Don't you know?

Don't you know how much you influence me?
Don't you know how much your words ring in my ears?
Don't you know how much i want you to notice me?

It's not for the fact that i'm happy with you-
but for the that exact reason that you're happy too-
how much i influence you, how i turn you around when you're blue-

I'm so slowly wondering whether or not my life ends here-
and begins anew, strange as it is to hear those things for fear-
of myself and what it would mean to see you so upclose and clear-

dont you know how much i wonder if you're the one-
dont you know how much i dismiss it to keep foreign-
dont you know how much i hate myself for not staring up at the sun-

I can't keep my lines the same length about you-
im struggling to keep my scheme and yet it's you-
to be frank im losing touch with reality, for you-

shifting and thinking what you mean by those things you say-
maybe that you're hinting at something greater than the way-
that is normally set before me, stranger things than coloring gray-

what if it's my imagination, what if it's all fake-
what if it's not worth it, what if it's a risk i can't take-
what if it's caught me off gaurd and im led by the snake-

can't i just be sure of it for once, that im not lost-
that it's clear before me and it's worth the cost-
that i can peak before making my leap of faith's frost-

clouding up my window, i draw lines to see your face-
my imitation to keep hope in the paths of my mind's trace-
wondering if that heart i found is real in my shoe lace-

three for the things i keep in the ways of my heart-
afraid because it's before been torn apart-
that i should die in a world before it starts-

should i commit to what could be lost in translation-
or keep a never fully tapped passion in this relation-
to never fully be happy without that one compensation-

ripped apart i wait longer in this labrynth of games-
awaiting my rejection and still i sit hopefull the same's-
way of chains wrapping around my ankles and bracing the fames-

inglorious and tawdry was i before i found you-
it seems that i could be too close too soon-
there's no excuse for being this happy when i'm around you-

no reason for my world to be perfect when you're near-
that giggle and leer that lovely smile and crippling tear-
Try as i may i believe im becoming attatched to here-

Still as much as i would Love to believe it i dont think anything- should happen- I know where i belong and nothing's gonna happen- Doomed to be the friend forever, she's too beautiful for me-

I can totally relate to what you're saying. It's very nicely written, and I LOVE how it rhymes. Very coolomundo.