .... still love ya , buddy-roo .... and if creepy biology guy asks - you're my mookie HA HA ]]

[topsyturvy]

___ __ :

Somebody once told me "i love you" and i actually thought he meant it. Famous last words, huh?

[pbear]

day after day, you complained about reading that book.
i found that online and bing! i thought of you.
i hope you see it.
i hope you like it.
i hope it makes you like the book more.

[silver-rain]

Yay, I'm glad you showed up today (unlike on the SATs hah). It was nice being with you, just walking around aimlessly and doing nothing, hah what we do best. I hope you got my present in the mail. If not, then Monday. I love you so much, happy 11 months. <3

edit// 7,000th post!

[*Azarel*]

What's the use in even trying?

[Tribal J_Rome]

next summer man, next summer

i can't f**king wait

[Aoiro]

D - I guess J was right... K strikes again. But ya know what? For some reason, I don't mind at all. I'm cool with it. Fine by me...

R - YES! You are coming with me to L's party! One year anniversary! Just make sure we don't get him fish for his present, kay?

C - I don't know how many days are left 'til your party, but still counting down! And are we still up for Halloween?

[*lolita kitty*]

________,
there you are, kiddo. of course we are, i got my chobits costume in the mail last friday. HELL YES. =]
oh man. i am getting addicted to gaia again. did you read califs journal? he quit and he left a note for you [and a ton of other people] in there.

____ and ____,
oh ehm gee. i can not wait until next monday, you whores!

[PinkTrash]

DEAR _______;

How could an angel break my heart? How could an angel disguise himself and .... nevermind. I shouldnt be writing this .. >: )

DEAR ________;

No comment. I just felt like putting your name down, not enough for words to say thoe *

[5ayuri]

You:
Wouldn't you think we would get mad?..c'mon now.
You told them but not us, that's just great.

You:
OK..Yeah it was cool what you did but I don't want to hear it like 4654646 times anymore.

[Looow]

You are hot.

[me1issaaaa]

It's my turn to be selfish. You don't want me to go visit my old friends, you don't want me to hang out with my new ones. You want to keep me home so you know exactly what I'm doing. This time, I want YOU home. You're always out. You didn't even call me so I could hear my favorite band when they played. You forgot, right? Yeah. A t-shirt, fine. I could get one of those anyday. I stayed home waiting for you to call me, I turned down plans so I could be home when you called, and you never even did. For the first time you disappointed me.


I'm overreacting, I know. I don't care right now. I do so much for you, I give up what I want to make you happy, and you don't even do this one little thing for me? I would expect this from anyone but you. Oh well.

[Winter]

Oh gosh I'm so excited today! I finally get to see you again after like 6 months! Bro we have so much to talk about!


I see you online but I don't IM you. You don't IM me. What I've feared for so long is finally happening. We're starting to forget each other. Forget everything that's happened in the past 2 years. Forget the love, the passion, the vision, everything we shared. In a way, I'm relieved. It's finally over. You can go on fighting for what you believe in and I can do the same. We won't be together to argue over this anymore.

[jennyjenny]

You make me really depressed.
You make me happy.
You mostly make me want to cry.

I hate seeing you out with people.
Why can't I hang out with you
Why can't we hang out
Why can't we hang out everyday
Why can't we stop and talk to each other in school
Why can't we sit at lunch and talk about our day like we did
Why can't we just talk
Why can't we have more than a 10-minute conversation on the phone without any interruptions
Why can't we talk online about our day and stupid things
Why don't you tell me anything anymore
Why do you always forget you make plans with me
Why would you even say yes to my plans if you already have something planned? It dissappoints me to the point where I can cry.
Why do you do the things you do
Why do you get drunk
Why can't I come
Why can't I join you
Like Katie does.
Why do I hide how I feel when I'm with you
Why can't I build up the courage to tell you this
Why am I jealous of you

Why can't it just be like before?

[Looow]

Security Lady,
What the hell. I JUST wanted to go get curly fries at Jack in the Crack. I was hungry mann & I wouln't have been able to survive third period with no food. Roar. I'm still craving them, too. Stupid stupid you.

[*Tainted Euphoria*]

I want you to know that even though things seem dim right now, your father is going to be fine. I mean, come on, he's Al Brown. He is so gonna kick cancer's ass.

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

Im tired of everything . I just dont want to deal. and theres no way for me to let it out bcos i have no more music. Its the ONLY outlet that works for me.

--

I can see why you loved her. eqpigeqibhelk idont even kno` why i like you so much. i knew i shoulda stopped myself when i still had the will to. but now its a matter of my heart no matter what my head says.

[Aoiro]

C - Yo! HECK YES! You finally got it! Now we got it complete! So we up for Halloween right?
Heh, I'm only on Gaia just to bump... Yeah, I knew J quit, but I didn't know I was in his journal. Thanks for tellin' me, I'll go check!
>w<

[redpeony]

Waiting for you to come pick me up, loozah

------

Last night was so much funnnn! Watching the Sisterhood, pigging out, talking, listening to old music, cooking udon at 3:30am, sprawling out on the bed and 'planning' to go to Starbucks at 7am

and finally working an 8 hour shift today on 3 hours of sleep...

so many laughs, so many good times

I love you girls!

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

WHAT THE f**k.
ihgasokvbqkl this is f**king stupid. I hate this shit. This is prolly why he wont even barely look at me.

[whywasisostupid]

vinnie,
that was incredibly akward.

[michelina0kudelk...]

I think you must be the most adorable person I have ever seen. You are perfect for me in every way shape and form, but my friend likes you........up against her I will never have a chance.....I'm too afraid to tell you how I feel....I hope you are happy whatever happens to you. I love you, deep down somewhere, and no one will ever know......

[*not_your_average*]

I love you, Mommy. Dinner at Friday's was splendid today. I was crying my eyes out and you took me out of it. I dont know what I'd do without you. I love you more than words will ever express. I'm still sad about the Astros losing, but that's okay. You'll probably take me out it, anyway. Ily, Mommy. Thank you for everything.

[PinkTrash]

________

i miss you, i dont want to get involved but this is coming naturally. i never saw this coming, never expected things to turn out this way, but it has. i see through you when nobody else does, and im completely fascinated by your inner beauty <3

[Gypsy Eyes]

Oh so I'm not good enough for you know because I'm not like you remember me? Well hey guess what, since you last really hung out with me (i was in 8th, you were in 9th) well hmm.. let's see. My grandmother has been in and out of the hospital for the past year, my f**king reputation has been ruined because I was stupid enough to trust my best friends, I have overdosed on pills 26 times, I f**ked up badly and lost the person I cared about out of everyone, I caused that person extreme pain. Oh yeah and I almost forgot I was pregnant for four months. So yeah, I'm f**king sorry I'm not as fun, outgoing and open as I was before. Give me a damn f**king reason to and I will be.