Depression Options

[demolished]

how do i know for sure i'm depressed before i wasnt sure that i was depressed?
i took the quiz .. and i'm pretty sure its true ..

http://health.yahoo.com/ency/healthwise/ca...pup/calc010-sec

INTRODUCTION:
i'm ambitious, serious, always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses, productive, creative, intelligent, neat, organized, sensitive, has deep thoughts,
quiet unless excited or tensed, rather reserved, highly attentive, resistant to illnesses but prone to colds, homely person, loyal and needs to improve
social abilities

Part I

i feel depressed all the times (feel depressed every hour)

Espeically when i'm dreaming, i always seem to be fighting
and struggling for some reason.

Sometime i shake my body (i shake my leg more often)
i dont know how i get it. ( it was automatically)
no one touched me, it just me.

When i think about something (while i'm about to sleep) i also struggle and shaked.


Part II
i dont feel anything that great about myself, i dont do anything much
(i usually go on computer, do homework, and do art)
Art is the only thing i expressed my throughts and emotions, nothing else.
i never express about myself to anyone including my friends
(i dont trust them, i lost interested seeking friends but i'm trying my best to find .. )
i dislike my friends for who they are .. most of them are recent fobs ( not to offend anyone). Thy are so loudsy and immature. they cannot shut the f**k up, they provoke me, mess w/ me, talk shit about me, exagerated about my problems to the teacher, lied to people about who i am, they think of me as a monster .. and they always pissed me off. ( they are good people but they treat me like shit) i use to have a okay friend who was normal before he hits puberty .. now he is just the same as everyone else( he is a dumb f**k shit who is so careless and a wannabe .. he blames people when its his fault. also he is such a loner.)

Part III
i have very low social skills and low self-esteem. i cant seem to find any good friends. ( i know friends seek for interesting friends .. i'm boring .. )




also, i have pretty good friends but i have no connection, i dont feel right to be w/ them cus i dont belong to them ..

i have been depress since summer 2004, i started to stay away from my friends and it gotten worse .. not that worse ..

what should i do .. ?

EDIT //

Part IV.

At the begining of early September (i was a 7th grader) i found a very good friend in my room because he was the only good ones i can find. ( the rest of them are stupid .. and the some of them i dont know cus its 7th/8th grade class. it was wierd.) We interact alot about random things. (lol) We would stay afterschool at the bench to do homework and stuff. ( i'm smarter than him ) i always help him alot and i tell him about myself a bit. he started to admire me because i was very talented, artistic, good at using bad words, guts to say something in someone's face, and etc. I wasnt depressed, ( i was normal ) All of the sudden, something changes between us. When i asked him to meet at the bench, he said "no" because he wanted to stay in class w/ the teacher. i annoy the hell out of him but he never want to stay there. He became a wannabe of me. he acts like me and he have the same interest as me. i start to hate him and wanted to talk shit to his face but i couldnt cus he was the only one i can rely on .. so i dont want him to think that i betray or something like that .. ( whatever ) .. he took every chances i have .. i even try to make a friend but that wannabe dude took my chances to know him and etc .. he was my close friend but the wannabe dude shatter it tons of pieces and i have to pick it back .. but it was already late. school was nearly over, i started to feeel a bit depressed.

every chances i have, that wannabe dude left me hopeless .. so i wasted a year in that class. i didnt made much contact w/ my old friends. i know they are having an awesome year making new friends while my chances are being taken away ..

Now, he is just a jackass piece of shit. he always want to compete w/ me and he even thinks he is better than me because * he have everything on me * ( not realli, he is stupid ) ... he even wrote an topic for his essay about " competing against me to see who is the smartest " gawd, i hate that. what kind of friend is he. he is just pain in the @$$. .


i think i provided ennough info... i dunno.

by the way, that happen long ago since i was a 7th grader. i'm entering 9th grade as a freshmen after summer.

[CrazayChristian]

I've PMed you,


Well, I don't have much to work with, not even a real age...so I'll try.


Your friends are half the problem, either talk to them or find someone who will be trusting, (I suggest either an older girl or an older person in general depending on your age.) Girls seem to be either really good secret keepers or really bad ones. Depending on your age, guys usually won't just listen.

I'm of course generalizing, diffrent people are diffrent. Think of what you think about a stereotype of a typical "guy" and I'm almost totally opposite. (But, I'm not Gay, I know that would have come out of that some how.)

If you ever need to chat, check yer PM's ^_^

[*iNyCxShoRT*]

Well maybe you should just try and stay stress free. First off maybe you should take an after school activity something you like to do. Play sports, but since you like drawing I say join an art club. Being a loner has its advantages as well. You can think deeply about things and make sure not to make a fool of yourself in the future. Some girls are harder to make friends with but guys are really fun if you get to know them. Don't worry just go about your regular life. Maybe in school ask someone if you can borrow a pencil or ask if you can sit with them. Ask them for help, you don't have to worry about being boring. In time you will find friends =) good luck hun.

[*freshxsmiles*]

Aww this is so Sad [emotionally]. Okay well, hopefully Me and everyone can help you. You should live life..not looking at it negatively but postively. Try to avoid the many stresses that bring to your life. Just whenever there's a stressful situation that hurts you inside, just avoid it and keep calm and relaxed..don't think to much about it, because it'll get stuck you head..and probably you get those dreams..so yeah. Also, You should try walking, it releases stress haha, just free your mind of everything, and your intrest in art is a very good thing, because like you said, it helps express what you are feeling inside..and your decision..not forcing you to..but you might want to share your art with people!!(just a suggestion haha). However, when you said you lack social skills, yea that's kind of rough.. Always try to introduce yourself to people. The best way is to be active in school, like many people said before, join a sport [if you are athletic], join a club, i bet your school has soo much to offer many people a wide range that fits there intrests and personality. Those are the best ways to meet new people and Make new Trusting friends. Also, your friends that you talked about, in the first place they were NEVER you friends if they put you down like that, lower your self-esteem, puting stress and drama into your life that you don't need and the fact that they won't even try to listen maturly to what you feel and say. But you know, keep your head up, just don't act like its the end of the world..theres so much out there..when you feel like giving up on life..don't..keep on going. You might not think this..but the people that replied to you CARE a lot for you..try to help you.. You have the whole cB community to befriend..and are waiting to be your friend like ME! hahaha So if you want to talk, just AIM me/email me/PM me..w/e. Your an awesome and artisitic person..even though i don't know you well enough..but it just seems that way . So JUST KEEP SMILING.. and yep haha.

[demolished]

I've PMed you,
Well, I don't have much to work with, not even a real age...so I'll try.
Your friends are half the problem, either talk to them or find someone who will be trusting, (I suggest either an older girl or an older person in general depending on your age.) Girls seem to be either really good secret keepers or really bad ones. Depending on your age, guys usually won't just listen.

I'm of course generalizing, diffrent people are diffrent. Think of what you think about a stereotype of a typical "guy" and I'm almost totally opposite. (But, I'm not Gay, I know that would have come out of that some how.)

If you ever need to chat, check yer PM's ^_^

girls are bitch, they laugh at my problems.

[CrazayChristian]

Eh, I dunno, I feel better talkin to Girls because like all the guys I know just arn't very mature. Bleh

[Paradox of Life]

Eh, I dunno, I feel better talkin to Girls because like all the guys I know just arn't very mature. Bleh

Guys aren't very mature? It seems to me, at least in my age group, that the guys are a whole lot more mature than the girls.

And I left you a PM as well. I think depression is more a personal issue to discuss one on one.

Why is this in relationships?

[11x11]

aww dont b depressed.. smile!
turn to ur friends.. they'll help u

[demolished]

Awww.....

You know what...hahahah...I'll be glad to talk/chat with you anytime dude...

Eh..I used to be a depressing person..I got through the stage, and if you ever need someone to talk to or w/e...hahaha..I'm there for you....

Yeah.....Cool thing is...you don't know me..its the internet, so you can speak freely, and I can never hurt you or anything (DONT WORRY! I'M NOT!)...

Don't be sad, be glad....

crap......

Anywayz....Don't worry, in about like, 2 years, or probably hanging out more, and spending time with your friends (your real ones, not those crappy fakers), you'll get through the stage....you'll be so happy...reminds me of someone...me...LoL...

You're friends are bitches...are you sure they are your friend?  If they tattle about you, lie, and TALK behind your back, they are nothing close to being a friend, they are evil, and don't deserve to have any friends if they can't stop being a backstabber!

Anywayz, hope you get better....and well...talk to me...pm...I'll be glad to make a new friend..HAHAHAHAHA!

edit//

the shaking leg thing...omg...that used to happen to me....hmmm....

what should you do???  I know it is hard to be more open to people, but if you can (to the ones you trust), it will make you feel better....trust me..I would know...

Don't worry, you'll meet the coolest friend on earth...maybe just haven't seen them yet..probably right in front of you!!!

Hope you get over your stage of 'depression', and you can talk to me anytime...hahhahahhaa...

I think there is going to be at least one in front of me but i probably dont realize it at all. thanks for cheeering me up =]. It's pretty hard to get over my stage of depression. i have too much shit happening around me. Espeically teachers, they blame me something that i didnt do. Other than that, they pissed me off pretty much. i never have long ass converstation w/ anyone cuz of my lack of english, social skills, and etc ..

I've PMed you,
Well, I don't have much to work with, not even a real age...so I'll try.
Your friends are half the problem, either talk to them or find someone who will be trusting, (I suggest either an older girl or an older person in general depending on your age.) Girls seem to be either really good secret keepers or really bad ones. Depending on your age, guys usually won't just listen.

I'm of course generalizing, diffrent people are diffrent. Think of what you think about a stereotype of a typical "guy" and I'm almost totally opposite. (But, I'm not Gay, I know that would have come out of that some how.)

If you ever need to chat, check yer PM's ^_^

my friends are 3/4 of the problems. there is no one i could talk to or trusted them good enough. from where i live, girls are not capable of understanding problems. they laugh at my problems. thats what my friend did to me (yes, she is a girl).

Well maybe you should just try and stay stress free. First off maybe you should take an after school activity something you like to do. Play sports, but since you like drawing I say join an art club. Being a loner has its advantages as well. You can think deeply about things and make sure not to make a fool of yourself in the future. Some girls are harder to make friends with but guys are really fun if you get to know them. Don't worry just go about your regular life. Maybe in school ask someone if you can borrow a pencil or ask if you can sit with them. Ask them for help, you don't have to worry about being boring. In time you will find friends =) good luck hun.

School is over already. i'm on summer vacation. Let me tell you what, i just graduate from middle school w/ honors. So, i dont know much about high school. Yes, i already did join clubs on my high school register package. what i meant by being boring is that, i'm quiet and i'm not even interesting to interact with. i did asked someone to borrow stuff but i end up being too different nor ... i dunno. ( i'm confused 0.o)

Aww this is so Sad [emotionally].  Okay well, hopefully Me and everyone can help you.  You should live life..not looking at it negatively but postively. Try to avoid the many stresses that bring to your life. Just whenever there's a stressful situation that hurts you inside, just avoid it and keep calm and relaxed..don't think to much about it, because it'll get stuck you head..and probably you get those dreams..so yeah.  Also, You should try walking, it releases stress haha, just free your mind of everything, and your intrest in art is a very good thing, because like you said, it helps express what you are feeling inside..and your decision..not forcing you to..but you might want to share your art with people!!(just a suggestion haha).  However, when you said you lack social skills, yea that's kind of rough.. Always try to introduce yourself to people. The best way is to be active in school, like many people said before, join a sport [if you are athletic], join a club, i bet your school has soo much to offer many people a wide range that fits there intrests and personality.  Those are the best ways to meet new people and Make new Trusting friends. Also, your friends that you talked about, in the first place they were NEVER you friends if they put you down like that, lower your self-esteem, puting stress and drama into your life that you don't need and the fact that they won't even try to listen maturly to what you feel and say. But you know, keep your head up, just don't act like its the end of the world..theres so much out there..when you feel like giving up on life..don't..keep on going.  You might not think this..but the people that replied to you CARE a lot for you..try to help you.. You have the whole cB community to befriend..and are waiting to be your friend like ME! hahaha  So if you want to talk, just AIM me/email me/PM me..w/e. Your an awesome and artisitic person..even though i don't know you well enough..but it just seems that way  . So JUST KEEP SMILING.. and yep haha.

I cannot avoid stresses, a problem is a problem. it cannot be run away. Espeically, my dad is very disturbing and annoying. he would distract me and keep on touching me ( gawd, so uncomfortable) when i'm busy doing something important or in a hurry. i cannot even concertrate or think straight so i end up doing something wrong/negative. i even tell him to stop doing it but he still insist on bugging the hell out of me. he even bug me while i was doing homework late at night. he wont shut up once in a while.


i cannot keep calm, i used to getting on nerves. i'm impatient. thanks so much for advise and your infomation. but .. i have a friend who thinks i'm "showing off" what i'm good at. i'm pretty sure he is jealous because he say good things about his stuff and shit to my stuff. he envy me because i always get good grades, get A's on test, score high, artistic, talented, and etc. i bet he isnt proud of who he is .. he just wanted to better and he hate to lose.



edit.

omfg, here he goes again, he is bugging me at 1;15 am.

[elmogurly]

lol..hormones? maybe its just a stage in your life or the real thing, you should try talking to someone close to you about it and try to figure out a good solution, since they know you well and "understand" you. hehe

or maybe just write out whatever you feel in a journal and try to figure out exactly what is wrong?

[demolished]

lol..hormones?  maybe its just a stage in your life or the real thing, you should try talking to someone close to you about it and try to figure out a good solution, since they know you well and "understand" you. hehe

or maybe just write out whatever you feel in a journal and try to figure out exactly what is wrong?

Not really. i never expressed who i am to anyone. People around me made me feel harsh. lol.

[_suzie_]

''how do i know for sure i'm depressed before i wasnt sure that i was depressed?
i took the quiz .. and i'm pretty sure its true ..''


well, do u have to force yourself to eat to stay alive? THATS depression, and it hurts more than anything else. its a darkness that haunts u.

to me u just sound a bit lonely, maybe if u tried giving urself a bit more confidnece to work with, u'd get along with people and have a fun time, maybe make new friends.

not everyones perfect and u gotta accept people will be dickheads. everyone is a d**k now and again. shit happens, nah mean?

[demolished]

''how do i know for sure i'm depressed before i wasnt sure that i was depressed?
i took the quiz .. and i'm pretty sure its true ..''
well, do u have to force yourself to eat to stay alive? THATS depression, and it hurts more than anything else. its a darkness that haunts u.

to me u just sound a bit lonely, maybe if u tried giving urself a bit more confidnece to work with, u'd get along with people and have a fun time, maybe make new friends.

not everyones perfect and u gotta accept people will be dickheads. everyone is a d**k now and again. shit happens, nah mean?

Not realli, i enjoy eating. For some reason, my eating habit changes.Do you know what happen if i get along w/ people? They learn something about me. Suddenly, they wouldnt treat me like a normal person because they know i'm very boring and alot more. i know everyone isnt perfect but why do they have to take over me? They treat me like shit and they probably think they are better than i am. i wouldnt accept these people.