I've tried and fell. I tried and fell apart.
Fell to the ground and watched my life as it floated above me.
I lay tired and bruised,
Restrain myself from substance and abuse.
Ground breaking laugh.
I'll never miss it. I never want it back.
So graceful in the way we move
The only direction were headed is down.
Falling forward and spinning just to ease the pain.
I know this was my own choice.
To let myself become the drug thirsty monster inside.
But I can't see it as beauty.
Not in these broken eyes of mine.