ugh., yet another lovesick teenage girl |
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 Oct 22 2004, 02:33 PM
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.......blehhhhh.
i'm sitting here bawling my eyes out. everything is so effed up. dammit... i really don't want sympathy, believe me, i'm not trying to feel sorry for myself, but i need to get this out, so i hope you don't mind if i just go out on a big rant. okay. so basically i've had a MAJOR crush on pretty much my best friend for over a year. he was the first guy to ever come out to me that he has feelings for me. ever since then, i've grown more infatuated with him everyday. he's the best person i know and i love him to death. idk, i guess this is like my first love or whatever, idk. i'm so confused. well, let's just get to the point. so i'm after school going to my locker and i see one of my closest friends leaning against the wall across from the lockers. i go over to her, we start talking and everything, and then she says "guess what!! i got asked out today." then she had me guess who it was.... i prayed so hard that it wasn't my crush person, but i said his name anyway.......... ...my heart skipped a beat as she shook her head 'yes'. and then she points out how my jaw dropped so far down.... and i'm just out of words and i can't breathe. then she says how our other friend, josh, who is also good friends with my.. person, and apparently my 'person' told josh that he'd had a crush on her for a while. after she finished the story, my 'person' comes up and gives both of us huuuge hugs, and turns to her and tells her to call him later tonight so they can "talk". *sigh* i guess we all know what that means. so now i'm here crying so much. i can' hardly see what i'm typing and my keyboard is soaked. i don't even remember the last time i cried this hard. and i admit that i am a very emotional person, but i don't know that i've ever cried this hard before. i've never felt so empty and alone before. i know i sound stupid, believe me, i don't want to sound like this, but now i guess i understand how real the pain actually is. you know, how you hear other ppl talking about how much 'the pain' is, and you just kind of shrug it off and don't think it's a big deal. guess it's my turn to find out. i'm sorry this took so long, but i needed to get it out because i doubt any of my friends would understand how i feel at this time... 
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Oct 22 2004, 02:47 PM
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 aka babiebubblez03 :o) Group: Member Posts: 203 Joined: Oct 2004 Member No: 53,478 |
alright.. i'm going to try and help, but i;ve never really been in this sit. before. First I would say just wait it out because you guys are young ya know.. people come and go and if you continue being his best friend, he will find something in you that maybe he wont see in this girl, or maybe this girl might not like him as much as she thinks right now. Things like that always happen. Or you could always confront her and tell her your undying love for this guy... but I wouldnt do that because that usually never works out. But dont dwell dear seriously. It only makes things worse ya know?! Try to smile and realize that everything ahppens for a reason, and there is def. a guy out there for you! You will go trough guys like candy, so dont worry about it okay?! It's hard.. but smile as best as you can and sooner than you tihnk you will be over him. Or other option... try to find everythin you hate about him and then maybe you will start to see that you dont like him as much as you thought?!
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Oct 22 2004, 03:25 PM
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 I'm Cat. Gotta problem with that? Group: Member Posts: 394 Joined: Aug 2004 Member No: 43,845 |
things come and go... just be patient and it is most likely that ur person will break up with ur friend.... thats what happened to me and my crush.... he was going out with this girl for soo long... when i started to lyk him... but then they broke up and then i realized that i love him as a friend not sumthing more....
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Oct 22 2004, 03:28 PM
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It's through pain and suffering and times like that these where we begin to mature, learn, and grow to be stronger mentally and emotionally.
Hope you'll be able to pull through. :thubsup: |
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Oct 22 2004, 05:58 PM
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 i need an sn change. Group: Member Posts: 1,915 Joined: Jul 2004 Member No: 27,746 |
 im soo sorrie... maybe u shuld talk to ur friend about it..or unless u want to try and move on?im not good with this kind of stuff.. goodluck |
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Oct 22 2004, 07:11 PM
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 Lauren loves YOU. Group: Member Posts: 2,357 Joined: Jul 2004 Member No: 32,793 |
awwww sweetie!!! i'm so sorry! ugh i know EXACTLY how you feel. just cry it out, dear. it'll be okay.
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Oct 27 2004, 10:06 PM
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 ...and this is me.. Group: Member Posts: 3,518 Joined: Oct 2004 Member No: 57,899 |
be calm and dela wtih it slowly and smart.
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Oct 30 2004, 01:04 AM
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AsianUniQ Group: Member Posts: 77 Joined: Sep 2004 Member No: 50,713 |
you dont need sympathy....but if you're gona cry, cry your heart out until you realize eits useless......you would probably be envious of your freind, you would prob hate HIM. But don't. All of that is worthless. What you need is the self-confidence. Just think..........you're better than that. But really you are better than that. Dont think too negatively, you SHOULD be glad because its best that you should just stay being his freind. If things dont work out betwn him and that other girl, then he would probably come to you and hope that you would cheer him up. See....ur always gona be that good freind.
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Nov 17 2004, 05:16 PM
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aww melissa i know who your talking about and i am so sorry sweetie. i know they broke up now or whatever, but you don't need *him* because if the way he treated her is any indication of how he is with girls (and i think it is) then just let him go.
i know how you feel sort of. i had the biggest crush on *someone* (you liked him, too, so i think you might know who i mean) and when he ended up liking lkd i was devastated, but you know what? things got better and now me and him are cool again and friends like before and i wouldn't trade that for anything. so believe me your broken heart will mend. i promise and if you ever need to talk you know where i am. just an email away. |
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Nov 18 2004, 01:35 AM
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 There is a light that never goes out.... Group: Member Posts: 107 Joined: Nov 2004 Member No: 60,044 |
QUOTE(xoxo_koala_kisses_ @ Oct 22 2004, 2:33 PM) ..real men wear eyeliner.. hehe, I wear eyeliner. But I digress. I'm so sorry to hear that. I know (from expirience) how that feels. I won't say don't cry, because that only makes you want to cry more. Me, being a guy...who cries.... I can understand that. But, regardless, I think you should wait things out. I don't know if he deserves a second chance for pulling that shit, but if you love him enough to forgive him and try again, then go for it. Don't give up. ~The Pixie is the manliest of all creatures~ -<(".<) |
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Nov 18 2004, 04:41 PM
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 i wanna hug <3 Group: Member Posts: 103 Joined: Nov 2004 Member No: 62,811 |
im srry to hear that...
 but if he truly loves you he and that girl will break up soon...so maybe going anti boy for a while will get u less emotional
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