What's Left?.........., Who,why,when,and how am i gonna survive Options

[rAwritsgWeg]

man i dont know what to do anymore im in a foster home type place and i dont know what im gonna do
last nite a kid who lived in the place with me kept tryin to touch me he has been doing that for a long time too.
i had almost snapped in a car while one of the staff was tryin to cool me down
i then was asked by the same staff to just go outside and get it all out
my anger, hate, despair all of it everything negative
i had begun to shake and had nocontrol soon there after
i got lightheaded and collapsed to the ground today problems persisted and i just dont know what im gonna do anymore
i wanna hurt the kid i wanna hurt othre i wanna hurt my self and im getting so close to do all of that
the thing is if i do that then im going to be f**ked over a whole lot(srry for profanity)
i need to leave this place i cant take it anymore
im about to snap and i dont know what i am going to do
do i just end it now or do try to continue on
i find out that i get to go home today and ill be happy
if not i dont know what im gonna do
whatever the outcome is its prolly not gonna be good

plz people i need help normally when i talk to people it gets me calm so plz give advice
(yes this very true and is happening at this very moment)

[*Blow_Don't_SUCK*]

Did he rape you? Or was he just touching you inappropriately? I didn't really understand what you said. Did you tell anyone about this? I suggest you do.

[rAwritsgWeg]

no but i know hes gonna try to really hurt like take a stick and beat me and shit so the only place i can go for now is the library(my current location)
but im scared and the people at the place arent doing enough no he didnt rape me but hes tryin to touch me in places that shouldnt be touched
luckily something good comes out of it i can press charges for assault and shit becuz he has already tried to hit me once and gave me a f**ked up nose(now its fine)
but i just really dont know what to do im scared im not gonna be able to go home
thats what i reeally want to do
man i really scared and angry
id cry but im near alot of people
.................................what am i gonna do

[*Blow_Don't_SUCK*]

^Talk to a guidance counselor in school. Report it to someone who you know can really help you. You have to. You'll keep getting hurt if you keep this a secret.

[rAwritsgWeg]

i cant go to school since i had been moved here
i wish i could
i just wanna leave

[*Blow_Don't_SUCK*]

^You said you were a foster kid. Why not tell your social worker?

[rAwritsgWeg]

well thats being figured out now i did call him so hopefully things will even out but i have a feelin it wont

[rAwritsgWeg]

man i feel as if im turning into a really negative person

[*Blow_Don't_SUCK*]

I'm really sorry things are like this. Did you try the police?

[AnnahhbeL]

i feel really sorry for you

maybe try to talk to anyone that you know, atleast a person that's closer to you. hope everything goes well.

[_sarcastic_]

i'm sorry this is happening.
tell your social worker, report it to someone you trust and you know that person is going to do something about it.

good luck

[angelrevelation]

why don't you tell your foster parent? but your social worker would be best... they could move you somewhere and put that kid into juvenile hall or something.

[Gypsy Eyes]

Have you told your foster parents? If they didn't do anything or if you don't trust them, go straight to the police.

[alphanumeric]

Oh god :[ don't worry girl, im supporting you all the way. i felt like hurting myself too, but im not going throught the same thing. things will heal. you have so much time. as for that guy >;P whomp him

[rAwritsgWeg]

hey guys one thing im not a chick lol(....shes out..)
um good news
the kid is in a physco ward becuz of one final bout last nite luckily it wasnt me

[NgocQuyen]

hmm..i found that if i got rid of all the things that make me stressful, then i don't feel as stressed. (go figure) lols..well first of all. you need to tell the "staff" that they need to keep that kid away from you or you WILL strangle him. (ha) they should believe you. haha =] and second of all. just...don't worry so much. everything gets better. it HAS to get better. just chillax and wait until you get into a home or something and then see where things go from there. just don't worry

[FoxBandCutie08]

IF you're in a foster home don't you have an agent of some sort for you? If so, then tell them about the abuse. Did you file a police report against him when he hurt your nose? If so, then go back to the police and let them know he's at it again. They'll either put him in custody, take you away from them, or take him away from you. And let the police know about the inappropriate touching and they can file a complaint so next time he does it he will get in trouble.

[rAwritsgWeg]

good news
ill be able to go back home on march 6th
that day is also i hope i get some presents and stuff
i havent gotten any in like 4 years

w/e thanks for all the advice

peace

go-go!!!!!!!!!1

[*Blow_Don't_SUCK*]

Congratulations, I'm glad things worked out ^_^

[priyas]

aww..poor thing.
you should tell your foster parents bout that kid...it has serious issues.

[Mikael]

first, you need to take care of that dude. tell your caretaker, hey, hes touching me and hurting me wtf is up with that do something about it. and people will do something. second, continue on, for crap will continue on as well. fight till you get out. till then, have a hobbie, do sports, read books, build crafts, do anything to get everything off your head. get yourself a really good best friend, 2 if you can, and you'll be set.