I need you. I want you here with me so badly. It’s not even really you that I want. It’s just what you represent. Who you are means nothing to me right now but what you do for me means everything. You make me feel as if I have worth, as if I’m something special. You give me that connection that I long for right now. That sense of protection when I’m in your arms. It was nice knowing that someone cared, that I could call you up at any moment and you'd listen to my problems. You made me feel warm whenever we held hands. And even in those times of silence I knew that there was something greater than just the two of us there. Heh, it's sad to think that those are the things I miss. They seem so petty and foolish. Maybe it's because they were so abruptly taken away and now I feel deprived of them. I need you. I need the way you made me feel. The way our bodies fit so perfectly when we hugged. I need it. I'm going through withdrawal and I can't handle it. I just want someone to take the pain away. I want to regain those feelings again. I want to feel loved, worthy, special, warm, cared for... I just want to feel.
Thanks Naomi for chatting with me and helping me through all the crap. You're my inspiration for writing this.