I wish I could be her, instead of me.

I really do care what other people think.

I want to become prep, but not really. Maybe just change my style.

These are my confessions:
- I wore sluty clothes to impress him. (I'll never do that again)
- I sneaked to my dad's closet and found...things... (Damn my curiousity)
- I cut my wirsts
- I was once a wannabe preepy gurl who wanted everyone to like me (*punches myself*)
- I tried to kill myself (...)
- I stole from my family (Bad me)
- Stole stuff from stores
- I'm afraid of the dark
- I hate some of my "friends"
- Lied to teachers/parents/friends/sister
- I sometimes glance at girls' body (I'm not les/bi, just wanted to see the competition)
There's more but I can't remember.

-I mooned my sister when I was like, 7.
-I sometimes pee in the shower.
-My dad knows the chorus to the songs 'Hollaback Girl' and 'Karma.'
-I thought Blue's Clues was the best until Steve "went to college." And that was just a couple of months ago.

Ah, that's all.

+ I think about having sex with john 22/7
+ I hate moving with Albana, she freaks me out, she's got the hughest butt ever and she's too *wierd* for me
+ I think about having sex with jeremy 18/7
+ I want to kill my dad
+ My very close friend smells like dead rat. Sometimes i feel like puking
+ I almost bought a vibrator
+ I don't like dating virgins
+ I hate judging people
+ I'm 2 faced. I have a double personality
+ I steal people's boyfriends
+ I enjoy breaking couples
+ I think condoms suck
+ Sometimes my very close friend (janina) bugs me, she's too thin
+ I hate when people don't see the blackness in me
+ I only enjoy dating arabs/mixed (black and white)/white guys, the rest don't interest me
+ I still have feelings for Illyes (we dated then he dumped me because i liked his bestfriend)
+ I still have feelings for Illyes' bestfriend
+ I love cocks
+ I'm a boy addict
+ I'm a sex addict.

This is the confessions thread right? Don't judge me people.

dang you must really like "her" whoever she is! sheesh i have an immense crush on a guy but i dont like him THAT much!
haha sry bored..

[x] frankie is not my real name
[x] i've never had a boyfriend
[x] i sometimes pee in public pools =X
[x] i like jojo, ashlee simpson and lindsay lohan (until she died her hair blonde and started starving herself) and I don't see anything wrong with that.
[x] i'm obsessed with america's next top model
[x] i used to shoplift (lipgloss) =X
[x] i used to think lance from nsync was hot
[x] i used to think nick carter from the backstreet boys was hot
[x] i gossip about my best friend
[x] my best friend is a beeyotch
[x] my greatest enemy is my best friend
[x] my best friend is not my best friend
[x] i watch porn =X
[x] i flirt with guys that like me to make them think they stand a chance...but they don't..=X
[x] when my friend and i go into a resteraunt and realize we don't have enough money we wait till no one's looking and then we run out xP

i'll add more later..

I have only a few confessions I can think of now...

[x] When i'm at home I watch the Britney Spears music videos and learn the dances. X__x;;; *im such a loser*
[x] I read my sister's diary. *not that bad*
[x] Once in awhile I'll go to Barnes and Nobles or Sam Goody and buy something Sailor Moon. *still a loser*
[x] I stole my sisters condom and blew it into a balloon to toss over the neighbor's yard. >D

+I think boys get all the better toys
+Star wars rocks my rocks
+I love cartoons, even though my friends don't
+I was a tomboy when I was younger
+I like snakes, even though I'm not supposed too.
+I cry for everything (movies)
+I can never say no to anybody if they ask me if they can borrow money, pencil, anything.
+I find boys that are younger than me by a few years cute as HECK, and I also think their cuter than older guys xP
+I am currently addicted to jake lloyd (Anakin Skywalker) as a child. Episode 1; that was the best xD then he grew up.
+I used to be obsessed with: Liam Aiken (Klaus Bauderlaire) and Jeremy Sumpter (Peter Pan)
^That's all I can think of at the moment.

heres a good one

- In June of 2004 I joined cB under the screenname Topheavy. The reason I joined cB was because one day I was looking at my friend's xanga and I saw this cool skin Roxanne made called "Individuality". I clicked on the link to "xquizit_442's xanga" and saw the skin.

I made a few changes to the top banner and Roxanne's "Individuality" became my skin titled "Innovation". Everyone complimented me on my great skills but the next morning I awoke and found my name leading off the "Jockers" portion of Roxanne's xanga. I got like 10 comments from various Roxanne fans and some of them linked me to createBlog.com and I became a member.

I never jocked again (except for one case but that's another story).


and i just told Roxanne before I told cB and she told me she already knew a long time ago and I felt real stupid.

- i spent 9 hours online the other day... just on createblog
- in washington DC i saw a guy at the pool, and we kept on staring at each other, and i never knew his name, and i developed a HUGE crush on him. i wish id had the guts to talk to him
- my first dream about a guy was about stevie brock
- i used to be a huge fan of aaron carter, triple vision, stevie brock, dreamstreet, and jesse mccartney
-today you could not pay me to buy one of their cds
- i get turned on by a franz ferdinand song.....(darts of pleasure)
- ummmmm ive listened to my whole iTunes library 10 times through today...
- i fall in love with random guys i see that i think are hot, and it takes me like 3 days to get over them
- i gave my friends phone number to a guy i met over the phone, but didnt get to know well until i talked to him online <- which still doesnt make sense...
- im one of those abstinence supporters- otherwise no sex till the wedding for me
- i think about breaking that promise... a lot
- i have a crush on the lead singer of fall out boy's voice....
- everyday i regret telling anyone i liked this one guy...
- i secretly think my best friend is a poser, and i get sad and hit myself when she finds out about a band that i like
- the girl up there who i called my best friend thinks that i think that shes my best friend.. but shes not...she treats me like sh*t
-while she thinks that io think that shes my best friend, i think that she thinks that i think that and i know she doesnt want me to think it
edit-
i came up with more....scary
-i like bluegrass
-everytime Sugar We're Going DOwn comes on, i either start crying or singing bad harmonies
-i have a crush on fall out boy's lead singer's voice
- i think michael(sp?) phelps has the sexiest bod ever
- i think riff raff from the rocky horror picture show is so friggin sexy, i cant stand it
- i brag because im 1/16 native american
- i always have like 7 songs playing in my head at the same time, but when ever i try to sing one in my head i cant think of any
- i say i dont label people but inside my head i think most people are posers, and sometimes i even wonder if im one..
- i read the bible every night
- i get so annoyed if im watching a movie that has a lot of cussing that i will change the channel/ go to the bathroom if im in a theatre [gigli(encore) and south park the movie (the unedited version on comedy central)]
- ^after i do so i feel like a loser
- i actually liked the mariah carey movie(was it called shimmer?)
- i havent gone to church for like 4 months
- i tell people that hypocrites make me mad, but im very hypocritical sometimes


ummm i had a lot to confess didnt I?


Liam is hot and jeremy is my friends cousin...

-sometimes i wish i could be a guy instead...lol
-what i usually do every day is use the computer...for nothing
-i HATE liver! bleck
-i'm tired of watching my grandpa walk super slow whenever i'm behind him
-i shoplifted a few times in the past wish i swore to never do again

that's basically it right now i'll edit this later

edit:// oh ya, whenever i go somewhere with my family, i take my pillow with me. I can't leave it, it's so soft and cuddly.
-sometimes i wonder how its like to be lez or gay.

Same!! Except i can cry easily for absolutely ANYTHING, even out of nervousness or anger, not just movies.. *ashamed*

- sometimes most of the time i wish i was asian\
- people tease me for being so proud of being 7.8125% native american
- i know almost all the words to "we belong together" =X
- i cry because i miss my dad a lot
- i think Brad Pitt is the ugliest guy ever.

-i drink so that i can talk about shit and either not remember it, or be able to talk about it. oh no underage drinking the horror
-i really do want to die
-i was drunk and telling my friend about it and hurt her more than i hurt myself
-i hate myself for that
-i honestly hate CB alot of the time

- I spend more time on the computer than I do with my friends, boyfriend, family, and schoolwork because I love editing film

- when people ask me if i hate my twin brother (because they assume that since we are twins I should hate him) i say no because I love my brother. He's my BROTHER!

- I like taking pictures of myself just so I can edit them in photoshop....because I'm obsessed with editing/blend making

- I'm writing a book that I use for venting...and it has parallels to people in real life and YES I AM PUBLISHING IT!! muahahaha...I don't care if it almost screams those people's names...some deserve it.

- My mom was put in jail for a night by my stepfather {who then moved to California and never spoke to me again}

- I have depression caused by Obsessive Complusive Disorder and it's really really annoying...

Hm..
I have a crush on this girl in my health class. I feel like a creep. She's bi too, so I guess it's not that weird, but I'm still getting used to the feelings.

Yeah. So I guess that's another confession...
I'm bi.

bump

I still like Spice Girls and I trim my "hair."

So maybe I won't vote for Basick (sneaky little runt =P) but I thought I'd post anyway.

I really really like blood. Biting and cutting are such turn ons for me.
The only reason I don't drink is because I think I'll end up like my dad.
My family is so screwed that I could drop out of high school or get pregnant or go to jail and blend right in with everyone else.

i escaped prison the day before i was to be executed.

id rather stay home and not talk to anyone then go hang out at the mall with my friends, no matter what mood im in.

sometimes im bored i like to sing toxic and im a slave 4 u...X_x

i found weed, cocaine, and bong in my closet.

*sigh*.

-I had to go to a test lab and I took a test to prove I was "gifted".

-I secretly attended a Classical Magnet Center for 3 full years.

-My Dad left me and my mom, a while back when I was little.

-One of my sisters died, before I even got to see her. She had a hole in her heart...And her birthday is coming up soon.

-I believe War solves nothing, but it kills without a true cause.

and last, but defintinetly not least...

I'm trying very hard, to become a stronger Christian, the stronger I get, the more the devil tries to knock me down...

but I will overcome the last one. No doubt. =]

*GASP* STEVEN! Jocking from Roxanne. Of all the people! *tsk tsk tsk*

- When im bored i go look at hot girls on cb.

- I got really drunk this past Friday night at a friends house.
- I threw up a few times... in two toilets and then on the couch.
- I'm horny when I'm drunk.
- I had sex with an ex-boyfriend from 5 years ago who I've only been talking to recently for a week.
- We did it for 5 hours non stop.
- I enjoyed it.

- I'm sometimes secretly glad when this girl I know doesn't do so well in school
- In ninth grade, I thought one of my teachers was kinda cute
- I like to take photos of myself and edit them in photoshop
- I've been listening to Backstreet Boys and Aaron Carter this past week

I'm so embarrassed!