Wake up and Realize you're a piece of shit Options

[USCavalry]

i basically fell asleep for the past two years, woke up, and realized im a piece of shit

Summary:
i let so many people take advantage of me that i thought all people in general sucked, and in turn became a sucky person. i lost hope in the good things and lived mostly in fear of the bad. because of this fear i tried to compensate by being slightly more macho and a lot more dominant among friends and just in general. its like the douche bags in life are zombies and one of them bit me. you dont know when they bite you, you just slowly start turning into one.

Analysis:
so now im going back through essentially all of my memories and identyfing all the mistakes ive overlooked, especially those in the past couple years. im figuring out that you cant forgive people that take advantage of you, you can only move on and learn to avoid letting it happen again. you can only forgive people who actually want to be forgivenen, otherwise you harbor feelings of resentment beneath a genuine desire of simply forgiving them. im remembering how happy i used to be and am working on unlearning how to think and act like a person that was never really me, but a sort of lesser parallel version of myself.

Conclusion:
thats pretty much it. when the stress becomes almost unbearable i usually always start coming up with huge life and self realizations. im legally bipolar but always refused to take pills because i knew more to life existed beyond chemicals interacting with other chemicals in the brain. i finally am starting to figure out how awesome the world actually is and how awesome of a person i can be if i allow myself

side note: i find it sad that people who take pills ignore their problems and sacrafice inner peace for a diluted sense of reality. i know people like this who are popular, attractive, and always smiling. i used to think if i took pills i would be happy too, but there are issues lingering within them that may never allow them to be truely happy. you can accept the pain and move on, or live with it

edited side note at 2:12 AM

[miguelS]

Nah, I'm pretty awake.
Life's pretty good.
Shit's so cash.
Sucks to be you.

[USCavalry]

I'd like to hear more about this enlightenment you've undergone.

i dont know if my philosophy on forgiveness meshes well with religious texts. i might just have an internal dilema when it comes to forgiveness. to offer an exaggerated example i dont think we can completely forgive a child rapist while they're still raping children. they need to first 'repent' in my mind otherwise you're just tolerating evil. smaller things like not holding the door open should be overlooked

i should have worded my forgiveness bit more like:
"you cant forgive people who repeatedly take advantage of you (and others) until they begin taking initiative in correcting their actions." im not certain but i think repentance and forgiveness go hand in hand according to christianity

[brooklyneast05]

how do you know that people who take pills are "ignoring" their problems? do you know all of them and all of their problems? what if it helps them function? makes them happier? better off? it's condescending to say that since you've chosen not to take medication and believe you're better off, that everyone else should do exactly as you have done regardless of their situation or extent of their problems. a lot of people who take pills aren't taking them to be "happy" they are taking them for a variety of reasons to help them balance severe problems that are way more serious than whether someone is happy or not.

[USCavalry]

how do you know that people who take pills are "ignoring" their problems? what if it helps them function? makes them happier? better off? it's condescending to say that since you've chosen not to take medication and believe you're better off, that everyone else should do exactly as you have done regardless of their situation or extent of their problems.

i realized this statement would be condescending to many people taking prescription medication. i think you're right in extreme cases now that i think of it.
but there has been a large influx of diagnosed depression and other related disorders since the birth of psychology. i think people have begun thinking its normal to take pills before first giving a hard go at attempting to work out their problems. how many cases can you think of when parents blame their kids' actions on drugs? life is far from perfect
this is my opinion. i respect yours

[brooklyneast05]

i realized this statement would be condescending to many people taking prescription medication. i think you're right in extreme cases now that i think of it.
but there has been a large influx of diagnosed depression and other related disorders since the birth of psychology. i think people have begun thinking its normal to take pills before first giving a hard go at attempting to work out their problems. how many cases can you think of when parents blame their kids' actions on drugs?
this is my opinion. It might be flawed, but from how i understand things it is the truth

i agree that too many people take medicine for an easy fix. i just disagree that everyone who takes medication is doing it for this reason, when a lot of people have serious issues and their life is enhanced, and safer, because they take it. (as is those who live with them)

you just made a blanket statement about everyone on medication, so i thought it was completely false and condescending. i agree in the narrower sense of too many people are on medication who might not really need to be.

[USCavalry]

i agree that too many people take medicine for an easy fix. i just disagree that everyone who takes medication is doing it for this reason, when a lot of people have serious issues and their life is enhanced, and safer, because they take it. (as is those who live with them)

you just made a blanket statement about everyone on medication, so i thought it was completely false and condescending. i agree in the narrower sense of too many people are on medication who might not really need to be.

i agree. i summed up everyone that takes pills as being in the same circumstance but that is not the case. thank you for your thoughts, i was slightly flawed in my thinking

edit: i want to strongly encourage those who believe they dont need their medication to try slowly cutting back and replacing it with other activities (i play the piano, listen to music, and vent over CB or just open up word and start writing). like i said im bipolar, i know its not easy

[missnh]

side note: i find it sad that people who take pills ignore their problems and sacrafice inner peace for a diluted sense of reality.

just an fyi, some people are chemically / mentally depressed and it's not their problem. therefore they need pills to feel some sort of stability.


I didn't read the any of the rest of your stupid self-righteous ranting.

and you spelled sacrifice wrong.

[USCavalry]

just an fyi, some people are chemically / mentally depressed and it's not their problem. therefore they need pills to feel some sort of stability.
I didn't read the any of the rest of your stupid self-righteous ranting.

and you spelled sacrifice wrong.

exactly... i know from experience as being a "chemically/mentally depressed person."
i don't agree with popular psychology that my person is in anyway flawed. i am unique and embrace this. this is a corny example but the robot in "irobot" was made different for a reason

do you make a habbit of critiqueing things you apparently dont actually read?
i may be slightly self righteous. if the world puts you down i would consider that a somewhat natural but not justified response. you telling me that your opinion is better than mine is just as self righteous.

i dont care about spelling mistakes while things of greater importance are being discussed. you diminish the point of the conversation at hand by focusing your attention on things of lesser merit. you dont capitalize and your grammar is not perfect, but i could care less.

[mipadi]

just an fyi, some people are chemically / mentally depressed and it's not their problem. therefore they need pills to feel some sort of stability.

It's a chicken-or-egg problem: does a chemical imbalance cause depression, or does depression cause a chemical imbalance? A lot of research indicates that neither one is a clear-cut cause, and there's a close interplay between emotional feelings of depression, and neurochemical symptoms. Thus, I agree that medicine can improve a patient's life in the short-term, and as long as they take the medicine, but I agree with Paladin that working through the underlying causes of depression are important for long-term gains in mental health.

This doesn't necessarily apply to all situations or all mental illnesses, though. For example, schizophrenia seems to require medication in most cases. Bipolarism is a tough case: sometimes it's treatable without drugs, but in most cases, drugs seem to help a great deal.

[kryogenix]

Yes OP, every day I wake up and realize I'm a piece of shit. And I'm ok with that.




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[kryogenix]

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