Since Vinh's topic reached 20 pages, here's the new one.
"It'd be neat if people could write about someone that's on their mind right now, in an anonymous message. It can be about love, crush, hate, issues. Just don't turn it into thread where it needs to be closed."

I wonder what I mean to you.

I'm a different person now. Can you accept me for who I am, or will you turn your back on me? Will you stay by my side, love me for who I am and who I've become? I need more than ever now, yet you don't realize just how much you mean to me. I know I've been moody lately.. but I feel like my imperfections are getting in the way of everything. I just want to be perfect, just want to be worthy enough to be with you.

Just having you close means the world to me. I wish I could tell you everything that's been on my mind, but it's so hard because we don't communicate as much as we used to. You think I've given up, that I'm pushing you away... Maybe I am pushing you away. I'm doing so only because I fear that at the state that I am right now, I'll lose you forever, and I certainly don't want that to ever happen. I know I've told you this a million times, but I just want to say it once again... I love you. I never stopped loving you, not for one instant. My love for you will never change.

mmmkayyy =///

dear anonymous person.
thank you for leaving me alone.
i will appreciate this very much.

-alina.

*someone on my mind*

hey there sexc! wuts good...yea i know we just started actually talking and getting to know eachother..but goshes..i cant get you off my mind...you're just there..and wont leave...you even took over the places of my stalkertee #1...which is really scary...you're really flirtatious and its killing me...because i never know wut you're thinking...do you like me...do you not like me...so confusing ....i kinda wish you'd give it to me straight up... dont worry though buddy! i'll still heart you!

*to and old friend*

hi friend! i heard you and *censored* kind of broke it off...hehe..what would i know though right? you never talk to me anymore...one day i hope that we could become friends again...

You lead me on. Sometimes you talk, other times you don't. Sometimes you act like I mean something to you, the rest of the time you ignore me. I don't know anymore. We dated for a year and a half...You broke my heart...We didn't talk for nearly a year. Then you tell me you still like me? What the hell? But still...I...blocked you off, and I thought my walls would last.

I built them to last. I barricaded myself in hatred. I berated you. I was so mean to you. You put up with it. I moved on. We put aside our differences. I want to be with you. I asked you how you would feel if I told you I loved you? I posed it as a joking sentence. You acted outraged when I said you didn't want my love, but then you said it'd be awkward if I said I loved you.

Now...you don't speak. Now, we sit in silence. The girl you left me for left you, so maybe I'm just someone to fall back onto. Then again, the guy I started dating the day after you left me, I left, and he wants me back. Do I want him? No...not really. I've made my own personal coin. If he gets up with me before I fall asleep tonight...He gets me back, and you lose me...forever.

We're just friends though. It's not like you care. It's not like you love me. You never did after all. Even now, with all the mean things you did and said to me in the past, even now that you said you never meant it (that you're sorry) I wonder if you did...if you aren't. I don't know. You confuse me. I should be over this. Over you. The silence on your part continues. I'm waiting.

It doesn't matter so much anymore. At least we talk now. At least we're close now. At least I know you better. Maybe I can't have you. Maybe I never could. You said we'd go on a roadtrip one day. Just you and me. I said no at first, then gave in. We have it all planned out...then again, we planned it all out the day we started talking again. I honestly can't wait...

I wonder if you know how much I like you..

a surprise awaits you on v-day ;)

why do you think i am so stupid! i know when you are lying and when you are telling the truth. it seems like you are a totally different person! i know that you are a senior and you want to be on your own but we used to be like 2 peas in a pod but now we are like 10 miles apart! what happened? it makes me feel sad because we were so close and cool with each other!

you have really hurt me the last few days! you know what dad said and you totally act like you don't what the hell is going on! and that just pisses me off! i tryed talking to you just get all pissed off at me! i am sick of it. just shut the eff up.

=x

so do you like me or not? you are caring one day, you laugh at my jokes and you talk to me and stand up for me, but then you ignore me and... what exactly is in your mind? be my valentine, even though i can't go to the dance.

You suck man. You make me want to punch you in the face, but at the same time hold you in my arms. *sigh*

Hey, I want you but I don't want you. I'm happy we're friends and I'm happy it's not going farther than that.
Plus, shrink your ego, k? Love ya!

hey ******,
why do u always have to cause problems...my gosh...i know u hate me but y involve others..u r so selfish..u only think u r the only one suffering...u never notice others..and now ur taking away a friend..what is up with u...y dont u just grow up...all of us all realizing stuff and growing up while u do nothing but whine..its really annoying...u dont realize how others feel about u...we dont say it to ur face b/c we know ur going to cry...all u say is ur going to do this but u never do...in fact u r a lier...u said that im replacing u but actually ur replacing ur own friends with someone else...what im trying to say is grow up!

ok well thats it...lol...

to you.

scared me a bit. i thought for a second you knew. but i don't think you do...sigh. such a secret i hold...i want to tell you so badly yet i don't. agh.

YOU TARD!!! im going to find you and the slut you did it with and beat the shit outta you two... how could you do that to your girlfriend?

you effing liked her SOOO MUCH!!!! WHATS WRONG WITH YOU!?!?!?!

To you,
Eh, I really will change myself for you. I love you so much to do that. I will be more outgoing, more sociable, nicer to your friends (the girls, i'm iffy on), etc. I really don't want you to feel bad or whatever- because that makes me feel guilty. I hate feeling bad when I think I guilted you into doing (or not doing) something. Eh. I really do love you, and I do want to spend forever with you. <3

..i know you know i like you....and all i really want right now.. is to know what your thinking. even if you dont like me... its alright cuz im used to it....im just tired of guessing.

To some guy-

Wow... just wow. You really need to learn how to listen to people. When we say stfu your gonna get us in a lot of damned trouble you listen! We got suspended for the week because of your ass. Your just lucky we aint like those dudes who will kick your ass just for lookin' at them funny. Hold up.... how many times have we told you to f**kin f**k off before anyway?!??! Yeah, we used to feel sorry for you. We befriended you and shit, but naw. Don't know about everyone else but I can't take you anymore damnit!!! I'm about to just knock you the f**k out!!

i want to learn about you inside out...crawl into your mouth and take pictures of your heart, ribcage. taste your hair and remember it. run my long nails down from your neck to your chest. i would wear your skin until it rots and swallows me alive...bite on your teeth until mine break...do you feel me now? i want to wear your everyday sweatshirt and walk around telling people i am your possession. i want you to leave bite marks all over my body...smile evilly...make me feel unsafe, uncomfortable, disgusted. i love you as much as i love my purple pillows.

I read that on your Xanga. SO beautiful.

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Whenever I see you in the hall, it makes me want to spit. The fact that I felt for you so that I thought I loved you...disgusts me. You're not who I thought you were, but more the fool I. I hope that one day you know that pain you cause me everyday when you sit by me like nothing is wrong. When I hug you I really curse you a thousand curses. I want you to know that you bastard.

God. Why the hell am I sitting here crying over you? I don't understand anything anymore. I can't even think straight. I'm so fcuking stupid for falling for you. At least I found this all out now instead of when I'm really caught up with you and when I become completely infatuated. God. Seriouly, I'm so stupid. I hate me. I hate this. I don't even know what to think about you, me, or anyone else. Everything is changed, everything is messed up, everything. This is all bullshit. I'm so confused. On top of everything I have to be like this. Ugh.

now that you've gotten with somebody who is like how they are i just feel terrific, ya know? thanks for making all those memories so much less meaningful. buuuuuuuh bye

I watch your memories melt into my fears, my hopes, my mind. Your heart beats a solemn rhythym, and that's when I knew you were never real. I love you and hate you at the same time. I reached for you, and you reached for me, but our hands haven't touched yet. I'm not sure if they ever will, or if you even want them to.
You want to know who I am, don't you? You're holding it on the tip of your tongue. You're about to burst into tears, scream. I hear you cry and I hear you scream, but you don't hear me, do you? My words will be engraved in you, and scars will perish when you find the truth.

you're a total fag, but i still love you.

To someone:

I'm sorry I hurt you or made you confuse. It wasn't one of my intentions to do so...And I know for a fact myself that you don't want to know what's going around in my head right now because it has nothing that concerns you...It's not going to be something you're interested in. I love you as a friend and that's all we're ever going to be. I'm sorry. You're the sweetest guy on earth that I've ever met. Seriously and I'm really sorry for all this, but I can't be anything more but just a friend.

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To those two:
You're lucky I haven't even punched you in the face yet, so if you want to be on my "good side" so far, get out of my face and stay out of my way. Just because I'm mad at you right now REALLY DOESN'T AND WILL NEVER mean I won't punch you in the face. I can kick your ass and you both know it. You both and Froggie owe me 9 questions next time when we have another packet due. Or you can watch me do much more harmful things to the both of you. You can't do jack shit to me. None of you can. Well...one of you are able to, but you haven't completely realized what I'm capable of. I'm not afraid to stab you nor am I afraid to do anything else. I will hurt you if I have to. I don't give a shit about neither one of you. Saw me flung the packet at DA? Oh boo hoo. I'll do the same shit to you.

To all my VL's! I doubt anyone in here is a VL, but I just felt like sendin a shoutout.

to ...

i don't even know anymore. agh. why must it be like this?

okay what the hell? i'm so confused. do you like me or not? even as a friend, do you like me? honestly it's like you're there for me and then other times you ignore me. i don't understand you.

--DELETE--

i thought you were the only one who i can trust. i thought you were the only one who understood me. but what i found out today, completely changes our past. i feel so stupid that i actually thought YOU were someone important to me. you mean nothing to me now except a stupid mistake. i thought i would never regret being with you but i do. i really do.

--deleted-- ... where's the delete button?!>

out of all our friends,
you and i were the last ones standing.
today i found out something horrible.
im the last innocent one standing.

dear him.
you tell me everything, i tell you everything. i`m always here for you, but instead you`re never there for me. i always listen to what you want to say, but you never do. you never do. you never listen to my thoughts. whenever i tell you anything, you don`t listen to me, you just give stupid comments and say your life is worse and blah blah shit. but i still love you. i love you so much.. i don`t even know why after all those shit you did to me. but you told me you liked that girl that`s rly nice and stuff. that tore my heart into 390578213468491859238 pieces! but oh well, i just wanted to say, happy birthday and happy valentines. hope you and her get together.

Dear you,
I miss you and I love you. You don't know what you've put me through throughout these past months. I really want to know if it was real. Were you just using me, or were you serious? I really want to know the truth. I can't get you off my mind. I love you and I hate myself for that.

Hey you -

So we haven't really talked that much but I would really like to get to know you better because I know we have alot in common and I'm pretty sure you have realized that aswell.

I think I have a crush on you

If you don't think you can like me more than a friend then I'd be happy with just knowing we could become good friends

I'm going crazy. I try to make myself not like you and when I'm not around you, I almost convince myself I don't but then when we talk and we hang out everything that I thought disappeared, comes back. It's so hard. I wish you liked me back then it would be okay to feel the way I do.

*to a certain someone*

i like you because you are cute and nice and funny. You are the only crush i had that i have never told about..not even my best friends(which i hope she doesn't see b/c she goes to CB)...you made me feel noticed...you are so special to me....there is something about you that is different....from all of my other crushes

well you are just too totally awesome. too bad you're going away to college after this year. that sucks. i'd like to get to know you better, you're pretty awesome as it is now. you don't talk much though, unless i initiate conversation, and even then it's just "yep.."...do you even want to talk to me? i'll go away if you don't, just say something. i just think we could be pretty good friends. and i like your hair.
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you are just so sweet. i love the way you hold me, and the way you ever-so-gently kiss my head. i love the feel of my hand in yours, and the smile you give me every time you look at me. i love being loved, especially by you.

I like you, I wish I could tell you, but I can't. <3 ;(

Now that swim season's started, we've spent less and less time together. No more walking downtown after school, "jaywalking" ;], b/c swim practice takes up so much time for the both of us. Sure, our lanes are right next to each other, but we can't act like we're going out. We don't want "all-knowing" Coach to find out; she might tell your mom who's going to be at every single freaking swim meet. But it hurts, a little bit, not to be able to openly say I'm with you, not to be able to hang out for hours after school anymore. And online, you're someone else. You hardly talk to me; the silence is suffocating me. I swear, I can sit here and stare at our empty, pointless AIM conversation for hours and you won't respond shit. But at school, I smile when I'm with you. Some would call me stupid, retarded, obsessed. I call it happiness. Pure, beautiful, wonderful happiness. But sometimes i wonder if you feel the same way. You still like me, right? Sometimes it sure doesn't seem like it, but other times, I'm flying because you're so sweet. Why can't relationships every be simple? As long as you know how i feel. I love you... forever. and ever, and beyond.

i love you...i realize that we fight a lot...but we can get through all this crap...if only you would just talk instead of walking away from everything...

To the person runnin though my mind,

I have said some stupid things today and i feel bad im sorry
I love you more then words, love cant even describe the feelings i have for you right now.
You are my world and my life... and i cant lose you
I love you

I just wish i could be in his arms again its been 8 months and he lives 400 miles away ............... I love him i wish I could have told how much !!!!!!!!!!!

you two are the biggest fcuking hypocrites I know. Honestly, these past few days have really shown me how you guys have changed. for the worse. don't try to be all sweet to me, because all you do is just ask for something. and another thing, don't complain to me every single day of my life. seriously. you make life tough, so deal with it.

To him:
Every time you smile, I wonder what's going on in your mind. You're always kind, loving, humorous. But then why the sudden change? No more smiles? Why'd you stab my heart like that and didn't take care of it instead? You care more for her than me, don't you? I can't let you go because you will always be a part of me and always will be in my mind. I <3 you.
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To them:
I HATE YOU. Those three harsh,cold words are all I want to say.

i hate you, stop being a wannabe` gangsterr. because your not. stop being so COOL because you aint.

sometimes i just don't want to be friends with you. can't you accept on what i believe in? i hate it when you say, "YOU NEED JESUS" (no offence) i can't change what i believe in becasue i WANT to believe in buddha. you just need to shut the --- up.

dear you,
I'm so sorry for being moody today. Bleh, I don't know what's wrong with me... I know we can work through this, and I will try not to be so clingy/emotional. But wow, our fight today at lunch, even though it was over something so stupid and trivial, if we were alone, it would've been terrible. We both have terrible tempers, but we can get through those times. And remember, I will always love you. Just forgive my moodiness...

I miss you. So much. Asshole.

are you really there for me? because sometimes it feels like you aren't...

to this person:
f*ck you. its none of your business, leave me the f*ck alone. i'm sick and tired of your rude comments. eff off. i can't stand you anymore.

you,
I realized I do miss you. I made a big mistake. It bothers me I don't know how you feel, or what goes through your head, or if you've even moved on. WHY must everything be so complicated??
-me