Misunderstood, I really need some advice Options

[seremela_culnamo]

Hey everyone,

I never posted my love problems here before, but I really need some advice this time. To sum it up, it's about my guy who I became new friends with, exactly a week from today. I have always though he was cute and smart ever since last year, but I never got the chance to talk to him then. But now, after getting an opportunity last week when we spent the class outside since the teacher was busy, I finally got to know him. But here's what happened today. Please tell me what you think. It's taken from my latest update, but since my sibling knows my website, I don't think it will be too great if everyone reads about it on my actual site and say what they think on it.

"Enjoy" :

Completely broke down after school. I couldn't hold the tears in anymore. I felt like breaking down ever since after lunch. So yea. I'm really sorry if I freaked any of you out. But the hugs kinda helped and he was there. I'm so freaked out that he knew I had feelings for him. So it all started off like this...

So I'm on the verge of a complete breakdown. I began crying in the halls while Sarah was there for me. But I really wanted to talk to Alex, too. Since he knows all about it. But he happened to be at Dean's locker [let's call him Dean since I don't want everyone to know about who he is]. Since I didn't want Dean to see me in this state, I told Sarah to get Alex and she does. They come around the corner and I just gave Alex a hug, while Dean kept on asking me what was wrong. Blablabla. It went on for awhile and then I just had to get out of there. He was there and just looking at him with all these butterflies and emotions swelling up inside of me just wanted me to give him a hug and run off or something. Anyway, I began walking off while saying "bye" to Alex. Dean stays behind to talk to him while Sarah came after me, making sure I'm okay. I don't know exactly what he said to Alex, except the fact that he would kick his ass if he hurted me while holding onto him from stop him from leaving. Obviously Alex didn't, so yea. Then he comes after us, making sure I was okay and trying to get me to tell him what's wrong. Don't worry, Sarah, I'm pretty sure he will never do anything like that to you even if you happen to piss me off or whatever.

Sarah then leaves and we walk down the hall, while he tries to get me to tell him what's wrong and saying how worried he was about me. It was kinda nice, but at the same time, all too weird since I was crying over him. Especially when he started to nudge me and stuff. Meh, anyway, we get outside the school. So we're walking towards the bike racks since I head that way. He asked if I wanted to grab a coffee, but since I don't like it, I told him that. So he offered to buy me something to drink, but I said that I didn't really have the appetite for anything. So yea. I just told him that I will probably wander around the streets or whatever until I'm ready to go home. He said he had all the time in the world and offered to walk me home, making sure that I'm okay. I felt surprised by his offer, since even though I like him a lot and stuff, we've actually only known one another a week from today. Anyway, I told him that I should be okay but he could tell I wasn't. So he decided to walk me home. There were points where he would just start starring at me, making me totally want to blush and look away, trying not to smile foolishly or anything.

It was a nice long walk. I enjoyed it and since I was still a bit down even though his offer made my day in some ways, I walked really slow. So yea. Like savouring the moment you could say. I asked him whether he wanted to take the short cut or the long way, but he suggested the short cut. Since the long way meant that others were around and the short cut, there was nobody else on the streets. So yea. It all went well, even though he ended up asking me if I was cold twice. I was a bit, since it was a bit windy and it was raining. I don't know what happened, but he can't seem to tell me what he thought that made me sad. I asked him twice, but he said it would only make me more disappointed. What can that mean?

Anyway, we finally reached home. Sigh* I was so embarassed that he will be like, that's the colour of your garage or something. So I warned him about it. But yea. It was okay. He thought the pink was "hot". But yea. I was even more embarassed as we approached my house. I wanted to give him a hug before he left, saying that it was for being there for me even though we just met last week and stuff. Guess what happened though? It was a horrible timing. At that moment, my dad driving my brother from school comes home. So I'm like crap. We were almost at my house and I just turned around, walking backwards, freaking out. Saying that my dad might get the wrong impression or something. So he tells me that I will tell them that he lives on my street and we were just walking home together. Sigh* Smart guy. Making that up right on the spot.

Argh, now I'm worried about him. He was running low on money and he lives far away. From what I was just told, he was asking Alex for some change so he can take the bus home. Sigh* I told him that I can give him money, but he said he can't do that. Especially at the state that I'm in. So yea. He has to walk around the entire cresent and back home now. I hope it doesn't start raining again. I was so tempted to just give him a hug, but knowing better that my family saw me, I couldn't.

Sigh* right now: I'm happy for what happened, worried about him getting home and many other things. I agree with what Sarah said on MSN though. She said: "I honestly think tho, that u should tell him. because of the way he reacted towards the fact that u were upset AND that he walked you home can't juss be about a friend caring about another friend..." Sigh* True, he did offer to walk me home. My tone and expression just said it all, that when I said I'm okay, I really wasn't. As well, he did seem quite worked up when he saw me crying. This is so confusing.

Oi* I just remembered so I'm updating again, but yea. I don't know if his guess of why I was disappointed had anything to do with Sarah talking about him after school. Our secret code, the word we use when he's nearby and we're talking, I totally forgot about it. Okay, so like he forgot to bring the Red Cross form. So Sarah tells him that he can e-mail me about it, that way we can also talk on MSN. But apparently he doesn't have a computer because of his recent move. So yea. And she was telling me about it, and he sneaks up, while I'm like, Oh CRAP! in my head. He rests his arm on her shoulder while asking me if I was okay. I hope he didn't hear what she was saying! Sigh* My stupidity when I'm in a sad/bad mood.

What do you think? I really don't know anymore. I'm so confused...

[Ilaem]

Uuuh. i'll tell you what i think; when i finish reading.
LOL
Wow, a novel.

[DEbmxer553]

Sounds like he likes you....i think that you should tell him how u feel....and im sure hell tell u the same soon after.