best friend Options

[letsgoxdisco]

Right now I am 7 months away from graduating.

The summer between my 10th & 11th grade, my best friend who is a guy I got really close. We were almost inseparable, everything was just peachy, lol. But it really was wonderful.

Then in November or so, I ended up thinking of him as more than a friend, and I really thought he did too. It seemed like there was something more between us than that. It wasn't just me who noticed it, other people did too. So I thought maybe there could be something.

So in March, I told him that I liked him. He never gave me an definite answer to how he felt. He said he didn't know and that if something were to happen, it would. So I waited, and pushed it out of my head for a while. But I thought eventually something would happen.

Of course, it never did. And I got pretty bitter. Big, no HUGE mistake. So, things between us got pretty bad. It never ended either. It went on for like 6 months. I don't even know how we are still best friends.

But we still are. However, things aren't the way they used to be. Naturally, I understand that. But I wish they were so badly. So much that if I think about it too much, it makes me sick.

I want so badly to be close to him like we used to be, and I don't know how. I know that it might not ever work out that way, but I still try. I try to do little things that are kind, in hope that he might still notice that I care a lot.

It's just time is such a huge deal. In 7 months, I probably won't see him again for a long time, and I just don't know if I should try so hard when it seems like we will be parting forever in such a short amount of time.

HELP!! opinions, anything. It's all welcome.

the only plus side is this would make a terrific sonnet, which I have to write for english anyway.

[MissHygienic]

Honestly, there's not a whole lot you can do to make him change his mind or make him feel as if you still care about him as a weird and force things to not be "weird." You want this, and you want that, but it can't always be about you. Give him some space, time, or whatever to let him be comfortable with you again. These things aren't easy to recover from, and I'm sure he's as confused as you are, or something.

One thing: try not to go out of your way as an attempt to reassure him that you want to be good friends again. It will just make it obvious that you're trying too hard; therefore, worsening the situation. Let things heal on their own with time.

[letsgoxdisco]

I understand what you are saying. I mean, what I've said here, especially about missing what we used to have, I keep all to myself. I realize that if I push too hard, I could make it worse, so I don't throw myself at him, I'm not that type of person anyway.

[*jeanna*]

college should be into the pictures..

[letsgoxdisco]

college should be into the pictures..

what do you mean by that?
i am focused on college, that is my main concern. meanwhile, that is in the back of my mind.

i feel like i'm being really needy, and i hate that.

[MissHygienic]

Hmm, well, I think this is one thing you'll have to let go for the time being and, like, reconcile whatever you can. I don't think there's a whole lot you can do on your own to repair such a thing like this. Hopefully he'll come around and things will be better. Too bad it takes effort from both parties.

[TaintedSakura]

I really think you should talk to him about it. To clarify things ya know? Maybe just ask him if he ever thought about you as something more than a friend or If you are unsure of his feelings and just want to go back to the way things were say that you were confused and that you want to put this behind you two and that you really miss how things were... Or just give him space... lol Im not much help but I try

[TaintedSakura]

sorry about the double post... lol