Apology Options

[Ekay]

I had a dream the other day. You were in it and it hurt because I miss you so. I called you and got your voicemail. The words that I spoke were, "If only things could be repaired..." The rest is unknown for my alarm had rung. If it hadn't, I would've liked to continue in that dream...to hear your voice and to see what I would've said. Alas, the harsh reality of it all, is that we've stopped talking. And I'm fearful of falling for you once more, so I learned to keep my distance. If only I wasn't such a pessimist, maybe I would still be talking to you. But the trepidation of being hurt is too great. Having you as a friend is hard to accept because then you would be like smoke to me. I can grab at it, but it will never be in my grasp. Even so, I would much rather have that than not talk to you anymore. I'm sorry that I was so rash, so impulsive. I'm sorry for the things I have said to you, but if your extended hand for friendship is still here, then I would like to accept it.