what he sent me., problems.. Options

[nothingless]

he mocked me.. which i hate. i won't say what he mocked me about because then i'll just get upset again. i checked my email this morning and i got mail from him, which he never emailed me. we have been going out for 3 months. he called me this morning around 8 am before i checked my email and read that. it was so hard to talk about anything to him. i just felt like i was starring at a brick wall. why can't i just forgive him? yeah so maybe i shed a couple tears reading this, but i still feel awkard when he is going to come over today before work. we fought alot.. but it is just because he says the wrong thing and i end up clamming up. what should i do? i'm not going to break up with him.. just he is graduating in a couple weeks and college for him is coming up. i= junior.. he= senior. and when he says we will be together.. just the thought of college makes me think we will grow apart.
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Jeanna,
You are more important to me than anything else in the world, and I care
about you very much. I am just feeling so horrible about myself for last night,
and every other time I've hurt your feelings. It literally makes me sick to my
stomach to think that I could have hurt someone that I love so much. What I did
last night was probably the stupidest, most terrible thing I could have done,
and I can't express how sorry I am to have hurt you. When I got home last night,
I just felt so shitty and hated myself so much, I just felt like killing myself.
I love you, Jeanna. But I still can't help but wonder why anyone would still
want to be with me after all the times I've f**ked things up. It worries me so
much, the thought of losing you, that I couldn't even sleep last night. I
promised you I would never ever leave you, and I plan on sticking to that, but I
just can't believe, after all the things that I've done to hurt your feelings,
that you wouldn't want to leave me.
Last night, you said that you weren't a "special person" and that there were
millions of other girls I could be with. But that's just not true. You ARE
special, Jeanna, and I can't even begin to imagine being with anyone else but
you, ever. Since day 1, you've surrounded my entire life. Even before we started
dating, all I could think about was the next time I would get to see you.
Thinking about times on Nate's couch, and showing up at your house randomly, I
just wish that things were still so perfect. All these fights lately, all my
fault. It must be very hard for you to forgive me after so many screw-ups, but I
hope you will find it in yourself to do so. I'm going to change, Jeanna, I
promise you.

I love you so much,
Matt

[kill me please]

ah the letter seems nice.. but what did he do, like why are you mad at him or whatever. are you afraid of losing him or something.. because theres nothing wrong with that, i know how it feels but it doesnt have to be that way, just because hes going to college doesnt mean you to will grow apart.

[enyceXaddiction]

o wow just give him time. that email was sweet.

[nothingless]

i was covering my mouth and trying to be quiet when he was doing something personal to me. and so he mocked me later with the same action. i was like.. wow, you're a bitch.

[*iNyCxShoRT*]

I think you should give him a chance, the email seems very sweet.

[shereyol]

give him another chance, he sounds like he realized he did something wrong. both of you should work it out

[x shootingstar x]

what type of guy is he? anyone can write an email like that. u'r the only one who knows what to do and what you want to do. trust your feelings. i'd say give it some more time. see if things will work out. if you really trust him and love him, forgive him. 3 months may seem long.. but when you look back. maybe it's not.