kaitlyn - i love the new sig/avatar! very cute. I LOVE YOU GUYS TOO! really.

ahh i miss you already. haha how pathetic...but i can't help it. i'm so afraid of losing you.

yay for phone calls. that was fun. yay for venting about ex's! hahaha

N-God, you annoy me so much. Get a life, be imperfect. gdjoascsaklnjdv

im so pissed at you right now. you know that i like you because one of my friends called you on your cell while you were away for 3 weeks. when you came back you told me that you met this girl. everything was 'jess this jess that'. you were talking to jess on your cell phone for a good 30min right in front of me..then when we were playing basketball you did the same thing. its like you cant get enough of that girl! things have changed now between you and me and i dont think i like you anymore because im over you. you told me you would bring me back something when you were away in europe for 3 weeks..but you never did. when i go to florida f**k that shit, i wont bring you back anything.

where's my gift? sorry to be so selfish, but i'd really like to think that you can get me a gift. i'm sad.

and why is it that i'm angry at him a lot?

why can't i make her laugh as easily as everyone else?

SHE'S BEAUTIFUL!! i love you baby elaina!

ToNey
i'm so confused about our whole situation. i got a man && yet here you come along and where does this leave me now? i was on the phone with him && all my thoughts were about you. i got off the phone with him to talk to you. i never traded him to talk to anybody...except for you. you said yesterday that you thought you were in love. i feel the same way but, i couldnt say it. its happening too fast. this has never happened in before. is it just lust or maybe love in the making? we'll see what the future brings...

SkYlEr
hey baby dang i feel so bad. we said we would be true to each other && say if we were feeling someone else..i tried to last night but, i just cant. i know it would break your heart. i just cant do it. i wont do it unless this thing with HIM develops.

ReEkAh (me)
what the f**k is going on with you? you cant be in love with 2 niggas? get yourself together! it doesnt even feel the same talking to skyler. toney wont leave your mind. well..just see what the coming weeks bring. just dont slip up.

Nick,

I honestly don't know how to say this to you, and I'm really struggling to come up with how to word this, but I really like you. We've been friends and we've been talking for just over a year now, and I think we really connect at times. We have similiar views on a lot of things, and we both seem to enjoy talking with each other. I just wish I knew how to say this to you in the most straight-forward way possible. You're a really awesome guy---basically everything that I could ever think of as being 'awesome.' You like a lot of good and odd music, you're friendly (well, to people you can tolerate ;P), absolutely hilarious, compassionate, etc. I love talking to you and I wish I could really say this to you, but I'm afraid I cannot. Let's just continue to talk to each other and have a good time.

See you later.

-Brie

Jeff,
I'm disappointed that you didn't invite me out with your friends for your birthday. What is up with that?

Dude, I saw that coming a year ago.
I am so good.

If I'm thinking of the right Nick which I'm sure I am. Cause I'm that good.

Nah, it's a different Nick. He doesn't post on here. =P

......
Damnit I suck.

More dreams about you. They were wonderful, just like you.

That's unexpected. I didn't think I'd get over him. But, I have.

I'm crushing on you.

Are you really coming this time..? I'm afraid of getting my hopes up again. Are you on your way now..?

RC;

I didn't pour my heart out in the form of words and place it in your weak arms for a thrill. My love for you is more genuine than you will ever know. And now, you will never get to know. You blew me off, and this is what you get. I will never go back to you. You missed your chance. This is truly the end, Goodbye my sweet former love.

SA;

I don't know what the hell you're trying to pull by being sooo sweet to me lately. GAWD, if you weren't so effingly handsome i would have left you by now. Keep it up, this is the first i've been able to truly say i am happy. Thanks! I'll call you tonight, don't worry, you don't have to ask twice.

Dear You,
this relationship is really hard. We barely get to see each other and we barely get to talk with each other. I know a lot of people can do with these distanced relationships, but I don't know how much longer I can take it. It's going to get even harder once school starts too...
-Me.

Maggie. My goodness, I love you. You have made me the happiest person in the world. Today I almost died after you kissed me after our 16 minute hug. I know it was just a kiss, but it meant a lot to me. I really do love you.

We are going to rip up Bronx Science.

Mom and dad,
You two are f**king pathetic. God. I hate you guys. Seriously.

Why am I drawn to you so much?

V--If only you knew.

That phone call yesterday definitely brought up my mood. Why are you so nice to me?

Cheryl,


You,
You f**king pathetic whore. Why did you think that I liked Toby? Toby is a girl, you f**king dumbnut.

Yay! I have my best friend again. My day has been enlightened.

I can't wait to hang out with you again........ I feel so comfortable and at ease when I'm with you.
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WE BETTER MAKE THURSDAY WORK, YOU GUYS.. OR I WILL KEELL U ALL
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I hope you'll come avec moi next Wednesday :) and, probably not happening, but the Team Canada Orientation Practice as well. Don't know why we kinda stopped talkin after I said that very blunt thing to you a few nights ago... but I hope you weren't offended. It was still your choice; it was just my opinion. I don't want to lose you as a friend again!
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I am still lookin for an explanation regarding yesterday..... what the heck was that? But I'll listen..
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I hope you don't feel discouraged with what I said to you Saturday night. Just remember it... and I hope it helps you in some ways.

Rachel,

You BITCH! How the f**k could you do that to me? I KNEW something was up since that day you stopped by my job and didn't come over to say "hi". It's kool though, go back with Joey or w/e the f**k his name is. I tell you one thing though, a guy who treated you as good as I did is hard to find. You had found one, but you have now loss him. I really did love you... I thought you loved me too. And I still say you a Hoe!

You should know that I really really really can't stand not being with you by now. Do you get it?

But I guess that's my fault.

I crave you.

How about you drive me up to some mountain, and we can do it in your truck?

Please?

Please get out of my head. I can't function. I didn't sleep at all last night and paid hell for it today. Just, please. I really like you.

good lord, you've changed.

anyway, i can't wait for the orchestra trip to galveston and then HOUSTON! i'll be ecstatic just to know you're less than fifty miles away from me. which seems kinda stupid, but it'll be the nearest i've been to you since two weeks or so.

i miss you. a lot. sigh. one of the FEW reasons i actually want school again...bah. 19 days.

go away and leave me alone.

I still think about you, do you still think about me? Eh, I just want us to be friends again, is that so hard? I want to see you again; I actually want school to start so that can happen. But will you ignore me again? I won't allow it; I want to have a good senior year and that means being friends with you again.

Okay, dad, I hate you now and I always will... get over it

you never understood anything and you never will...

material things do not buy love nor do they earn my respect for you

the fact that you're my dad does not give you the right to walk in and out of my life as you please

just cause you grew up not knowing what love is.. doesn't give you a right to treat your kids this way

I got over the point of actually caring about this relationship a short while ago

So... screw it. You're impossible; you've lost me forever, and i don't care if i've lost you.

f**k you

I can't do it. I need to put this to an end, but I've invested so much in you. What the f**k am I supposed to do?

Haha. I love the way you make me laugh!

i don't think you know just how much i admire you.

You guys will make it work, I know it hon :)

To ___________ :
Haha, I am madly in love with you.

To ___________ :
I can't wait to see you next week..YAY.

You've just been a total stubborn friend lately, I mean I call you on the phone and you start to yell at me for no reason, and you don't even say goodbye all you say is okay, then hang up the phone. We use to do like everything together, but since it's summer I guess our friendship has been fading away I hope when school starts again we can still be the best of friends and I will miss you much when we go to different high schools.

to Golda - your such an amazing girl .....i love your individuality and your charisma ....it shocks me in awe too see such a girl have raw talent when your on stage ...yet you know me , we havent really talked ....i acted soo negative the past year ....sometimes you gave me a sense of direction in life and in my music career ..... i wish i talked to you more when school was on session ....but i was to insecure to what I must say ....but i could just imagine that the intelligence u must have ...still i dont know if we could still see each other now that i`m a graduate and your a senior next month ....i could just imagine what will happen when your off hi-school .....keep doing what your doing .....you made me open myself more

to Nikki - why do such boundaries exist in life today ? .....i guess when you live closer to the city you get more divided ...just seeing you makes me think your a hypocritical by ass f**ker who only knows how to live in lifes standards .....try to open yourself up .....its not like i did anything

damn man, youre awesome. Im gonna miss talking to you when school starts sooo much! I just wont admit it.

dear AHEM,
i still like you
-sigh-

To the members of Killswitch Engage, As I Lay Dying, and Soilwork:

Thanks for such an amazing night. Seriously, I couldn't have asked for a better second concert. You all were f**king amazing, and I hope to see you all again someday in the future, whether you're separately touring or not, I MUST see all of you again....especially Killswitch.

Once again....thank you. You saved my summer.

Love from a fan,

Brie

Dear Teesa,
We need to hang out. Guess who I saw? Many hot boys that I must tell you about hahaha
-Me.

Dear You,
I freaking miss you. I can't see you this week either. Two weeks without seeing you, hugging you, holding your hand, kissing you...UGH. I can't live like this. I'm seriously addicted to you. And we talk less and less now and it's gonna continue to get less and less...this is so frustrating. You're the one I always think about and who I always long to be with. I ache to just hold you for a few minutes. Why is this so hard?...
-Me.

Dear you people,
Please try not to leave me out this week. I'm sorry I'm only half-Korean, but it's not reason for you all to disclude me/ignore me/not talk to me/whatever. It's not fair. That is the only reason I'm personally not excited to go with you all. Basically the only reason is because I get to get away from this hell hole I'm supposed to call home.
-Me.

-Edit-

Dear You,
You know, you 're supposed to be my f**king best friend. What the hell? You don't act like it at all. All you do is make up some bullshit and try to cause drama for me and him and I don't need it. I need you to be a real best friend and support me and be happy for me. For once I'm finally HAPPY and I thought that that would mean something to you. But no. Instead you insult my boyfriend and you tell me you hate him. I know you two have differences but you know, I can see why he dislikes you but why you dislike him? There's no reason. All there is, is this bullshit you make up in your head. You did something to him and he didn't do anything to you when he very well could have done something back. He's the one that was being nice and you're the one that was a bitch. f**king get over it. Be my best friend and stop making up all of these lies and bullshit and trying to make me have guilt for you. I have none. I just really am sick of it. Oh, and then you have to question me and accuse me. Honestly, what the f**k? Get over it. I love him and I'm with him and just stop. Man... be my best friend. If anything, we're just not as close because YOU made it that way, YOU. You did it yourself. Not him, not me, not anyone else but your f**king self.
-Me.

Dear Chrissy,
I'm sorry I didn't get back to you last night. I was in the middle of crying and passing out in sporadic bursts. I was sad, and tired, and lonely. My computer was doing weird things when I woke up. I hope to talk to you soon, today for sure.

Dear Teesa,
Thank you for being there last night during that difficult time. I'm mad at myself though, because I didn't get around to cutting the ties. I ended passing out before then. I was so tired. Damn that guy for making me wait! I want to talk to Tom...

Dear Tom,
What are you doing to me? Please tell me, for I do not know. All that I'm sure of is that I'm powerless to stop it. In the short duration of our encounter you've managed to infiltrate my thoughts...you haven't left since. Last night when I came home and noticed that you tried to talk me and I wasn't there, it nearly broke my heart. Is that supposed to happen so early in this...this thing we have? I'm frightened and exhilirated. Talking to you for that moment, that instant, it brought something inside me back to life. A joy that has been dormant for some time. Maybe I'm getting ahead of myself, but if anything, you've planted a seed of hope. I see a spark of promise in you. I only hope that I can be that for you.

Tom, you've captivated me, taken my breath away. What do I do from here?

EDIT// Tom, you are amazing. I see how wonderful you can be. As a friend, or maybe more, if there's anyway I can have you, I'll do it.

I can't sleep at night when you are on my mind*

My birthday is tomorrow (random)

I had a fun time yesterday. Thanks

u fxxkin biatch i phone u u dont phone me. wat kinda effer r u.

Boyfriended, you come home today. I probably won't see you because your mom said you sounded tired and crabby. Joy, whats another day added onto 7 weeks.

thanks for being the best person ever . I love you.

boo on you. annoying people.

don't be too late please! i can't wait to see you.

damn you for being late and behind schedule AGAIN...you're never on time and i proved you wrong this morning. godammit.

To Christina--
I MISS YOU. A lot! And ooh, hot boys? Can't wait to hear about them. I have eight-hour shifts all this week, but if you have the time, leave me a message on the cell =] We need to hang out soon. Love you much.

To Naomi--
I love you girl, you are one of the strongest people I know. I admire your courage and just about everything about you. You are just an awesome girl, remember that. I wish the best for you and tom.

You,
Where the hell have you been!? You haven't been online for DAYS. >:o

You fall much too easily; it's pathetic. I thought you would've learned by now. But apparently not. Fling yourself at the first person who shows you any affection at all, why don't you. Once, I can understand - but you didn't even care about making it work, you just complained. And now you're at it again. Grow up already.

I can't believe what you said to me daddy. I can't believe you cuss in front of your children, and threaten your wife. You have the sharp contradictory smell on you. You said you started a family, and you can walk out just as well. You said you love us, but you don't need us? How can you say that? That just means that you don't love us, and you don't care for us. You've never actually been there with us, so I guess it won't be that hard to let go.. Actually, through all those rough times yo've given my siblings and I, I think we're better off without you.

Damnit.
I say to myself, " not again. "
It's hard.
but you're the only one that i have right now.
I don't know if she's telling the truth or not.
But still it hurts, cause I don't want the same thing to happen again.
If only you finished your work the first time, we coulda gone.
If only you told a little white lie .. we coulda gone.
I don't know, but excluding the Europe trip, i'm really looking forward to this day.
Though i've already seen a pattern of events where things don't go down the way they're planned .. if you're included in it.
Maybe it wasn't meant to happen. After all, some things happen for a reason.
.. If things don't pull through, this is the first birthday where I didn't get everything I wished for..

why did I type it like that? ;\


Anywhoo, I dreamt of someone last night. mauha.