Message To Anyone, Volume 11 Options

[Teesa]

You know the drill.

To Christina--
Thanks SO much for being there today :) I know I sucked at the dance before you taught me the moves, thanks for being so darn patient! I love you!

To ______________ :
I saw you in the car today..you are so freaking cute. Everyone says so. ARGH, I WANT YOU. haha.

--Teesa

[sandy_lumpy_shor...]

I want you. PLease dont compare me to her. I'm smiling when you tel me about her but deep inside i'm crying

[inquisitive_]

To HIM,

I just don't understand you. Everytime I try and understand, you confuse me even more. But no matter how confused you make me and how bad I know you are for me, I just can't seem to let you go. So I've come to the conclusion that we should be friends and just let things happen with time.

[*jooleeah*]

I feel terrible because it feels like you think I'm ignoring you. It's definitely not true.

[Looow]

You,
You're so KJFJHSGDSHGA.

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

----

you act like i cant hear you arguing about me.
i feel like shit, thank you.

[redpeony]

Trevorrrrrr:

Thanks for checking up on me, and asking me 4 times if I was sure I didn't need a ride. Thanks for calling, text messaging or finding some way of communicating with me every day. I still get flutters when I'm about to see you, but when our eyes meet all those butterflies disappear. Thank you for being genuine and kind and responsible. Your personality is amazing and I just can't seem to get enough of you =p

Thank you for being you.
You make me smile, you make me melt, you make me appreciate.

Maybe I'm falling for you a little too fast...
but with you it has been like this since the beginning, and you have never disappointed me.

Edit: Sept 15, 5pm
Thanks for surprising me with cupcakes! Hehehe you're such a sweetie. I thought you were asleep on my shoulder, hahaha. I wish you didn't have to go so early today, but that's okay. What you did was really nice. Sometimes I do have to think about it to make sure this is really happening. What did I ever do to deserve you? You're amazing. I miss you already. Can't wait to see ya on Saturday. (:

[*salcha*]

Dear Coach,

I have worked my ass off to get where I am today, and I am not able to play at tomorrow's game. It made me disappointed to see that. You have the lineup all mixed up. It's sad to see the team like this.

[yuna*]

Heh, apple
Hah what fun we had today in PE...you and your claws..haha...don't be offended by what I said today..cause today I'm bit....hyper around PE..but still good game..=)

[Aoiro]

Dear J.S.,

I've known you for two years, and never thought anything more than just "friends". Soon I thought of you as a brother. You showed me things you've never shown anybody. You told me things not many people knew about. You told me about your life that I never even dared to ask or know. But now I feel like I like you. Has my love grown for the past two years? It never even came to my mind that I liked you more than just a friend until this week. And now I just want to be closer to you. But you are so different than any other guy that i know, so it's very awkward... So will I ever think of you a just a friend of brother again, or will I be a lovestruck fool until high school?

>_<;;

[*stephinika*]

ilu. thanks for putting up with me always.

thank you for passing me on my road test! haha

agh. damn you people. but whatever.

[silver-rain]

Hey, we are drifting apart. You may not think so, but we are... Eh, I suppose I'll see how Friday goes before I really decide that we are. I love you, but I'm not feeling it from you...

Dear homework,
Why must you be so hard? I'm a senior, cut me some slack! I've already got so much on my mind, with college and track and etc, and you're not helping. I hope I never have to pull an all nighter...

[xTINAA]

Dear Teesa,
You're welcome dear. I'm glad I could help (:
-Me.

Dear You,
What's wrong with your phone? I really need to talk to you. It can't be that something is wrong with my phone because I tried calling you from both my cell and my home phone. Why haven't you tried calling me? Don't you know we need to talk? Poo. I'm gonna go sleep but hopefully you call later?...
-Me.

[mzislandpinay]

Could you be the key that unlocks the melody within my heart?

i think so...

[sharerol]

Great Grandmother,
Doug was right. I really do want to see you soon. I know I haven't been around you much... but it really does hurt me when I think that you might be going soon. I don't like to think that of anyone. I'm sure you have led a great life. I hope I see you again soon. I do want to be there one last time before.. it happens.

Grandmother,
Wow it really hurts me that I am talking about this... maybe I shouldn't. I am getting sadder the more I think about it. :( I can imagine how you would react when the time comes. I hope you don't act like it too long. I mean, it would feel so different. Wait. Ugh. What in the world am I saying??? OF COURSE, you would take it hard. I mean... after all... Sorry. I am just not used to having to deal with deaths.

You,
It's strange. When I'm offline, you barely cross my mind anymore compared to before... yet when I'm online and I see you online, you're all I can think about. :\

[steezahh]

WOW. another version. AND A WHOLE LOT TO SAY!
i wanna start off by saying to you-____ thanks for everything you have taught me in life; thats very genorous and 'like you' but i have found out stuff only a girl who can put up with it can. I CANT. sorry; i still have to dig deeper to see if its just a rumor tho. But i also want to say; i love hearign your voice when you leave me messages on my cellphone; thanks. i love them. write more later!

[xTINAA]

Dear You,
I can't believe you don't have a cell phone anymore. It's hard enough as it is to communicate with you and to keep in touch. And then, I was supposed to see you today, you were supposed to come, and you didn't. You said you couldn't. I'm angry and hurt. I know you're in trouble and all of that but then maybe you should just stop doing the things that get you in trouble. We already have a hard enough time seeing each other and talking to each other but then you go and get in all of this trouble, get more restrictions placed on you, and now we don't get to see each other for weeks. I'm supposed to be typing a paper right now. It's due in an hour. I can't do it. I can't concentrate or focus and I still don't know what I want to write about. All I'm doing is sitting here thinking about you and thinking that right now we're supposed to be hanging out and thinking that this is really hard. I'm so stressed out, I'm so tired, I'm so frustrated, and you just seem to unintentionally add more stress/frustration/whatever else. I want to cry. I need to write this paper and I can't even get myself to do it. Don't say you'll see me or that you'll call me if you're not going to. It gets my hopes up and distracts me. Gosh, I just really miss you.
-Me.

[*mzkandi*]

Dear Friend,

I seriously want to slap you up side the head for be so silly and naive. Have you learned nothing in your 21 years? Why in the hell are you still with him? Sure you say you have forgiven him but deep down you know he is not right for you, you've even said it yourself. I really use to look up to you and now I think your quite pathetic. I mean really, gosh.

[cheerbee07]

You,
I hate You. I hate the way you treat her, haven't you figured out by now that you are the reason she cuts herself? i hate the way you treat her like sh** and then have the audacity to say hi & act friendly to me and act like nothing is wrong, even when you ought to have realized by now that she tells me things that you do.
you. just. suck.

You,
I'm sorry that I tell you things. It's just that you're the only person who doesn't pity me when I say things, and you actually understand. I know you have enough problems on your hands without having to deal with me.

You,
wow. you are the hottest guy. ever. seriously. too bad you're a freshman. but that doesn't mean that i can't admire you. hahaha.

You,
I can't believe you! you say that you're so in love with him, but yet you have to go & stalk the guy that I have a crush on. hello, you forgot the first rule of stalking-- know their freaking name. don't call him "the kid with the hair" god, go after your boyfriend, not my crush.

God,
please protect the second "you" in her time of need...i know that she thinks that you think that she's a bad person. but she's not. i swear that to you. some things aren't always what they seem. also please help her brother to become closer to you lord. he wants to be, but doesn't know how yet. in jesus name i pray, amen.

-Jess

[jennyjenny]

I want to thank you for ditching me today.
You told me to stay after with you to hang out, so I said yes.
We couldn't find them so we found Katie.
And then you walked with her to the corner.
Without me.
I stood there like an idiot with people I don't know.
You were the only reason why I even stayed after. I missed my ride.
You always ditch me. Sometimes I wonder now that since we're not in any of the same classes, we're gonna not be friends anymore.
I really wouldn't want that, but I have a feeling that that' going to happen.
You never tell me anything anymore. We never talk on the phone. You don't call me.

I spent the other night crying after you said "I could say so much right now." I really would hate if we weren't friends anymore.

I wish that I could tell you this but it would start some dumb argument.

I don't know.

[lilliannnn]

K-
Hey. Today was like the first day in a week you called me instead of me calling you and I'm glad because I don't like talking to your dad on the phone. Sorry you didn't feel good today, but I'm glad you're better. I'm kind of pissed that I most likely wont see you this weekend but I understand. I really hate seeing you once every two weeks but I can deal. I'm lying. I want to see you all the time. I love you.

[*jooleeah*]

Jessica, you have no common sense. Or appreciation for what you have.

[dancingkait]

congrats on the N im so proud of you! now we can go cruising together hehe luv ya!

i don't know what i would do without you 3 specially my girls! oh dear he is so hot mmm hehe ilu all!

wow you are so amazing. i can't wait to see you again! it's only 2 days and we're being such nerds. oh well i like being a geek sometimes. thanks for being the best hottest adam ever

[BrokenDream]

____, you were so quiet today. =[ don't be that way!

[elaboratedream]

you,
I love you... but you're so... catholic... lol... we haven't even kissed yet... *mutters darkly* I wanna kiss you...
it'll be weird going to homecoming at a different school... meh... lol. I just wanna be with you... 10 minutes every few days isn't enough time together... I wish I went to your school... *mutters darkly* stupid parents have to be too poor to afford rich kid school... lol
you know so much about me... I know so much about you... you were my best friend for awhile... is that why it's awkward between us? you aren't like most guys I know... you're so sweet, but you're also so much more... catholic. lol... but I still love you.

you,
what did I do this time? why don't you want to hang out with me? I mean, I don't blame you... I wouldn't want to hang out with me either, but I just want to know why...


you,
you remind me too much of myself... it scares me... I don't want you to be like me... no one should have to deal with that... the ana thing, the cutting thing... everything... and I don't know what to do about your dad... I don't want you in a house that bad... but what am I supposed to do? I don't want you to get mad at me... I don't want you to have to go to a foster home or anything... I don't know what to do... but if you ever want me to tell someone or to get help for you or something, tell me. I'm here for you

you,
why don't you tell us how you feel more often? I know I've got issues, but you don't have to protect me from your own life for that... I know things that you're dealing with right now... you can talk to us about it... but you never mentioned it... the thing going on with your mom... I'd say that that's big enough for you to tell us... but whatever... I've been so open with you, telling you everything... but you don't tell me anything it seems...

you,
I like being your friend, but I have a bf... please, you don't know what this is doing to me... it's driving me crazy... because I sorta want the danger... but I love my bf... and never want to lose him... please stop this... and you REALLY need to stop smoking. I heard you hyperventalating or something after you ran in gym... that was really bad... and then all you could say was that you needed another cigarette... I'm scared for you... you're on too many drugs... you don't always take your meds... you've tried suicide too many times... and you talk about wanting to do it now... please don't... and while I say that, I wanna take you up on that offer... I really want some pot... or some cigs for that matter... I don't care. I just want something...

you,
you're ignoring me now... I don't know why... did you only want to talk to me when you thought that you might still have a chance for me to make out with you?!?! if so, that's just sad... thanks for making me feel like shit... I have enough issues without you... yet I'm so pathetic that I still wanna be friends with you...

mom,
I hate you. I wish you'd die. QUIT INVADING MY PRIVACY!!! you're so overprotective... you're strangling me... suffocating me slowly... you're killing me... ever so slowly, you're killing me.

[inthemudhole]

Alec,

I'm really, really sorry, Alec. I truly am. I really hope you believe me that I'm really sorry.... because I am. You went out with Dani for over a year. You had a wonderful relationship with her, so I'm sorry to see that go. Although I'm your ex-girlfriend, I still want you to know that I will always be here for you, okay? Just PLEASE keep that in mind. I'd like to get our friendship back in action again, alrighty? So don't hesitate to call me or IM me or even come over to my house... I will do my best to help you at any given time, and THAT is a promise. I really hope you feel better soon....I hate to see you so down. Well, see you tomorrow in geometry.... Maybe we should hang out soon? I don't know. Just an idea.

--

Sam,

Ah, you. I've only recently realized how much I REALLY like you. Thanks for being there the past couple of days, and thanks for always smiling at me in the hallways and asking me to be your partner for things in geometry. I don't know if you know this or not, but it really means a lot to me.

I've been thinking about asking you to a movie some weekend for a while... Would you say yes? Would you want to? I don't know, and I guess I'll never know unless I ask you, but I don't know if I physically or mentally can. It's so nerve-wracking and intimidating, even though we are friends and we have been since fourth grade or so.

You're the only thing that keeps me going back to school everyday without a complaint, Sam.

I'll see you tomorrow....

--

Zena,

I wish you would f**king STOP messing around with Alec. It's just one of those 'unwritten best friend' rules to NOT mess around with your best friend's ex-boyfriend, especially when they still sort of like them, which I do! I know for a FACT that you'd be so incredibly pissed off at me if I started messing around with Bob, so how's it okay for you to constantly flirt with Alec even when I'm around? You KNOW that I still like him and you KNOW that I was really almost in love with him when we went out, yet you continue to pull this SHIT every single f**king day, and I can't stand it. I can't stand you anymore sometimes. Just leave me alone for a while.... I'm so pissed at you right now that I can hardly be in the same room with you.

--

Mom and Dad,

Let me have some f**king privacy, alright? I'm sick of you invading every inch of my personal space. I know, I know....you're the authority....you've made that INCREDIBLY clear, but QUIT going through my room and QUIT reading my Xangas. Do you see me reading your e-mails and messing around with shit in your room and on your computer? No. You don't....and for good reason.

--

The people of createBlog,

Eh? Why are you all so cliquey? I've just recently noticed that lately, and I've also just recently noticed that I don't fit into any of these little cliques or groups of people. I feel so left out when I come on here sometimes.... It's just like school...



-Brie

[3ssx]

We're drifting apart. and you dont even seem to care. you have no clue what that does to me, i miss you so much.







i love you.

[Looow]

You,
Ugh why do you have SUCH A bad attitude lately? DAMN. Just .. oh god.

You,
You're so cutr and nice and little.

You,
Awww litto boy likes youuuu. *kid voice*

[Heewee]

I think I've finally accepted the fact that you don't want to even try to be my friend anymore. We've been best friends since fifth grade and in the past 7 months you've let a guy destroy our relationship. We both promised each other that we would never let a guy ruin our friendship, and now look what's happened. I know that you're sick of everybody telling you how bad he is for you and how you shouldn't be with him but why don't you actually do yourself a favor and finally end it? You know that he's bad for you. You know that he influences you to do things that you don't want to do or wouldn't do otherwise. You didn't call me all summer. I called you once every day and you didn't even have the courtesy to call me until August. But you know what, I've finally moved on. I'm gonna miss you but you know what? If you don't care enough about me or respect me OR yourself enough to do anything about this, then I guess it's not worth fighting for. So I guess this is my final goodbye.

[*suddenly she*]

1. OMG. you and you? wtf. we're friends, aren't we? is it necessary to spread stupid rumors and try to use my best friend to get information out of me? i'm sorry if you're terribly jealous. :x but this is STUPID.

2. er, so what does that mean? sorry i had to get off so quickly, my mom thought i had run away since i was on the phone for so long and out of sight. it's fun talking to you. i like you a lot, and i'm pretty sure you know (i've called you every day since monday?!).

i don't want to stop being with you during school, even if it does mean nasty rumors get flung around. i don't want to stop holding hands and running down stairs and giving each other piggyback rides and passing notes and playing silent wordless games during orchestra.

what are we going to do?

3. and brie, don't feel bad because of all the cliques here. you can talk to me if you get bored. or mad. or sad, or anything.

[short_stop08]

im sorry but life isn't how we want it so stop trying to make things happen and let them happen themselves. it will be much easier.

[steezahh]

WOW. i really thought you cared. so soon to be writing this huh? i just wrote a little earlier today; wow...your a loser. i see you. dont answer your phone; but just so you realize; you live by me; so when i see you walking around; then i try calling your cellphone; you don't answer? WTH? i know... i seriously thought you cared!! what happened? im so confused right now; sad; and im haivng mixed up feelings about you now. what am i to do? if i can't trust you? i saw your ex today she tried to seem all happy in front of me; i know a fake face when i see one. BELIEVE ME! i seriously have no clue what to think; first you really wanna see me; then you decide to just what BLOW IT OFF!? man oh man; ____ was right you are a bad person to rely on. THANKS once again for letting me let go of your trust. HOPE YOU LOVE IT!
--MADD&CONFUSED?

[misoshiru]

you,
i can't stop thinking of you. it's like a disease. stop playing with my mind. i'm trying so hard, but nothing's working. and at times, it hurts me when you won't even look me in the eye. but i'm hoping, that maybe miracles do happen. and i wish they would.

[silver-rain]

I love you, and I'm so glad we can see each other tomorrow! It's been a while, hope nothing screws us over...

Eh, I really hope you aren't avoiding me... But, I promise that one day, we will have a long conversation... one day...

[KissMe2408]

God,

I'm frustrated. Very frustrated, worse off then before. and yah i know that your thoughts are higher then mine, but ahg=afg;djkldsfjlsd!!! i can't seem to grasp that maybe. I see a happy couple or someone who is happy in general and i feel bitter and my heart hurts. I feel like ur hacking down all the good things in my life? Is it because you want me to get outta my comfort zone? Well if that's it, then you've done a good job with that. Is it so I could trust you more or somethan? i have no idea. I've been kinda mad at everyone lately. If not sad tears, then they are hot and full of anger. Mad at myself, and let's face it, right now i'm mad at you. I feel like screaming at you, "WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?! WHAT ARE YOU THINKING?!" You know the same thing has been happening to Grace too! It's like we're the same person. Steve asked her today, and she wanted to scream out, " YES! I've missedyou so much" (and believe me she has), and she had to say No. and it took everything inside of her to say no. UGH! WHY. Why does it have to be like this. My heart is killing me, and i want to quit everything and hide. and i can't. you won't let me. I feel so invisible. Not good enough. stressed. lost. and dying inside. HOW IS THIS EXACTLY SUPPOSED TO HELP?! YOu gave me somethan to do, and I did it. ok! are you happy now? I hope you are happy, cuz i am miserable. And even as i write this, i'm ashamed cuz i know better. I KNOW ur thoughts are higher, and i know u have everything under control. But i'm so angry!!!!!! and so lost, and so small. heartbroken. Then there are those timese i just want to cry, and i can't. There is a lump in my throat, and my heart is aching, but i can't cry. And then an hour later, crocodile tears. I want this stuff to go away. this pain. I want to sit at the beach, with a blank notebook, and write. Write music, listen to the waves. Get some popcorn. Smell the ocean. Right now even theatre is stressing me out! Theatre! That's like my own release! I want to draw, but don't have the time or energy between papers, auditions, homework, and everything. And yes, ur stripping everything out of my life. Yes, I know. I know . I know. You've made that very clear, especially lately. God, I need ur help please. I'm not able to do this alone at all. I'm very much lost.

[KissMe2408]

Double post, sorry.

[*Programmer*]

hmmm looking back on it now....i see i could of done way better then you....now that your trying to get back into my life...i see how jealous you have become...wow who thought i would have this type of power over someone lol.....im still deciding either to be a nice guy or just be a strait up prick....it all depends on the next time i see you... and the mood im in.....for your sake you better hope it's a good one...

[*mzkandi*]

Friend-
Aww it was good to see you today. We will have to hang out more in the future.

[Skyline Drive]

you,
i can't stop thinking of you.  it's like a disease.  stop playing with my mind.  i'm trying so hard, but nothing's working.  and at times, it hurts me when you won't even look me in the eye.  but i'm hoping, that maybe miracles do happen.  and i wish they would.

I feel the same way right now

[*jooleeah*]

- What the shit, I hate mixed signals. Seriously.

[Nugget]

I'm so glad I'm back.

Hey guys.

[KELLYYY]

Toby and Cheryl,
I think I'm not going to be on as much anymore. Blame it on my stupid teachers for giving out so many homework and projects. BLAME THEM. But, yes, there's a but. BUT, I'll try to come online on Saturday, it depends, I might go to my cousin's house and yeah, but she has the internet, too, so it doesn't matter.

[*tweeak*]

I think I cannot stand you. And now I'm really pissed. I had it first, dammit! Now I'm going to look much worse in comparison. Stop being so f**king good at everything. Perfection isn't necessary. I may have admired you for it before, but I'm sick of being discretely patronized. We were never really friends anyway. How did things get like this? Especially since we got over it that week. School is poison.

[xTINAA]

Dear You,
I don't know how many times I can say this but I miss you. I can't concentrate. I keep thinking about you. I want to see you, hold you, hug you, look at you, talk to you, kiss you. I miss you. I really wonder if you even miss me...
-Me.

[*stephinika*]

you drive me crazy sometimes...in either a good or bad way, mostly good but yeah...sigh. i don't know. but its okay. i still you.
---
let me drive dammit. just get over it already, fah.
---
you're interesting.

[*suddenly she*]

i suppose if i called you now, you'd get an hour's lecture from your dad. bummer. please let everything be okay. i really don't want to lose what we have, whatever it is, right now just because of about ten girls that are obsessed about our private lives. please?

God, please let this work.

and fangy/steph.. you're the best.

[silver-rain]

Hmm, you lied to me. It makes me wonder about what other things you might have lied about... Eh. I really do believe we are drifting apart, and you don't seem to care. Ok whatever, if you won't care, then I won't either. I will see how tomorrow goes before making any rash decisions though.

I really wish we were friends. Then I would be so happy and I wouldn't care so much. Sigh, but it's never going to happen is it?

[*anubis*]

i wonder what you're doing right now...

i'm hoping that you're sound asleep, safe and warm in your soft bed--dreaming of whatever you hope for.

i always pray for you to be happy, healthy, and safe. and it doesn't matter what i go through. i don't care about the pain, the fear, as long as you are happy.

that is my ultimate reward.



sleep safe and sound. i would do anything to be there to protect and hold you. and i wish i could.



good night. sleep tight.

[*stephinika*]

sigh. its amazing how you make me feel so many different things at once.
---
you're so...snotty, but entertaining.
---
aw, you're not online.

[misoshiru]

I feel the same way right now 

awww. ilu<33


you,
The simplest things that you do can make me so happy. Maybe i'm just a hopeless romantic, thinking/dreaming too much; That maybe you're the one who'll burst my bubble and bring me back to face the harsh reality that what i'm thinking isn't true. There are times where I truly believe that you do like me, and we're meant to be. So what do you call the flirtations in the hallways, during our free periods, what about last year, in apush&english, and our vball dinner, did that really mean nothing to you? It had such a big impact on me. I know you're afraid of committment, that you're afraid of rejection. I know that you only go for the things you have 80% conviction over. That, your fear, and need for success is too great. Maybe you've convinced yourself that you don't like me when you do...or maybe i'm just a dreamer, where nothing will happen, except for me dreaming of you.

[*jooleeah*]

: I'm don't even know you, but I'm already jealous of you. Pathetic, much?

: I wish I could get to know you.

Nga: YAAAAY YOU'RE BACK!! Gosh, I missed you!

[cheerbee07]

you,
thanks for convincing zakk to get him to have lunch with us. i really appreciate it

you,
you are so cute! i wish you weren't as shy though...it feels weird to be around someone that is more shy than i am...i really like you though, you're cool. lol.

-Jess

[YourSuperior]

I love you grandma!

[xTINAA]

Dear You,
Again, I'm missing you like crazy. Call me. Please. That's all I ask right now.
-Me.

Dear School,
You f**king suck. Senior year is ruined. Well not all of it obviously since it's just the beginning but how could shit like this happen? Why does our year always get screwed over? For everything? Every year, all the time, without a doubt, our year gets f**ked. To think I actually worked hard and tried and to have to go out there and do that shit and for those girls to cry and UGH I'm just so angry. I swear, we better f**king win this football game or I'm going to change schools. What an embarrassment.
-Me.

[whywasisostupid]

dear seth,
things are different. i wish youd feel the same. but i guess i have to get over it, and i will. don't worry. i'll be here.

dear vinnie,
your a sweetheart. you truley are. something about you when im with you just makes me forget everyone else. maybe.

[silver-rain]

Hey, I had a really good time today. I'm glad it wasn't awkward or something, and that we're going to try to see each other every Saturday. I really do love you. <3

Arg, I hope you didn't do what I think you did... we're not getting anywhere if you keep doing that. But don't worry, I'll always be here, so some day, you'll have to give it up.

[redpeony]

I miss you, Trev.

edit: sat sept 17,9:50pm
Today was honestly pretty boring at first, haha. It got good when we went to buy those 20 cookies and had no idea what to do with them. ahahah. going to the seawall was really nice and though we got a few odd stares, having you lay on my lap across the bench was sweet. When you asked what my parents thought about dating and I told you that, I was really surprised when you said "I've never taken anything seriously enough to bring someone home... but you can come home". How sincere that was? I don't know. But you saying "I get to hold your hand" when we left just seemed to seal the deal.

Ideally, you are the perfect guy for me.

But where exactly are we right now? Just friends? Are you gonna make it official? I really need to know.. I can't stop thinking about it now. Talk to you about it Monday?

[*stephinika*]

what is wrong with me dammit!? i know you don't mean any of it but it hurts me and i hate it. it bothers me so much, even to the point of tears and i feel ridiculous cause i KNOW you don't mean it...but it feels like you do and hurts me as if you do every single time and i've kept it to myself but i've had enough...i need to tell you tonight or tomorrow.

why don't you guys understand? yes, i'm fragile, yes i'm emotional, yes godammit i am pathetic i admit it. just....please realize when i'm being serious.

[*iNyCxShoRT*]

i like you. be mine.
to my 7 out of 10

[*disco infiltrator*]

____: My body still freezes up when I see you and her together....I hate this. </3

_____: Why are you so confusing? I mean, I've always had a little bit of a crush on you..but now that we talk so much, I really just enjoy your company. Sometimes you seem like you've had that little inkling too..and sometimes you don't. I can never tell. I wish you'd just do something to let me know. I'd really like to..have someone again. It'll help me..plus you are the kind of person who I know wouldn't hurt me.

[Looow]

You,
Oh goddd you're just such a sweetheart, I don't feel the same way about you though. Gee, what shame ..

You,
Am I looking for a boyfriend? Uhh. Come on. What a player.

You,
Yeah now you know how I felt. That was just rude. Ugh whatever. Little things like that about you make me mad.

You,
Wow when Jackie told me how you felt about me, I was just like, uhhh. Yeah now I'm all paranoid around you. You're way flirty and it's starting to uh get weird. Yeah I don't feel the same. Stop being so weird though.

You,
Ahahaha you two are such sweeties. jackie and I are def going to be your running buddies for P.E for the rest of the year. Getting to know the both of you was quite ineteresting.

You,
you'resodamncuteiswear.

----

Wow those messeges were ALLLL to guys. Ahahaha I'll make a messege to a girl now..

----

Dear You- I hate you. You come up to me and compliment me during the spanish party when you talk shit behind my back saying you don't like me. Come on, be real. What a two faced bitch.

[Nicolatofu]

-->I know you're not that stupid. Why do you even put up with all that crap from her if it makes you upset? You'll learn one day. Or end up getting married to her.

-->I get to see you for the first time in 8 months next weekend. I'm so nervous. Hopefully you really don't think the things my brother said about me.

[loljuliana]

To Kent;

i like you. i like you alot. but you know what hurts? this morning. i actually got the courage to go to you; and actually look you in the eye and say "I like you." the first time i said it, you acted as if you didnt hear me and continued to talk about your own stuff. but the second time, you knew you couldnt avoid it. i had to tell you again. and all i got from you was an "okay". i played it off and acted normal. i tried so hard not to show it. i didnt realize how much it hurt until later on. i like you; i really do. you dont know how scared i was to tell you. you dont know how badly i was shaking. i even had to leave the place and not face anyone. you see i'm not telling you that i liked you because i wanted to win the bet, i'm telling you because i want to hear you say that you like me too. i dont want to hear it from other people; i wanna hear it from you. when i hear it from barry or peter, it just isnt the same. it's hard to believe them. i dont know how i'm going to tell you later. should i try again? or should i just leave things the way they are? i dont know. i dont even think you like me. i should have never taken barry or peter's word for this. it just screwed everything up. at least you know that i really like you. i just really wish you liked me back. .

- Juliana.

[Skyline Drive]

Dear _____

Sometimes I just wish it were easier to talk to you.
I want to get to know you so bad & it's kind of hard
when we are both shy. I just don't really get why
you are like that just towards me..

[*lolita kitty*]

______,
come over, now!!! >:]

_____,
go away, you f**king showoff. i don't care what you think.

_____,
leave me alone.

_____,
haha, lol.... ATOTHAZHOMIZZLE!!! we are cool like that.

_____,
thx for doing my makeup today. everyone loved it ^__^

[YourSuperior]

Im so glad you came to the game. I haven't talked to you in a while. Just speak to you in the hall-way.

[KELLYYY]

Teacher,
You f**king a-hole. You don't need to yell that f**king loud. You need anger management. I can go on forever about this.

[PinkTrash]

to ____;
Why cant I find the courage to even say hi right now? youu have the greatest smile EVER :) from what I see you're a definition of perfect, besides the fact that I cant get words out of my mouth when Im around you. J'adore le classe de francais ;)

to _______;
Stop trying to pull that trick. Im not thatt stupid, I wasn't born yesterday. Plus you're a lott older than me. obvioussslyy =]

to _________;
goshh you're the nicest person Ive like.. ever met ;P I feel like I have my life back! :) thankss so much just for everything <3

[Heewee]

Becky,
I'm so sorry that you're going through rough times right now. We both are but I couldn't imagine being in your shoes. I just want you to know that I'm always here for you whenever you need me. I guess since you're not going to read this, it won't do you much good but you know that I'm here for you anyways ;] I've been bummed ever since you left to go to college. I can't wait to come visit you.

[anniepiee]

*****,
stop kissing ass and making yourself the cutest thing to make people like you. oh, and your not the centre of the world. everyone has lives, you cannot expect them to stop for you and wait for you to catch up.
Treat people the way they treat you. Dont take over their lives because they love you and care for you.

******,
STFU beetch. people dress according to their bodies. stop wearing tight clothing that make your fat bulge out. stop dissing people, then apologize and suck up, and THEN diss and bitch at them again. god just leave us alone.
*****,
most of the time you're a really cool guy. you just need to know when to stop and limit your jokes. you really hurted someone today. i hope you realize that.
*******,
ARGH. stop demanding people to do things for you. your not the queen. everyone has their own way of doing things. YOU'RE NOT PERFECT. live with it. if you dont like us and what we do. stop tacking on to us.

i'm done for today =]

[KissMe2408]

Jeremy,

I have a feeling you are angry at me. Ever since i had this dream about you, I've had this sickening feeling of you being angry...not just angry, but cold. Cold and distant. And blocking me off, so you won't have to feel pain or somethan. I hope this is all me, and you're feeling nothing like this. I miss you...i wish you would text me...or somethan. I know you won't. But i still hope that you will, i still keep my phone by me at all times, and i feel foolish when i do so. I feel foolish when my phone rings and I jump up, half expecting it to be you, and then letting myself be disappointed. I want to hear somethan from you, anything. Anything to let me know, that yah you do still care. I want to call you so badly. Should i?.....i dunno. I gave you my word that i wouldn't. Sitting here listening to the same song over and over. Watching the same movies, still procrastinating and not doing my paper, or woking on things that need to be done. I'm stuck. and i hate it. I feel me fighting inside myself, and i'm angry. angry at myself. who knows why. if i think about it long enough i probably could tell you why. but i don't want to think about myself. Having a loss seems to connect itself to the past, and i'm feeling hopeless. I'm having a hard time trusting God right now. and more then anything right now i want to call you or text you. And even if i text you, i still wait. and i'm not making any sense. so i will stop writing this, because i'm a mix of dangerous emotions, and blabbing on a forum will do nothing. it won't fix anything, and certainly won't help. So this is where i lay silent. I want to hear you say I love you once again

[*stephinika*]

well then. there goes "being friends"...even though we haven't talked for like...a month. but still. its...interesting you deleted me though. hm. i didn't think you'd do that. but...i guess i can understand you feeling that way with me.

[mzislandpinay]

I thought of you todaii. I thought that if i showed u ur braclet that you would take it away ..but you didn't... I also thought that you lo0ked extra fine todaii. I knoe i told others that i was over you.. but there's STILL this little thing attached to you. It won't go away. But for no.. you'll just be my lil secret...


_elsieMAE

[xTINAA]

Dear You,
Please. Don't shut me out again.
-Me.

Dear You,
Tonight was fun. I missed you!
-Me.

Dear Teesa,
Are you ready to freaking get our groove on?! LOL.
-Me.

[KissMe2408]

God,

alright. i see. I gotchya. I KNOW! It's funny almost. It really is. If i read this in a book, i probably would be like ,"man that main character is stupid." haha, and yah maybe I am. I see what you are trying to say. And the thing is I've always known what you were trying to say. but of course my flesh is fighting against it. And still i don't understand, still i don't. It's so easy for one person, yet so hard for another. Ignoring you? no, not ignoring you. Mad.? maybe, mad and confused. but you've already knew that. So you will make me feel like a fool and force things infront of my face until i break down and understand. And yah, i'm starting to learn that. I can't run to anyone or anything. I just have to run to you. And right now I feel like, how do i exactly do that at the moment. I feel like a blobbering mess at the moment. And i need ur help in this. I need you to send me someone to help me through this. A friend or something. One that understands. I need you to help me. Because still even with all of this, I refuse to be depressed and sink back to where i used to be. I refuse to let a guy get to me. I don't want that to happen. I will not be sitting there crying 2 years later like last time. THAT WILL NOT HAPPEN AGAIN! I don't want it to. I'm tired of this. Tired of something like this always happening. tired of this feeling, this weird prickeling. I hate this. i really do. And do i need to go through it? yes. Do i need to write about it somewhere? yes. on here? maybe. It feels better getting it into the open void. I can type it, and send it. Like i'm really sending you an email in a way. And sometimes when i try to talk to you, it gets mixed up and stored somewhere, so it's easier when i type to you sometimes. I am so weak. I really am. And i'm disgusted with myself. Slapped in the face, and maybe i deserve it. And guess what God, we're gonna fight about this, until we get it straight. Meaning, we're going to be doing alot of talking. I asked why? and you gave me an answer basically. And now i ask "now what". where exactly do i go from here, and in a way i know that answer too. I feel angry, you know that. why right now? why when i have this killer paper due in a few days?!?!?!. I can't get any words out. well no words about Dostovesky and the underground man. But i can get words out on how i feel inside. or atleast try to, they get all jumbled. and i will sit here and rant and rave, and be upset, and be mad at myself mostly. disgusted with myself for sinking to that level. So here i am God. 2:30 am. Again. We've had this same sort of discussion with Brian. and i'm not really looking forward to this Brian the second outcome. Please just tell me somethan. help me with this. Give me some feedback here. Even better, could you strike me with lightening? That would be wonderful. Great, so this comes in stages yes? Self-destructive. see, we can't let thathappen, again. That happened 2 years ago, and i will not let that happen again now. THat is ridiculous. isn't it? So here we are. and now i will take a shower, and just kinda sit there and talk things over with you. and very much consider leaving createblog, xanga..and throwing away my cellphone. We'll talk. i'll stop ranting in here, because people probably think i'm crazy.

[Looow]

You,
You make me feel so good sometimes. I honestly don't know how I feel about you. I like you, but then I don't. Stop playing around.

[ANG33ZY]

it's the beginning of the school year crush. x.x

[Winter]

I wish you'd come to school today. I can't believe you skipped again. Sometimes I can't believe how laidback you are. I didn't have anyone to talk to today. It was fun when we talked about stuff yesterday.

[rockmyx]

ok why are you sending me these MSG? whats the meaning of this?





these past few days i started to miss you. i have this feeling that i dont know how to deal with . now i realize its love . i know i cant let this grow cause were friends. yeah . were JUST DAMN FRIENDS !!!!!!


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you think i dont like you, you think i dont care. but give it a chance because i know somethings in there. you are my friend . and i know that its true. i never thought that it would happen but im falling for you !


==================

tonight. while i was doing my homework . i thought of you just right out of the blue . for no particular reason. i just did . and i realized that at that very moment, all i wanted to do was tell you how much I LOVE YOU ! but i cant. it would be breaking the rules of friendship .because were FRIENDS . and THATS ALL WE'LL ever BE ! == damn . if youre in such a stupid situation . you cant think of any idea how to get over with this stuff . but the question is . do you wanna get over with it? ==


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i LOVE you without knowing how . i LOVE you without knowing when . i LOVE you without knowing why . i LOVE you even though knowiing you, IM JUST A DAMN FRIEND WHOS ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! == damn ==


if you want to say something then say it


go on l'm waiting!!!

[lilliannnn]

BMW-
Damn, over 5 months. Okay, well, you know how when ever you'd come over you'd be like "Damn, why we always gotta watch music videos?" in your sexy sexy sexy sexxxxxxy New York accent? Well, that's what K likes to do. K pretty much does anything for me. And you, yeah we had some good ass times hanging out and my house or Alessandra's but now I realize that everything you said to me was a lie, except for when you actually said you didn't like me. You lead me on, you treated me like shit. And yet I'm still so in... something with you.

[iheartjohn]

I FREAKING LOVE YOU JOHN!!!!!!!!

[xTINAA]

Dear You,
Thank you so much for telling me what happened. I'm so sorry. I wish I could do something but all I can do is pray. This is just so flipping crazy. Your whole life was turned upside down in the matter of a week or two. I mean, I can't even begin to imagine what that would be like. It's just way too crazy. And to think, I'm supposed to go out tonight and have fun. That's not fair to you. I'm so sorry. I wish things like this never happened - especially to you because when you hurt, I hurt. I still really miss you but now I feel like I don't know, maybe I should just give you space. Too much is going on and you don't need to worry about me right now. Gosh, I'm so sorry...
-Me

[*Tainted Euphoria*]

Dear cB friends,

I miss talking to you all, very much. Just want you to know I haven't died.

[*mzkandi*]

^ Naomi *hug*

You-
I'm disappointed. I thought you were better than that.

[Skyline Drive]

To you -

I knew I should of insisted on going to pick him up alone. Your company did nothing but ruin my good mood. You're so stereotypical and ignorant at times. You think you know everything but you don't. UGH. I hate you at times.

[Heewee]

Mom,
I can't believe you would even consider moving us across the country in the middle of my senior year. I know you said it's only a "maybe" right now, but why would you even tell that to me now when you're not even sure? Do you just want to put more stress on my life than I already have? I know that you can't help it that much. You need to find a new job and you need to be close to family but it just sucks.

[*stephinika*]

naomi, i miss you too!

wow. what is up with you? so you deleted me off your list, fine whatever, i deleted you. next thing i know, you've added me again. i seriously do not understand.

i'm so glad you understood. really. you're amazing.

[xTINAA]

Dear You,
Oh my God. Oh my God. I can't believe it. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry that he didn't make it. I can't even imagine what your family must be going through. I'm so sorry. He didn't deserve it. I can't even like grasp that this has happened.
-Me.

[Aoiro]

Dear You,

Just because I corrected you means that you made a mistake, and I tried to correct you. But no, you get all pissed off, and stomp away. That's how you always are. Especially when people try to help you. This is why not a lot of people try to help you anymore...

[angelrevelation]

how's arizona?


... i miss you. i'm here... just waiting... if you wanted to know...



are you ever coming back? even just for a visit? but then again it's like one in a million chances i'd see you even then, by coincedence or otherwise...



who cares if it's blind love?

[Skyline Drive]

- Quit treating me like a little kid! It annoys me that you repeat things that I already know. I've never been so happy to be so close to being 18. I need freedom. I need to get away from this isolated world. I need you to realize I'm growing up and I'm not your little child anymore!

[audory]

it's you and me
and all of the people
and i don't know why
i can't take my eyes off of you.


this is killing me love.

[*stephinika*]

time,
why do you go by so slowly when i really don't want you to? grr.

[sharerol]

Toby and Cheryl,
I think I'm not going to be on as much anymore. Blame it on my stupid teachers for giving out so many homework and projects. BLAME THEM. But, yes, there's a but. BUT, I'll try to come online on Saturday, it depends, I might go to my cousin's house and yeah, but she has the internet, too, so it doesn't matter.

Um yes, it took me so long to finally get to see this. Wow. I hate you for not being online.

Dear ___,
You have such an impact on me. The way I feel, the way I act. Sometimes you make me so depressed. Sometimes you make me so angry. Sometimes you make me so happy. =[ These moodswings are hard to live with.

[cheerbee07]

you- hahahahaha...i saw your 7th grade picture today..in my brother's yearbook...you're so much cuter with punk hair lol

you- why the heck didn't you call me back??? you're such a loser...just kidding, you know i love you..

-Jess

[Nugget]

: I'm don't even know you, but I'm already jealous of you. Pathetic, much?

: I wish I could get to know you.

Nga: YAAAAY YOU'RE BACK!! Gosh, I missed you!

Julia! Thank you for caring and noticing. You're the only one that did .. so far..

[YourSuperior]

Yay! We got to talk on the phone today!

[nopattern]

Quit being so stupid. I'm being nice and telling him to talk to you and all that shit because I know you like him. He doesn't like you like that. Quit trying to rub it in my face that you talked to him and he hasn't called me. I don't care. What do you want me do about it anyways? I'm not pathetic like you and I don't try hard to fit in like you do. I bet you haven't even talked to him on the phone as many times as you said you have. You always were such a big liar. God! I'm not jealous or anything but you need to stop trying to make me be jealous.

[KissMe2408]

God,

Thank you. You are starting to give me hope, and comfort me about everything. Telling me i can't just sit around, i gotta move and keep myself busy. And i thank you for that crazy energy you gave me today. I realize that it's nice writing to you on here. I can get my words out easier. Anyway, i gotta keep this short, but please help me with my paper, and keep giving me that strength and healing that you've been doing lately. and sorry for yelling at you so much the other day. You understand, you always do.

[Looow]

You,
Now what? Is it just going to stay like this? Are you going to quit now? Gee, what a f**king surprise. It took you long enough right? You're a f**king moron. You don't care at all. I knew it. I knew it all along. God, I just have so much hate towards you, it's unbelievable how much I f**king hate you so much it makes me cry.

You,
I miss you a lot. Sigh. I hate not talking to you. I hate not being able to laugh with you. You're my sister, the person I tell EVERYTHING to. The person that knows everything in my life and has been thru so much with me, together. I hate getting into fights with you. I love you

You,
Lalalala.