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Agh! Im about to blow!! This effin sucks so bad, and its supposed to be a good day but my freaking boyfriend ruined the 2005 spirit in me.

So well here was the deal. He was on the computer, and while he was on the computer i wrote him a little love note, telling how much i love him.. he read the note, and i said im going to sit in his lap, he pushed me away and said no im busy, and i got mad/sad. Then now since i wanted to get on the computer, he got all freaking butt hurt about it, and crying to me saying that hes way more important than the computer, and i dont know, it just hurts me that he does this to me, and just pushes me away from him when hes on the computer, and i when im on the computer, im still all over him. With him, i cant even talk to guys, be near a guy, have a guy as a friend.. He goes through all my stuff, and he reads everything that i have in my journal, and if i told him i wrote something and he asked me what i wrote, i just say " nothing really" then he starts saying "well you dont love me" or something like "Im going to break up with you if you dont tell me". Argh.

I dont know what to do. I feel like crying, and just socking him repeatedly in the face and tell him that i f**king want a little privacy alone, and i dont need to be with you 24/7 of my f**king lifetime. Grr. Im sorry but thanks for reading this, it sounds all lame but i just need advice or opinions.

I gave him a love note, and he pushes me away.