Me and my dad, Confusing situation Options

[Luster Soldier]

*sigh, I don't know what's happening. This situation is very confusing for me. I have to get it off my chest.

You see, my parents divorced when I was seven. My dad had an affair with a woman, so my parents divorced. That had a huge impact on my life...which caused my mom to remarry here in America and so we moved here. I now live with my step-dad (who I don't regard as a good dad, since he doesn't do anything), I still love my bio dad very very much.

Just took a walk outside, and few things came to mind. By all means I'm confused. I think I've really changed in my four years of going without a dad. What if he didn't have an affair, my life would be different. I would have prolly have the joy of having a dad, and that would have a positive effect on me. I hate the fact that my bio dad ditched me. I went thru more crap than any teenager of my age. My bio dad still loves me rite? Yea, he still writes to me and calls, but I don't feel the same way towards him anymore. He's not the dad I knew when I was five. He feels more like a stranger.

Now I'm trapped in this situation, with two dads, yeah. I have no idea how this situation can go on without any waves or conflicts. My bio dad says that he is my one and only dad, but I have to live with my step-dad for the most of my life. I'm trapped in the middle, with two dads.

It's a boring read for you guys I'm sure, but I don't know what to do....