Hilary, <333333333333333333333333 Options

[*salcha*]

So we were in the chatroom having the time of our lives unscrambling words when the screename "HeeWee" came in.
I'm keeping all updates of her up here.

Nov 29- 5:10 pm PST
HeeeeWeeee: Hey guys. This isn't Hilary.
HeeeeWeeee: This is Hilary's sister. I'm supposed to deliver a message to you all.
HeeeeWeeee: Okay. Late last night Hilary slipped into a coma and she's not doing so well.
HeeeeWeeee: She wanted me to tell you guys if anything happened.
HeeeeWeeee: I'm her younger sister.
HeeeeWeeee: Well, she's not doing well at all. She's not breathing very well and her heart rate has been dropping.
HeeeeWeeee: Well, she passed out and she was never able to wake up.
HeeeeWeeee: Yes, she's in the hospital.
HeeeeWeeee: I'm sorry to have to give you guys that news.
HeeeeWeeee: I'll update you guys frequently and especially if there are any changes.
HeeeeWeeee: Yeah, it's been a tough day for my family but we all faith that she'll pull through.
HeeeeWeeee: I'm going to go now but I'll leave up an away message on her screename in case anybody has any questions or messages you want me to give her.

Nov 29- 7:39 pm PST
HeeeeWeeee: She's on a ventilator right now and her heart rate has dropped into the 30s.
HeeeeWeeee: They're not sure if she'll make it through the night.


Nov 30- 8:25pm PST
HeeeeWeeee: Well, things were really tough last night. She got through the night alright, though.
HeeeeWeeee: She was looking a little better early this morning but then she went downhill.
HeeeeWeeee: No. Guys, it's really hard for me to say this...
HeeeeWeeee: but
HeeeeWeeee: Hilary passed away around 10 this morning.
HeeeeWeeee: I'm sorry to have to break the news to you guys.
HeeeeWeeee: Thanks both of you. I was pretty close to Hilary and it's kind of hard to think about that she's even gone right now. I keep thinking that she's going to come home and walk in the door any second.
HeeeeWeeee: I appreciate everybody's support. This is something that is really hard for me to do but I know that you are Hilary's friends and so I'm doing it for her.

RIP Hilary. I'm sorry.
You will definitely be missed.

I wish I got to know you better. We all love you, I'm just positively speechless right now because...it's hard. It's hard for us and your family. I've always admired you, from that time you said that you had to give up smkoing for your baby all the way till we got to know each other. Thanks for putting up with us. You were always open to anything, even when we were talking about your sickness. In the words of you..."I just want to live a life as normally as possible."

Look at some of her last words, you guys
http://www.createblog.com/forums/index.php?showuser=91641

I feel like I'm letting everybody down for not being strong enough.

Dear cB diary,

I'm sooo emotionally confused and physically weak. I don't have the energy to think about all the things whirling around in my head so I just break down and cry. I'm sick of this. I wish I could rewind time back to when I was happy and healthy. Before I made bad decisions that changed my life forever.

I don't know how long I have left to live and this fact is constantly in the back of my mind. I feel like I've been taking life for granted and now that I know that it is a very real possibility that I could die, I wish I paid attention to the small things in life. I'm regretting not spending as much time with my family as I should have in the past and I also regret wasting so much time doing nothing.

I'm so scared. I don't want to die. I've worked soooo hard since last March to turn my life around and now all my work might mean nothing. I just got accepted to two colleges and I hate thinking that I wasted my time applying to them if I might not even be around next year to go off to college. And if I am, will I be too sick to go?

I don't understand my doctors. I just got put on a new medication to raise my blood pressure but the medicine also has side affects that will make me even weaker, sicker, give me chills, and lower my heart rate. My resting heart rate is already in the low 50s so if it is lowered, it'll be in the mid 40s. When I go to sleep, my heart rate will drop even lower....which means that every night when I go to sleep, there's no guarantee that I'll wake up the next morning. This medicine is interacting with another one of my medications. I am taking a medicine so that my tumor that I had removed in May won't grow back and the interaction between my tumor medicine and my blood pressure medicine is making me really really sick. I can't stop the tumor medicine because my tumor could grow back (which means cancer) and I can't stop the blood pressure medication because I could collapse almost every day (and when I collapse, my heart stops for 15 seconds.....which means I could die).

This is all so complicated and I just don't want to deal with it. I need to talk to somebody that I can open up to. I don't want to tell my friends because I'm afraid that they'll be all worried about me. On the other hand, they might be mad that I didn't tell them if they somehow found out.

So all I can do is cry myself to sleep every night and hope that I wake up the next morning.

-Hilary

-I'm dying but I don't want to tell my friends. I don't know what to do because I don't want them to worry about me but if they find out, they'll probably be mad that I didn't tell them.

-I cry myself to sleep every night

-My parents are having custody fights and it hurts to hear them arguing about who's turn it is to take care of us. Only my sister and I know.

I'm pretending to be emotionally strong in front of my family about the situation I'm in but really, I'm crumbling on the inside. I'm scared shitless

It breaks me to read those. There's more, just look through her posts.

http://www.myspace.com/behindthesmile06


DrEaMgUy2K1: you can be sad for her if you want but i suggest you be happy for her , shes in a better place now we shouldnt remember her jus cuz she died but who she was
joooooleeah: no more suffering
DrEaMgUy2K1: keep her in your hearts but dont feel responsible for not being able to do
DrEaMgUy2K1: anything

OBVIOUSLY THIS IS ALL A LIE

In the chatroom, we went through her myspace,
last login? December 1.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v20/hunnysickle/sdfsfs.jpg

Next, we started to IM her friends from there.
AND WHAT DID WE GET??


Friend #1
findin sandy: findin sandy: hiii
getinthehole4206: hi
findin sandy: do you know of a girl
findin sandy: name hilary
getinthehole4206: yeah
getinthehole4206: why
findin sandy: Hilary Anne Keegan
findin sandy: her.
getinthehole4206: yes
findin sandy: i'm wondering
findin sandy: did she pass away a few days ago
getinthehole4206: no
getinthehole4206: why?
findin sandy: oh...
getinthehole4206: who is this?
findin sandy: some girl.. i goto createblogforum
getinthehole4206: okay, why are you asking me this?
findin sandy: http://www.createblog.com/forums/index.php?showtopic=112400
findin sandy: because of that.
findin sandy: are you sure hilary didnt pass away
getinthehole4206: yes, i talked to her today
findin sandy: do you see the thread..
findin sandy: is hilary really sick too
getinthehole4206: who is this?
findin sandy: just some girl who goes on that forum.
getinthehole4206: yes she is
getinthehole4206: this is just...really odd to me
getinthehole4206: i talked to her today
findin sandy: well. hilarys the one that punked us
findin sandy: if that is the same girl
getinthehole4206: no, hilary would not do that
findin sandy: http://images5.theimagehosting.com/Picture70.1.jpg
findin sandy: is that the same hilary you know
getinthehole4206: all you need to know is shes alive
getinthehole4206: this is sick

Friend #2
TrthBtyFrdLove: hey
TrthBtyFrdLove: who is this?
TrthBtyFrdLove: I'm a friend of Hilary's
findin sandy: this is sandy

Auto response from TrthBtyFrdLove: where are my freaking heels?!

findin sandy: i go to this forum
findin sandy: and her sister imed everybody in this chat
TrthBtyFrdLove: okay
findin sandy: and said hilary passed away
findin sandy: i was curious to see if it was true
findin sandy: want to see the site?
TrthBtyFrdLove: No, look
TrthBtyFrdLove: ...hold up\
findin sandy: alright
TrthBtyFrdLove: BEHiNDTHESMiLE06: hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii miranda. i love you :-D
TrthBtyFrdLove: That is hilary
findin sandy: OH
TrthBtyFrdLove: I got that around 8pm
findin sandy: does she have another aim sn
TrthBtyFrdLove: Hilary?
findin sandy: yes
TrthBtyFrdLove: Not that I know of.
TrthBtyFrdLove: what's going on?
findin sandy: omg


alright, we figured it out.
After IMing a ton of people and trying to sort this all out, the first friend up there told us that hilary's sn was Behindthesmile06 or something. Which is the same user as her myspace which has pictures that HeeWee on cB used. Then the sn Behindthesmile IMs Sandy:


findin sandy: BEHiNDTHESMiLE06: hey can you explaih something to me?
findin sandy: yeah
BEHiNDTHESMiLE06: um who the hell are yoU?
findin sandy: i'm sandy
BEHiNDTHESMiLE06: sorry i'm just SOOO confused
BEHiNDTHESMiLE06: because my friends just called me and told me that you knew me?
BEHiNDTHESMiLE06: and i don't know you
findin sandy: http://www.createblog.com/forums/index.php?showtopic=112400
findin sandy: somebody is posing as you.
findin sandy: that hilary went to a create blog forum
findin sandy: and i know this because i found your myspace
findin sandy: and her pictures
findin sandy: her webcam pictures
findin sandy: because she posts in members pic
BEHiNDTHESMiLE06: is there any way to delete all of this?
BEHiNDTHESMiLE06: this is soooooo weird
findin sandy: i have no idea
findin sandy: did you use to go on createblog.com
BEHiNDTHESMiLE06: i've never signed up. i might have one time or another for xanga a long time ago or something
findin sandy: do you know of the sn
findin sandy: thesweetescape
BEHiNDTHESMiLE06: no i dont
findin sandy: how about heeeeweeee
BEHiNDTHESMiLE06: no
chef boyarding: heewee stole behindthesmile's



SCAM.

This post has been edited by salcha: Dec 2 2005, 01:08 AM

[*jooleeah*]

Guys, please pray for her.

Hilary...we loveee you. So muuuch.

[*disco infiltrator*]

Oh man. I'm sorry for everyone on here that was friends with her, and her family..

What happened, if anyone knows, or minds me asking?

[Joss-eh-lime]

hey im not sure who u are but i really hope your sister gets better i will totally pray for you guys

[*incoherent*]

nooo! hilary, you are one of the coolest people here and its been nice getting to know you. pull through, we all know you can. we all love you and hope to see you better soon.

i miss our convos we had over the summer and the great tag team we made in the hate thread against max and katt, even though the hate kinda fizzled away.

i mean what i said, but i guess the "hilary" i actually knew wasnt real.

[HolyMoly]

Hilary who?

[*salcha*]

It's a loooong story. It started out all the way in the spring or something, and she's been having a lot of problems ever since. Like, she said she collapses once a day and that she knew that she wouldn't be able to live for very long either. And doctors said that there was nothing they could do to help. :/

[*tweeak*]

Aww, that's so terrible, but really good of her sister to take the time to get on chat to inform us :[

[*jooleeah*]

^x3
If you actually read the topic, you would've realized that we are NOT talking about hilary duff.

Edit:// You editted. Thanks for making me sound like a complete dumbass ;x

This post has been edited by jooleeah: Nov 29 2005, 08:20 PM

[Looow]

Oh my god.

Oh my god.

Hilary, we love you. Oh I realllly hope you get better.

Love you, love you love you.

[yummy_delight]

Oh my gosh.

Stay strong, Hilary. I'm sure you'll pull through.

You're in my prayers, doll.

[*chaneun*]

Aww. I hope Hilary gets well soon.

[Kenado]

This is quite shcocking. :( I'm sorry to hear this yes I will pray and hope Hillary gets better.

[iDecay]

Awww.. I hope you get better Hilary!

[Gigi]

Oh my god...I'm shocked. That's terrible...

I really hope she gets better.

[*not_your_average*]

<3333333Hilary.

You're gonna have a kickass time at whatever college you go to. And I expect to see your most widely circulated column in the Wall Street Journal someday. <3333

[Tribal J_Rome]

omg.....


stay strong Hill, I know ur gonna make it....

:(

<33333333333333333333333333

[freeflow]

aww ..i've never talked to her personally but i really really hope she gets better. This is terrible

[Mulder]

i never really knew her but i hope she gets better!

[Nugget]

Goodness.. I was just getting to know her to. She's a really kind girl, guys. She's always making me laugh. I just really, REALLY hopes she recovers.

Hilary, you are going to be well and healthy. We'll be laughing once again. Stay stong, girl.

[heyyfrankie]

aww. :[[
that's so sad.

[mzbbc]

That is so awful. Please, please, please get better.

With all our love.

[*takingbacksandy*]

i really do hope you get better hilary
you will be in my prayers.

[*Funkadelic.Kiss*]

oh gosh, hilary we have never really talk but hope you are going better soon.
good luck hilary

[Julietary]

aww.. i really hope hilary gets better <33

[*StanleyThePanda*]

Get better Hilary!
We all love you
I will deffinately pray for you and your family

[EddieV]

I'll definetly keep Hilary in my prayers. God Bless Her.

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

Im lighting my candles and praying ):

[*nightmare4taki*]

You will be in my prayers. I hope you pull through. Stay strong.

[*salcha*]

Update from her sister.

HeeeeWeeee: She's on a ventilator right now and her heart rate has dropped into the 30s.
HeeeeWeeee: They're not sure if she'll make it through the night.

she needs your prayers.

[Fabio.]

Oh my gosh. I will be praying, seriously. And I never even got to meet her.

[*stephinika*]

oh my god... i didn't know hilary but that well but that's just heartbreaking.
i'm definitely keeping her in mind.

[Just_Dream]

HILARY! OMG... I miss our phone parties.. *sigh*

Please hang on.

See, I've talked to Hilary many times in the past and she's such a strong person... I didn't even know that she collapsed or anything. We don't talk as much anymore and it's been a while. Hilary, I still have your number.. is it the same as it was 5 months ago? :/ I hope so...

Hilary, if you're able to read this now (whether it be today, tomorrow, days or months from this day), despite all those bad things that have happened in the past, people care about you. You're an amazing person.

And that time, during a family controversy, you were in tears. When I hear people weep, it makes me really sad and I sorta cried too. Knowing that you had to deal with so many things in your life, you still pull through...

Once again, you're an amazing person. Playing sports, getting good grades, having to deal with the you-who-what and family problems as well, you're inspirational.

Take great care of yourself...

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

oh my god... i didn't know hilary but that well but that's just heartbreaking.
i'm definitely keeping her in mind.

Same.

I didnt know her that well but i really do hope that she pulls through. I am going to go to church and pray tomorrow for her better being.

[Im So Vain]

I am very sorry to hear that. And Im sure I speak on behalf of everyone on CB when I say we hope that she gets well soon.

[*lolita kitty*]

ohmygod. I already knew what was coming just looking at the topic title.
That is just so sad. I'm praying for her. She's so young.

[Teesa]

Hilary--I know you don't know me, but I feel like I have missed out on having the opportunity to meet such an amazing girl, from all the good things I hear about you. I hope you make it through fine and know that we're all thinking of you.

[DrEaMgUy2K1]

Hilary who?

where the hells my baby powder, ima need to pimp slap this bitch. Honestly, if you read the thread , and u dont know her then just move along, dont f**kin post some inconciderate comment to just get your post count up.

Anyways, hilary knows i wish her the best. I've known hilary since i joined cb and shes one of those people you cant just forget even if its an online friendship. whether it be in the chatroom or on skype , i enjoy talking to you. It kinda sucked when u told us you were dying and there was nothing doctors can do to help your chance of survival but im glad you personally told us, it means alot and you know we all care for you. Well i seriously hope you get better , theres nothing much i can do but to keep you in mind and hope you get better. Please if you dont know her dont spam the thread,have some sense of compassion.

And on another note, her sister personally went into the chatroom and told us this and answered our questions, and iono about you but i would find that hard to do. So i really appreciate her sisters courage and loyalty to her sister to do something this painful for us.

[angel-roh]

LOL I also thought this person was talking about Hilary Duff -_-;;

Anyways... I don't know who this Hilary girl is. But good luck on your health problem. Having many problems sucks. I know cause I've experienced that. Not the same problem as Hilary but having lots of bad health problems.

[misoshiru]

ohno :(
hilary i hope you pull through.

she's such a sweet girl.

[Nicolatofu]

Wow, I'm so sorry to hear this! Best wishes to her and hopefully she will come out of this alright.

[xangelkissesx]

I don't you but I hope and pray that you get better soon. Just stay strong hunni

[JustAnotherTeena...]

Awww... I have no clue who Hilary is, but she's in my prayers anyways. Get better soon!

[Rachel]

Hilary, even though I didn't know you too well, you were an amazing person. Everything tha tyou have been through, you were an inspiration. Please get better, we are all praying for you.

[Retrogressive]

Hilary!!! My prayers go to you, please get better.

[ecargnmyst]

awhi dont know her.. but please get better!

[racoons > you]

'how can a light that burned so brightly... suddenly burn so pale?'

i hate that anyone has to go through this. i don tknow you well, we spoke a couple of times, but i admired you.

stay strong

[b0st0ngrl]

Omg, that's terrible.. I really hope she gets better..

[waccoon]

Please get better.

[*chaneun*]

her sister updated us last night, but aim signed me off.

[misskentucky]

That's.. horrible. I wish you the best, Hilary. :(

[*lil_chubby_cheeks2*]

oh my goshhhhh
this is..........ugh sucks
get well very soon hilary
we love you

[*salcha*]

If anyone has heard updates from Amanda (her sister), can they post them here so I can edit?

[steezahh]

Aww, that's so terrible, but really good of her sister to take the time to get on chat to inform us :[

yeah i agreee. does anyone know her username? i actually dont know many people by their names! lets pray y`all.

[*salcha*]

Yeah, it's in the topic

HeeWee

[steezahh]

oh thanks... :] im slow.

[so0o_contagious]

oohhh noo.
=[. this is horrible. well im only familiar with her username, and i didnt know her at all. but by everyones reactions i can tell she was a good person. ill keep her in my prayers until she gets better. =[

[whomps]

Ahhh ! Hilary ! You better come back and get better and start posting !!

[*jooleeah*]

HeeeeWeeee (11:07:03 PM): Hello.
HeeeeWeeee (11:07:21 PM): This is Amanda.
HeeeeWeeee (11:07:50 PM): Well, things were really tough last night. She got through the night alright, though.
HeeeeWeeee (11:08:11 PM): She was looking a little better early this morning but then she went downhill.
HeeeeWeeee (11:08:28 PM): No. Guys, it's really hard for me to say this..
HeeeeWeeee (11:08:37 PM): but
HeeeeWeeee (11:08:49 PM): Hilary passed away around 10 this morning.
HeeeeWeeee (11:09:34 PM): It's been really tough for me and everybody today.
HeeeeWeeee (11:09:50 PM): I'm sorry to have to break the news to you guys.
HeeeeWeeee (11:10:00 PM): Thanks.
HeeeeWeeee (11:10:38 PM): I'm sorry...
HeeeeWeeee (11:11:35 PM): Thanks both of you. I was pretty close to Hilary and it's kind of hard to think about that she's even gone right now. I keep thinking that she's going to come home and walk in the door any second.
HeeeeWeeee (11:13:14 PM): Bye. Thank you.
HeeeeWeeee (11:14:14 PM): I appreciate everybody's support. This is something that is really hard for me to do but I know that you are Hilary's friends and so I'm doing it for her.

R.I.P., Hilary. I miss you and love you. So, so much.

Hilary, I really thought you were going to make it. You were such a strong young woman. I prayed for you. Everybody prayed for you. Look at how many people love you, Hilary! You are so loved. So, so loved. You are in a better place no. No more pain. No more stressing and worrying. No more living life in fear of dying. You know, I have never experienced this. I never thought I would meet such a sweet girl with such a sad history. I don't know how I would be like if I were eer in your shoes. I bet you're smiling down upon us, right at this moment. I love you.

[DrEaMgUy2K1]

damn i was so happy to hear she made it through the night but then there was more bad news, i was shocked and all i can do is say thank you and give me condelensces to her and her family....it was hard but yea im glad we know what happened.

hilary you were a good friend and we all loved you, i hope you are able to R.I.P. knowing that you were loved by many , see you someday ><;

love,
vinh

[*nightmare4taki*]

RIP Hilary.

My condolences. The best of wishes to your family. Everyone keep your heads up.
Always remember the good times.

Your family will be in my prayers.

[*takingbacksandy*]

i miss you hilary.
r.i.p.


i don't know what to say. i swore you were going to make it, this is unbelievable. i felt that you were going to pull through and come back to chat to talk to us, to tell us everything is all better, everything is okay. i knew you were suffering from health problems for a year.. but i didn't know you were going to go away just like that. i never told you that i admired you, but i really do. to me, i'm sorry you had to suffer through all that. i am still in shock. i'm going to miss you.

This post has been edited by takingbacksandy: Nov 30 2005, 11:37 PM

[*salcha*]

RIP HILARY
I loved you, but I'm sorry i couldn't have gotten to know you better.

You were too young, just celebrated your 17th birthday. So many memories, so many friends. You know we always got your back.

[HongKongDong]

R.i.P Hilary. It was sorta fun talking and messing with you in the chat. Now what sex fiend am I going to pick on now? :P jp jp jp. Seriously though, you were on just a couple days ago and you said you were alright. Another life in this world that passes us by, i'm sorry that you had to go so got damned early. Guess all we have is your memory in the skies, so imma show that r.i.p, bust a tear and go on cry. I really hate it when people pass away, but it really is inevitable, all of us will pass on. At such a young age, with still so much to do. It really sucks, I really have nothing to say. Only thing I have to say is, im sorry I never was nice to you for that one day that I promised and sorry that your gone.

~Rikki~

[*disco infiltrator*]

I'm going to pin this because people close to her want it to be, and it's important.

I'm so sorry guys. I'm on the verge of tears and I didn't even know her..

[EddieV]

R.I.P. Hilary

You now go to a better place. Thanks for accepting me as a friend online. You have been a really good person. We will all miss you dearly. I will have your family in my prayers.

P.S. We'll all meet up when we get there.

<3 Eddie

[*salcha*]

I'm sorry, Hilary. I know you stayed strong though.
Much love from all your friends, we're all thinking about you in the chatroom.

[sprezzatura]

RIP Hilary.
Although I don't know you, but I know you must have a really awesome personality according to our fellow cb-ers.

It is just too sad to hear about it. *sobs*

[*stephinika*]

I'm so sorry guys. I'm on the verge of tears and I didn't even know her..

me too...i just can't believe it.
hilary, you will be missed by many. from what i know you were a great girl and i hope you're now pain-free.
r.i.p.

[HongKongDong]

One last thing Hilary... one last thing. Thank you for being a friend even through all my a-holeness. You will be remember by a lot, peace ez Riko out.

~Rikki~

[DaTru KataLYST]

This breaks my heart. I can only hope her family will recover from this terrible loss. Rest in peace, Hilary. This world is a cruel and unfair world, and I want to thank Amanda for passing the message to us.

Rest in peace, dear Sister.

[*lolita kitty*]

That is just, wow.... I can not believe it
I was just expecting her to come back...
R.I.P hilary. I didn't ever get a chance to get to know you, but you seemed like such a sweet girl.

[xmkaex]

r.i.p

[HongKongDong]

I saw a post of yours Hilary. You said you were sorry that you weren't strong enough for everyone else. Well for everyone elses sake, lets hope that you didn't cry and pulled through, because they win when your soul dies. I don't know, I haven't been on lately, ironic that I come on the day you go. Theres a lot in my head for you right now, i'm just hoping that you did stay strong.

[Gigi]

I don't know what to say to this...but I know you're in a better place. My deepest, deepest condolences to your family.

Rest in peace.

[*salcha*]

anonymous shoutouts are filled for you, hilary.
this isn't going to go away for a long long time.

i dont know what feeling i'm feeling or what feeling im supposed to have.


DrEaMgUy2K1: you can be sad for her if you want but i suggest you be happy for her , shes in a better place now we shouldnt remember her jus cuz she died but who she was
joooooleeah: no more suffering
DrEaMgUy2K1: keep her in your hearts but dont feel responsible for not being able to do
DrEaMgUy2K1: anything

vinh's right you guys. keep your heads up.

[yummy_delight]

Dear Hilary:

This is all so sudden. I can't believe that you're gone. I know I never really got to know you as well as I would have liked, but from what I've seen of you, you are a strong, brilliant, beautiful person.

Your last words here said that you were worried that you were letting everybody down because you thought you weren't strong enough. But, baby, you were. You've been through so much: the loss of your child, the cruelty of some people here, and your illness. You braved it all with strength, with perseverance, and with so much love in your heart.

Sometimes, I don't understand why God does what He does, but with you, I know why. He has taken you with Him to a place where you won't have to feel any more pain. I know in my heart that you are in a better place. I know that where you are you will finally be at peace.

Hilary, you were and still are in our hearts, our thoughts, and our prayers. We will never forget you. We love you, Hilary.

[hi-C]

Oh my god. That's really all I have to say. Oh my god.

It's times like these that really put things into perspective, reminds us all that our time here is precious.

Rest in peace, Hilary.

[Just_Dream]

.. Hilary.. Vinh's right. Hilary you were an amazing person. I wish she could've seen all the wonderful things we've said about her.

I know I already said this once, but right now all I can think about when I see her name was that conversation.. that sole conversation that I had with her when she was in tears. Hilary, you ARE loved... Maybe it wasn't shown by a certain parent and she definitely took you for granted, but you were still an amazing person... There were so many things I wanted to ask you...

I can still remember your cute voice and how you talked about playing Lacrosse and how you were in.. was it.. water polo? I remember you telling me how you knew how to swim and how you were a lifeguard. I remember what you told me about the baby's father...

You were a dazzling and beautiful woman, inside and out.

*sigh* RIP Hilary.

[*Funkadelic.Kiss*]

omg. hilary. at least you will be in peace.
RIP

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

.. Im speechless as what to say as of the moment. I spent the whole day worrying, about if this thread was updated on her health. And i think dreamguy2k1 is right. Of course, we will all mourn her death. But be happy shes no longer suffering emotionally and physically, and is finally with her beautiful baby girl again.


Rest In Peace.

[Retrogressive]

You were seriously on my get to know you list, I was just afraid to approch you. I'm speechless.

[*Tainted Euphoria*]

Hilary. I never had much of a chance to get to know you, and now, I truly regret it. The words I'd seen from you were wise, caring, and mature, all at once. You were a wonderful person, and I admire the fact that you still had love for cBers through your darkest hours. Please, dear woman, rest in peace. Believe me, you will be missed.

[misoshiru]

ohmygod hilary

i can't believe this. i really wish i'd gotten to know you better. you were such a kind and sweet person to everyone. but at least, i'm glad that you managed to turn your life around before this. and for that, i commend you.

fly for us hilary. r.i.p.

[_sarcastic_]

omgosh, i wish i had gotten to known you better
RIP hiliary:flowers:

[b0st0ngrl]

Rest in peace, Hilary. I wish I could have gotten to know you.. It's so sad that this has to happen to some of the best people.

[silver-rain]

Oh wow... Rest in Peace Hilary. I didn't really know you, and now I wish I had because you seem like such a great girl. But, at least you're in a better place now.
RIP.

[whomps]

Oh gosh Hilary.. I'll never forget you.

[*mona lisa*]

Wow. I never knew you, but I know that you will be greatly missed.

May God rest your soul. RIP.

[Tribal J_Rome]

damn.........
...for that split second of relieve i thought you made it Hillary. i didn't know there was gonna be any bad news after "she made it through the night" and like vinh i was relieved to hear that and then your sister dropped the a-bomb. i was so lost for words i didn't know what to say. i was just getting to know you too. you were strong for putting up that fight as long as you could and i'm amazed you knew it was gonna take it's toll like you could tell the future or something. whenever u said something bad might happen and you were letting us know ahead of time i was hoping you were wrong, i know i speak for cbc when i say that. i know you're off in a better place now, no pain, no suffering, just harmony and bet you're spending it with your baby girl. rest in peace buddy.

[F_L_I_P]

Hilary. rest in peace. I admire you so. you went through something none of us ever went through and never gave up. I wish I knew you better. But I am glad to know you. you are a very strong person.

-Phil-

[racoons > you]

<3

condolences to all who knew her well, online and off line

R.I.P.

[ClaudelGFX]

Uhmm, i dont want to repeat what all others said before, i only wish i never said anything wrong to you or made you feel bad about anything or related, in any cb fights or anything like during the time we both was here, and i hope that "there" where you are now, you'll have a new fresh start from where you can see and feel the "life" with another eyes and you will actually enjoy`it,

Rest In Peace Heewee,
another lost soul, eternal sunshine and flowers upon your grave.

[*Weird addiction*]

My condolences to all her friends and family.

R.I.P Hilary.

[Nugget]

Omg.. I can't believe it. I.. never knew that you're gone. I'm so sorry. We had so many fun times. I'll always remember them even if they were from online. You put a smile to my face. RIP

[jennyjenny]

Oh my god.

I read that and was pretty freaking shocked.

That's really scary because I remember I was in the chat with her once and she was saying how she's sick and something about her heart. And another time when she said that she was going to get put in a hospital.

I wish I had gotten to know her better, and it must've been hard for her. I guess I'm just really sad to know that she's gone now.

Rest in peace, Hilary.

[mzbbc]

hilary,

i wish i got the chance to know you better. it seems like it's all i can do right now to stop myself from crying. i feel so sad. it feels all quiet and tight inside of me, that sadness that you get when for once it's not about your own selfishness. baby, you had so much love here in cB. i know you must be happy in a better place surrounded by more even people who love you. you stayed strong and you must have died beautiful. love, love, love, love,

Maia.

Rest in Peace.

[xangelkissesx]

I don't know what to say but may you R.I.P

[Aoiro]

I was crying when I read this...
Even if I didn't know her, she was such a sweet girl.
I really can't believe that happened.
It didn't happen...
It didn't.


Rest in Peace Hilary.

[glit_gal]

I don't know Hilary, but nevertheless may you rest in peace.