no mo depresss man.. tryy cut u leftt nut sumtime.. NO MOO DEPRESSS

So stop thinkin of what it is that's makin you hurt. Meditate... it helps clear the mind. Your lettin your mind over power you =\

if you are cutting yourself, my suggestion is to maybe do something else when you have that urge to cut. like, play video games or something. at least you are distracting yourself from cutting and keeping your hands occupied.

I've done that. It worked for a year and then something happened (im not going to say) then i started again.

keep working on new stuff then. don't give up just because one thing didn't work. if you don't want to finally go through with the whole cutting thing (suicide) then find ways to stop yourself.

btw...if you are feeling to that point, you really need to tell someone no matter who it is and get the help you need. i know what it's like and i would hate to see someone go through with it. i sought the help that i needed and thank God i'm still here

I never said I gave up. I have one of those rubber band thingers, and your supposed to snap yourself everytime you feel the need to cut. So far its working.

oh now that's a creative idea but it's kind of still inflicting pain to yourself without the actual cutting. it's just my opinion that you might want to find something else that doesn't involve pain.

melie.. dis bout u not sum lil kidd who go EMO...

so wat goin on with u rite now melie..?

well for right now, i'm still taking my meds and my hubby is coming home in like 2 weeks so i'm going to make an appt with my doc to start getting off of them then. my depression was post-partum and regular depression because our daughter was 2 months old when he left for iraq. she's now 15 months. as for friends, i do have one but we always seem to have a conflict of schedules because of our kids and their naptimes and stuff. but, i've been keeping myself busy with being on cb a lot and working on layouts and stuff.

yeah, there are times when my depression gets me like on sat it did. it was my b-day and i couldn't do anything for myself because my friend was sick with the flu so she couldn't watch our daughter and i actually had no idea of what i wanted to do on my b-day. it was pretty depressing so i spent it at home and slept most of the day away.

congrats!!

hang in there.. ..

when you hubby come home.. let him take care the kid n u meet up with you friend n just hang out. shopping, barnes&noble, go to some track n just take a couple mile stroll.. then only the weekend.. tell you hubby to take you guys out to dinner. while you doin all that.. try n meet new ppl..

you know.. just say hi n such to random ppl.. like at library or work.. cuz grocery n other place just seem weird.. but there time that you get to know ppl at grocery store n such 2.. so it worth a try..

so many tears


if you are realy depressed, why expose your life to the world


then

I think you just need atention right ? you don't will got from me


now or you goto kill your self

or you fight your problem


then do or die

thanks...you know for some reason i always have this feeling when ever i meet someone. either we won't have anything in common or i have a bad feeling about them or something to that affect.

i met this girl online back in june and i thought we had a lot in common because she had a bf that was in afganistan but things got crazy for me in aug so her and i became really close. well she took advantage of my kindness and was never really considerate of me and everything i was doing for her. long story short, i cut that chick off and told her to grow up because i don't need anymore drama in my life then the stuff you've been giving me since we've met. it was so worth it.

ever since that incident, i've been very cautious of people. but, one friend that do have now i'm very cautious about too because it always seem that when i need her, she's just unavailable. like one day i told her that i desperately needed a break from my daughter and asked if she could watch her the next day. so she texts me saying her daughter has a sore throat and can't watch mine. well, it seems weird how convient that happened but i didn't want to over react like i always do. then, my b-day on sat came and wanted to see if she wanted to go out but she was sick with the flu. maybe she was and maybe i just have serious bad luck or something but it sucks either way. i can't win for losing.

it calll defense mechanism... you dont want you 2 let u gaurd down n get hurt.. just give everybody a chance n see what they like.. if you see something u dont like.. NEXT THEM!!!

its good that you cut her offf beforee thing get worstt..

cant u just put you Bday on diff day..? i dont see how u cant..

everyday.. just take you baby n go out for walk.. you can stay inside the house 24/7 but the baby cant.. so take the baby out everyday for 30 minute or more..

lol...i wish i could put my b-day on the day he comes home. and maybe we might celebrate it when he does. i know i should take her out more and stuff. i just wish i could build that energy to actually do it.
there are times when i don't feel like leaving the house and i know i need to. like today, i need to get my ass up and go to the store so i can get some milk. but ugh, there is so much that i have to do before we go. i have to make sure we have everything like juice, snacks, diapers. then at the store i have to make sure she doesn't try to climb out the cart or take something off the shelves. then if she whines, i have to find out what's wrong and give her what she needs. so a quick run to the store for some freakin' milk turns into a fiasco.

chikenn nodddlee suopp..

your right! today i took her to the store and we got some chinese because i was craving for them. and it just felt good to go out. we even played on the deck after dinner and she had a good time. thanks for hearing me out nquoicasison! :diggrin:

as for the friends thing, i'll just hold off on making new ones...after all like you said, hubby's coming home so i can wait another 2 weeks.

my mom called me today and told me she was proud of me for being able to raise my daughter without help and alone. for the past 3 generations on my mom's side they have been single moms. i'm a single mom but married to the army...lol

thanks again nquoicasison!!

I dont think I have depression but more like trouble minded, love, school, scandals, fights, I've been through all of this , this year and sometimes when it gets to overwhelming I just come home turn up the music and put the homework aside, I dont care if I fail at least I wont fail to live another day, but dont cut yourself thats just weird, im sorry if I sounded weird

justt shakee shakee ittt of...

I also have depression. I've been battling it since about 12 years of age (I'm 18 now), and only recently have had outside help. I handled it okay until about my junior year of highschool. Then senior year, I kind a sorta... snapped. I lost interest in my AP classes, dropped out of all my sports I was taking, never wanted to hang out with my friends. All I did was stay huddled up in my bedsheets, just wishing I would fall asleep and miraculously never wake up again. I never graduated high school because of it, which, of course, had a violent, negative effect on my depression.

I've been put on Wellbutrin at my first psychiatrist, and now am on Prozac at my second psychiatrist, as well as Abilify for my social anxiety disorder. I don't think they've helped at all, because I still feel the same way. I just feel... wrong.

I've also tried things to occupy my mind like playing MMO's, or video games, or drowning myself in movies or music. I have no friends so I have no one to talk to. The only person I talk to on a regular basis is my boyfriend (yeah, not even to my mom). And I only recently started mustering up enough energy to go online and do something other than lay in bed. I keep a journal, and even a livejournal, but those only help temporarily, nothing long term.

Anyways. Enough of my ramblings. Melie, if you ever need to talk to someone who slightly understands where you're coming from, I'm always here if you need to talk. Then again, I don't have a husband deployed in Iraq, nor a daughter, so I can't quite compare, but I'm a great listener. :] Although I give sucky advice. If you couldn't tell. ._.

I wouldn't say I'm really depressed,but I have a lot of the symptoms.
It's mainly because of my family and friends.
In 4th grade was when it started,and it still hasn't really gone away.
I've cut myself a few times,but I just know it's wrong so I stopped.
I think about suicide and running away a lot,but I'm too afraid to do either,
and I'm a Christian,so I know God wouldn't want me to do any of the things I just said.
I'm a big wimp. I'm too afraid to talk to anybody,because I think that'll just make things worst.
Nobody really knows me,not even my best friend. I dunno,I guess I just have to get through it and not make a big deal out of it. But everything I just typed up probably sounds like an idiot talking;coming from a 13 year old.

And I don't really have any advice for you (Melie) either,since I think we have a huge difference in our ages and were probably going through completely different things.
Blech.

even though we are different in age, our depression is just the same. i'm starting to get over my depression now that my hubby is home but i learned a lot when i was without him. that, only i can make myself happy and i have to learn how to do that. that was my biggest struggle and biggest mission i ever had to accomplish. i'll be honest, i still haven't completely accomplished it but i thank the CB community for it. without these guys, i would be losing my mind.

if you ever need someone to just talk to you can always pm me.

Well.
You get used to it.
Meds help.

I dont know if i am actualy "depressed", but i sure show alot of syptoms. my mother and her side of the family have bipolar up the family tree, so im guessing its a maybe.