Letter To A Lover, Not as Fictional as I'd like it to be Options

[Sa-Chan]

Dear Lover,

I wish you could see all the tears I've shed for you. I wish they could surround you in an ocean of sorrow. Love doesn't work like that though, and it's so obvious. Revenge is futile when you give your heart to a person, because hurting you would only hurt me.

It's the fact that you're not around anymore. I don't know, it bothers me. I just don't see how this could possibly be a relationship when we never speak. I just don't see how I can still be in love with you when I stopped listening to your excuses ages ago.

Waiting for your call slowly turned into obsessing about your call. Then, slowly, I started to forget, and I went numb. I just...couldn't remember the sound of your voice, or the contours of your face. I couldn't remember your smile, and I couldn't remember that feeling I got when you told me you loved me.

I stopped smiling, and then I stopped talking...I think I might have stopped living without you. My body just stopped functioning. Everything just felt so cold. I was worried that I would stop breathing, and maybe then I would die....maybe in death I could forget you, but I really doubt it.

When it got so bad that even music couldn't drown out the throbbing of the grief inside my head...I just gave up. Live with the pain and scream when you can. Let it all out. Things don't work out so well that way, though. That way, nothing ever gets better, and my heart just blackened.

I gave up without you, and all I want is death. Just to fade away, you know? If without you I'm nothing, then why live without you at all? Why not just die. Die. Die. Die.

I really can't bring myself to do it though. I'm weak I guess. Just, I'd view it as pathetic now. Still, my heart is broken, and I'd take anything over this. I wonder...if you'd cry knowing you've hurt me this deeply...I know the answer though, you could care less...

This is loneliness....Loneliness when love is witheld.

Witheld. Witheld.

Signed,

Savannah Elise Harrison

[angel-roh]

You wrote this? for reals? dang... some deep emotions here wow...so EMO!!! lol...and depression from a broken heart. if this really was typed by you...wow you have some meaningful words to that someone! it's good i have to say =]

[Sa-Chan]

Yeah, I wrote it. I'm glad you like it. Thank you, and yes...I do have some meaningful words to say to him...I just wish I could.