I've been with my boyfriend for 3 years now and I love him very much that I'd do anything for him.. But lately we've been going through some major ups and downs that it makes me just want to give up and call it quits.. Well we've broken up a lot of times because of all the arguments we have..
See in our relationship all we have is trust because he lives in another state.. So I try my best not to do anything that would ruin our relationship and do what he expects me to do like not talk to guys or give guys my number even if its just as friends, stuff like that.. I know I definitely do my part but he doesn't give me the same respect as I expect him to do so.. Lately, I've been going through hella stress because of him that it's killing me.. We fight over stupid stuff every week and it's mostly because of him..
Just when I try to slowly fix things up with him, yesterday, I found out that he asked and gave his number to a girl that i dont even know but he said she is a friend.. and I asked him why he needs her number then he said because just incase she needs someone to talk to when she has problems.. And I'm like why do you even care about her problems? and you don't even care about my own and do you have to give her your number when you can just give her your screen name... He even promised me he wouldn't give his number away to girls and I dont like it when he promises because when broken, it hurts like hell!!! When I tell him I'm chatting with one of my guy friends, he gets all mad at me and says that I dont pay attention to him anymore.. I mean, at least they don't have my phone number right?!
I don't know if I'm just being too immature or whatnot but in the past he has cheated on me before and I'm scared that it might happen again that's why I'm like that.. He tells me he wont do it again but I don't believe him because the trust is all gone after yesterday.. I trusted him to respect me the same way he wanted to be respected about the other gender but it's all gone. I don't know what to.. I'm soooooooo broken inside... I want to end it but I'm scared to go on my own because it's no use trying when I get nothing in return.. What should I do? Stay or leave? Fix things? HELP PLEASE... I'm soooo confused... =(