createblog diary, v.5 Options

[*stephinika*]

originally started by faithin_felix.

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i think this is self-explanitory, no? but don't post in here just quoting and commenting another's post, you must post your own 'entry' as well.


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dear cb diary,

last night was fun. i was so glad i had her to talk to and i know that i can trust her. i actually told her my little 'secret' and it was such a relief. i didn't tell her the whole secret obviously but still...it felt so good to just get that out, y'know? and she didn't treat me like a bad person about it which was great. its true though...one can't control how one feels. feelings just happen. its like that quote... "Any emotion, if it is sincere, is involuntary." - Mark Twain, and i think its so very true.
i miss him though. i can't wait to just talk to him...tomorrow will be fun. beach party! last night was great though....she's such an amazing friend and i'm so glad we can just talk about everything with each other.
life isn't so bad i suppose...confusing, yes, but not that bad. wow...its amazing how much one or two people can affect your life.

[Looow]

YAY new diary! go steph <3. =)


Dear Createblog Diary,
I'm on the phone with my sister. =) I lover her calling. It feels good talking to her often. It's like she lives here again. But anyways today I saw Erin and it was really fun. =) I dont usually hang out with their group but it's nice to get away and talk to different people. No its not like I get tired of my froup of friends because I don't. But its nice to socialize with other types of people. Fun fun fun stuff. I developed pictures from today too. haha. yeahh

<333 Lorena

[dreamerOi]

Dear CBdiary,

lately Travis has been visiting more often but that isn't a bad thing. i've been down a lot lately and it's nice when i get to talk to him. and he realized on his own that i've got a dual personality so that was kind of funny. haha. everytime i see him he gets more clean cut or something or older looking i dont know. anyways i remember first time i met him and now he hasnt changed that much but he did change quite a bit. also he still looks just like my tj oppa its weird. i miss bosco.. a lot. gaou. darn him so far away and i occasionally get to talk to him. at least before he goes out. or yea. mao.. gao.. nyao.. haha i miss him. anyways. thank goodness for travis that talks and listens to me. o yea and im getting a job somewhere close. starting small instead. oof its the lamest job alive. mcdonalds im against them too. haha o well. ill cope. or taco bell thingy or osmehthing. anyways yea..

Love, Linda.

[mocassinsx29]

Dear CB diary,

Yesterday was cool. In the morning I went to the July 4th fair my neighborhood was everyday. I bought a necklace, hairpin, hairclips, other shiny things, a finger monkey puppet, two corn bread patty thingies that taste SUPER good, corn on the cob, a T-shirt, a tissue holder, and a scarf. Then in the afternoon, my family, aunt, uncle, and me drove the 2-hour drive to Woodbury Malls. I had to hold in my bladder for like 6 hours because I refuse to use public bathrooms, haha lucky me. Well, today was rather boring compared to yesterday. My sister brought her friends over and yeah.

<3, Aupola

[xldubaliciousx]

Dear cB diary:

I feel really plain right now. My mind is pretty blank too. I don't know anymore..

I guess after overanalyzing the past // present.. You just stop thinking. I hope that's the case but I'm not sure. I just wish there was a person to tell me where to go from here.. Maybe I'm supposed to not do anything and let stuff happen. But then again how is anything ever going to change if you don't take action..? Ah. It's just a whole lot harder now than it was before...

<33

[*CrackedRearView*]

Dear cB Diary,

I'm loving her more every second I'm with her.

Don't ever take her away from me.

Justin

[*Azarel*]

Dear createBlog diary,

He is absolutely wonderful. I don't ever want to lose him.

-Me.

[*Weird addiction*]

Dear cB diary,

I told him that i was going to stay out of his life for good. I meant it then, but i miss him every single day...i wish he would call. I'm too scared to call him, i'm scared he won't pick up the phone, i'm scared he'll tell me that he's over me...

Sandra...

[Teesa]

Dear Createblog Diary,
Moving is so overwhelming, but the experience was pretty good. I found some things of mine that I wouldn't have found in a million years if we hadn't moved.

Anyways, I realized that I have these moments of being attracted to people that I barely know. It's like when I see someone attractive, I think I like that person. Weird, I know. I hope I learn to like people for their "personality" and not just base them solely on their looks.

-Teesa

[Looow]

Dear cB Diary,
I'm pissed off. Createblog is going down. Roar but anyways today is Fourth of July. I don't really celebrate it but whatever. I've been doing tons of collages. I'm going to put them in my binder for next year. Yeah =)

Man, I really need to go shopping. fsfjshdjf.

[fallen_angel1137]

Dear Cb Diary,

I'm so glad he is mine.

[sharerol]

Dear createBlog Diary,

It's July 4th. Yay. Umm umm umm. I'm really bored right now. I want to talk to him. The Giants lost, and it was oh so close. Hm. Um.
Uh. Oh yeah, I saw The Cell last night on dvd. It was...quite an odd movie. Yep. And everyone on AIM is away.

--Cheryl

[xldubaliciousx]

to cB diary:

Hehehheh today is the forth of July. Fireworks are real pretty too.

So maybe even when things aren't going the way you want them.. And ya just look on the bright side, then it'll work out fine in the end. Just maybe..

xoxoxo

[--{Empty}--]

dear cb diary,

wow. i'm on my friends account because stupid crap is happening in cb at the moment...i want my damn account back.

today was interesting. he scared the shit out of me...like, wow. don't ever do that again...i was worried sick.
learned a lot of new things today during my phone conversation with marcela...wow. it was good to know but so...depressing at the same time...people said i was cheating on him with him and so on...and apparently some people saw some of my posts in "a message to anyone" what the crap...i didn't know people other than her and her read my stuff on here. oh god.
all in all...today was kinda crappy. and...his mom hates me. ugh. i hate life at the moment.


- stephinika

[*lolita kitty*]

dear cb diary,

my mom is pissing me off, AGAIN. throwing her tantrums about how she has time for nothing. stop it!!! createblog is being funky and some dude hacked it, and peoples accounts are getting suspended 0___0
tis very odd. we did nothing for 4th of july, because obviously, my mom had "no time" T______T
11 days till i go back home to dad. poo -____- make it shorter
eh, anywhoo, i must go. im thirsty =3

[*Azarel*]

Dear createBlog diary,
There are so many material things I miss: DSL/cable, AIM, the cell phone, but the thing I miss most of all is just listening Justin's voice, talking to him. Sigh.
-Me.

[inthemudhole]

Hey.

Today was okay. Partied with Zena and then watched fireworks.
It was fine. I had a little too much wine, so I feel pretty shitty right now, but I'm all right. I bet it'll be worse tomorrow.

Hm... Ugh. Wednesday = summer school starting back up again.
I LOVED this break. <3

Can't wait until the nineteenth.

Anyway... I haven't done it for ten days. ;x
Let's see how much longer I can hold up without doing so.

See ya.

- Brie

[BrokenDream]

wow, new diary! thanks Steph. hehe, you rock.

dear createblog diary,

happy July fourth everyone! a little late though, unfortunately. my Fourth was good and bad. the good part was when we went to my Aunt's dinner party yesterday night. it was good. the whole family got together and yummy food. steak, salad, baked potato, and more delicious food.. mmmm. I want to tell you something annoying. okay, my Uncle, he's great and all,but he listens to some loud, rock music. I was watching a movie with my other Uncle and Aunt and he has to play his music on the computer. geez! he was drinking beer too. yuck! no wonder. beer does that to people! ermm, anyway, my Mom finally turned it down by herself, haha. THANK GOODNESS! what a relief. another problem with my Uncle.. well, my Aunt's dog, Calvin, is afraid of the sound of fireworks so my Aunt let him inside the house. yes, this dog was huge. okay, then we tried to get him in a room so he won't bother us while we eat. well, he won't budge. ughh! goodness, it was so hard. then, my Uncle (the one that played the loud music..) yelled at the dog and called him stupid. I was thinking, "You shouldn't call a dog stupid. He's not stupid!" I didn't say anything. but I wanted to really bad. but we finally got him in the room. the dinner was good too. after that we missed the fireworks. darn. there was a famous girl there. I think it was Raven off of That's So Raven. dang it.

Melissa

[Looow]

Dear Createblog Diary,
Okay it's 9:13am in the morning during the summer. Why am I awake? I can't sleep.
Anyways, yesterday was the fourth of july and I was going to hang out with Francois but then Cristina asked me if I wanted ot go watch the fireworks and go eat. Goodness I was so excited. Yeah we went to Jack London to watch them and then we went to eat dinner. Last time I saw her was NOVEMBER. Holy freaking shit. That's eight months. I thought it was January but I was wrong. I met her new little cousin who is 7 months. He's so adorable.

Yeah so Friday is going to be too much fun. Cristina is coming over in the morningish and we're going to go over to Ubaldo's house and hang out with him either at his house or just around to go get something to eat. I haven't seen him in a WHILEEE but Cristina hasn't seen him for 2-3 years. Now that's long. Let's just hope he's not playing or practiving soccer or football. If he's sleeping, we'll wake up up. Yeah so after we hang out. We might go back to my house and hangout then Ubaldo's going to leave and Cristina's dad is picking us up and taking us to Cristina's house where we'll have a sleepover! YESSS. =) I'm so excited. Now I have to call Ubaldooooo to make sure he doesn't have last minute planssss.

Ahhh it's horrible. He's being so fjshfdsg. He tells me these things I wish he never didddd. It just makes me feel worse and worse. I hate it. I don't like it this way. Do I? Hmm. ahh no.

Yeah so today I'm supposed to go to the movies with Erin at 2:10. Yeah I need to call her actually just to make sure. Fuckk and her yearbook. She's not going to believe me. My mommmm send it already. Maybe THATS why I couldn't find it.

<33 Lorena

[EmmalieV]

Dear CB Diary;

Why does he have a need to lie to me ,were not commited he could do whatever the fck he wants , right?. Why tell me your going somewhere when your actually not?. Haha its funny cause I caught you , too badd you havent found out any of the things I did. Loser.

Sincerly though , Everything was sooo great in the beginning , but the you started to lie , and things got worse. Yesterday you told me you remembered what I told you in the car but seems as if , you didnt understand what I told you.

I thought we had a connection , and we were gonna last more than my others , you told me you were different , you told me you werent like those other guys Ive dated that broke my heart , and I told you I couldnt stand another heartbreak.

But you did it anyways.

[*Azarel*]

Anyway... I haven't done it for ten days. ;x
Let's see how much longer I can hold up without doing so.

I think I know what you're talking about, and despite the fact that you probably think I don't like you, I'm rooting for you. While I'm at it, sorry about any disagreements we may have had.

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Dear createBlog diary,

I swear, Jared fucking poisoned the Mac'nCheese. I ate it more than twelve hours ago and my tummy still hurts. T_T And I'm getting really sick and tired of listening to his bullshit about Rachel. He's just in the relationship for the ass, regardless of how much he reasons otherwise. If he weren't, he wouldn't talk about it so often. Ugh. Physical relations just seem to piss me off. And he complains to me about not seeing her for days at a time. UM. HELLO, KID? I don't see my boyfriend at all. Stop bitching, it could be worse. I fucking hate people who take things for granted.

-Me.

[*wind&fire*]

dear cB diary

im going to camp in a ew hours... im really excited to get closer to God, i hope more people in their time get to know him too...

Cariss

[inthemudhole]

I think I know what you're talking about, and despite the fact that you probably think I don't like you, I'm rooting for you. While I'm at it, sorry about any disagreements we may have had.

Thanks a lot, Anna. That really means a lot to me, and I'm also sorry about any disagreements we might have had in the past.

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Hey createBlog diary,

I guess it's still the fifth, but I wrote at midnight, so I might as well write again right now when I have something to say.

Today was an okay day. I just kind of hung around. Walked my dog, studied a bit... the usual.

Joey was finally around. I was in a semi-shitty mood earlier, but then I got on and saw he was on and everything seemed to turn around. In a positive way, I mean. We talked for about four or five hours or so. It was great, and I can't wait until tomorrow, because I get my phone and my phone privileges back then.

Hm.. I'm glad this class is done the 19th. I really don't like it. I don't like the teacher either... his teaching method really isn't that helpful. I think I did better during the year than now in summer school. Yes, I'm repeating a semester of a class. >_<

Then my birthday's on the 25th. I don't know about that. I am not very big on birthdays. Well, my own birthdays, I mean. I don't like getting older... I already feel old enough.

Well, that's about all I can think of right now.
Maybe I'll edit this later if I come up with something else to say.

Until then..

-Brie

[Joss-eh-lime]

dear createblog diary:


today was really boring. i had to clean my room which took like an hour and then my mom calls and tells me to make dinner >=O but i miss my friends from school alot. science was so fun because everyone was always laughing. i wish i knew some poeple going to IPoly. im the only one going to that highschool. thanks for listening cb!

[yummy_delight]

Dear cB diary:

I'm jealous. REALLY REALLY JEALOUS. We're not even very good friends, but somehow I feel really close the situation.

I'm still in love. And I have been for....oh a year? It's hard to believe that I'm still stuck on him and things that happened this time last year. I keep telling myself "Time heals all." But that's a load of bullshit. There is no Santa Clause, the check is NOT in the mail, and I am definitely not over him. There's nothing worse than one sided love. Absolutely NOTHING.

Oh joy. Bass Lake this weekend. I don't know what I'm less excited about. The Bass or the Lake. However, it should be fun. My cousin and my uncles are going to be there. So thumbs up for that!

[*lolita kitty*]

dear cb diary,

people are so rude. i mean, i dont know. i hate being so sensitive, if i could take it back, i would. i cry at every insult that hits me and no one understands. they all think im some insecure crybaby that they dont want to deal with.

yeah, i am. isnt it horrible? well whatever, i try to hold it back and stay calm.

my mom is being really mean. she keeps yelling out things and just over reacting and acting like a 10 year old. today i dropped some coke on the floor and she screamed at me so loud and got sooo mad and started cussing. i started to cry of course.

i guess thats where it all comes from. the ignorance of my fcuking mother.

patricia and jaylyn think i have serious problems and wont even talk to me now. they kept insulting me saying "YOUR SUCH A f**king INSECURE CRYBABY WHO NO ONE WANTS TO DEAL WITH... LEAVE US ALONE". they said they were trying to um, help me?

well since my friends are being bitches, i really dont have anyone to talk too.

11 days till i go back to daddys house. i reeeaaaallllyyy cant wait. this summer is being a bitch. i want it to end.

...cassie...

[redpeony]

i remind myself of Lena from Sisterhood Of The Travelling Pants.

i know... what kind of believable character could come from a story about a magical pair of pants?

but the way i'm just so afraid to open up... i don't know.

all around me I see my friends believing in stuff like falling in love, thinking about a guy all day long with a smiles on their faces...

i could do that if i wanted to. but i keep telling myself that i don't want to.

it's so many things that lead to this

i know for one that religious reasons are holding me back at least a little bit. i'm still trying to find out who i am and how to live in God... i know for one that if i did get involved with a guy who was for instance not religious, then i would be held back. it's important to me that my spirituality can grow...

also, i'm having difficulties with my own character, as i know that i could definitely improve the way i am as a person. patience with others, compassion, etc...
i see my friend, who deserves a good guy so much more than me... yet she doesn't have one. why? because guys don't think she is as "attractive" as they would like her to be. she puts up a front when she doesn't know people.
what is attractive? why do we call someone "girlfriend/boyfriend material" if they are okay looking to say the least, has cool interests, doesn't make you feel uncomfortable in their presence.
people who look at it that way see themselves as "not superficial", because they aren't just looking for the physical characteristics, right?

but my friend has a good heart. i don't.

and as much as i would like to fall head over heels in love, i don't think i'd be able to, even if i put my religious values aside...
i feel too guilty about who i am...
i need to change...........

[*jooleeah*]

Dear Createblog Diary,
I want everything to stop. Someone get me out of here.

[Looow]

Dear Createblog Diary,

You know, I don't even know myself why I'm not happy.

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

wow. i'm feeling okay today...finally have my godamn account back, so i'm happy about that.
oh and kudos to brie and anna for making up and just being nice...i like seeing people be nice to each other. and brie, i agree with anna (if you see this)...i think i know what you're talking about and i'm rooting for you too.
hm...still freaked out from yesterday but i'm doing better...its funny how a simple chat on the phone can cheer one up so easily, but yeah parents suck. bleh. other than that...i guess life is the same. great yet horrible all at once.
i've just decided though, people and gossip are evil. thats all. bye now.

[sharerol]

Dear createBlog Diary,

Hm, I've basically been bored to death all day. I'm still bored. Just 30 more minutes. I can wait.

--Cheryl

[xldubaliciousx]

Dear cB Diary:

Today I went shopping. Yeah.. I go shopping way too much. I should probably be doing something a lot more productive.. But I'm way too lazy for that. Which is pretty bad. Ah.. come to think of it, I don't know what it is with me and clothes. I just love clothes and jewlery and shoes.

I'm really not dressing to impress anyone though.. Sometimes I think my friends try to portray a certain "look" to get a guy's attention.. But I'm not like that. I don't think so. Or maybe I'm just as bad as them? Well I don't know because like a lot of the times I don't even NEED the stuff I'm buying. But sometimes I feel like I HAVE to have it.. It's ridiculous really.. I guess I think material things will somehow make me happier. But when it comes down to it.. It doesn't matter how you dress on the outside if you don't feel all that well in the inside. Like after having a crap day.. I look at what I'm wearing and sort of just laugh. Because my clothes didn't get me anywhere.

Gosh. I totally just overanalyzed the fact that I like to shop.

<33

[Teesa]

Dear CB Diary-
Don't I deserve someone? Can't I be selfish for one time? Every one is so happy with the one they are with..or they have experienced that feeling of being loved or loving someone so much, it hurts. I want that so much right now. But there are too many things going on. And I feel that I am too insecure. I feel like I am attracted to so many people, that I'm not sure of what I want. It's like everywhere I go, I will be drawn to some random person. Or it could be someone I've known for a while. Everyone has always told me what to do in life, and I just wish that someone could make a decision for me or tell me who I am supposed to end up with. I can't stand being alone. I need to be held, touched, kissed by that special someone.

And the sad part is that I can't talk to anyone I know about this. No one, seriously, understands. That might seem like an over-dramatic statement, but it's true. Everyone has experienced that. Maybe I will be a Drew Barrymore in Never Been Kissed, where the part in the end doesn't happen and I will end up alone.

I am so damn sad right now. I can't explain it very well either.

-Teesa

[[Scr3amin][Horro...]

Dear cB Diary,

Summer here, but it pouring raining, well any least it stopped now .
When shopping & brought alot of flip flops .
All for now!
Byeee

Liz

[*lolita kitty*]

hey there-

its me again. ok... you have nofcuking idea what went on today. it was just, wow.

mom threw another tantrum about how bad the computer was and kept yelling and cussing at me for breaking it. but guess what? CAROLINE DID. THAT LITTLE BITCH... getting me in trouble for what she did.

then she yelled "go get those damn groceries out of the car and put them away". and i did... alone. carrie sat there all innocent playing her video games. then she threw a crying fit and made herself sound all pathetic.

she grabbed her keys and stormed out of the door cussing the whole way. she came back with a new cord for the computer and told us it better work. while she was gone, i yelled at carrie for getting me in trouble.

the cord was a f**king 60 dollars. stupid laptop shit =[
anyways, it works and i just e-mailed dad and told him everything. i dont want to be here anymore........ i miss dad.

i cant talk to anyone either. all of my friends are rejecting me after what happened and everyone on cb eiter thinks im some attention wanting freak or a slow idiot. boo

<333 10 days till i go back to cali and see him again. w00t. =D

...cassie...

[inthemudhole]

oh and kudos to brie and anna for making up and just being nice...i like seeing people be nice to each other. and brie, i agree with anna (if you see this)...i think i know what you're talking about and i'm rooting for you too.

Thanks a lot, Steph. I appreciate that a lot, and I'm happy about Anna and I making up too.

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Dear createBlog diary,

A few of my friends are really annoying me right now. They invited me into a chat on AIM, and they are just SO giddy. It's really getting on my nerves. I just went through an emotional breakdown about twenty minutes ago, but they're too caught up with their ideas of a party to even care. The thing is... I don't even know what I want from them right now. I want them to care, but I don't want to talk about it.

Maybe I should just stop complaining.

This summer school course isn't getting me anywhere. I'm repeating the second semester of Algebra I, but this teacher's method is horrible. I shouldn't have slacked off during eighth grade, because my teacher's method was very good. I just took advantage of the whole year, and it hit me hard. I don't know what's going on in this math class and we don't even f**king go over it. He gives us a damn test everyday and that's all we work on. I'd rather have five worksheets or assignments a night to do at home, because then I'd at least get something out of it. I don't learn anything during this class. I'm probably failing for all I know.

My parents want to go out of town for the weekend. I don't know about that... I can't stand going anywhere with them. Oh well. It could be fun. I could maybe go to a semi-local concert then if we go to Bismarck, North Dakota. That would be GREAT. It's an all day concert... from about noon to midnight with a lot of local to semi-local metal bands. I really hope I can go. If not, then I'll just separately catch the bands when they come into Fargo.

I really miss Jessica... It's been about three years since she died, but I'm really starting to miss her.... a lot. I saw one of our mutual friends yesterday and we looked at each other with this sort of understanding or something. It was really different, but not necessarily bad. I'm just glad she didn't suffer, but I really miss her now... She would've been a senior this year. She was one of the most caring people ever.... I guess I should stop dwelling on it though, just the thing is... it just hit me now. Yeah, it hit me pretty hard at her funeral, but now it's just hitting me like a ton of bricks.

I feel like such an idiot when I cry. I don't do it very often, so I think that's why I feel so stupid when I do it. Last night was the fourth night in a row that I've basically cried myself to sleep. It's just the memories. I realize I'm only thirteen (well, almost fourteen now), but I have a lot of bad memories. Oh, and some good ones too, but those make me just as sad, just as ready to cry over, because they're so good and I miss those things.

I guess I should stop dwelling on such things. The thing is, I tell myself that... but I never follow through with it. I just dwell on things until I can't stand it anymore.

Anyway, onto something else...
Apparently I was wrong or something, but the Offspring DVD doesn't come out until the eighteenth or something. I thought it came out yesterday, but when I went to Best Buy and Media Play today, I didn't see it, so I asked them and they said it comes out then. Man, I felt stupid. ;x Oh well, I had about fifty bucks on me, so I bought the Stone Sour CD and DVD set. I love Stone Sour. It's great to see Corey Taylor in another band. Slipknot's great, do NOT get me wrong, but it's really great to see him in another band as well. (Big emphasis on as well.)
I can't wait until Slipknot's done with this tour! Then they can work on their side projects and such. I love all of their side projects almost as much as I love them, so this'll be great. Stone Sour gets a new album out next year.
Rammstein and Children of Bodom have new albums out in September of this year.
This is great.

This song's making me so sad.
I watched the DVD portion of The Offspring's greatest hits album, and Dexter (singer and guitarist) and Noodles (guitarist) spoke about the songs on there, and "Gone Away" is apparently about someone somewhat in denial about someone that died, and it's actually quite sad. I never realized that before. I never really read into their lyrics before, so yeah.

Anyway, enough for now.

See ya.

-Brie

[`SWTWiNKLE3YES]

Dear cB Diary,

I`m bored to death .. i`m still so sore and tired from yesterday. Cleaning my room is very erm interesting lol; found a lot of old things and nasty junk it feels better to live in a clean room lmfao. Nothing to really do right now. Maybe I should go outside and water the fcuking grass cus my grandma keep feening on me for not doing that everyday. "The grass on the other side is much greener" lol its very true our grass is like fcuking D E A D! well, i hope tommorow i have plans so i can get out of this house!

bye for now.
-- adrienne

[*jooleeah*]

Dear Createblog Diary,
I look at all these topics like "message to anyone" or some sort of love topic in relationships...and if makes me wonder, will I have that sort of love? I know, I'm young. But...what if I turn out to be single when I'm 40...50...60? By the time I die...will I be alone? It's...just so..depressing. Of course, I'm happy for those people who have someone to love..but if makes me so, so jealous. I've been waiting for a while, and this stupid town has yet to show me the perfect boy.

Maybe I'll edit this later.

-Julia

[*tweeak*]

Dear cb diary,

I know this is pretty, immatrue, and hell, yes, it's pretty damned stupid. but i was looking through my friend's 7th grade yearbook (i'm babysitting her sister) because i lost mine, and i notice that she drew big ears, things over my eyes and wrote "ewww" next to my name. now, yes, this was 3 years ago, but we were better friends then than we were now. now i've called her a whore. in 7th grade, i barely knew what that meant. so whle yes it is incredibly stupid of me to be mad about something she did in 7th grade, i am a bit. but i went through and made my own additional comments in her yearbook in addition to hers. i feel so dumb. but oh well, at least i didn't resort to calling people gayfers, as she did james

[ANG33ZY]

Dear CB Diary,

I'm leaving to Europe soon :) I'm so excited <3. I'll be there for 2 Weeks. Why can't I be there right now though :( They're leaving on the 13th . OMG so close, yet so far. haha </3

Then August 6 is my bday party .. My cousin & I are planning to go to Great America this one day o_o.

anyways i'm bored & hungry. and there was another fire on the hills a couple miles from me. i could see it from the window near me right now. it's scary ..

<3, me

[*Azarel*]

Dear createBlog diary,
I need to find something better to do with my time. Seriously.
-Me.

[*stephinika*]

brie - aww, not a problem.

dear cb diary,

ugh. life is...weird. thats all i have to say. well...dreams are anyways. are they a sign of things to come or what? its funny, 'cause we told each other about our odd dreams...hm. we joke and talk so much about sexual things, its kinda funny really. i don't mind because its fun and the thing is, i know we have a more serious friendship/relationship too because whenever something serious comes up, he knows and i know when to cut the sarcastic and joking crap and actually have a serious discussion. but lately i've been thinking...what is our relationship? it seems like more than friends but i don't know...its weird to think about actually. eh. *shrug* one thing i do know...he makes me happy and i like that. like...actually truly happy. its an amazing feeling.

[Mulder]

dear createblog diary,

i'm really bored, and i continue to have no life. but, im going to be on a cruise to alaska in a few days, so that makes me happy. and my friend is gonna let me borrow his copies of photoshop, flash, dreamweaver...basically everything that ive wanted but couldnt afford. plus he's gonna host my website. I LOVE U GEORGE!! and we're gonna see a movie tomorrow.

-michelle

[*lolita kitty*]

oh f**k no. i wrote like 5 paragraphs about how pissed off i am and then my damn computer turned off...
ERGH. PIECE OF SHIT. now no one will get to see... well... er... nevermind. i just feel like crap. no one will be nice to me. i dont get to see my dad for 10 more days. brandi thinks im stupid because im jealous of her and emmily. i mean what he hell am i supposed to do when my bff gets another bff. she has pics of them two all over her myspce and keeps talking about how cool they are and such. her and i were best friends!!!!!!!!

patricia and jaylyn hate me. they think im a psyco, and when i run away, they hate me even more. they said if i keep going the way i am, im going to end up a a slut. wow, how would you like one of your closest friends to say you were going to end up a slut????? i felt like shit and ditched them. they said if i was going to be that way then i didnt have to see them again. thy blocked me from every buddy list they had and the last thing they said was they were f**king glad i wasnt going to their school next year. the school im going to has brandi and emily, and a few friends from 6th grade i barely remember.

my only life is internet now. the only people i can talk to is my dad or my so-called internet friends. thats not very helpful. people keep making fun of me and calling me stupid and stuff and saying how ugly i am. im not ugly. im not!!!!! i just try to tell myself itheir no-good internet people i.... but.... i always end up crying. im such a goddamned crybaby!!!!!!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!! I f**king hate it.

my mom wont listen to me, she just ignores me and talks tro her friends onlien all day. sad thing is i do too. whenever i tell her something she just starts crying or yells at me. i have to deal with 10 more days of my mom yelling, screaming, throwing my shit around, and cussing at me for shiut my f**king sister did. not fun.

i just want to go home to dad and see brandi, tell her what a bitch life is, and have her sympathy. but that cant happen. i can tell dad. but.... hes ust different. hes not my friend. hes my father. he'll listen and hug me, but then when school comes, i have a whole new problem to deal with. im just going to try to make new friends and pretend nothing is wrong.

ill tell myself, im not slow, im not stupid, im not an ugly idiot, im not a worthless freak whose going to end up a slut. [oh yeah, patricia said that one], and i am a pretty smart nice girl. i wish.

this is getting too weird, im going to go and um, do stuff......... whatever......

kill me now.
- cassie

[*tweeak*]

i think this s really becoming an obsesson. i don't like being obsessed.

[Looow]

Dear Createblog Diary,

Wow today I made myself the yummiest sandwhich ever. Seriously, it was great. Indeed the best sandwhich I've ever made in my whole entire life.

Anyways. yeah quincianera planning. What to say..? Uhm well righ now I'm hella confused about my main godpaarents. She's a bitch. She seems to perfect like no shit will ever come out of her mouth. God, not true. Okay maybe I'm being a little harsh ..but it's so. What gives her the right to get into my mom and dad's lives. Seriously. Ugh. I thought we could trust her. We were obviously wrong. I know some of the stuff she and her husband (my uncle) have been through and she doesn't se me going over and telling all my uncles and aunts and everyone else I know. I mean, she's nice to me directly but fjksgdfjds. She's actually great. Or she's been at least. She's changed lately. Ever since I found out the whole gossiping thing. Or maybe she's been like this all along. Ugh. People these days.

*Takes a deep breath* Okay tomorrow, I'm def going to call. I know what to say now. I'm not going to go off. Ahh after years, I still have so much hate. fjsfjs

<3 Lorenaaaaaa

[ichiban]

dear cb,

i hate myself right now. it feels like im pissing everyone off. im just in a bad mood right now so thats why im so .. annoying at the moment. i have the worst luck. i was all ready to go to the mall and exchange these two greatttt jackets for a larger size cause they were way too tight (stupid me for not properly trying them on). and then in the car, i get a bloody nose -,- a reallyyy blooody and long one too. i was getting blood all over the damn car. so sat in the parking lot for a while, trying to get my nose to stop bleeding. at the same time my stomach was hurting like a mother. so i just told my dad to take me back home. and the second we hit the freeway, my bloody nose stops. my gosh. i am a bit desperate to exchange my jackets, yes i know. i just really like them and they were at a reallly good price and im afraid itll be sold out.

im stressed out by the stupid party.

[*lolita kitty*]

dear cb diary,

ive written too much. this thing is just attracting me.
anyways, thirs entry today. crazy, i know.
mom made nachos for dinner and dad called. i got so sad, i was telling him i wanted to go back to cali. NOW. people are pissing me off and im crying more than i should. life is a bitch, i wanna go home.

carrie and connor wont stop fighting. patricia and jaylyn are being a bitch and dont wanna talk to me anymore. brandi is being rude and wont talk to me because im jealous. mom is throwing her tantrums way to much. carrie is getting me in trouble for shit she did. mom is yelling and cussing and crying at me. .... my god.... this is just .... wow.

um yeah, bye v__v

[xldubaliciousx]

Dear cB Diary:

Today was so freaking awkward. Ack. I hate that. It used to be natural and we'd laugh like there was no tomorrow. I guess it just isn't there anymore. Or maybe it was because I was tired.

What do I want? I have no idea.

<33

[osidepinay33]

Dear Cb diary..

well there's this guy that's keeps hitting on me and i don't want to lead him on. So everytiem he wants to go out somwhere i tell him "i can't" or "my parents won't let me" I barely knoe the gy and i think things are just going way to fast here. But i don't lyk him. My heart still belongs to Jason. He's the only one that has opened my heart. And no other boy has eva done that to me. oh well juz having boy problems again!

Stay forever blessed,

x__unheard of...

[*lolita kitty*]

ok. wow. i feel just, er- wow. i lied in about 90% of what i said in my last entry [not the last one, the one before that. and not 90% of it, but 90% of what i said about patricia and jaylyn]. then didnt delete me from everything, just banned me from their guild. they dont think im going to become a slut. well- er- they said thats 1/3 options. the other two were be hurt in a relationship and get a beatdown or something.

but the thing is, i lied and now i feel like poo. no, worse than poo. dirt. but now it feels weird. if she was reading that one, what other cb posts was she reading? i feel like i cant do anything without her or jaylyn popping up out of nowhere. i was on yahoo and then jaylyn im'd me saying i was banned from the guild. kristeen im'd me the day before that [ i think ... ?] and asked me what was wrong. people keep e-mailing me i just........ i just want to be left alone. but no. they think that im running away from my problems, and that if i try to be left alone nothing will get solved. which is why they try every way to help me. which is sad, because its not help. most of it it capitol letters cussing me out telling me how pathetic i am. then in the end they calm down and say "were just trying to help"

psh, puh-leez. all i want from anyone is to be f**king left alone. when i read that pm on gaia saying that she found out, i was like "holy fcuking shit". its like doing something horrible and your parents finding out. that feeling that......... you just feel so bad. and patricia, if your reading this........................... stop.

k im done. 9 days till i see dad again. i wish it was shorter.
life is pissing me off.

[duplicatex0x0x0]

cB Diary,

I recently got a boyfriend, and a job. I'm proud of myself :)

[*jooleeah*]

Dear Createblog Diary:
My dad is a f**king bastard who wants me to have no life, whatsoever.

[*Azarel*]

Dear createBlog diary,

It's unexplicable, this misanthropy of mine, but it becomes stronger every day. I wish I could explain it. I'm cracking. Ugh.

-Me.

[Looow]

Dear Createblog Diary,
Oh hmm. Well today I hung out with Francois. It was mm interesting. Fun too.

Anyways. Wow the school year is starting soon. I'm done with the past years. The whole "school is shit" stage. I'm tired of feeling like dumbest one of my friends. I'm done with giving up. I know I can do better than what I have done. I know I can. (Wow. Was I being optimistic..?). Ugh next year I will do better. I just need to belive in myself. if nobody really believes in me well who cares. (Maybe thats what has stopped me from doing better. ) jkfsdhfj. I just want to make my parents proud for real. More than anything, I want to feel proud about myself. I mean really proud. I never feel proud about myself and nor do my parents feel proud about me. They might say so but really they don't mean it. Yeahh.

<3 Lorena


EDiT:

10:47pm

Dear Createblog Diary,
Okay I'm back. I'M SO PISSED OFF. It's not even funny. I was so excited. I was going to hang out with my two best friends that I NEVER ever get to see and we were ALL available. That's like NEVER. Booty is always playing sports Cristina is always free actually and I'm usually hanging out with my friends or have other plans. I hate the "Isamar" girl. She's a little snobby 7 year old acting 12 year old. She talks too much for her own good and she think she's hella mature. The three of us don't want that snob up our asses so we were just like eff it. I cancelled. Booty is going to be hella pissed bc he had to cancel his plans. Ugh freaking frack. Stupid kid had to visit NOW. Talk about bad timing. Can Cristina, Booty and I be ANY more selfish? I don't think so.

<33 Lorena

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

Createblog Diary,

i just addmited im in LOVE with him. wow. i felt..something...like rushing through my body. that feeling i got with oscar and george<3. the pressure on my chest and the feeling like my heart was caught in my throat. wow, i .. just admitted it on my 369 post. what am i going to doooo. i cant fall in love again, and ... not be with him. his stupid mother. lordy, cant he just be with me without her knowing ? maybe i really dont love him though, ahh shattup bella. |:| confused.

[miss barnes]

dear cb diary

been in bama since the 2st. i'm kinda ready to go home because i have the book to read for advanced english

[*lolita kitty*]

dear cb diary,

i wish i could get out more. i wish we could actually do something at my moms house. i like the internet, but i want to get out and go somewhere for once. i just feel so... trapped in here... i want to leave... *sighs*

8 days. w00t <333

[lKVNiiKINKYl]

Dear cB Diary,
I love cB even though its only my second day.
I feel so cool 104 (well now 105 ) collective posts and 92 per day. There are a lot of cool people here I'm glad I am getting to know and so many helpful people :-).

[Looow]

Dear Createblog Diary.

Ohh boyy. Today was fun actually. I expected it to me akward and weird I guess but it wasn't. Hmm since Lorena has no life whatsoever let's go over the details..

I hung out with Tatiana,Andre,Lauren Wong,Lauren lee and Amanda then we went to Brians house but he wasnt home to we called him and he was like "I'm at alex's house" so we went to Alex's house and Drew, Alex & Brian were there. They took our chips and our soda. Hmm then we went to Tillman.

Afterwards, we left the park to walk to Tatiana's house. Hmm talked for a bit and Lauren got picked up so I walked to the Landing. I missed the bus so I decided to go to the other stop which was far but it was better than waiting. I saw James, Thi, Mac, Wesley.and Drew there. Yeah they told me to catch the bus with them (which wasn't going to be for another 15 minutes) so they told me to hang out and stand around there for a while .. lol. Hmm then Thi went home (it was nice seeing him.nice guy.) so Drew waited with us for the bus. (James,Mac and Wesley were going to take it with me) The bus came, Drew left and we got on the bus. yeah I was just laughing with the three guys. Mann they were soo loud. Yeah . Well Wesley was. Ha we were acting like we didn't know him. Mm hmm. I was walking home and I was craving tacos so I passed by and bought three tacos. How mexican of me ..

<333 Lorena

[toodlepops.]

Dear cB diary,

I don't understand it. Why can't I understand it? It used to be so simple before, but not anymore.

[Teesa]

Dear Createblog Diary--
Today was just the most awesome day! I called the International Baccalaureate Office and got my PIN number..I was so nervous typing it in to receive my scores, but I got a 5 on the French test! I literally screamed with happiness..everyone was so proud of me, I was so happy because of that. I seriously couldn't believe it.

Work was lovely..I got my second paycheck..so now I have about $200 for the Europe trip..I'm aiming for at least $1000, but we will see. I love paychecks. They are too great. I also saw him today, which made everything all the better. *sigh* If only life was this good every day. Oh well, I will enjoy it for now.

--Teesa

[xldubaliciousx]

Dear cB Diary:

Today was all right. Wasn't too awkward or anything.. Only certain parts but it wasn't like the whole day was like ehh.. It was fun for the most part.

But ack. Around the guys I felt like I was watching a freaking horror movie. You know, when you feel really uncomfortable and you're scared shitless.. But you stay anyways because. Well just because. Besides I couldn't really think of a reason to go. The best way to get rid of a fear is to face it, right?

Yaaahhh.. And then I came home and went to visit my auntie. It was okay. I watched Miss Congeniality 2 and Hide and Seek.

Mmmhmm.. Summertime. But it feels like Christmas.

<33

[heyyfrankie]

Dear Createblog Diary,

somtimes life sucks. my life sucks. v__v;

--Frankie

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

Dear cB diary,

if i knew they would heckle me about the possibility of me being bi-polar i would have kept it to myself. i thought i could tell them and they wouldnt be immature and try to ignite my symptoms by upsetting me, angering me, depressing, me then trying to shoot my spirits back up to happy. f**king bitches i hate them so much right now. she doesnt even care about me all she wants to do is have FUN.

[Looow]

Dear cB Diary,

I thought I knew how I felt. I thought I knew what to do .. I thought I knew the whole story. I guess I was wrong. I don't know what or who to believe anymore. I'm so confused. I'm overwhelmed. I don't even know what to say.

<3 Lorena

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

dear cB diary,

god, they forgot about me so quick. and its all her fault once she knew i was getting close to her she swooped right on in and took advantage of her vulnerable times.

[[Scr3amin][Horro...]

dear cB diary,

Whoo long day, parent gone 2 wedding I have been online seen 9:00 8:00 in the morning. where is everyone at? I feel like I am the only person typing. Im the top 2 poster of today wow I posting alot today. Almost 380 posts. I dont spam btw. I still got 9 hours or more till I go to bed... wow that alot of posts in 9 hours

-Liz

[sharerol]

Dear createBlog Diary,

Today has been boring. Very boring. I woke up at 11, got up....um. Went online. Went offline. Ate lunch. Watched television. Giants won, thanks to me. :] Um um um. Watched more television....Went back online. Talked to people. Browsed through the usual sites. Got an offer from my uncle to go see Land of the Dead. I accepted, but my sister changed her mind and didn't wanna go, so I decided not to go either. But for some reason, I didn't want to
go in the beginning, but then I did. O_O And when she changed her mind, I still did. But now, I don't really want to, but that's because I feel extremely lazy at the moment. Ugh. Summer. But next week....Parents are on vacation. Sooo... O_O Six Flags. Milpitas. Fremont. -->SHOPPING! ...And parents.... T_T

--Cheryl

[*lolita kitty*]

dear cb diary,

well, its all over. i got my last pm from patricia, and i think were officially done with all this fighting shit. im glad, because i did not like it one bit. well, im going to go to ncs next year, hang out with my new friends, and my life will move on from there...

summer vacation is being shitty. i literally wake up and get on the computer, eat, and then sleep. my mom wont take us anywhere. when i ask her she throws her usual bitch fit and starts crying. my goooooodddd...

well, i cant complain. im going to see dad in 7 days, and thats where the real fun starts. im still glad were going to florida...

...well thats all for now. illwritebacktommorow, kthxbye! <333

[xldubaliciousx]

Dear cB Diary:

I feel lonely right now. No one is home.. And I don't know. Something's not right. After last summer I think I've just been trying too hard. Thinking too much.

Sometimes I wonder if I even need friends.

<33

[Unpredictable]

Dear CB Diary,

i find myself waiting online for hours for him to sign on..Pathetic , i know..And when he does sign on..I sit there staring at his screen name..Almost wishing he would take the time to IM me..

I think he last IMed me on Thursday, the 7th..but it was only to invite me to a chat convo..Liane and Sharlene are at it again with the whole "My family is better than your family" thing..They had me vote..Sharlene asked me days ago to vote for her so i did her a favor..But what i didnt expect is for Joash to IM me...i was wierd..Maybe 4 "Hi"s in the last year and then BAM he IMs me..And the convo we had carried on for awhile..Untill he had to sign off..i think im starting to like him..im not sure...hes been hurt so much in the past..and its a shame cus hes a really great guy..hes not the type of boyfriend that would hurt his girl...he deserves so much better..i guess i just want to show him that..hes really cute..like really cute too...and hes everything i want in a guy..But hes going to high school..and im going to 8th..two different schools..he'll probably forget about me -.-... depressing..

Im thinking of revealing my feelings about him to his sister, Mozelle..Maybe somehow she'll accidently tell him..maybe he'll feel the same..maybe we'll hook up?? i completely doubt it..but theres always that possibility...*sigh* the only person online right now is Sharlene..Im dying for Joash or Pono to sign on..Just to stare..and wish..and hope.. im hopeless

Until next time

[takeapolaroid__x]

Dear cB diary,

EMI'S LEAVING!!! NOOoOOO!!! WHY??!!! i'll miss her. this goes out to her..
I'll miss you...

Your ability to make me happy when i was down. Your up-lifting smile. I'll miss knowing you're only a phone-call away.
I'll miss your laugh. I'll miss the way you would text me for help. I'll mss the way you trusted me like no one else did.
I'll always remember the stupid things we did. I'll always remember being immature in the middle of Times Square.
I'll always remember the things you told me. About you. About other people. About what will happen. What could happen. What has happened.
I'll never forget the mucking around in maths. The unstoppable laughter. The unstoppable us.

=( aww i feel sad now. lol

[`SWTWiNKLE3YES]

dear cB diary,
im bored but not sleepy =| tomorrow is franco`s birthday .. we are probably going to the beach and be there for like a whole day. hah. tanning here i come! ;D

-- adrienne.

[inthemudhole]

Hey.

Whew, I'm exhausted.
I haven't slept in a few days and I've been walking a few miles every night lately.

Oh, I played bloody knuckles and quarters with Zena today.
Yeah, she won.
My hand's so swollen. It took a few hours for me to bleed though.

Hm... it's my dad's birthday today.
Great. Another holiday.

Well, see ya.
That's all I have to say, really.

-Brie

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

dear cB diary

i feel all lonley. i think i need to get out of here, and find my way to stockton.

[Unpredictable]

Dear CB Diary,

im so bored..Just got back from Taco Bell..Plenty of left over Tacos but im not too hungry..

i havent heard from Angelita and Kim in awhile..I figure their not home because of the Tornado in florida..but still..i miss talking to them...i hope their not gone too long and i hope they stay safe..i dont know what i would do without them..

Did i mention that tornado?? i swear..im scared..its level 4 or whatever..highest is 5..thats pretty strong..i have a house in florida , a nice house at that..i grew up in that house..so many memories, good and bad..i just dont want them to be killed durring that tornado..i guess im not ready to give it up yet..its like that old saying..

"Memories are nice, but thats all they are; Memories..."

ive been so stressed and depressed lately ive tried to cheer myself up with the digital camera , but nothing..no one seems to go online now-a-days and i fear im losing my close friends..wondering what their doing , not even bothering to call..

My dad is flying out tommorow..Going to California i think..He'll be back friday..My mom is going to be working from 7:00AM to 9:00 PM straight..ill be home all alone for a week..thank god..my parents have been pissing me off lately..

i really miss school..not the work..or the teachers..or the bullshit..but being away from home for 6 hours..around my friends for 6 hours..i dont know..i like school..and this summer is going by so slowly..i want school to start already..theres only about a month left of summer..and boy, summer `05 was gay..`04 was the shit..really missin those days..

Last night i couldnt sleep , kept thinking about Joash..Then when i FINALLY fell asleep , i just drempt about him hes taking me over i swear..this morning i had to get up early for church..i sat there in bed day dreaming about Pono..guess im not over him..and in church , all i could think about was Pono and Joash..Lord forgive me this cant be healthy..stupid boys.. heh

[sharerol]

Dear createBlog Diary,

Okay, today has been pretty much boring, just like yesterday. I listened to a ton of new songs today. That was fun, I guess. Other than that, it's been really uneventful until Vernon IMed me. Now why the hell would he do that? He was always rude to me online before, and then out of nowhere he IMs me and starts acting all nice. It feels REALLY WEIRD talking to him. O_O

--Cheryl

[Looow]

Dear cB Diary,

I need to get away. I just want to leave right now. I feel like I can't handle it. It's making me insane. I just want to ..quit. I feel horrible and I can't help but blame myself for everything.

[WinterNights2]

Dear CB,

Today me and roxy scared my cousin to hell and back, the nigger walked to my house and was checking if I was "dead." Ahhh that shit was off da chains. Ah well. Also today in streetball a nigga jumped up and tried to alley-oop a bad layup and ended up gettin the ball ricoheted back in his face by the rim. The nigger was shamed today. I'm teifin a little cash from my niggas today ah well. I done with this shit, i gone

[*wind&fire*]

dear cB

I WISH I STOPPED PROCRASTINATING!!!!!! GEEEEEEZZZZ

ashamed

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

still rather happy about yesterday and i do believe i've sort of come up with a solution the slight problem...its a risk, but isn't everything in life? so yeah. i'm gonna talk to him later about that. i think it'll go fine. ahh...life. so crazy and unpredictable in sooo many ways.

//edit. just adding on...but yeah. life is great. really. i certainly changed perspective in a week, but thats okay. i'm happy, so whatever.

[Unpredictable]

Dear CB Diary..

My dad is seriously pissing me off..hes my dad and i love him and all , but he REALLY pisses me off sometimes..im sooo glad hes leaving tommorow..its only for 5 days..but FINALLY ill get a break from him..

Now that hes gone maybe i can finally take pictures without him butting his nose in my buisness.."what are you doing?" .." whats that for"..arghh!! cant he just go watch TV or something..On top of that , he shaved his moustache today..Hes had a moustache ALL of my life..Seeing him without one was scary..its still hard to look at him..

Well my birds are out of the cage..Picture time?? ill try xP

[*lolita kitty*]

dear cb diary,

well, i think for these last few days i might actually get ut of the house. sage and me are planning to go to dixie landin [theme park. roller coasters, yada yada] for a day. just us two, and her mom is she makes us >_>;;
she was like "well we need to meet up for these last few days your here. how bout dixie landin. yummy fries, hot guys, and i get to show of my new green shirt =P"
that got me excited. seeing sage is awesome. she has known me since i was a little 4 year old not even in school yet.
i forgot the last time i saw her. all i remember is tha it was some time last year, we went to the mall, and i got sick and we had to go home like really early or whatever. hahaha.... i felt so bad...

anyways, im looking forward to it. 5 days till dads house. YAY! ^_^

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

i'm in here way too often, but whatever. i just have that much to say sometimes.

well, just had an interesting discussion with him about his parents and well...the past situation. we were both at fault, but i still kinda feel mostly at fault...i mean, look at the relationship status i was in during that point in time. if you look at the entire situation from a few different points of view without any bias...i'm still the 'bad' person in this whole ridiculous thing. to all those people at school, to his parents, to him...ugh. its stupid. i know i made some mistakes, we all do, but right now its just...overwhelming a bit. i'm trying so hard to focus on what's been making me so happy in the last few days, but it still ties in with everything that has been driving me mad...i just feel so lost still...not as lost as previously, but still lost.

i just wish there was a way to prove it to everyone that i'm not so horrible and that things didn't quite happen like they appeared...they really didn't. its just...i don't really care about the other people that much...they don't matter to me. i just care about the parents...it just really bothers me what they think of me and so on, because its not true and i guess i'm just not used to parents disliking me...as awful as that sounds, its true. and its just...of all parents, his. 'cause their disapproval probably won't help us any...ugh. this sucks. this sucks butt, really. i won't hurt him...really. i'll try my best.

then there's the other party involved...ugh. i don't even know what to think about him anymore. he's changed in the last week and become rather...desperate sounding so i don't know. mind you, he's gone at the moment but i'm not sure what to do once he comes back. that should be interesting, mind you it will all really depend on his mindset by now. who knows...maybe he'll be more...sane now. i don't know.

life is so great, yet at the same time so very horrible. dammit all.

[*jooleeah*]

Dear Createblog Diary,
I'm getting away in 6 days. SIX DAYS!!!

I'm so excited.

[funky_munky]

Dear cB diary,

I dunno whats wrong with me.
This girl I kinda know from one of my tutor classes... well, I bumped into her the other day at the mall and when she saw me, she looked like she saw a ghost or something. Her smile disappeared and she immediatly looked away.
I did nothing... I SWEAR. I was just sitting there trying to fill out this application form.
Another completely unrelated topic, why do people seem so mad at me lately. know I can be blunt and terribly stubborn but thats only when I feel that I'm really right. I DO accept suggestions but you gotta keep in mind... youre giving me suggestions, I don't have to take them.
The reason why I'm asking is that I'm self conscious and I just need a little reassurance.... I'm working on my self-esteem... I try too you know. Don't get mad at me for that. It's not my fault.


Thnx for listening.
Much luv, ME

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

dear cB diary,

why do i feel so ashamed when shes the one whos such a bad friend ?

[Azn_Angel13]

dear cB diary...
omg i am so happy today! i m not kidding! the guy that i have liked for awhile now, asks me out! i am so happy! i thought he would never like someone like me because i thought he wasn't over wif his ex gf ( who clearly has). i am so happy though! gosh! but i am afraid... of finding out that maib he's juss using me juss to make his ex gf jealous ( i asked him when we were talking on aim and he sayd he isnt... but do u know how easy it is to lie on AIM?), finding that his ex gf really has feelings for him ( cus his ex is mai best friend), or making the same mistakes i did like the ones from mai old relationship....but i am so happy anyways!

[yellowgurl]

Dear cB diary,

Im so sleepless. I still cry alot for some reason.. maybe hes avoiding me I still never told him yet. I loved him but not anymore.

Well Monie (doggy) kept barking last night... at 1am - 2am... she needed to go out for a washroom break whoops no one knew what was up. lolz. She woke up the whole house now we are all tired.

[Looow]

Dear cB Diary,

Ah. Okayy well I slept over at my sister's house on sunday and came back today. It was fun. We went bowling and to the mall. It made me realize how much I miss her. I almost teared up int he car when we were talking about like how she left and stuff. It's pathetic but I don't know ..I was just always so close to my sistser. Ahh she seems sooo unhappy. I know she is because she told me. At night when we were about to fall asleep, she started crying and ah it was so depressing. She wishes she could come back but she can't. It hurts sooo much seeing her this way. fsdsh

<3 Lorena

[sharerol]

Dear createBlog Diary,

My day was fine. Then you. SHUT THE f**k UP AND GO THE f**k AWAY.

[lovescream]

Dear cB diary,

[8:36PM]

My internet just went down again. T_T I wonder why it does always around this time.. Bleh.

Well, yeah. I'm talking to Angie and stuff. She's moving out with her father in a few days and my grandparents move into their room. Finally! Last time, my grandma was a huge biotch. She started f**king hitting me and it pissed me off so I like.. hit her back. She was giving me the most scariest look EVER. I started crying because she told me I was worthless, useless, lazy, and that all I did was take up room on Earth. Then she told me she wanted to hit me to death, so I said "okay, fine, whatever. Hit me to death, HAVE f**king FUN. I'M NOT AFRAID OF YOU!" and she started hitting me with my pillow.. my favorite pillow. ;x

Okay, so I bitched at her. I started to burst into tears. My mom and her boyfriend woke up and I ended up sleeping with my mom.. but I couldn't fall asleep. so I grabbed the laptop and stuck myself into the small, tiny closet. T_T Yeh. I was so f**king pissed. I only felt like talking to certain people.. like Cheryl and Ryan and Angela. ;x

- Toby.

[Teesa]

Dear Createblog diary,
Today was a pretty good day. I went to Old Navy and got the cute jacket I spied on last week..I could buy it this time thanks to my paychecks =] I saw *him* when I stopped by to check my schedule for tomorrow..his eyes never left my face. Oh god..I don't know what's going on, but I like this feeling right now. I really do.

--Teesa

[*Azarel*]

Dear createBlog diary,

I heard AP scores came in. I'm fucking scared. ARGH ALKSJDHFKJNASD

-Me.

[inthemudhole]

Hey..

I dropped the summer algebra retake. I dug myself into such a hole again that I couldn't come out of, and I knew it. I'm retaking it during the year and then getting myself caught up the next summer, so I can be back into the honors classes.

I'm never repeating what I did in eighth grade. No more slacking off. More motivation.

Big lecture last night and this morning.... three to four hours long.
Not thrilling.
They're taking away all of my computer time eventually, but some of it is being eliminated right now.

Hm. That's about it. I'm exhaused.

See ya later, I guess..

Oh, and it's been seventeen days. Just thought I'd mention that bit of news.

-Brie

[miss barnes]

Dear CB Diary,

is it possible to love someone that you dont know?

[*jooleeah*]

To Brie: I'm sorry. It's good that you've been able to stop for 17 days. I'm proud of you =]

Dear Createblog Diary,
5 days. I can't believe it, the highlight of my year is finally coming in five days.

[Teesa]

Dear Createblog Diary--


Why am I not receiving my A.P. scores? I am dying here. Please come soon, so I can at least know how horrible I did.

--Teesa

[SillyCourtney]

Dear Createblog Diary-

My brother is getting on my nerves. But, when do siblings ever not get on someone's nerves? I have done nothing but sit on my lazy butt and play on the computer all day. Typical summer day for me.

Is it possible to have a crush on someone you've never even *actually* met. -facepalm-

Coheed & Cambria is love. -sings along to The Light & The Glass-

-Courtney