sounds like "this photograph is proof" by TbS.

I’M SCARED
We’ve had this talk so many times
I know it off by heart
But no matter how many times we live through it
It still tares me apart
You branded in my skin the digits
Of every tragic date
You and I have an endless cycle
A perpetual stalemate

I want it to end
But I need to hold you

I’M SCARED
I’m scared to let this happen again.
Again. Again.
I’M SCARED
I’m scared to let you in again
To feed what bites my hand

You’re the teacher of the lesions
I refuse to learn
Do I dare relight the fire that has
Scarred me with these burns?
To spark this conflagration
That destroys all I’ve brought up?
Traumatized by passion
Scared to ever love again!

I need it to end
But I want to hold you

I’M SCARED!
I’m scared to let this happen again
Again. Again.
I’M SCARED!
I’m scared to let you in again
To feed what bit my hand