I'm listening to music right now

I have guilty thoughts even though others dont know.

i am attracted to this boy that i dont even know. at all

I'm pretending to be emotionally strong in front of my family about the situation I'm in but really, I'm crumbling on the inside. I'm scared shitless

I'm going to grow up as an old cranky crazy old lady.

I would say 'with a cat...' but i'm allergic.

And what is amazing is that Im not scared about that...

that felt soooooooooo good, and i wasn't exagerating the other night

- i am really confused right now with my guy friend
- i really dont give a shit about school anymore since my gpa went down
- i am really lonely sometimes

after school i skipped out on yearbook to have some fun with him in my van.

i'm so scared to make a mistake. ahh!

i hate them. i really, honestly do. i need to get away.

I've actually thought of cheating on him.

i didn't tell you the whole story that night, but that was a very large part of it and it feels good (yet still emberrassing) having you know that . . . i want to be completely and totally honest with you as my best friend, but there are secrets that i have that i dont want ANYONE to know. i wish i knew how to get over it

It doesn't matter what my boyfriend does to me... I will always forgive him because I think we were meant to be together.....

I don't know why I just said that! whoops... momentary guards down!!!

I've always known she'd eventually commit suicide.

I want to go tomorrow just to see him.

If my friends keep treating me badly I will make their lives hell.

Exactly.

I'm not as strong as others think I am.

i'm sick of my best friend.

i always love the players, cheaters, liars, and a.ssholes.

I'm not as weak as people think me to be. I've learned to protect myself and wear my own suit of armor. When I get knocked down, I get back up, because I've laid on that cold and barren floor, and wished that I was as cold and lifeless as the floor that I laid on.

The upside is that you can always make amends, that is the most important part of life. You can better yourself. Once you have made a mistake, you can't correct it, but you can learn how to prevent it in the future. When I see people suffer from various things and all I want to do is help and give them love, yet I have no means. When I see how cruel and rotten people can treat each other, and I feel so angry, so protective. Longing settles in me, I want to reach out and touch them, to show them the warmth I need them to feel, to hold them and for them to know they are not unloved; but, I feel like a leaf of love and a tear of compassion in a world full of hate and sin. I feel like a trapped light in a room of darkness, ready and willing to sacrifice my entire being, all that I mean or ever will mean, everything, to be a light in the night, to guide people safely home, to bear all their pain for them, to be the target of all the hate and cruelty in the world; but, this sacrifice is not yet mine to make.

I'm turned on when an attractive girl is smoking a cigarette

I still try to see how long I can go without sleep.

hour: 34

you know you should go to sleep, its bad for you to not sleep for so long if i showed offense im srry

oh god, me too.

smoke is sexy

You're an idiot

i am VERY paranoid...i hate the dark...i think that somethings to get me >>

i haven't got a clue..

heres my confessions
- im in the building and im feeling myself
- i dont like the way nga and kelly type .. yeah its dumb but that might be the reason we dont talk alot on aim

man i hate the way nga and kelly types too. sike

- i am cheap