This Saturday Options

[MissFits]

I have to go to my grammas house so she can tell everyone she's dying.

I'm really scared, and when things scare I tend to not face them. I know I have to go, but I'm the kind of person that will just dip out and by the time people notice I'm already home.

What do you do when you are scared to face something?

[superstitious]

I face it head on. I'll quote one of my favorite lines from Lost (as I feel it's an excellent piece of dialogue that relates to fear):


Well, fear's sort of an odd thing. When I was in residency, my first solo procedure was a spinal surgery on a 16-year-old kid. A girl. And at the end, after 13 hours, I was closing her up and I... I accidentally ripped her dural sack. Shredded it at the base of the spine where all the nerves come together. Membrane as thin as tissue, and... So it ripped open. Nerves just spilled out of her like angel hair pasta, spinal fluid flowing out of her and I... The terror was just so... crazy, so real... and I knew I had to deal with it. So I just made a choice. I'd let the fear in. Let it take over. Let it do its thing. But only for five seconds, that's all I was gonna give it. So I started to count. One, two, three, four, five. And it was gone. I went back to work, sewed her up and she was fine.



Give yourself a few minutes to let the fear take over, then kick fear in the ass.

[aaayotiffany]

i don't deal with fear very well either. things always lead from bad to worse when i don't face them though. so i always try to face them. sometimes i'm successful, sometimes i'm not.

i usually let it soak in and then i'll fight it off. sometimes. it usually depends on the motivation.

[MissFits]

That was a really good quote.
It's just so hard, I'm not ready for her to die yet. She always said she never wanted anyone to cry because she isn't scared of death. She is actually kind of excited to die. She really wants to meet Jesus, she says.

I am usually a strong person but it just keeps reminding me of my dads death, I'm not ready for another funeral, not yet.
My younger sisters don't even know, she told me to make sure I come because I have been known to skip out on family functions. She said she doesn't have a lot of time and she wants to talk to everyone for one last time. It's just tearing me up to know that it's coming soon.

[karmakiller]

I don't really have any advice for you. But losing someone that you care about out of nowhere is different than if you know what's going to happen. It's almost like you've prepared yourself for what life is going to be like without them, rather than having them abruptly being taken from you. It's important that you go, because it's her wishes. And the last thing that you want to do is dissapoint someone that you care about who doesn't have much time. Just spend time with her and take a step back and gather your feelings.

[MissFits]

I went today, and I didn't dip out or freak out at all.
It went a lot better than I expected.

She just told us that her blood pressure is crazy. It spikes and drops very low all the time. Her doctor has tried all kinds of medication for over a year but none of it has helped her. She said that her doctor said she is at a very high risk for a stroke.
She is also in the early stages of Alzheimers, which is terribly lame. I used to volunteer at an Alzheimers clinic near my house and it broke my heart all the time to talk to these people who didn't remember their families, their spouses, or friends. Sometimes they didn't even know who they were. It's a hard thing to watch someone you care about go through that, but now that I think about it she has been forgetting a lot lately. Like, the last time I went to see her she asked me how school was going and I haven't been in school for almost 2 years.

I know I would be there for her, but... it's just really hard, I guess. I just wish she were okay. The whole time she just kept saying "it's God's plan for me". That's not a very fair plan in my opinion. My gramma is an AMAZING woman who would help anyone in anyway they needed, why would God plan such a terrible fate for her?

[shoryuken]

I went today, and I didn't dip out or freak out at all.
It went a lot better than I expected.

She just told us that her blood pressure is crazy. It spikes and drops very low all the time. Her doctor has tried all kinds of medication for over a year but none of it has helped her. She said that her doctor said she is at a very high risk for a stroke.
She is also in the early stages of Alzheimers, which is terribly lame. I used to volunteer at an Alzheimers clinic near my house and it broke my heart all the time to talk to these people who didn't remember their families, their spouses, or friends. Sometimes they didn't even know who they were. It's a hard thing to watch someone you care about go through that, but now that I think about it she has been forgetting a lot lately. Like, the last time I went to see her she asked me how school was going and I haven't been in school for almost 2 years.

I know I would be there for her, but... it's just really hard, I guess. I just wish she were okay. The whole time she just kept saying "it's God's plan for me". That's not a very fair plan in my opinion. My gramma is an AMAZING woman who would help anyone in anyway they needed, why would God plan such a terrible fate for her?

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