In light of recent events and the majority of the cB community generally wanting to bring together a closer community, I took the liberty of re-starting a thread that BrandonSaunders started a while ago. I thought a new one should be made, to start fresh and new and this way we could all get closer. I think this is one of the few topics where we SHOULD have a version 2/3/4 and so on, because it's a topic where I am asking, as Brandon asked that we all share stories and opinions and feelings and interact.

Reference to his topic, and ideas of questions and such to ask can be found here : http://www.createblog.com/forums/index.php...=115046&hl=


As Brandon said :




This time, you could start by asking me something, or asking someone else something that you've always itched to ask about.



Im Isabella. Im 14 going on 15, but people usually mistake me for somebody 16-19. Not really because I have an 'old' looking face but because of my general appearance and demeanor. I know online i seem childish and immature to many of you, but that's becase this is the internet and I dont give a f**k. But to people I know in person, they see me as very mature and grown. Maybe it's because of events in my life that have made it hard for me to have a normal childhood. For instance, I used to find solace in gang life and activity because I thought it was somewhere I could fit in and find respect and power but then my long term boyfriend and whom i believe to be my first love was shto and murdered and I realized this wasn't the life I wanted to lead, living each day worrying whether or not it would be my last or if I'd wake up tomorrow. I was molested, physically and sexually abused by 2 different boyfreinds and a friend of a friend. I look for love and reassurance in all the wrong places because my parents are ... the epitome of a failed marriage. All i have known from my parents is hatred. All they do is fight and yell and take it out on the children. Im also not exactly poor but yet, my family barely manages to live paycheck to paycheck. Any questions ? Does anyone want me to go into depth about the gangs, the abuse experiences, the family ? Feel free to ask questions.

I guess I'll write a little something...though it may not be as interesting or insightful as some of yours.

I had a typical life as a child and whatnot I guess...during my preteen/early teen years I became depressed though. I didn't have any real friends at one point and I was so self-critical and had extremely low self-esteem as I hated my body and I could always find something wrong with myself. It got so bad to the point I almost committed suicide. But then I got scared. I realized I didn't actually want to die so I started looking up and I became more optimistic in life. My self-esteem went up and I gained more confidence as I found some real friends in high school.
My first real relationship was amazing and it lasted for a year and 8 months...but I ended it. I ended up losing feelings for him, while at the same time gaining feelings for someone else. I felt so guilty and people starting making rumours up and calling me a slut. I had feelings for the guy but we didn't actually do anything, but we were best friends & because we spent so much time together, gossip ensued. Eventually we got together after my breakup with my now ex boyfriend and I'm still with that guy now and it's almost been a year, and I don't think I'll ever meet someone like him again. He's amazing and he's taught me a lot. Family life is okay. I'm an only child with a very up & down relationship with my parents. Nothing too dramatic though. I'm still rather self-critical of myself but I've gotten much better. I already talked about the dance part of my life...so yeah. I don't know what else to say.
I'll answer any questions if anyone has any.

Ooh i know how you feel about losing friends and everything. For me, in sixth grade, everyone just started .. for lack of a better word dying left and right. Kelsie and then a month alter terrence and then 4 days later ashley and then 10 days later jesse and then more and more and more. And i know what you mean by never telling anyone anything either cos I hate talking to people about problems and feelings. But is is true what people say .. eventually it will all build up until you can't hold it down anymore and it will burst out and you most of the time wont know hwo to handle it. Eventually you have to find someway to express what you have inside instead of stowing it away.




Of course (:
I'd say my inspiration actually comes from different artists and music and people who have had hardships that they overcome, not just one person in general. I love music that speaks of hard things and then go into how about things get better and change, cos it teaches listeners that their is hope and if we aspire for it, things can always get better. And in people. And for people, anybody who has ever had times where they though things could get no worse and then pulled themselves from out of the dark will always have my respect and admiration. How about for you ?

yea
well ive had plenty of people kill themselves and die in car accidents, so on so on.

Actually I can hold things in, and never actually let them out. But yea I've heard that though.

Sorry would have more to say.

Bob Shank. This is the wisest person I know.. I can't even begin to describe how much he's influenced me.. It's incredible. I'm the person I am today mostly because of him.

As far as a person I know, it would again be my grandmother or my father. Recently I have gained so much more respect for him, he just got in touch with his first daughter that he fathered in college. They had to give her up for adoption because they couldn't afford it. I couldn't imagine having to do that.

Art, Writing, and Music. I can express myself through art, and I love the way most drawings look(Digital Art is another story, I'm not so good at that). Writing, I love the way your emotions can just flow onto the paper,and afterwords, it's like it's out of your system, and the piece of paper you hold is your baby. And music, I'd die without music, there's no way to explain it. I cannot understand those people when you ask them what kind of music they listen to and they respond that they don't.


My friends who actually appreciate me, the people I love, my brothers, my ambition to make sure my children have a, I wouldn't say better, because in all honesty other people have had worse childhoods then mine, but a less stressful childhood. I grew up too quickly, I want to make sure my kids don't.


Basically, my entire life, up until...oh end of November. I woke up. I had grown so used to the fact of everyone hating me, and then I met two people, who completely changed my outlook on myself. They say that you have to like yourself before anyone can like you, and that's not true at all. Sometimes you need someone to show you its okay to like yourself before you can. And at home, I learned to laugh and live when I got mugged. After it happened, I realized all I wa sthinking about was all of the things I haven't done yet, and all of the things I could have done.


I've learned to laugh at things, its much more fun that way.

Oh wow I love that

Bella, way to go! After everything that had happened to you, you still manage to smile and move on in life. That is true strength.


Well, my name is Annie. I am 14 going on 15 on Sunday. I`m the opposite of Bella. People mistake me for 12-14 because of my height [4`11] and my babyface. People gave me the nickname, Sunshine because I am a happy person. I dont like dramas or violence. I`ll do whatever just to avoid it. Not much obstacles happened in my life so theres really nothing to tell. The only interesting thing that had probally happened in my life was the relationship between me and my ex. We were together for a little over a year. During last year`s summer everything changed between me and him. We both had to go to different schools, so I guess that was when he start having the urge to cheat. Just normal stuffs. He cheated, I cried, we broke up, and somehow we got back together then he cheated again and so on.. But then on Jan. 2 I got tired of putting up with all his games so I ended. I wanted to start this year off fresh. To this day we still talk, and he moved on. There`s a lot more to it, but I feel like stopping here. If you want to know more about me then feel free to IM me up or PM me.


life-altering experience: Nothing yet..

skill/ability: Manage to think about the positive even when I feel like .

what is your biggest childhood dream: Have a real family Thanksgiving dinner...

in that hard period, who was your most important person to support you? myself.



Everyones` stories is very interesting, and touching. I feel safe talking about my personal life on cB. I don`t know why..



Question:
What quote[s] motivates you?

Mine is " Cry your river, build a bridge, and get the f**k over it! "

^I honestly have no idea.

What is your biggest fear?

My biggest fear: Being comletely and utterly alone with no one to turn to. Being abandoned by the ones I care about most.

Losing sight of what I want.

To be forgotten. I don't care if everyone hates me and I only I like myself, I just don't wnat them to forget me. It gives an erie sort of feeling, like you never existed. You aren't even worth being hated.


To the quote thing- "I don't think of the future, it comes soon enough."

Losing my family, the bestfriend, and clowns.

Hi everyone, Im Kara.
I'm sixteen (will be seventeen on sunday), I was born on June 25th, 1989 at 7:24am.
I attend Cosmetology school, and am also a senior. I like reading, and writing (sometimes). I absolutely love movies and music, but I have television, unless there is something interesting going on, on the news.
I dont know what else to put. I suck at this introduction thing hahaha



Best friends, and family.



Losing the ones closest to me.

Hi Kara! I`m Annie and we have the same birthday but different years.

^ oh, yay! You are... younger?

when i was in middle school i sold bootleg cds and i had over 60 GB of music. there was this one site i always went to (itsbx.com) and they had every single album you could ever dream of available to download for free. i downloaded everything i could and i eventually started listening to them. there was no friend who introduced me to good artists so it is kind of amazing that i have such a different music taste lol

haha yes mam` 1991

Here's a good one:

what is your proudest moment?

"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger."




When I went to provincial finals when I didn't expect it (piano performance), and then even better - to national finals (this Sunday).. I'm scared for my life though

When I made my parents happy.

Forgot to explain my fear... I meant, If i lose sight of what I want, I'd probably kill myself because there is nothing to look forward to in the next day or the one after that.

I sound so emo, but it's truthful.

Take pride in your pain, for you are stronger than those who have none.

Deep waters. Also.. not being able to play.

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What's the scariest/most dangerous thing you've ever done?

what's your favorite sport?

mine's soccer.