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[*mzkandi*]

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Most of you know the drill. Comment and/or quote someone elses entry but you must also make your own.


Dear cB,
My first quiz is tommorrow. I may have to pull an all-nighter tonight. Hopefully not....

[*lolita kitty*]

dear cb,

im about to go to school, might as weel squeeze a quick one in.
its spirit week at school. WOO! heres the schedule:

monday: band t-shirt day
tuesday: twin day
wednesday: wacky wednesday
thursday: pajama day
friday: superhero day

today is twin day. me and brandi are wearing blue shirts [mine is lightblue with brown polka dots], and brown/khacki skirts, with our hair in pigtails. i cant wait!

me and cathy are finally getting along. we have all these cute inside jokes now ^_^. er-- not much else to say. we went to walmart yesterday and i bought more drawing crap. then i drew a few pictures last night..

wow, i just realized this was a new version. bye!

[*jooleeah*]

Dear Createblog Diary,
Whoa. Stress stress stress.
3 projects, already! Damnit, I don't have the time or patience to do ANY of them. Somebody save me.

Well, Nicole and I made up. Even though she wasn't really mad in the first place. I hate liars.

Man, I got three hours of sleep last night. I could not fall asleep....

Alright, Gilmore Girls is coming on soon. Whoopeeee :D

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

my parents wonder why i don't like to talk to them or anything. its quite funny actually. they are unreasonable, hypocritical, prejudiced, etc. i can't stand them. i need out. badly. fcuk.

and school is okay. stressful but...its only the 2nd week. oh dear.

[silver-rain]

Dear CB Diary,
So, he asked for a break. Or actually, not exactly a break, but a temporary period where we don't really see or talk to each other as much. Meh. I was kinda asking for it, but I don't really like it. I suppose we should just ride this out and hopefully it'll end soon (the break). Eh.
And, I dunno. I still think about my ex a lot, but it's only because I want to be friends with him again. I really want that to happen this year...
Oh, and I hate school and homework and the college application process.

[Looow]

Dear cReateblog Diary,

I don't like him but I like some other dude. Uh, is that wrong? >.<

UH, ahh.

[steezahh]

DEAR CB Diary,
I have the weirdest thoughts going through my head right now? homework, papers due, art project, website stuff, friends, guitar, a game i have to attend, my life has gotten so busy since school started. i hate it!! well hopefully i'll get through it right? i hope so.
ONE&ONLY,
CONFUSED?LOST?STRESS?

[yuna*]

Dear CB,
I'm so freakin sleepy right now. Even my vanilla coffee is not keeping me awake.. ..*sigh* I wish there is no school tmr instead so I could sleep in. Ahh...second week of school, and I am already that tired. Maybe I shouldn't be staying up til 11...though that is not late for most people I know..GAH! I need to get back to drawing! Write more later =)

[*lolita kitty*]

dear cb diary,

wow. just wow. i feel so weird now.
i decided to type my name in the search, because ive never done that bafore, and i was skimming through my posts, and i found all these posts in the hate thread from, like, march, that ive never seen before.

the sad thing is that alot of these people are good friends of mine now >.>, it just feels weird. to see stuff like that you never knew. but anyways, that was back in march, and im going t put that behind me

twin day was a success. me and brandi and cathy all wore our blue shirts and khaki skirts and hair in braids and looked so cute ^_^

tommorow is wacky wednesday. i already have my outfit planned out: polka dotted layered skirts, layered ruffle skirt, knee high socks, hair in pigtails, wristband. im going over to brandis house early to get ready with her. this is going to be fun!

ill write back later tommorow. bye =]

[toodlepops.]

Dear cB diary,

Oh dear. I found Trojan Horses in my computer.
Not good.

[*jooleeah*]

Dear Createblog Diary,
Listening to this song ( Stephen Speaks- Out of my League) gives me the chills.

If a boy ever sang something like this to me....I'd gush on about it for FOREVER. goooosh

[*lolita kitty*]

dear cb diary,

OMFG, TODAY WAS ONE OF THE SCARIEST DAYS EVER. I BLACKED OUT IN CLASS. heres what happened:

so i take ballett class, right? performing arts school..allthatstuff.. so anyway.
we were sitting there, stretching as usual to some calm music, when all of a sudden, i started to feel very sick and weak in the stomach.
i looked over at brandi and said "brandi i dont feeeel good", holding my stomach. she shot me a sympathetic look and we got back to excersizing.
but it wasnt going away. it only got worse. i started to feel weak, and hold my stomach.
well, i was scared i was gonna puke in front of the class or something, so i asked the teacher if i could go to the bathroom, because i didnt feel well. she excused me, and just a few seconds later, i collapsed.
well, it was more like me sitting down. i was too weak to stand, i just sat there, very blank and held my stomach, as everything started to black out. i heard noises from all of my class gathering around me, and my teacher ran to call the nurse.
i could finally see a few seconds later, and i felt very weird. i was insanely hot, on a cold day like this in my tight leotard, and i felt very dizzy and weak. my friends told me to lay down and keep my knees up, and they all held my hand and talked to me until the nurse came.
when the nurse got there, she stood me up slowly and told me to pick someone to help me get to the office. i chose brandi. she also asked brandi to bring me my stuff out of my locker too, afterwards
so on the walk up to the office, she began questioning me like "are you okay", and "did you eat breakfast this morning?" and stuff like that.
she finally came to the conclusion that i had not eaten breakfast and i did walk to school and do dance, which wore all of my energy out and made my blood sugar low, which caused me to black out momentarily.
so we got to the office, and she gave me a soda and told me to drink it to get better. she also told me i looked very pale. she then took my temparture and called my dad, and asked him to come get me.
brandi came up to the nurses office during lunch and we talked the whole time.
so yeah, she left. my dad came. the nurse explained everything, and then i told him the story on the way home.

[*stephinika*]

^^
wow cassie, hope you're feeling better.

dear cb diary,

wow. what a day. good and bad.
got to leave school early for my road test and even though i was hella nervous, i passed. fcuk yes.
texted adrian then he called me and told me that in iblock today, which i'd missed, they did the nominations/voting for grad committee. okay, i've wanted to be on grad committee for my grad year since like...grade 10. or earlier. i wanted it sooo badly...and i didn't get it. and of course...he did. but he doesn't care about it so much. fcuk. its not his fault but...it bothers me. i would've done a good job, i know it. i got nominated but i just didn't get enough votes or something i guess. fcuk you all. i may be exaggerating but i don't care. this actually meant a lot to me and it pisses me off because i know i would've done a great job.
godammit all.

[toodlepops.]

Cassie,
I hope you're feeling okay now.

[Looow]

Dear cB Diary,

Ah so icky right now. Yeahh I'm so changing my cB username to "helllla jankyyyy" Ahaha. You like?

Ah my mom is making me so mad. Ugh I hate going jean shopping with her. She's always like getting mad at me. Like last weekend I got new jeans and she was mad because I went down a size and whanot. From one to zero. Ughhh. I know she cares but EVERYDAY she's talking about my sizes and eating. I'm like, you freaking swear like I literary don't eat. Dang. I understand kind of, because she has horrible weight problems. Yeah but still I'm not like her.

School? Ah I'm trying hard. But I don't know I have a feeling this year is going to be like every year. Ah. I sure hope not. I'm trying really hard not to get sidetracked but dsjhgdjadha. Stupid school. I hate art, too. I REALLY CAN'T DRAW. I can't draw stick figures. I get so jealous of people's cute stick figures. Oh goddddd. Yeah I suck at drawing.

Spanish was sooooo fun today. We had a subsitute who is like the slowest sub ever. I was on the phone with KRIS from cB and with some guy from SF who I didn't even know who it was. My friend was cussing at him too. Yeahhh the cute guy in my class got hit with a BIG ASS HARD paperball. Poo kiddo. Yeahh man they make hard balls. They are so thick and no squciky at all. I would die if I get hit with one. but yeahhh spanish was the best class today. I reallllly hope we have a sub again tomorrow. I love chaos in that class.

<33 Lorena

Cassie: I hope you're okay now sweetheart

[yuna*]

Dear CB,
Yay! I did better than I expected on my provincial exams..=)...now now..I won't brrrag like the rest of the people.. - - '

[*salcha*]

Dear createblog Diary,

I hate my sophomore life. The end!

edit;
I HATE MY COACH TOO.

edit again;
YAY MY DAD IS GOING BACK TO TAIWAN. Which means that he won't be stopping by my room to insult me.

[yukichan]

dear cB diary..
Today was a good and bad day..
I really, really, really, really, can't believe that **** moved into my class..I know he said he was going to, but I didn't really think that would happen..Seeing him makes me feel really hurt..I don't want to see him..Why do I have to see him?Seeing him hurts me really badly..The weird thing is, its my fault I feel hurt..My fault for thinking rejecting him would be the best thing..But if I did tell him yes, would that have been fair to make him wait for a couple of months?I dont know..I'm so confused about boy issues at the moment..
The good things that happened was I had ROTC..ROTC is like the only thing that makes me happy...I guess its because of the people that are in it..Even though the people are strict, they're nice..Sigh..
Everything seems really confusing to me...
But the sad thing is, I don't trust anyone so much that I can tell them what I'm feeling..I keep everything in..Because when I did tell certain people about myself, they laughed at me..So I don't trust so many people..Sigh..I thought High school would be more easier..Not harder and complicated..
--Nancy--

[*lolita kitty*]

thanks lorena, sarah, and steph. im all better now

so anyway, today i had to go to the doctor after what happened yesterday. it wasnt bad, although it was a long weight. she weighed me and then took me in the room and asked me questions like 'do you eat on a regular basis" and "have youi ever made yourself throw up" and crap. i just sat there and said "no...im not bulimic -____-"
so yeah, then we left and got lunch, and i went back to school. everyone was like "OMGGGG CASSIE HOW ARE YOU NOW?????". it was so sweet ^_^
oh yes, and today was pajama day. i wore some leyered black n white tank tops, my blue care bear pajamas, and my blue happy bunny slippers
so yeah. overall a good day. we had a sub in ballett and or teacher let us wear our pajama pants in class [instead of those tight ass leotards]. wee.

oh yeah, and, 3000TH POST!!!

[*mishyerr*]

Dear CB,

I can't stand this. I can't believe how jealous I'm getting; it's killing me inside. I saw him staring at her the other day (I know I'm paranoid, it's probably fake) he shares a waterbottle with him. but he's my boyfriend. I want him to love me. I know I'm selfish. I hate being selfish.

and than my other best friend, it feels like she betrayed me. I can't believe how much.. just, ugh, it's so pathetic. Everyone's so pathetic; but I am the most pathetic out of all these fakers.

-Michelle.

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

why am i so disappointed? really. why? sigh.
i shouldn't be. its stupid. but whatever.
i hope things work out on saturday.

[cheerbee07]

dear cb diary,
today alex, mandi and i sat with brandi & zakk at lunch. and brandi convinced zakk to get jacob to come over and sit with us. not to sound like a middle schooler or something but he is sooooooo cute. and like 50 times as shy as i am...i have a crush on him. too bad he's a freshie. lol. then again age ain't nothing but a number. i mean if he's 14 then i'm only 2 years older lol. oh well, i don't care. haha. mandi is like obsessed with him though. and it pi$$e$ me off. she is very close to going stalker on him. and she knows that i like him. and for goodness sake, she has a boyfriend. that's about it... hahaha..i can't wait until monday...haha, we're going to eat with brandi again

[*jooleeah*]

Dear Createblog Diary,
I wish it were night. I'd like to go outside and watch the stars.

Too bad nobody could do it with me.

[*torngemini*]

Dear Createblog diary,

I've been listening to this song too much. It just reminds me of him again and again and again and since I don't sleep at night, it becomes one of those things that I just can't let go of.

But it's such a nice song. Grrr.

Biology is really taking a lot out of me. I'm in there ALL the freakin' time and I feel like I don't have any time to work on any of my other courses. I'm hella excited for psychology though! My prof is awesome and I can't wait to learn more and more stuff. Psych stuff has always interested me.

Weekend time ... I wonder how it will go. Hopefully, I get to have some fun and take my mind off him for a while

See ya'll laters,
TornGemini

[Looow]

Dear cB Diary,

Damn guys are so .. wow. ..Ladeda school's fun. =P

Ahhh theres this club in SAN FRANCISCO on Septemember 30th! High school students only. 14-18 year olds only. Highschool I.D needed. Ahh I SOOOOOO want to go. Hmm I think some of the bay area kids from createblog should go TOO and we can uhh PARTY. rofl.

I WANNA GO SO DAMN BAD!

[yuna*]

Dear CB,
ARGH! Talking about sexist in PE class today...We were playing basketball and the teacher shooed us girls in PE class away in its own little corner and told us to play alone, or join the guys to form teams to play b-ball. Well I felt like being apart with the guys because of sportmanship. BUT TALKING ABOUT SPORTMANSHIP, THESE GUYS KNOW CRAP ABOUT IT ..As we started, the guys just kept passing ball b/t the guys, and never bother to look up and pass to the girls. I even got hit by the ball and those guys gave crap about it. So in the end I decided to quit and ditch playing with them, afterall they didn't attempt to 'pla' with us, no but they ignored us..*insert more angry faces* So I come to the conclusion, guys are sexists in the term of thinking girls can't do PE. WHAT THE HELL!! SINCE WHEN!@!@#!! URGH, those guys pissed me off so bad after PE..next time I won't even try to pick up their balls when they come rolling toward me, instead I will just kick it in the opposite direction...and NO I WON'T GO BACK TO THOSE GUYS AGAIN! FINE, WE WILL PLAY IN OUR 'LITTLE CORNER' OF OURS, AND YOU MALES STAY AWAY THEN!

[KissMe2408]

Never posted in this before...

"Dear diary, I gave in....again. I sent him a text... again. And i sit here staring at my phone, seeing if he'll text me back...again"

[*salcha*]

Dear cB Diary,

I wish my mom didn't rag on me so much.
And the coach would actually understand me instead of yelling, "MOVE YOUR DAMN FEET."
I wish i hadn't cried today.

[jennyjenny]

Dear cb diary,
I can't believed that I changed this year. I changed the way I dress, and along with many things. Some people hate it, some people hate it on the inside, some people encourage it, I don't know. But I promised myself I wouldn't if I didn't want to. I guess the only reason I did this was to attract guys, and make new friends. But see, it doesn't seem to be working. And now I feel fake. And ... ugh. I just can't think right now. I just want to get out of the house and hang out with people I like. I hope that I'll get to hang out with Steph today and I hope she's not gonna ignore me for Jaclyn. I don't know what my problem is with her. I have a pile of homework to be done, but I don't feel like doing it right now.

cassie, glad to know you're okay

[*lolita kitty*]

you know what? im going to get this all out, right here, right now.

dear cb diary,
ok, i am done with this. im just so tired of it. her problems which she always takes out on me, her critisizing which is always on me, her corrections, which is always about what i say... everything. ok so technically, she didnt do anything wrong, but she knows all of this is true, she just wants to make me look bad as always.
you see, these are her problems: denial, being a big hypocryte, and steryotyping.
yeah. she just... i don't even know where to begin.
you know, when i left natomas middle, i was so happy. one: because i was finally going to be united again with my bff. two: because i was going to go further with my interests in performing art, and three? because i was getting away from you... yes YOU.

no matter what, you always have to be there to insult, critisize, or corect me, in a rude yet technical manner. i did nothing to you. NOTHING. and yet, you go everywhere i go and quote my every words as if im the evil villan here. oh yeah? shove it up your ass. i honestly don't care. i mean, no matter what, you're always there. like an annoying dog that never goes away. first, you sit there and yell at me at school, because everything i say is just oh so "stupid immature hypocrytical or steryotypical", and once i leave, you continue! i mean, you joined cb months ago, and never bothered to post until now. now yo're an addict, just like me, and you clain its because everything else is boring.

oh yeah. uh huh. sure. this is why... oh i dont even know. i mean, im NOT going to quit cb because of you, but i sure as hell am not going to let this get to me.

and one thing? you are very smart. very tricky. very good at making it look as if you did nothing wrong. so technically, its not bad that you joined cb because technically, you were just bored with everything else. and technically, you aren't a showoff because technically, they came p to you. technically, you did nothing wrong, but technically, you know you ant all the attention. yeah, admit it, you know you like attention. that whole "the part about me wanting attention was wrong" thing? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. THAT MADE ME LAUGH SO HARD. you know it was true, but technically you did nothing to prove it. so you make a good drawing, and technically, you didn't show it off, you just flipped throuigh your nmotebnook repeatidely until someone comes around and compliments it. and then you just say thanks as if you never wanted the attention in the first place.
i just dont get you. what you do. i don't get it. i mean- why me? why not some other attention wanting whore who goes to your school. its like... i dunno. you read all my myspace comments [and even made jenny read them. pathetic], and then you sit there and rant about how stupid they are. you read all my anga posts, all my cb postts, EVERYTHING. but technically, i cant blame you for anything, because technically i did this to you too. once. back in janruary. and you werent even sure.
and the last thing? i dont care. at first, i always cryed when you insulted me. i always got mad and went to bed, crying, or even a school, thinking "go away.. go away"
but now i get it. i get it all,. technically, you did nothing wrong, while you did eerything in the world wrong.

so go ahead and quote me. quote my every word about how wrong i am, and how stupid i am. go ahead and make copies for the whole school, make flyers, show everyone what a nut i am for getting this all out and ranting. but thats too bad because i hope you remember that- you do it just as much. but in a very fancy technical matter.

and its so sad that you make me look bad. "shes so immature. she always stomps away and gets mad" so when excactly did i do this? well definately not today =). today, you said someting, i didn't agree, and then i quoted it and told you how i felt. and then you did the same to me, and i failed to respond back bcause i was to pissed and tired to argue withyou. so where in that did i immaturely throw a fit and stomp away? no where. i didnt think so =)

now i dont care. i dont care what you have to say. i dont care if you think i am the most steryotypical stupid attention wanting whore in the world, because i know you are just as muich, and it all gets taken out on me. [well, technically not]. and now i get it. i get it all. i dont care anymore. so you think im wrong? well tats too bad. im sorry your brain feels that way about my op[inions.
now that you're addicted to cb and whatnot, i was mad. yeah, i got real mad. but now? now i don't care. so what. sp who cares if you make 3x as many posts as me and become one of the most loved members on cb. im just going to sit there, smile, and say "thats good for her. i am just so proud". who cares if you quote my every phrase and think its all wrong and stupid. im just going to say "good for you. i am so happy you have your own opinions" and if you send me a 67890 page rant through pm about how stupid you think i am, i am just going to skim through it, and smile and say "how nice that she feels that way"
and if you say the same for my diary entry? well i dont care, once again, because i got everything i wanted to say out, and now i feel a hell of alot better.

why? because now i go to a school where im with my bff of 3 years, everyone appriciates me and likes me for who i am, and im happy. thats the most important thing, that i am happy. i feel great. my life is good, and im not going to let your oh-so blunt, honest, ranting self ruin it for me.

im not going to complain any more. im not going to rant about how annoying you are to me. i got this out, and now i feel better. i feel way better. so yes, im goig to see you tonight at kristeens party. you know what im going to say? im going to say hi, and talk to you as normal as possible. im not sure if i still want to go now. but if i do, this is excactly what i'll say. ill keep it as normal as possible. and then, on monday, ill go back to school, back to brandi and all of my other charter friends and go on with my life. and if you act the same? well, ill just ignore it, and shrug it off. thats good for you. good that you feel that way. i am so proud of you =)

so im done. i feel alot better now. thank you =)

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

well tonight was successful. yay. i love him so much. i can honestly say that. i really, really can. he makes me so unbelievably happy, and even though he's involuntarily hurt me - its okay now because i told him and things worked out fine.
yay for me being able to drive too. but anyways. its not only the physical attraction thats there, but everything else. his personality is amazing and we have so much in common. i love just talking to him, seeing him, spending time with him, whatever. i really, really do.
everything he says to me is so sweet, kind, and i know he's telling me the truth. i just know he's sincere somehow. i trust him with everything that i am. really.
i love how he asks if theres anything at all i want, or that he can do for me, and so on, but yet i never want to tell him. its weird. i want him to figure it out on his own or just surprise me. it shows more incentive and i love surprises. especially from him. but at the same time, i want to tell him all of my little cliche, corny daydreams but...i don't want to seem needy. i don't need any of that for me to love him any more but they are fun. he truly cares for me though and just wants me happy and that really tells me he loves me. i actually believe him...i usually am so insecure when it comes to this kinda thing and doubtful but...i believe him.
i don't know where i'd be right now without him. i honestly don't. he's done so much for me and my life even just as a friend in the past. everything he says to me means so very, very much. i wonder if he realizes that. it still makes me so extremely giddy and happy to hear him say those three little words to me too.
i just love laying in his arms, kissing his lips, his cheek, whatever...just holding him and him holding me.
and since i doubt anyone i know will really read this, i might as well keep spilling - it makes me feel better for some reason.
he's always made me happy. he's made me happier than i ever have been. i know i've said "i love you" before but...when i think about it, it didn't seem to actually be "love". this is. i know it. i know i sound like the many teenagers who claim to be in love but i know i am, and i don't care what whomever else thinks, so there.
i love him, i love him, i love him.

i sound so...lovesick. buuut...thats okay. i'm happy and you know what? i love that feeling.

[KELLYYY]

Dear cB Diary,

Wow. Toby, Cheryl, and I are getting a life. At least I think so. Well, for sure, I know I am. I'm really using the computer less often.

My sister is drinking more than usual. I'm worried. She is almost done with that damn bottle of vodka.

Love,
Kelly

[Heewee]

Dear cB,
I've had a really rough week. Every week seems to be getting tougher and tougher but somehow, I'm getting through it.

Last Sunday, I had another episode. I collapsed at home after I got out of the shower at about 11 PM. I was brought by ambulance to the ER for the ninth time since the beginning of July. This crap is really getting old and, even though they've figured out part of the reason why this is happening, it's not stopping. I just want to normal and healthy. I know I took things for granted before but I realize now how much I value the simple things in life. I've learned my lesson, so can I just get better now? Please?

Wednesday, I had an appointment with my cardiologist. He increased the dosage of my heart medicine to see if that helps but he doesn't have a good feeling it will. He says that if this doesn't work, I may have to get a pacemaker. I'm only 18 and I'm way too young to get a pacemaker. The nurse at the cardiologist's office told me I was really young to be in there...thanks for stating the obvious, lady, and making me feel better. =\ This medicine better work.

On Friday, I found out that my mom got demoted....sort of. She took over for her boss when she left and my mom was in her posistion until they hired somebody else. My mom was up for the job too and everybody thought she would get it since she was doing such a great job. She found out she didn't get it so now she has to go back to her old posistion but my mom wants to quit and find a new job.

Today, I found out that I might be moving to Baltimore. All my extended family is back east (we're in Chicago right now) and my mom says that if she wants to move back to Baltimore any time soon, she has to do it now when she's between jobs so she can find a job out there. It's the middle of my senior year and it's just not fair >=[ But my mom says it's still a "maybe" and not a sure thing yet.

::sigh:: that felt good to get it all out. I think I'll try to sleep now.

<3 Hilary

[yukichan]

I have to let this all out before I hurt someone..
dear cB diary..
I want to scream and scream till I faint..Everything was going well this week until today..Why can't I ever have a good week? Why does someone or something have to hurt me?Is it my fault that mom helped me? Is it?WHAT THE F*** IS YOUR GOD DAMN PROBLEM??WHAT THE H***??!!I NEVER DID ANYTHING WRONG..ALL MOM DID WAS HELP!AND DON'T GIVE ME SH** ABOUT THINGS BEING FAIR..WAS IT FAIR WHEN HE FCUKEN LIED FOR 3 YEARS?!WAS IT FAIR?NO IT FCUKEN WASN'T..WHAT DID YOU DO TO REPLACE THE 3 YEARS?YOU DID NOTHING.I LOST MY CHILDHOOD AND EVERYTHING THAT WAS IMPORTANT.SO DON'T GIVE ME SH*T ABOUT IF LIFE IS FAIR OR NOT..YOU'RE NEVER HOME SO WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT WHAT HAPPENS??!!HUH??!!!WHAT DO YOU KNOW?YOU KNOW NOTHING.NOT EVEN HOW HE FCUKEN HURTS ME..I DONT WANT TO HEAR S*** FROM YOU.Don't think I'm going to let this go easily..I'm not the kind of person that will let this go easily, especially after what you did and said..Someone will suffer a lot because of this..Maybe me, maybe you, maybe him, maybe mom..Who knows?I'm still really pissed about what happened..Don't think my mood will be getting better in the morning..Because it won't be..And mom, explain this to me..Why is it that I have to be the one that does it all?YOU were the one that did my place, so YOU should being doing his place..I shouldn't be doing the whole thing..If I could walk out the house right now and go for a walk, I would have probably ran/walked at least 2 miles..Seriously, I have so much anger inside me I could run far..Haven't felt like this for a while..It took every ounce of self control NOT to crack or break the glass while wiping it dry..I can't wait to school..Or even better, I can't wait till SF..Hopefully, I calm down by then..If not, I'll likely end up in the counselor's or vice-principals office..I wonder how Chaze knew I was sad..Somehow he could tell I was sad and I only met him like a while ago..He's opposite of my brother..He's always nice and polite and funny..I wonder if he has a girlfriend..Lol..(I am not laughing..)Sigh..
The parade was fun..Met new people..Got a Happy Meal..Sadly, the effect of the Happy Meal didn't last forever..It would have been nice if it did last..
I guess I should stop, since I ranted so much..
Laters..
--Nancy--

[Nicolatofu]

Dear CB diary:

Wow, this year is SO different. I feel like I actually have a life. But I've noticed that my interest in school has faded a bit. But I'm really trying to get more involved.. such as getting into clubs and things. I know I promised everyone I'd move back to california whenever possible, but as weird as it sounds, I find myself sort of liking it here. I mean, honestly, how many people will remember me? If I go there, there's no coming back. It will be the last time we make this across country move. Should I stay where I'm at least a little content? Over the summer while I was there, I was doing so much that could've got me into trouble. Do I really need those kind of influences on myself at the most crucial years of my life? I have high expectations for my future, but my only fear is that I'll start to make the wrong decisions. My friends influence me soo much; I'm scared that one day I'll end up doing something that will mess me up. But I still have a year to think about things.

Other than that, I'm doing okay I guess. I'm really mad that she just dumps me for her "new" friends like nothing. I mean.. we've known each other for almost 10 years! does she not realize that? She's tried to make small talk with me lately like nothing, but I give her the same respect she gives to me. which is very little. I'm tired of hearing about her all the time. Becaue nobody knows her like I do. She's not who she really is around some people. Ugh I know my mom's got a day of cleaning ahead. Maybe I can escape before I'm filled in on it. I know I'll hear about it later, but it seems like no matter what I do, she always sees something bad in it. I really just want to go to Barnes & Noble and just relax. But I have geometry hw. Oh well.

[xoxoxx]

Dear cB,
Life's no fair. My dad is cutting off my computer time so i will have no time to get on cb or do anything else online. He's expecting a lot of me, all of a sudden he tells me i need straight A's. Great, if i don't make it, then he's gonna screw me over. Also i can't concentrate well in school because i keep thinking of someone

Hm, that's about it. Later.

[Mulder]

dear cb diary,
im about to have a nervous breakdown. im just taking on too many obligations. i never sleep....im just exhausted. i almost fell asleep driving! i joined the school musical, and the rehearsal schedule is insane. im not getting home this week till 9 and 10. and i just got an E-flat clarinet, so that i have to not only learn the 1st clarinet part, but also the E-flat, and still practice my musical stuff.
my migraines are getting worse, my caffeine addictions basically the worst its ever been, and because of that, i still dont sleep. i just need a break.

junior year is hell on earth.

[pbear]

dear cb diary,
i wish i were more myself in english
class. i like the teacher and the
discussions and all, but it's so strange
and awkward knowing that he's in
the same class. i wish someone
would sit with me so i wouldn't be so
pathetic.

[*lolita kitty*]

dear cb diary,

hm..i dunno what to say. i feel better that i got that all out. im sure shes going to have even more waiting for me sooner or later... but im probably not going to read it all anyway. i dunno.. it just..er.. i just wanted to get away from it all and leave. i wanted to leave her one last letter aand get it all out, and leave. but she's still here. and she always has more to say.

so i give up. i give the f**k up. you win. you won the fight. sure, go ahead, i have problems, i am a loser who wants attention. i have mentioned this about a gazilloin times, but im sure you're going to tell me this again. i dnt care what you say..i just.. ergh..

my mood always changes around you. first i was happy, then sad, then mad, and now im just out of it. too tired to argue. i am just done with it. i wish there was an end button to this all. i could press it, and there would be no more ranting, 'secret diary entries', or any of this shit. i just want to get the last word, or let her know once and for all, and then leave. but she always has something else to day. something more. something better.

and i just cant help but get angry and sad once again, and cry, and respond. AGAIN. and... no matter what i say, she always... just... i dont know...

so fine. whatever you say is true. you hate attention, you hate all of this stuff. i am the frickin idiot who loves attention, and you are the one who ... dosen't. there, now i said it, you dont have to repeat it.

i give up. its over. ok, fine. go ahead and make another response, diary entry, or whatever, and ......... just... whatever. because i know that you want the last word just as much as any of us [being me].

well, this diary entry was shorter, and i feel much calmer, so.. i guess thats cool. ill let you be the last to respond,rant, or whatever you call it. i might read it, depending on how sad i feel that day/hour/minute. ok, im done *calm half smile*

[xTINAA]

Dear cB Diary,
I can't stop crying. I'm in such a shitty mood right now. Nothing is going right. Nothing. Things are always hard for me and now they're so much more hard. And so complicated. I'm crying for so many different reasons. School is always one. I'm always frustrated, stressed out, pressured, tired, busy, whatever else because of school. And no matter what I do I always seem to fail at it. I always seem to fall short. I can never succeed. It's only been about a month of school and already I'm failing a class. Pathetic much? College is coming. I have to apply. That's actually not that big of a worry for me. I'm almost positive I can get into UNC. I wish I could go somewhere else but I'm not capable of that. This is the best I can get; not that it's bad. I'm just saying that I've always thought I would move away to another state and make it independently in some fabulous place like New York where I would study and meet new people. Oh well. Another dream crushed. Not only am I crying about school but I'm crying about Phillip. I love him. I don't know how many times I can say that or what I can do to show that, but I love him. And right now I miss him a lot. I need to be with him. I need to see him. I need to talk to him. I need to hear his voice. I need to see his smile. And I can't. What makes this worse is he's going through so much right now and he's hurting so bad and there's nothing I can do. All I can do is sit here and cry. He won't even talk to me right now because he's hurting so much. I feel so helpless and I hate this feeling. I hate knowing that someone I love is hurting and to know I can't do anything to make it better basically sucks. I don't know where this relationship is going. He's in so much trouble that we can't even really talk to each other. I haven't seen him in weeks. I miss holding him. I miss laughing with him. I miss kissing him. I miss holding his hand. I miss looking at him. I miss hearing him say he loves me. He's so close yet so far away. He even told me yesterday that he doesn't think he can ever see me again. Sure it might be an exaggeration but just to hear that hurts. And I'm also crying about Seho. How could he die? How could they have shot him? He didn't do anything. He was innocent. He was such a great guy and he just died like that. It's not fair. I know he's in heaven but it's causing everyone so much pain. I also know for a fact that his family isn't just gonna let up on it. They aren't just gonna sit back and let it slide. I know that especially the guys in the family are gonna go out there and start drama and make something happen. I know it. And the scary thing is that if they do that, it could happen to them too. And something even scarier is that I'm pretty sure Phillip is gonna get invovled. And not only that but I know people on both sides. I know the people that started the shit and shot him and I know the people who got hurt because of it. Not only am I crying about this but I'm crying because of friends. I always get left out, I always get used, I always get backstabbed, this and that always happens to me. Now with Dicle. What is the deal with this girl? I don't like her. But suddenly it's like she's trying to be friends with me again. Complimenting me, hugging me, inviting me places. I mean what's her deal? She talked all this shit about him, backstabbed me several times, and now wants to be my friend again? The last time she tried to be my friend again I trusted her and guess what happened? I got backstabbed again. I don't want to have to deal with that shit again. But it's more complicated than just being friends with her or not. If I'm not, well I'll come off as this big bitch. Why? Because everyone can see that she's trying to be nice to me so if I just like reject this then I'm the "bad" one. But if I do befriend her then there's always that chance that she's just being twofaced and still talking shit and that she'll backstab me. I mean she's done it several times already so what's stopping her from doing it again? I'm also crying because of family. I just can't deal with it anymore. I can't deal with them. I can never please them. Everything I do is wrong. Everything. I'm always at fault. I always get yelled at. I'm always getting blame. It just sucks. I'm also crying because I need a job. Seriously, I need a job. I don't just want one, just to have cash. I need one. I need to have money. My parents aren't exactly rich right now and can't give me money and I need to have some. I need to also save for my New York trip and for college. Both of which my parents constantly remind me of. Yet I keep applying and never get asked for an interview, never get hired, nothing. I'm f**king tired of always f**king trying for every f**king thing and not succeeding. I'm f**king tired of trying in school, I'm f**king tired of trying to make this relationship work, I'm f**king tired of being there for everyone while no one is there for me, I'm f**king tired of two faced bitches and their drama, I'm f**king tired of being caught in the middle, I'm f**king tired of getting blamed, I'm f**king tired of never doing anything right, I'm f**king tired of getting denied of a job, I'm just f**king tired. I'm mentally, physically, and emotionally tired. I can never feel well rested. Everytime I wake up I feel as if I just fell asleep. Everytime I do one thing I have a million other things lined up to do. Everytime I solve one of my life problems another problem arises. I'm so f**king tired of it all. Why can't things just go right? Why can't I just be happy? Why does it have to come attached with all of this f**king crap. I can never just be happy, just be content, just be satisfied. Never. Something always has to happen and bring me down and cause problems. I'm so f**king tired.
-Me.

[sharerol]

Dear createBlog Diary,

Today started out fun. I had a great time at the mall. =] I haven't gone out in ages. I hate the fact that my friends live so far away. Damn the private school system. Well actually it's not their fault. Eh. Let's not go into detail about that. We took so many wacky pictures at Spirit. Ahaha. It was wonderful. =) After Jessica left, though, I started getting really tired, and everything got boring. I knew I didn't get enough sleep last night. Anyway, so I came back home, and I wanted to sleep, but then I got online and all of a sudden became wide awake. =\

f**k. School is tomorrow.

-Cheryl

[Teesa]

Aw Christina, I love you so much and you know that I'm always here to talk and whatever.

Dear CB Diary,
So I can honestly say that I did have a fun time during homecoming week. I went all out and participated in all the days. Class day was fun because everyone looked great and my toga rocked =] I wish the senior skit would have gone well, but at least we got to dance in front of the school. Getting nails done with the girls and then having Chipotle made the day a little better. Losing the homecoming game as usual was fun..haha, just being there with friends was the fun part. Village Inn was fun, too. I wish the dance was better, because I almost started crying during the first slow dance, but all in all, it was okay, since dinner and bowling was fun. I just love dancing. I think some people were a little surprised.
But I was in a depressed mood when I came into work..I love how my co-workers actually care about how I'm doing. Even one of my bosses said that I was wavering and I wasn't my usual happy self. How right he is. So I forced a smile and forced myself to be happy when he came in. And he didn't see how much I was hurting and then I really did feel happy because he was there. I like him so much. I am trying not to, though. I'm starting to push him away, little by little. I don't think it will work, but I hope it does. I just don't like how I'm feeling now..I'm not a sad person. I am happy, excited, hopeful about everything, and this petty little thing has got me depressed and I hate it. I don't like being like this around my friends. I don't want them to feel pity for me. sighhhh, I'm tired now. I woke up at 6:26 am and I was for sure I was going to be late for french. But I got ready in 8 minutes and was the first one there. I was proud. haha, that's about it for now.

--Teesa

[*mzkandi*]

Dear cB,
5000th post *woot*

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

sigh. he makes me so happy, even when he doesn't even try.
anyways, enough about him (not in a bad way at all hehe) but i've just been in a weird mood...xanga and all that stuff doesn't interest me so much anymore...even createblog isn't addicted. i won't quit or anything but my ppd is slowly dropping...i guess i've just been so busy with school, dance, and so on. ahh. its been crazy.
school is still a weird reality for me. there's so much work to be done and i have to start applying for scholarships and so on...it still hasn't really set in i'm graduating this year either. its such a weird thought. like during the dance tryouts today that i led with kaitlyn and all the grade 8's were asking us questions...it was fun, but it felt so...different being the 'leaders'. i don't know. its just...so unreal.

i don't know. i feel so exhausted and overwhelmed and stressed but at the same time...i'm somehow happy.

[Looow]

Dear cB Diary,

I truly hate hate people like him.

ohmygodwhatthehellroar.

[yukichan]

dear cB diary..
I. Don't. Know. What. I. Feel. Or. Think. About. Him.
Seriously, I don't..He feels more like a brother than a crush..But then again, I don't know what a real brother feels like..I am so confused..
SF is fun..Even though I was in pain, it was fun..I hope I can get stronger by the end of the year..I'm not going to quit..I think Russell thought I was going to quit..The only way to get me to quit is to kill me..Seriously..I'm so headstrong sometimes..
I hope I can go to the Military Ball..I really want to go..Well not really..I don't want to go alone, because I'm going to end up watching everyone dance while I sit and do nothing..I don't know what I should do..If I don't go, parents are going to think something is wrong..But if I do go, I'll be very bored..There are so many choices..
ROTC is so exciting..I think thats the only class I actually want to last longer..
Guess I should go..I've ran out of things to type..
---Nancy---

[*jooleeah*]

Dear Createblog Diary,
I've been overwhelmed with work from school and it's really starting to get to me.

It's only Tuesday. I want this week to be over.

My whole body is aching. The nerve in my ankle is messed up, my foot is still a little messed up, my arms is always somehow getting cramps, and my shoulder and back is just tired from sitting up all day.

I hateeeee this. I wish I could get some sleep, but no..

I have a project to do.

[to-devastate]

Dear cB diary,
I haven't wroten here in a long time.. neither went on cB for a long time but I'm trying to get back into it. School is tough. Especially when you lose like a million friends to a different school. I really miss my friends and I want to see them again. But some people just want to piss me off. Like okay, fine. If you don't want to see me again, fine. Stereotypes. And when one friend hates me, all of them start to. Isn't that pathetic. Geez. But whatever. Hopefully I still have friends who actually care about me.
Anyway, there's a really hot guy in one of my ex-classes? HAHA. He's so sweet but I think he's still lingering in this one girl so I doubt anything will work between us. I miss having a boyfriend.. and though people say that we don't need em, it's kinda like a missing space in my heart. I don't know. Call me wack but I really want that feeling again. That LOVE feeling.. hmph. Will I make tons of friends or just be a loner? I can't wait to find out because in all my classes, I feel so lonely.. I can't be myself around these people. I can't make jokes because it's just so.. lonely. I seriously miss 158. So much fun and so much memories there.. I want to backtrack and just stay there for a little more. I just feel.. the pefect word is lonely. I don' t think i can really describe it in any other way. I just want to see all my friends again and I keep thinking that if I transfer to Dozo, I could see them. But my honors wont go with me and OH MOM won't want that! So she says I can't. I really wanted to go to Dozo. Everyone's there. Tons tons tons of friends. And now here at Bayside.. everyone's so typical and just so.. prepped up. People here are not as social so if you mix them up with me, you get unsocial+unsocial=nothing. I keep telling myself "stop lingering in the past and just get on with life" but it's hard. Everyone tells me to stop but.. it's so hard to let go of the past. I can't deal with change; it takes time. I guess I'll just have to learn to deal with it. Tomorrow is once again school.. lonely school and gym+10 periods. Sigh. I hate school. But me ranting about wanting to go to Dozo won't make me go there, duh. I gtg finish hw.. and I want to do my zine. I'll be back sometime. Bye.

-Eileen-

[*lolita kitty*]

Dear cB,
5000th post *woot*

happy 5,000th, kiera!

wungelunglung. i sungeeopolopoguse tung yungoguse chunged youngourung sungnumn tong lungbung rungigunghungtung afungtungerung i cung mungsungnung tung lungolingikungkung.. copyungcungatung! ...haha
^ in a code. dont ask.

ok, well. i feel better now. anyways, today was fun. i went to brandis house before school and we walked together. meh, nothing fun. it was very hot. did schoolwork. ballett. today was indeed boring. chris and brandon are here [oh kill me now]..
my effing dad invited them over.
took more pictures yesterday. posted them on xanga/member photos.
...brandi is calling me now. im gonna go. bye

[Heewee]

My mom is really starting to make me mad. Actually, she's really scaring me. Saturday night I got into a big fight with her and she hit me reallllly hard on my back. I have a bruise from it now. The next morning she talked to me when I woke up and things are better now. She grounded me from the computer for this week, though, because I was up until 1....on a Saturday. It was a Saturday, damnit, and I'm 18! She told me to go to bed at 12 and I stayed up until 1 so I "completely defied" her. Hmph. Yesterday I had another one of my fainting episodes, only it wasn't as bad. My mom didn't call the paramedics or anything but one of the times that I woke up after I had passed out she was slapping me in the face over and over again....HARD. I would start shaking really bad and start gasping for air and she would scream at me to stop holding my breath....even though I wasn't doing so. I don't know what to do anymore.

<3 Hilary

[Aoiro]

Well here's my answer to all your complaining.

Deark CB Diary,

I have problems?! When did I have problems?! When did I ever take them out on you. Tell me. WHEN. Dude, criticizing isn't bad. Hello, I get criticzed to ya know. EVERYONE DOES. I correct everyone. Seriously, I do. Ask anybody or everybody. And I give you CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM. Which is supposed to improve or help you. And just because I corrected you about Lolita, you get pissed off. Correcting HELPS. SO YOU LEARN. I make you look bad? From what? Call me up right now, and tell me how I am in "deinal, being a hypocryte, and stereotyping". First of all, you are exactly the same. You ARE in denial when all of us from NMS try to help you. You ARE a stereotyper, because you stereotype all asians, all rockers, everyone. You ARE a hypocryte because first you say you are not a fan of rockers, but then you TRY to be one. You said you were going to be one, but ya know what? You can't be a rocker overnight. You can't just wake up and say, "HEY!! I'M GOING TO BE A GIRLY GIRL TODAY, AND TOMORROW, A ROCKER! SQUEE!"

Good that you're happy. Happiness is good. Being with your other "bff" is great with me. Especially since you won't bother us anymore. But do I care that you were getting away from me? People actually don't care if you left NMS or not, that you care anyways.

Yes, I could do all of that if I wanted to, which what we both are doing, but hey, we're both rude, aren't we? Yes and no, you didn't do anything to me. A reason to quote what I say? So that you wouldn't erase what you truly meant and pretend that you weren't being, how do you say, rude? Hiding it so that people will think you are trying to defend yourself from a mean, rude, dispicable, person, which you say is, me. You are always everywhere I go, too. When did I yell to you at school? TELL ME. I only yell at you when you piss me off, or you just won't get anything through to your f**kin' skull. I continue, because people ask why the hell am I pissed off. Everyone obviously knows it's because of you. The reason I joined CB is because yes, I WAS bored. I only posted now because I AM bored. Gaia isn't interesting nor fun anymore, because nobody isn't on anymore. f**k no I'm not addicted. If I were, I'd be on all day, like you, and post in every single thread that has ever been made. I'd make friends, and such. But I'm not. I'm just here to discuss what I care about, because frankly, I'm bored.

There is no point of quitting CB. There was even no point of saying it. Quitting something just because someone else is on there, too, and who is annoying, is the worst god damn reason to quit. That's why I never quit Gaia.

Tricky, eh? So are you. Yes, you are right that I joined CB because I was bored, and nothing else. Now being a show off?! f**k NO. I hate getting attention. YOU ALREADY KNOW THAT. Hey, we all know you want attention. We know that you pretend to be all nice and sweet on the internet, but do people seriously know you in real life? I've asked Jenny N. about how you acted before I met you when we started to be friends, just to know a little bit about you. Do you even know what the hell she said? There's no point in telling people how you really are, because people wouldn't believe me and because people don't know me that well. Go figure. Wow, making you laugh. Nice, I made you laugh. Yay. But I hate attention. I hate being in front of class reciting my report. I hate people taking pictures of me. You? You are an attention whore, even if you don't get a lot in real life. You love getting up in class acting all silly so people would laugh with you and notice. You love taking pictures, 'course, you take too many f**kin' pictures everyday of yourself to be known. f**k no I don't. You know I hide my pictures at school. I hate it when people see them, because those are my pictures for my own eyes only, unless I want to show them. Do I? No. I HATE COMPLIMENTS. YOU ALREADY KNOW THAT. Getting compliments on my pictures just makes me mad. Yes, I'm a weird person for feeling like that, but that's how I am. Why you? It isn't just you I rant about. I also rant about Jenny. Why the hell would I go to your MySpace? Why the hell would I care about your Xanga? Yes, I have looked through your CB posts, but I bet you do the same. You told me to my face that you check all my posts on Gaia. I was sure.

And? You always cry about everything. Every time I correct, or even give you constructive criticism, you run away, and cry. Every time. And it's seriously nothing to cry about. Saying you don't care? Yeah right, you do care. That's why you ranted about me. I wish you went away. I wish I never knew you at all. I wish I never showed you everything I have ever known, because you f**kin piss me off. What I did I do wrong? What did you do wrong? We both have something that we hate about each other. Me, I just hate you, the whole god damn thing.

Hey, I could. Maybe I did. You are wrong, yes, you are. But all of us are all wrong, think about that. Think I would tell everybody about our conversation? Only Jaylyn, and maybe Riana and Jenny. Because you know what? They all already know we've been fighting about shit. Hell, I bet you tell Brandi everything we fight about, lie about how mean I am, and cry. At least I don't cry about every single god damn thing that a person has said about me, that was bad. I deal with it, talk back, say what I think.

I'm sad? Oh hell no, your sad. You don't even know the half of it. I don't call you immature, because what's my reason? You do stomp away and get mad. Everyone at school, even Brandi and Jenny know you do that. It's the god's honest truth. 'Cause you seriously do that. I do that with my parents too ya know? See how similar people are. You are always like that. Yes, it is a good thing not to continue on with the argument, but with me, I want to end it, but saying me, as in I am the one who ends it. I want my word in, because if it wasn't, then people would listen to your god damn lie, and go on your side and say how evil a friend I am. But you know what you did? You wrote all your anger into a rant, on a site, where everyone can see. See that? you didn't stomp away today, but you showed everyone about our argument, and lies.

You say I don't care too much. No mater how many times you don't, I know that you do. Hey, at least you know what your are. Frankly, other people are, too, but since we have to deal with each other, we have to talk about us. Do I take it out on you? Why the hell say that? I don't, again, I don't, for the last f**king time. Yes, I am sorry that your god damn brain can't understand that you are my problem for everything, you're the one who even started this, and it's technacially, your doing.

Me? Addicted to CB. Hell no. To get into your thick skill again, I am not. Kay? I like CB as much as I like MySpace, which isn't much, seeing as how I am not a fan of MySpace. Sure, you got mad. You always do. You don't care again. Oh gee, I wonder why you won't stop repeating that god damn phrase, because you do care. Why would I want to be known in CB? Do I care if I am loved of people. I know you do. You back in every single compliment you get here. Go ahead and smile.

Okay, great, we all know your bff is Brandi. And you at least change the subject? Pfft, yeah right. They appreciate you for what? Tell me, what? People from your past know how you really are, and even if your in a different school, it doesn't matter. We all know who you are. We all do, and you can't change that. Your life is that good, eh? Then stop yelling about your mom, saying how unfair it is about how she's treating you and all this crap when your at her house. Ya know what?! She loves you with all her heart, even if you deny it. Even if you say her life is crappy, and yes, she did make those choices and is suffering now, she's trying her best to live on. Ruin you? You're already ruined. Accept that.

Rrrriiiiiggghhtt. Your not going to complain any more. And I'm going to be a girly girl, wearing pink dresses everyday, prancing around, throwing flower petals to ever person I pass. Great, you feel better. Woohoo for getting your side out! W00t! Well, you didn't go to Kristeen, and I probably know why. Either way, to doesn't matter. Well, that didn't happen, did it? So I guess this is how it goes. Go, try ahead and piece back your life together in a new school. Someday, you shall be revealed.

If we're telling each other how we feel, then here it is. YOU ARE THE ONE AND ONLY PERSON WHO HAS EVER PISSED ME OFF THIS FAR IN MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE. I NEVER WANTED TO DEAL WITH YOU. I, too, wish you would fo away forever. Gone, so nobody would ever know you here, so nobody would even remember. So everyone would be happy again, and you'd find things your own way, not like trying to figure out what the hell we were saying. Yes, we both hate each other to the longest extent. And? So what? Like you would even read this, but we're all letting it out. So great sarcasm is. See, what I do is go through your whole entry, so I can see your side, and what you think. I write back, and you don't do the same for me. At least we both got what we wanted to say to each other out. Now doesn't that just feel peachy?

Yupperz, I guess I'm done. Don't about it, 'cause this is how I feel. You should hear my side of the story.

But I'm happy at the fact you wrote a long rant, or entry, or something to me. Kudos to you.


Oh yes, and that entry saying you were sorry, you were wrong aboput everything you said and all that shit? It doesn't matter to me, internet talk doesn't work. This fight or argument won't end until we come face to face with our problems. No physical fighting though.
:D

[xTINAA]

Dear cB Diary,
Today was a horrible day. Horrible. I'm trying to stop caring. I'm trying to just put a smile on my face. But everything hurts. Everything is wrong. I keep crying. About everything. I'm miserable. I need to be fixed.
-Me.

EDIT.
Scratch that. Today wasn't just a horrible day. It was one of the worst days EVER. I can't remember a more horrible day or week.

This post has been edited by M1SSxCHR1SSY: Sep 21 2005, 02:26 AM

[ichiban]

dear cb diary,

this week of school was the worst. a lot of people are pissing the crap out of me, mostly people that are my good friends or something, so that obviously isn't making me feel too happy. i hate my PE now. i don't like to complain (who does?) but i just really have to say, i hate how everyone is always ditching me or ignoring me for someone else. i mean, i TRY not to do that to other people. the only times i do that are when i'm really pissed off about something. chris is now ditching me for june, who he barely knows. well, i guess he does know her, but still. and timothy just follows him and he always ignores me now. cathy and jessica are like best friends so they dont really care about me. and i dont know jessica that well either. so therefore in flick, i dont really have a friend. it feels like chris only thinks of me as a friend when he needs help on homework or something and he wants answers. and he just ignores me all the time now. i mean, what the heck? and blah, alkdsjflasdf. geez, i'm mad. and the park is so boring now because all the sixth/seventh graders piss us all off and everyone leaves early and some people don't come anymore.

i hate eighth grade.

[Aoiro]

Dear CB,

I'm bored again, so I came here. Today was interesting, especially with our assembly. As always, Jenny won't shut up about random things. Me, Jaylyn, and Crystal just talk. Patrick is getting annoying sometimes.

But today was kind of odd when we were listening to our assembly. I was talking to V about what jobs do we want, and I told him I wanted to be a doctor, even if we I had to stay in college longer, which is fine with me. He then replied he wanted to be in the Air Force, so he could protect me... When I told a few people, all they said was "AWWWW! HE LIKES YOU!" I just stared at them, and shrugged it off. Maybe I will care, but not now...

And D won't satop staring. What's his problem?! Is he still trying to find a girlfriend for C? Eh, whatever. No use at staring at me when I can tell he is.

Right now, I'm just... Well, typing. Don't I always? Besides that, playing some RPGs I never played to pass the time. Maybe I should start on my homework? Probably after SYTYCD.

I guess I'll call J again, because we need to discuss about our shop. 'Til then, another story. Byaz!

[ParanoidAndroid]

Dear CB,
I feel this melancholic wind sweep through me as I took in the news that hurricane Rita will hit the coasts of Texas by Friday. The thought of my two best friends residing there is very discomforting. I do hope they're alright and get to evacuate immediately.
What really bothers me is what do THEY feel. When I talked to them online, they sounded so happy and assuring it was as if they're hiding the pain in their heart. I wonder, how it feels to leave your only home to know it will be ripped to shreds once you come back. It is a pain I can't imagine. A pain that is making me cry.
The true pain that I do suffer is the confusion of whether they ARE going to evacuate or not. I do not want to lose them. All my life the people around me that died are people I couldn't care less for But to think that someone I love and care for is going to die because of an indeciscive decision is gut-wrenching and dismal. I do pray that they're safe.

[cheerbee07]

dear cb diary,
today sucked…went home sick 4th period because I’m an idiot. tried to subconsiously kill myself..didn't mean to take that many..it just happened. couldn’t ask Jacob to homecoming because “she” beat me to it and asked him first…found out that the guy who promised that he would always love me lied. I hate liars with everything I’ve got. I feel so betrayed. I hate my life. I just want to die.

</3 Jess

[xTINAA]

Dear cB Diary,
Today was such a hard day. Everyone could see something was bothering me. I couldn't tell like anyone. Only a few people. Why? Because it hurts to say it. It makes it seem more final. I feel like maybe if I don't tell anyone it will go away and he'll come back to me and then I won't need to tell anyone. I'm afraid that's not gonna happen. It was hard to pretend to be alright and to not just break down crying in class. Lucky me I only had two classes today which left me 3 1/2 hours in between them to cry. I seriously cried all day. All f**king day. I went to sleep last night crying, I woke up crying, I drove to school crying, I was at school crying, I drove home crying, I got home and cried. The only time I didn't cry today was during the two classes and when I went to lunch with Grace. Otherwise I was filled with tears. I almost started crying in English today once it started to rain. Silly me, huh? I felt like the heavens were crying because Seho just got buried today and because Phillip and I broke up. I wanted to cry but I held it back. Waited til I got to my car. And I burst. I can't deal with it. I'm trying to be positive and be okay. But I can't. Everything reminds me of him and then that makes me cry to realize that I no longer have him. I want him back. Please God give him back to me. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm always sorry. But I was only happy with him. I wasn't truly ever happy until I had him. Now it's gone. It was too short. Don't I deserve to be happy? Why God, why? Please. Even while I was with him I might have been hurting but I'd rather hurt and have him than hurt and not because that hurts a million times worse. Please. I need him. I'm sorry. I can change. He needs to know that. I wasn't affectionate enough. I knew that. It's hard for me to open up and be really affectionate but I know that if I got him back I could be Lord. I know that I would be. Only because I wouldn't want to lose him again. Please. I love him. I don't want another bad day like today. I don't want the rest of my days to be like this. Please. Have him call me. Something. I need him. Oh God. I need him. I love him. This isn't over to me. It can't be over to him either. He has to know he's being unfair and hypocritical. Please. Let him see. I can't handle this. I don't want to cry anymore. But I don't want to go numb either. I hate feeling like this. I've felt it for the majority of my life. Please. Let me be happy again. I don't want anything else but him. I don't care about anything else but him. I put him even before me. His wellbeing before mine. Please Lord. Today was too bad of a day and I don't want to spend the rest of forever crying. Everything reminds me of him, us. Everything. I see the color red and I think of his red car. I hear a song and it instantly reminds me of him. I see couples walking by and I start to tear up. I look at my room and it reminds me of him. I can't even stand to be in here. I can't stand to be in my bed where he held me. I can't live like this. Everything reminds me of him, every flipping thing. I need him. Why doesn't he see that? Why doesn't he see that I love him? That I've been there for him and will always be there for him? We didn't get to do any of the stuff we promised we'd do together. We still have so much to do as a couple. All the promises we made. A drive in movie, double dates, prom, Korea...God. None of those things are worth doing without him. I don't even want to be in IB anymore. I want to just give up. If I can't have him I don't want anything. I might as well give up on everything. I want to drop out and have classes with no one I know so I can be secluded and alone. I don't want to be with anyone not even friends. I want to be with him. Only him. Why is this so hard...?
-Me.

[*jooleeah*]

Dear Createblog Diary,
I think this was by far the worst week of school that I've had since the beginning of the schoolyear.

What the f**k is my teacher doing?! Why is he killing us with all this bs called homework? Fucksdhfksjhfsdjkfh

[toodlepops.]

Dear cB Diary,

Ack. Everyone's changing. I want to be like it used to. The good old days. But I can't stop everyone from changing. I wish I could, though. Really.
Anyways, my computer had this friggin breakdown last week. Sheesh. Now I'm all paranoid about the pop-ups. My dad wasn't too pleased about it. I'm cutting down on the comeputer and internet. Blahhh. I can't believe its less than 2 weeks away. I'm scared.

Oh. Do you know how nice it is to be missed by someone? Just to know someone is thinking about you. It's a nice feeling.

[yuna*]

Dear CB,
I GOT MY L LICENSE!!

[toodlepops.]

^


I can hear Nickelodeon

[*jooleeah*]

Dear Createblog Diary,
I'm reading everyone's xangas...they all sound so happy. They have the nicest boyfriends in the world, it make makes me feel...so jealous.

Apparently Lily's boyfriend is amazing. I'm reading his xanga, and each and every word that's on there is just so sweet and amazing. I wish I could find someone like that. Too bad I never will. A hopeless romantic is what I'll forever be.

But I can't forget I have the best friends in the entire world. I mean, that's enough, right? I can't have everything good at once.

Some people are just lucky.

[`SWTWiNKLE3YES]

Dear cB Diary,
i`m sick and tired of all this bullsh_t. i hate two faced, fake and self centered people. is this wrong of me?

[Aoiro]

Dear CB Diary,

I filmed Alex fall. Frickin' hilarious! Oh yes, and I took some pictures of... Well, people.
xD

[BrokenDream]

Dear createblog diary,

Oh wow. I had a very great moment today in 6th period. And 7th period. The guy I like likes me back. I never knew. The only way I found out was because a guy told me. I don't know if he's lieing, but he gives me signs. Signs, like, that he liked me. Like, we laugh together, and we smile. It's a very good feeling. I love the feeling so much. I wish we were together. He was a girlfriend though. Wow, he likes me and he is going out with someone else.. I hope he's not a cheater. I feel a little sorry for his girlfriend, and a little happy. I wish I was in her shoes. Well, maybe tomorrow he will ask me. I don't know. I wish! The dance has passed. Sigh. I wish I went with someone. I didn't go, though. Dances aren't fun without dates..

All I can talk about is him. Jacob. I just can't stop. I'm too into him. I'm too scared to ask how he really feels about me, and his girlfriend. During 6th period, the guy next to me was talking to Jacob, and like.. I heard this voice that said, "want me to tell her?" and Jacob said, "no! not yet." Omg, thats a freaking sign. I cannot believe it.

I'm not obbsessed with Jacob, just love him.
-Melissa

Melissa + Jacob = ?

[xTINAA]

Dear cB Diary,
Today was easier. Not seeing everyone and just being alone made it easier. I'm trying to get over it. I think I'm growing numb.
-Me.

[Looow]

Dear cB Diary,
OKay, I'm desperate to let all of this out. This is all going to come out like fhghjsg but f**k it, I don't care. I'm in such such such a bad mood. I couldn't help but cry when he told me that. i don't know. I'm know I'm definitely NOT pmsing so didn't even to think that that was the reaosn why I'm in such a shitty mood lately. I guess its just one of those days where you have everything piled out and it comes out at the wrong time. Ugh. I hate to cry. I'm so tired of it. I hate hate hate this.

I never knew it was a bad thing to meet new people. The whole drifting thing, f**k it. I'm so tired of it. Me andher have been going on and off for two damn years and it just feels so forced. People change. I hate it when it's all being blamed on me. I know its partly my fault but . dsagdsah. I tried so hard to call her and plan things and she didn't. I'm not doing this to get back at her AT ALL. I guess it just came naturally. Now she knows how I FELT. I'm having lunch with her tomorrow and I'm sure that won't make a difference whatsoever.

The whole Francoissessss thing. Ugh He just doesn't get it. I knew it was a horrible idea believing him that he wouldn't get mad when I told him about my problems and guys and whatnot. He told her he wouldn't get mad and now he's telling mee that I'VE changed. Maybe he changed.. I'm always talking to other people? Come on that is not true. & even if I was that doesn't mean he has to stop. sometimes it just feels like his relationship is just like mine with miranda. one way relationship.

I feel piled up right now. There's just so much going. Family problems are rising again again and again. What the hell is going to happen. You can only ignore SO much..ugh I'm tired of this..

I feel like I can't talk to anybody. I wish I had somebody that I could REALLY talk to without feeling completely stupid. A person that I could just spill everything and just cry with. Just a person that would understand what I've been through.

Bye.

<3

[Heewee]

Dear cB,
I hate me. I hate how when people find out how sick I am and about all my health issues they get all sympathetic and shit. I really feel like nobody gives a crap about me. Actually I know that nobody gives a crap about me. I wish people just cared because they actually CARED and not because they feel sorry for me. If that makes sense. I really hate me.

[PinkTrash]

Dear CB diary;

Schools okay noww. Its wierd, its weekly school swings. Last week was amazing.. and I wished it was always like that. Well, I was busing home and Leena called me. Turns out nothing happened to the beetches inside her dance class ;D She told me a girl was missing on Dawes, and we were really worried about the whole thing. She told me that people searched Roy's basement because they thought they were hiding the little girl in there. . Pretty freaky. Then we found out from her mom that the girl was from G.A ! We were so freaked out, it was just really wierd. Knowing that I walked on that street billions of times this summer, alone and with Leena. How Leena LIVED there, like four weeks ago. How, somebody from G.A was missing, it was a complete shock to us. But I came online and Corinne told me that the girl was found >: ) THANKGOD. Turns out, she ran away from home.. I need to tell Leena this >;P

[IamRad]

dear cb diary,

today i IM my friend with a silly word : smelly. she knows im kidding about it toom cause ive said it before. but since shes in a bad mood, SHE TAKES IT OUT ON ME. its like unbelievable. i hate when someone is mad for other reasons, and take it out on their friends.

ugh

[BrokenDream]

I'm heartbroken. It was a lie.. but he still gives me signs. So maybe one day he'll like me. Or, does he already?

[treschicgeek]

[SIZE=1]Dear cB Diary,

The last few weeks have been the absolute worst for me. They only keep getting worse. I don't know, but all of a sudden, I have come to strongly hate my best friend. I can't stand her! I know that I might be acting immature and selfish, but gahd! She complains SO much and I have a feeling she's using me. Like, everytime we go around the school, if we get a sight or go near the place where her "ex" hangs out, we have to turn around and go somewhere else. It sucks too cuz that's where some of my friends hang out, but apparently, I can't go there anymore because of her. She can't even look him in the face or talk to him either. Blah. And she loves, I mean LOVES to rub things in my face. I hate her. Really. And you're probably asking "Gee, if you hate this girl so much, why is she your best friend?" I have an answer to that: Because. We have been best friends for years. I've tried to separate from her, but it just doesn't pull through. Plus, she has a lot of "back up", so if I try to separate, it will somehow backfire on me. Gee. Life sucks. Whoa. That felt good to release. [SIZE=1]

[Teesa]

Dear Createblog Diary,
Yesterday was fun. School wasn't that fun, because I saw him, but classes went pretty well. I love photo class. I love the darkroom and everything about it. That class always puts me in a better mood. After school, I picked up my paycheck and got to talk to a few co-workers. Then, I went shopping. I only got a shirt, some lotion, and face stuff. The rest has to be saved for the rising gas prices. :/
I went to Rohini's house and met with Ozzie, Rachel, and Yang for our O.C. party. Much fun, I missed watching that show! Then, we all headed to Yang's where we met up with Lauren and we watched Never Been Kissed. Lol, that is such a great movie. The night was a lot of fun.
Hmm. I'm looking forward and dreading at the same time going to work. At least it's only once a week now :)

--Teesa

[ClaudelGFX]

Dear CB Diary,

Today is my Bday, im getting old, can i get a hug?:/
-lost O.o

[silver-rain]

Dear CB Diary,
Today was great, and I felt pretty so yay. Hah.
Anyways, I really think I'm screwed for college. The SATs are in about 2 weeks, the ACTs in a month, Early Decision in about a month, akjshd. I really need to ask my teachers about the recs too, because they are important. Sigh, I guess I'll just wait until after my college meeting on Wednesday. Hopefully that goes well, and Ms. Danaher doesn't tell me to change me college choices. Annnd, I need to work on the applications and essays and bleh. I hate this. I cannot wait until 2nd term...

[sharerol]

Dear createBlog Diary,

So there was this kid who was visiting today, Michael. He talks a lot. Okay, yeah, I don't know what to say about him, so whatever. I was annoyed pretty much all day. Well, not really. Jennifer got mad at the park. I was annoyed for a while, but then I got over it. Then we made Fandango puppets! I got a bit annoyed for a while, too. Yeah, that's pretty much all that happened in school. When I got back home, I was annoyed again. Now I am...okay. Yeah.

-Cheryl

[yuna*]

dear CB,
I probably shouldn't have tried that hard to impress the rest of the team. Now and see what is my consenquence, I injured my foot.

[Aoiro]

Dear CB,

I just went out to dinner with my ex and his family. It SUCKED. It's was boring, and now we're tlaking on YIM...

And at school, V asked who I like... Suspicious huh? Maybe A and J were right... He might like me.

P was being over obsessive of my camera, because he liked me filming him and then watching it backwards. It was cool, but after a while, it got kind of boring. I liked D, D, and A's little recording better.

The school dance was today. Um... I didn't go. I think our dances at my school suck, so no point of wasting $4 on some lousy dance. I'll only go to our promotion dance though.

We had a sub in Mr. Jones... Very boring...

Oh yeah, tomorrow we're going to see the Corpse Bride!!!!! And when I mean we, I mean me, J, J, and C! I've been wanting to see the movie since the begining of this year! I love Tim Burton's movies and JD! Er, yeah.

And today, i took some pictures at school today. Yippee. Some of K, P, S, D, D, A, J, A, R, M, J, T, A, C, and T. Maybe if you knew me or were in my class, you would know who these people are. 'Till then, Byaz!

[aera]

dear cB diary,

there's such a big love...triangle in school. liza, tina, kare, cathy, lene, daphne, iris, and alexa all like dave. he's not that good looking but i guess he's really nice. the bad thing is that all of the girls are paired up into best friends. liza and tina, kare and cathy, lene and alexa, and kinda iris and daphne. but mike told me that david was rejected by this girl last year... i think only tina has a chance -.- and maybe liza.

school sucks. its so boring... plus with half my friends fawning over dave, theres only gracie to talk to... and a few others that are less aware of their surroundings. since he lives in glen, tina's going over to liza's and they're going to visit him *obsessed* hahaha

[*reflection*]

i still think about him

[*tweeak*]

Now honestly, what am I supposed to do for the next 3 days? I was really getting into the marching band spirit, where I actually want to practice, and I desperately wanted to go to exhibition, but everything got cancelled, and being the idiot that I am, I forgot to bring my clarinet home I don't think my friends really have an interest in doing anything, and sitting at home online wih my sisters is no longer my idea of fun, especially since there will be no one on here to talk to since no other states are doing this. I guess I'll be spendingg mass amounts of time at Barnes and Noble hiding from the world, while being only a couple of feet away from them.

Oh, so they can get a waiver for the no school thing for the drumline to have 3 hour practices each day, and yet we can't have exhibition?

Uh, or not. The waiver applied to us too. We now have our customary Tuesday night practice. And I no longer want it. I think I'm only against this thing for the sake of being contrary

[toodlepops.]

Dear cB Diary,

Life is so boring nowadays. I had something to say, but I forgot.

[BrokenDream]

dear createblog diary,
well, it was a lie. sheesh. the jerk. I thought he had really good feelings about me. I guess it's still a mystery, huh? today was good. I got the crap beat out of me though. yep, that`s right. the tough Melissa did. it was a soccer game againist the Kickers and American Girls. umm, our team is the Kickers. okay, it started out horrible. they scored. and we are like the freakin` first place team! it`s because some of our best players weren't there, because of a stupid volleyball game. hey, if you don't want to play, I suggest you don't play!

how rude is that? I don't want to be mean, but those people let us down - the team down. so, yeah, we lost. and I got hurt. I felt like my leg was going to split. I'm feeling okay now, but I felt like fainting.

see ya around.
sig under contruction by the way. sigh.. I need to work on a new sig. haha. lazy.

Melissa

[yummy_delight]

Dear Diary:

HE'S DATING SOMEONE ELSE.
ARRRGHHHH AOIDUFK LJABVOPIAYDF IOHAVDOVIUAWEJl:!!!!!



... I'm not jealous.

BUT, I can't read his LJ or profile without getting physically sick.

xoxo- Lauren

[*salcha*]

Dear cB Diary,

I'm not doing as well as I used to in classes. I'm literally failing most of them, I NEED HELP. I need determination, I need decent grades to get into a decent college so that my parents won't get on my tail.

[*tweeak*]

Dear Diary:

HE'S DATING SOMEONE ELSE.
ARRRGHHHH AOIDUFK LJABVOPIAYDF IOHAVDOVIUAWEJl:!!!!!
... I'm not jealous. 

BUT, I can't read his LJ or profile without getting physically sick.

xoxo- Lauren

I can relate. I don't care...I'm just nauseated.

Meanwhile, if this is a joke, I'm going to kick her ass. I'm not amused, and I will not be played that easily.

Phew, finally someone else has heard of the practice. Looks like I might not have to kill her after all

[yukichan]

dear cB diary..
OMFG..Yesterday was not funny..Can't believe T.J did that..I feel sorry to R, G, and the first lieutenaut(sp?) who had to carry me..And again, I am confused with my emotions..Why can't I just find out who I like?My god...Things are so complicating..I don't think I like S anymore..ARGH!

I need to seriously stop procrastinating and do my social studies..Or I'm going to fail...Sigh..

--Nancy--

[*lolita kitty*]

dear cb diary,

well, im having fun right now. sort of.
today brandi came over, as usual. i love living by her. we didnt do much, except talk and walk to borders. i love living by borders. then we walked to the elemtary school and sat there and read our books. [yeah, were nerds]. then we walked to her house and went camwhore crazy and took pictures.
then i went back home. poo >.>

later on, we went to this boring ass bar-b-q thing with ms. joys family. they were all boring, except her nephew, who rollerbladed with me. he was a cool kid. carrie and this 5 year old girl basically colored thw whole time, and my dad talked to all the relatives.

well, ive found my halloween costume. im not telling anyone what it is yet, except mabye a few friends at school. its an anime costume, and im happy i got it. the only bad thing is that i bought it online, so it wont be here for a week or two >.>

hm. well, emily and i are being losers and texting eachother right now. im trying to be nice to her, although her and brandi are still fighting. she gets all weird when i bring that up. me + emily + geni + marissa + brandi were planning on going to the movies and seeing the corpse bride. yeah, we got to talking at ballett the other day. i think it would be fun, i want to see that movie.

well, thats all for today. buhbyeeeee!

[toodlepops.]

dear cbd,

I have some pictures to upload. But I'm too lazy.
And I've realised how much things have changed. And how I've avoided it.

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

what is wrong with me? at this point, i can't stand myself. its killing me. i wonder if he'll ever read that...probably not. he's not such a nosy bastard...like me. sigh. i want him to know but at the same time i don't...i feel so...horrible. i'm so sick of this.

[BrokenDream]

dear createblog diary,
hello again. i came to make one last entry before i go to bed. i have a soccer game tomorrow, and the girls that didn't come today are coming tomorrow. i still cannot believe those girls! how can they not come? how can they think volleyball is more important? anyway, i don't know who we're playing, but i hope it's not those 14 year olds. we played them not too long ago. like, last week? and we tied that game. ooh, we might play the eagles. we tied them.. so we won 1 game, and tied 2, and lost one. this league is harder then it sounds so shut up. hehe. :D we are still in like second now.. since the game today we're like second place.

i'm tired. i don't know why i'm on createblog this late. i gotta go to bed. bleh.. intill 3:00 AM. =P later!

---
Melissa

[KELLYYY]

Dear cB Diary,

I look better with this hairstyle.

That's it for the day.

Love,
Kelly

[Aoiro]

Dear CB,

Yesterday, me and J watched Corpse Bride. It was... Well, it wasn't really up to my expectations. I thought there would be more. Ah wells, that's what I kind of expected from Tim Burton. I love the commercials, but the movies are just... Blah.

Well, after watching the movie, we got Jamba Juice, which is me and J's tradition, and then drove home... Then we saw a dancing Quizno cup dude. It was so funny! It didn't show his face, and only had his arms out. He was just dancing, but I kind of felt bad for him... But still, gave me and J a real good laugh.

Well, today... I just talked on the phone. As usual of course. But nothing real interesting. But I'm thinking of going to Borders on Friday, or something, so I can buy the whole Fruits Basket series. Woo.

Well, it's time to eat, su Byaz!

[Teesa]

Dear CB Diary,
Work always puts me in a better mood, no matter what. I love it. My bosses are awesome..my co-workers are even more awesome. They always know how to make me laugh. I was scared of seeing him today, but it was so natural. Like nothing had happened and it wasn't awkward at all. I thought maybe for a second he would be mad, but it was so nice. I was surprised he pulled me into a hug. I wish I could be in his arms forever. I love it.

[sharerol]

Dear createBlog Diary,

I saw Just Like Heaven today. It was a wonderful movie. So sweet. I humped a tree today. f**k. Tomorrow is school.

-Cheryl

[*tweeak*]

Hahahaha

I was doing an inventory of my junk drawer for language arts, and it was full of little else but old school supplies, so to not appear the most boring person alive, I switched to another drawer. However, that drawer contained little except old prgrams. I'm such a dork that I've kept the program from like every concert, competition and whatever else I've ever been to. I actually started looking at last year's competition programs to see how good our chance was for winning the Brookwood competition Saturday. Not very. Ah, well.

I saw the Corpse Bride this morning (afternoon...) and then hung out in Starbucks and looked at the pretty dog. I don't like dogs, but dammit I want that one. Maybe if I blind my sister they'll let us get a seeing eye dog. That is the only way I'll comply. Nami drove us over to Starbucks, and I couldn't very well tell my mom that, soshe assumed we walked, but she started to disapprove, so I told her Daniel drove us. Yeah, nevermind that he didn't go. My lying skills are very impressive.

[yummy_delight]

Dear Diary:

I just got my class pictures back and I look fine..... from the neck up.

I guess the shirt I was wearing was pretty low cut. SO it look like I'm wearing absolutely NOTHING underneath my jacket. PLUS The ugly guy handing me my I.D. and pictures winked at me.

I'd like to crawl under my bed and die now. kthnx.

xoxo - Laur

[*lil_chubby_cheeks2*]

dear cb diary:
today was a great day...except i almost fell asleep aaaaaaaand i have this really annoying cold. i got to see james today
JAMES IS SOOOOOOOOOO HOT
anywayssssssss
it was my friend's birthday. i think he turned 13 buttuah yea...
im gonna go now, my brother is kicking me off the comp
byee


--monica

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

what a sweetheart. i love that little girl. she's like niece to me (even though she isn't actually). she's 5 years old and her dad told me the sweetest story about her and me.
apparently she has this little drawer in her room for "special" stuff and she put a pic of me in there and her dad asked why and she said she missed me cause she hasn't seen me for awhile.
i freaking love her.

[BrokenDream]

dear cb diary,
well, school has fine. this guy which I think is an idiot digs me. >_< leave me alone! I don't like you. it's been that way ever since he was in my classroom. and he's flirting in front of my crush. that's the worst. the game yesterday was great! we won. we played againist the Eagles after all.

byeee![