Well..i thought it would be neat if people could just write about someone thats on their mind rite now, in an annonymous msg.... It can be about love,crush,hate,issues.. just dont turn it into thread where it needs to be closed...

Since im the top creator..i guess i gotta start huh...here goes...

Well this msg is to a special little lady i met over the summer... Hey wats up... i havnt talked to you in days... i guess i have been avoidin you cuz ive seem to lost faith... Everything just seems to be so slow between us, I never thought i'de be saying this but i feel like i should just give up... I know ima be missing out, and i hate to have thoughts like "What if" or "What could have been..." I'm just feelin kinda neglected and pressured.... I honestly have no clue whether to keep up the hope or lose the faith...all i know rite now is that at 1 point i did love you .

Well ... that was kinda hard to open up..probally look like a retard....but f*ck it ya know...its past 12 and im still thinkin about it... mite as well.....

Well.... your guys's turn

to a person........

you knoe...i never have the guts to say it...i DO like you....but not the way you like me. im sooo sorry ..................................and i KNOE that it wud be soo much "righter" of me to jus tell it to you... but part of me..feels like i still like you...n that part of me wants to be with you.............it may all be wrong... but im just soo messed up...n the fact that i like 2 of ur best friends doesn't help much either.....

i knoe im probably a bitch n all...n i honestly REALLY appreciate ur love....but i jus know it wont work if its one way..........when im around u... i always have the temtation to hug you.. but then again... smtms when i see you i feel disguisted.... ur friend thinks im playin u..........................i think im just a stupid little girl who cant make up her god damn mind. i kno... that everything is my fault...n it wud be just soo much easier if you werent soo nice to me.. cuz then i'd have an excuse to tel you to get lost... but NO...ur wayy to nice.

all n all im jus reli messed... mebi im just not ready for this.....n u knoe.. it MAY sound evil but i've said to myself...that i'd date u for 2 months...then dump you.

cuz i dont want to go out with you for one date n then tell you the next week i dont like you ....for the SECOND TIME>.....ohh god plz help me.

I like you so much. I'll never admit it though to anyone. Coz I don't want to hurt my best friend. She's liked you for 3 years. It just wouldn't seem fair to her. There she's been for 3 years and here's me who just noticed you this year, it just doesn't seem fair.

I can see it in your eyes, we all can. The way you look at me says it all. But I'm sorry, we can never be together. And you'll never know how much I like you. Ever since I found out I liked you, I kept praying that you'll like her. So that I could just give up on you and be happy for you guys.

Gawd I hate you so much. I just feel like punching you when I see you! But at the same time I just feel like stripping you and sticking my tongue down your throat... ><

good topic!

I really do love with you with all my heart... and im working hard to improve myself. Juss to let you know no matter how much you can be a jerk I would never do that in return, because that isnt me at all. I love you too much to do that anyways and the last thing i want you to do is feel bad. You mean soo much to me and you know ill always love you...

**EDIT
i dont really know what i did that was sooo bad to get treated the way you treated me. i have been honest with the way i feel, and i cant help that. i know you dont like people who lie and i have been very honest with you. you ask why i wont talk to you? you ask why i cant talk when we fight? IM LETTING YOU CALM DOWN while i try to find somewhere or someone that will make me feel better. im kinda afraid of you... the things you will say that can make me feel soo low. why do i love you then i ask myself? i juss do... because those are your true colors. if that is who you are, then i cant make you change unless you really want too. you should never change for someone else but only for you. i say its my fault because you have said before you never act the way you do with everyone else...

Dear mr. boyfriend~
You are so wonderful... I couldnt have asked for anyone more! You make me smile no matter what, and that email you sent me last night was just adorable. Almost 6 months and havent had a fight.. thats gotta mean something right?! Well, this is stuff I always tell you, so nothing here sounds new. So, I shall end you with this, I love ya babe and never change :o) tehe.


This was a really good idea for a thread!! hehe lets all those people who really like someone or have thoughts on their mind, to get those thoughts off their mind... good job!

i want you so bad. it hurts not to be with you but it also hurts to be with you.

*sigh*

Suck my tongue.

sigh

i wanna be with u soo badly..... its killin me to see u single..... i want u to be mine.... foreva

yay! time to release some anger!

OMG LAURA IM SWEAR IM GOING TO KILL YOU! YOU AND YOUR FRICKEN SELF CENTERED PERSONALLY AND FOR BEING A SLUT AND CHEATING ON MY BEST FRIEND! I HOPE YOU ARE CODEMNED IN THE UNDERWORLD AND BURN! I DO NOT KNOW HOW WE USE TO BE VERY GOOD FRIENDS AND WHY IN THE WORLD I GAVE YOU A PRESENT AND THEN JUST WATCHED AS YOU TURNED THE CORNER AND THREW IT IN THE TRASH. IM GONNA MAKE YOUR LIFE SO MISERABLE, EVEN THE ANGEL OF DEATH WILL FEEL SORRY FOR YOU!

-breaths- wow that feels better

Monkey,
I know you are GREATLY aware of how I feel for you. I can't see myself with anyone else right now and you are the first person I've ever loved like this. I feel like you take advantage of the fact that you KNOW I'll be there for you even when you push me away and make me feel like sh*t.

This past week has been horrible 'cause we haven't said ONE good thing to each other. I haven't been able to stop thinking about you once...just reminiscing about all the fun we've had, the things we've experienced together and the comfort of your touch or kiss.

I hope things will work out, but if they don't I'll ALWAYS remember you as my great...'cause baby that's what you are. I love you, and will always care.

uhm yeah way to ignore me and stuff. i hate being in this constant competition. but i dont want to start anything this week. maybe next week. roar.

hey babe,

happy birthday, firstly. i'm sorry i couldn't give you your present today. i saw you in the hall twice, both of which times you were talking to someone else, and i didn't think it'd be worth it to break in with nothing to say or do but smile.
are you happy now, with her? good, because you honestly deserve happiness. it must've been tough to go through so much awhile back. and now that winter's on its way, you must be upset about that too. anyway, i really hope you two last a long time. from the way you talk about her, i can tell she's a really awesome person. let her make you happy.

when'll you be on for more than 5 seconds so that we can have a conversation? or when'll you pay attention for more than 5 seconds? i miss talking to you.

<3

to whom it may concern,

i think that i love you, which is an insanely hypocritical thing of me to say. i am positive that this is no crush, because when ever i think about you i grin like a fool. i know that you cant ever like me in the same sense that i like you, to you i am just a silly little school girl with curly blonde hair. &it hurts me to know that i think about you a good portion of the day and that you probably dont think about me at all. i like you because you are everything that im not, you're confident and likeable, funny but you know when to be serious, you make people feel comfortable around you. i am the opposite of you. i like you because you are real. you are different. if i told you how i felt you would laugh you wouldnt take me seriously.


that felt good, great topic. stay coo

nice topic.

okay this one isn't a crush one hehe.

hey you. we've both changed so much over the years, i know. i know i definitely have. and yes we tend to judge each other, and we both know how bad it is but at least i don't talk about it behind your back. if you have a problem that bad, at least talk to me. i thought we were supposed to be best friends. you have changed so much y'know? more than i thought, but its becoming apparent to me now. our relationship just isn't the same anymore, i'm sorry. this sounds really awful but...i've found better friends. i'm sorry. this just isn't working so much anymore...

lmfao roxy! that's the best one!!!

thanks for the awesome topic dreamguy!

to the guy i'm "in like" withi'm just the kind of person who keeps their feelings inside. so i'm basically too chicken sh*t to tell you how i feel about you to your face. you're a great guy...not just great. you're like AWESOME. i want you SO bad. you're funny, smart, sexy... everything i've ever wanted. i feel like an idiot. i think about you all the time, and i really think we have this amazing physical and emotional connection but i can't even tell you how i feel about you because i don't want to lose your friendship. i want to be with you and i don't think this feeling will go away easily. so until you get over her and tell me you want me, i'll be here for you, i'll wait for you, and i'll silently love you.

to the guy i despise: oh my effing gawd. how can you be such an @SSHOLE?!? you can NOT play that sh*t with me. you can NOT tell me i'm stupid, or fat, or my butt is big. you've got no right. if this is your way of "flirting", wake the hell up and realize that you are SO not in junior high anymore. i don't deserve to be treated like some sexual object when you want me, then after i turn you down, treated like a whore. i am WAY better than you and it'll be a cold day in hell before you get with me. go f*ck yourself you effing son of a b*tch.

wow...

this is to *bob:
*means names have been changed
hey, well we have had some pretty funny times together,(well at least u think they were pretty funny) and i'm kinda getting the clue u like me now....well...what i really wanna know is if u like me....your always complimenting me,touching me(in a nice way lol),and your acting different towards me ever since u broke up with *samantha,and i was just wondering lol....

jesy..

i like you.. i know you think of me as a good friend.. and you dont wanna ruin that relationship.. but it could change.. i could show you.. =[

to YOU...

you`ve entered my life and touched my soul in no other way anyone has. the distance between us doesn`t affect how you make me feel. you are the most important person in life and it`s hard for me to let you go. i will always be there for you even if you don`t see me that way. no matter how much you think you`re messed up and imperfect.. in my eyes you are perfect in every way i could possible think of. "we are perfect in our own imperfection". if it makes you happy.. i will let you go if you want me to. i`d do anything for you but always remember that you`re ALWAYS gonna be in my heart no matter. i love you and i will miss you when you leave. please don`t forget me because i won`t forget you. "it`s going to be hard forgetting you because you`ll always be in the back of my mind.. just like a dream or a nightmare". thank you so much for being there for me and always making me smile. you are my perfect someone. i will never meet anyone like you and no one is more perfect for me than you are.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.. IT HURTS. but i will do whatever you think i should do...

okay i have another...this is to a different person. obviously.

hey you. we've been through a lot too...i used to like you when i first met you, but you already knew that...then we became enemies which kinda sucked. but then you smartened up from your immature ways. thank goodness. you're an amazing person now. seriously. you're one of the bestest friends i've ever had. you listen to me and i can talk to you about so much that i can't talk to about with anyone else. we help each other out so much. you truly are special to me. thanks for everything in the last year and a bit. i love you. (as a friend ) this friendship will last a lifetime, i know it.

dear you, i hate it how you're trying to avoid me. i hate it when you see me, you turn the other way, even if it means walking extra. i hate it when you ignore me in the halls. i hate it how we're not in any of the same classes, and that i can only seeyou for like 2 seconds in the hallway, and when i do, you turn away from me. i hate it how you don't like me anymore apparently. bleh, but i miss you so much- i miss holding hands, i miss hugging you, i miss talking to you, i miss just being with you. why did it have to turn out this way?

i want you back. i tried giving up and moving on, i really did. i hate how you still have the key to my heart. regretting is a pain in the ass.

to him:

i wanna know the truth. im sorry i have a feeling that you have been thinking of breaking up with me and I want to know why. well you know... i have been thinking of breaking up with you too a couple of times. The reason is that you hurt me so much. You always leave me just to be with your friends, or to skate. You always leave me feeling like im nothing to you, that im not worth your time, and im also left feeling so neglected. But you know I never broke up with you because I love you so much. I felt that id rather get hurt by you than be hurt by the fact that im not with you anymore. im sorry if I ever did anything wrong, but I really dont want to break up. I hope you give me a chance to fix things because I love you too much to let you go. Please stop avoiding me. It hurts me when you do. I wish you could realize how much I love you. I really should have told you how i felt a long time ago. For that im sorry. I just hope you will give our relationship a chance. I love you always and forever... even if you dont love me back anymore.

To this guy.

I don't know why i feel the way i do about you.
I hate you so much, yet why are you always on my mind?
GET OUT !.

I'm not supposed to like you.
And why is that, that it seems with each passing day, i feel us getting closer.
And i feel myself hating you even more.

Why must you torment me so?
You`re not that great.
You`re nothing what i look for in a guy.
...and yet you`re everything.



and now to this girl..

OMFG YOU f*cking WHORE. STOP YOUR BULLSHIT ! NO ONE CARES ! NO ONE LIKES YOU. STOP FRONTIN` IT LIKE YOU`RE THE RULER OF THE WORLD. YEAH SO WHAT YOU BEAT ME FOR STUDENT COUNCIL PRES!? LIKE THAT f*cking MATTERS. EVERYONE JUST HATES YOU EVEN MORE THAT YOU BECAME IT. AND WE ALL KNOW THAT IT WAS f*cking RIGGED. YEAH SO WHAT THE TEACHER DOESNT LIKE ME? OOOHH SHIIZ GUESS WHAT!?

I DONT LIKE YOU.

I HOPE YOU DIE.
YOU f*cking FAKE ASS WHORE.
AND GET THAT f*cking SAGGY ASS OF URS LIPOED.

OH YEAH AND BY THE WAY YOU DONT NOE WHAT THE f*ck YOU`RE DOING. AND PLEASE OH PLEASE STOP WRITING IN THAT BLOGGER OF URS ABOUT *BLEEP* AND *BLEEP* THEY DONT LIKE YOU. WHY CANT U GET IT THRU THAT f*cking HEAD OF YOURS!? THEY`RE USING YOU !!! GOD. HOW DENSE CAN YOU BE?!










Wow wonderful topic. I needed this.

A+ Topic.


Dear SpeedDial2,

I'm on the ground, cuz I fell in love with you. I'm still on the ground, cuz I'm still in love with you. I loved the feeling with you in my arms. I was content. I was at peace w/ the world. Even if it didn't mean anything to you, it was the best times of life. And as unknowing as you are, I wish you are mine. I was so jealous, when you were with another, I had to tear my head away. I know you care for me, and I care for you, but can't we break the barriers, and go a step beyond? I just wished that...you are mine, forever. and ever. Where I'll never have to break my arms off you ever again. Where we'll just snuggle, hug till the sunrises and sets. Before we graduate from highschool. I'll know. And I hope it's a happy ending.

Eleven years of Friendship,
Li Zhong Jie

to the husband...

i you... and i'm sorry for all the things that happened in the past... i only hope one day that you will actually believe me when I say those words... i'm sorry

Love,
Liza Marie Liin

to ....

i dont like you... sorry but i think i never liked you... but you are too nice to me i dont wanna hurt ... yeh it seems as if im snobbing you but ...but... its too complicated! right now i dont like any one and i dont want to .. you are a friend and thats all !!! oh since im being honest YOU HAVE HALITOSIS!!!!!!!!! yup yup...

jeremy, im soo sorry for all the pain i caused u...u deserve so much better....i wanna be with u so bad cos u r my life,i cant stop falling in love with u,u r my sunshine, my moonlight,u take my breath away...i want to old u close to me...tell u how much i love u and make love to u passionately...i need u more than u can ever imagine...tho ur dating kayla now and i want u to be happy...this might sound kinda selfish but i dont want u to be happy except when u r with me my boo...but i know i'll never get u,its over and its hard to accept...getting over u is mission impossible...i cant,i dont wanna get over u....im sorry if i hurt u...jeremy Dewitt,my world,my everything....my love, my heart,i'll always love u till the day i die...i keep on asking myself the same question everyday "did i do wrong by falling in love with u"??

dear lovely,


I need you so.


it's been too long and I can't stop loving you.. I should hate you. though I can't surrender to the truth. I'm so guilty and you have no idea what you've put me through. I can't stand seeing you with her.. why can't we turn back time and make things worth while?.. why can't you understand me?, why can't you see .. and I've been carrying this burden for too long.




will our love ever resurface?


kelly.

dear ____,


I.. we.. know you love him. I know you can't stop.


you've caused me enough pain. I feel like I'm nothing around you. just stfu and stop the b.s. you caused enough damage. now leave. just fade away like I did in his eyes.

I really like. In fact I've liked you for about 2yrs not that you'd ever give me the time of day. Sure we've talked and all, but that's not enough for me.

I've tried moving on, but I can't. Since you I've had other crushes I admit, but so far noone has been able to replace you in my heart.

Though I know that there's no chance for the 2 of us, I'll never be totally able to let you go.

i remember a topic like this b4 but it was a while ago soo here. i love dese things hehe ^^"

dear ___________,
im very sorry for saying those things to you. wait, no im not sorry bcuz i was just telling the truth, nd if you cant take the truth then thats not my problem. i wish you'll stop putting words in my mouth, nd just take a look around you. open up your eyes nd look at reality. yeah.. not what you expected right? i try, believe me i did but you just had to .. push me off. soo here. maybe we could get better and maybe not. i dunt care.


dear _______,
sometimes i wished i hated you. for everything, but den again i cant. its called forced love, i love cuz i needa. if i had a choice i wouldn't bcuz you never got me, and you ALWAYS put dese words in my mouth. u assume nd you really needa get a smack outta my life. so what if you're not me? you dunt have any right to judge me either. nd yeah i know im stuck with you for the rest of my life. but really, i hvae feelings too. and they too could hurt just like yours. so take a grip nd walk a mile in my shoes first.

dearss ____,
i was with you through the rain, and through the good times, where are you now? all you do is come to me for help for sympathy. but u know what, really im tired of it all. i dunt even know what im still here for you. nd your annoying, very. im tired of it all, nd i wish you'll go away nd give me peace. but no time after time you have to come back nd hurt me. it hurts, it really does. and sometimes i'll wish that i could just forget it. nd just let everything all out. but den i know i'll regret it. so why bother. i'll just shudap, nd be a shadow. nd u wouldn't care nor notice.


wow. i realized how many issues i got.
that got a lot outta me.

You've been such an inspiration in my life, you made me so happy, you let me feel like i'm special. I've never had anyone care for me before, so I never really felt loved. When I was with you, I was like on top of the world. NOw that your gone.. I dont know what to think..

Dear Someone,

You know i dont really know an easy way of putting this. I see you at our football games cheering on the sidelines, and I would scream "I love you <name goes here>"! And at first it was just fun and games untill the day i realized that im falling for you. We never talk, we hardly ever see each other, but when ever i do see you, i just wanna talk to you. I like you... Your the person i have a crush on. But i know nothing about you, whcih is the reason why i could never ask you out at this time. I wanna call you, i wanna hang out with you, and i wanna be your friend most of all. But i fear that your mad at me simply because you may think "im fallling for you for the wrong reasons". Please dont be mad, and dont be scared. I like you because your beutiful and amazingly gorgeus. But if i fall in love with you, it would be because of your heart. The only feeling i have left in me is that this whole thing was finished before it even started. Its like i never even got a shot at being your best friend. I had the intentions of us being "together" but my priority was for us to know each other. I still hope i can get this shot at being a person in your life, so if you want, I'll lend my hand out when you need it, I'll put my body on the line to save you, and i'll leave my door open for a frienship.

to him:

all those times together, bring me into tears. how i want them to come back again. why cant we b alright, why cant we b together. why did i have to b so stupid why didnt i stop it.
i love you i love you so much. i tried to start over, tried to go back but i cant go on. cant go on....

Someone,

--; It's the last year of Elementry... And things aren't too much different... I've talked to you a bit, which is great But, I still feel like we weren't as close as we used to be.

I don't know when I'm going to be able to say this to you in person, but I really like you. Love, maybe... even? There's this huge part inside of me, which really wants to just tell you now, but I know if I do, gaining that friendship again will be harder then ever.

All I really wan't right now, is for you to listen and understand... And I don't why, but I feel like I can be so open to you, and trust you...

But the main part is, I just wan't you to know I'll always be here for you, if you need a friend.

``<3 luv yo0h


Ehh, good job on the topic... I really needed to say that.

to sparQ--

i knw that i`m doing a very stupid thing. i promised my friends, myself, and those on createblog.com that i wudn`t tell you how much i love you..or hate you in this case.

now that i jst said i will not talk to you anymore for ever. i hope that we will stop the happy chats frm now on. i`ll dlt you frm everything-MSN, AIM and xanga sub.

do you rmbr that you asked me who my 1o.19 tuesday blog is dedicated to?? it`s to you. eternal snow...listen to it. it speaks my mind.

pls be happy with becka. i honestly wish you and her the best.

it was great with you during detenshun..lunch and after school. buh..i guess...:\

): i miss you already........



x/3 roxanne hates spark for being so loveable.


-r.o.x.a.n.n.e-* x3

Hahah.. how cool.

To someone.
You degraded yourself. That's sick. She's a goddamn slut, how the hell can you even think about liking her?! Goddamnit. It really makes me sad. I wish you were mine.

To another someone.
Some things in the past cannot be forgotten. Never live to regret..

Thanks for everything. You're the only one that loves me for who i am, the only one that is completly honest with me, the only one that lets me be myself and you're the only that i knowi can run to at any time and you will be there waiting with open arms and with the right words to say to make me laugh. We had such a rough summer, and we have rough topics that we don't like to talk about... and we even have our share of fights... but i'm so glad of what we have. I'm so afraid to lose you and i'm so afraid of what's going to happen once you graduate. I just want to hold you... and never let go. You're my best friend, and i thank God everyday for this blessing. Maybe one day you'll even fall in love with me... but even if you don't... i'll be okay. Because i know that i've been blessed 100 times over what i deserve because of you.

To someone else,

Please, please, please... PLEEEEEASE get a life. Understand that the words "i love you" aren't meant to be thrown around like its candy. Those words actually MEAN something. When you learn what it is... then come back. You don't really LOVE HIM!!! stop saying that you DO!!!! You treated him like crap and now you regret it... but guess what!?!?!? YOU SCREWED UP ALREADY!!! MOVE ON!!!!!! Leave him alone! Stop DECLARING your love! Stop stalking him! MOVE ON!!!!! It's been TWO years!!!! GET A LIFE!!!! Let him live his. You already screwed up enough things! GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!

Excellent topic Vinh

yehh i wanna do another one!

I want to thank you for being there for me for all these tough times... you are one of my big insiprations. I cannot think of living my life without you... i know you have made some bad choices and fooled around with things, but i dont hate you for it. you taught me all my life lessons and taught me how to improve myself without any dramatic change. For the most part you are the ONLY person who has never judge me. I love you and thank you soo much for all you have done and scarfice for. I hope i can do as good of a job as you did in the future...

-another one (prepare for some disturbing stuff)-

mike

like laura, I HOPE YOU GET SHOT! FOR FREAK FOR KILLING YOUR DOG BY MOLESTING IT. YOU SHOULD DIE AND I HOPE YOU DO AFTER WHAT YOU DID TO THAT POOR DOG.

to dis one guy,

i like u alot, but i dont want to tell u. u prolly already know, but i want to tell u with my way. i know ur goin out with "her" who is a friend of mine, but i just want u to know dat i llike u alot

Dear *****,

i'm trying to stop loving you. i REALLY AM. you seem like you obviously don't care about me so why should i about you. its just something that i can't let go of you. i mean, i was over you in the beginning of the summer.. but once i got back to school, all those feelings started rushing back in. i dont know what to do now. you're the first one i truely started to actually love. you're the first one i actually loved everything about. throughout the summer, i felt like i didnt like you.. but i know that deep inside, i had left over feelings for you.. you broke my heart.. sure and i know you can't return the feelings. maybe you want to, but you cant. i dunno. and i know for sure, many other girls like you so, and for that.. im jealous. i dont want to be but i just am. it just breaks my heart to see you making others laugh.. but i guess im being selfish. maybe god made you + me not together. i dunno. maybe its meant to be that way.. maybe its good. i dont know. i dont want to feel this way. i want to stop chasing you. i want to stop everything. i loved the time we spent together. seriously.. those were the times when i felt i really wanted to be with you. but maybe you're not the one. maybe you're really not meant to be with me. maybe. and i want to stop this cherade of games. we both know (its kinda obvious) that im pratically drooling over you and im kinda crushin on you extremely but stupid me, im effin to shy to tell and i dont wanna ruin what we have now. but it just drives me crazy.. so what i want you to do is leave me alone. STOP being so perfect.. STOP being smart, cute, strong, and every quality you have. just STOP.. cuz i want to be officially over you.. but you being in my life, i just can't stop loving you.. arghs. love is so confusing. =/

Dear _____,
I know it's really dumb that I have a crush on you and I've never even met you. I've liked you since you've moved in over the summer and I've always been too shy to just talk to you, even though I knew that you're always there. Right now, I don't really wanna have a boyfriend or anything, I just wanna be your friend and get to know you so I don't only like you for your looks. I hope that I meet you soon and we become really good friends.

to someone i love very much, but friendship-wise and... more. i guess.

i've been so into you for well over a year now. you were the first person who has every been honest about how you feel about me, and i want to thank you so much. you are honestly the only reason i get up everyday. last year was so hard, you know it was, and you helped me all the way through. i think i'm falling for you more than i could've ever thought possible. just typing this knowing that i can't call you mine is making me tear up. i'm not sure how things will go in the future, but i can honestly say that i'll always be here for you no matter what. girls will come and girls will go, and i suppose boys will come and go for me too, but we have soemthing deeper than that. i hope our relationship will only grow stronger. you're my best friend, and it breaks my heart to see what she's doing to you, whether you know it or not. this doesn't make any sense, but then again, life is so effed up right now. i hope you can forgive me for anything i may do or that i have already done, but i know that you'll always help me through anything, whether you actually try to or not. just knowing you're right there next to me everyday is enough to keep me going.

...idk what i just said, all that just came out, and i don't feel like going through and fixing up some errors or something that doesn't make sense, because i have no clue what's going on. but there ya go. just poured my heart onto the internet...

--2nd one-- oh yeah. great topic :]

to the bFtE`s...

you girls are the most amazing friends anyone can ask for. stephu with her stupidity and complete innocence. jackie and liz..you guys crack me up....whas with the condom and "yur breasts became larger" stuff?! buh yeah. s`all cool. you guys make my day. I LOVE Y`ALL.

i still rmbr last year. we had so many time togetherr. buh high school is so different sometimes i feel so far away from you guys. i knw we shud make new friends and i did too. buh i hate it...i relli relli do when you guys start to be closer with angela and jensine. :\

ahhas. stephu, your first kiss...jeez girl, i`m so so sorry ):

lizbeRth baby, rmbr all those hang outs and picture taking in the girls bathroom. they are so fckin` awesome.

jackizL. you insane female whore. jst kiddin` lunch hangouts..we joke abt anything we can think of. lmao. rmbr this sophomore person? she was like. "oh let`s go eat [bread]" and we started laughing like crazy. and they jst stared at us like alienS. x]

pictures fade away....buh memories are forever.

i love you guys hao duo hao duo. :]



bEST. Friends. `tIL. Eternity. x3

To you

[Thinking about you] its been over a year and man does it feel painful to still love you. You been gone from my life and I still can feel like your with me and you showered me with your love. I miss your touch but, what can I say your just gone from my life now. It makes me cry to just think about you. You moved on, and it was the best that we went our seperate ways. Your life may be easier without me but, when you were with me I have never seen you happier. I just wish that me and you can just runaway and find somewhere to be alone, me and you together forever. Now I slap myself back to reality and find myself in the same situation when we parted ways. Broken and still on my knees praying for meaning and understanding. I ask God to help me move on, and with the power of prayer you slowly moved from the top of my importance list in my life. As these last few weeks have passed, I remember first seeing you, and if it would of lasted it would of been two years! Just wanna feel whole again, with or without you!

I love you

To my special someone... Even though this is probably similar to my xanga entry..


Wednesday it was raining... I love the rain. I used to think rain was alright, but I hated how I'd always walk home. Alone, in the rain. I never had anyone to share my little umbrella with. I was a lonely person, even with friends. Then I met you, in freshman year at high school. I thought you were cute, but I never had any feelings for you because I barely knew you. I needed time to get to know you better. So when you asked me out, I said no, that I just wanted to be friends. But deep down I really meant to say "I just want to be friends... for now until I can get to know you better."

And after that, you ignored me, for a week. Then I asked you if you really liked me alot because deep down, I wanted to give you a chance. You, with your straight A's, looking all innocent and quiet. Your mysterious personality intrigued me. Then I finally asked you "do you like me alot?" And you looked down at your knees and quietly whispered, "Yes." And then you looked up and asked me, "Would you.. reconsider?" And I said "Maybe." I remember asking you how many other girlfriends you had. Personally, I didn't want a guy who has dated alot more girls than I had dated guys. I've only dated 2 other guys besides you. Then later, on the bus, you asked me how I felt. And I told you "Okay, starting Monday, I'll go out with you." And you looked away. Probably hiding the your blush, huh?

And then on November 25th, that's when our relationship began. I started to have mixed feelings because I didn't start liking you immediately. I wanted to focus on education at that time, knowing that a relationship would distract me. My friend advised me to stay with you for another week to see if I'd develop any sort of feelings for you. I told her I would, just to see how it would work out. I'm so glad that I took her advice because on that Wednesday, it was raining. Stupid me, I forgot my umbrella and a sweater; it was sunny that morning, then it got colder and I was freezing. Then the black clouds started rolling in and it began drizzling, turning into a light shower. You offered me your Banana Republic jacket (which doesn't fit you that well anymore since you grew 3 more inches now lol) and I put it on. I could smell your sweet, a-baby that-had-just-taken-a-bath body odor. You only had a thin black t-shirt underneath. I could tell you were cold, but you wanted to keep me warm.. keep me safe.

Then when we were in front of the school library, the bell rang, signifying that lunch was over. By then, the I said my farewell and was about to walk to class. Then you put your hand gently on my shoulder and I looked your way. You quickly kissed me on the cheek and turned away quickly. Maybe to hide your blush? I don't know... But as you quickly walked to class, I watched you, smiling.

It was then. It was THEN that I had my first kiss with you. I knwo it was just a simple peck on the cheek, but it meant so much to me. And with each passing day after that, I started to like you more and more.. Until finally, I realized that I loved you. People told me I was too young to know, but I don't care what they say; what we have means more to me than anything else and I never ever want to let you go.


I know this was a long message, but I really wish I could tell him this. It's so much easier to type this and/or write it, rather than saying it.

To: Girl

f*ck YOU. I really hope you f*cking die. Its your fault I don't want to wake up in the morning. It's your fault I never look forward to tomorrow. Its your fault that I'm writing this stupid shit of a f*cking letter. Its all your fault.
Wait, no. Scratch that. It's mine. Bah.
I know this is such a cliche, but I just wish you can see how much you mean to me. I wish you can feel as good as you make me. I wish I can make you smile as much as you made me. You know? All that cheesy shit. I wish I was yours and you were mine.
Wait, no. Scratch that. It'll never happen. Bah.

- Chinkieeyedpnoi

It all started 'cause of her just me, being the messenger, i got on your nerves, and you got on mine. Then you IMed me, I didn't know what to think. I lost your sn.. then she found it. I had to ask you questions. Remember? I was the "messenger". Then summer came. And we talked some more. She stoped liking you. I was the messenger no more. We talked about other things. We made each other klaugh. Little did you know, I secretly liked you. Then i stopped. We were great friends. I liked no one anymore. You tease at me and now, your starting to scare me. I catch you staring at me. Flirting. We both now you have a girl. I think of you as just a friend. Wait- or do I? I'm so confused. It's all your fault. I know i can't have you. But i wan't you. Let's stay friends for now. I like it the way things are.

----omg...this is such an awesome topic!! i really needed it