You know what to do.



: You are being such a bitch. Godammit. Just trust me and them. Honestly. There's nothing wrong with making new friends.
: Ilu...I do...but you seem so...odd lately. I don't know.
: Almost your birthday! Hehe...
: I had fun visiting you at work todaaay.
: I'm excited for Friday.

-why are you being so wierdDD?
-OMG YOU LOOK DUMB IN YOUR STUPID HAT!!
-stop hanging out the car window im going to get a ticket!
- i love johnny depp.

-answer me!!!!!

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Thanks for buying me all those clothes. And the new shoes.

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I cannnnnnnnnnttttttttt waaaaaaaaait to see you!

_; Start on it. Now.

* i love you...your amazing...

*oh a party?! AWESOME! ive never been to one of these types of partys. you can bet imma be there. sorry i couldnt call you though

*i miss you. we had a serious fall out during the year but i miss you. we didnt even know each other as well as you know [censored] but you had this presence about you that...ah i dunno

You,
Your hug was .. jhdgsag.

You,
That was hella sweet. I almost got hit by a car. Hahah it was hella fun with you guys. Hahah

please?

Fall in love with me again. Please.

____,
haha. you think i dont know about what you said to her? you're wrong. haha. i knew it was a lie the whole time. you're very good at acting. good job.

______: Sorry. I'm just really sorry. I finally get something I want and I give it away willingly. Figures, eh? I just didn't feel it was right. =/ It's not like we ever went out or anything. Uhg. It just would've been uncomfortable, and I trust him more than I trust you anyway...but yeah. Sorry. I just felt like you were being fake, sort of. And..yeah. Gosh. Sorry this had to happen. Really.

___: So why are you so interested eh? Hahaha. I wish you were a couple years older. Then maybe I wouldn't feel as guilty. :x

_____: Thank you for being like a big brother to me. It makes me happy.

I want to feel safe. And I want the warm feeling that stays with you when you know someone cares for you in that way. Ever since Larry I've just been a mess. I dont even know why he hurt me so much. I mean, I know why but I can't understand how someone could make me go so crazy for them. It's so trippy that this time last summer, I was crying everyday and depressed and so down. And it kind of makes me sad that I let a boy upset me that much and that I got so depressed my friends actually started to get scared. But it's all good. But I do find myself sometimes thinking about Larry. But it's all good because im over it and Im over him. But im lonely. I just want someone to hold onto me and let me know Im safe.



I cant wait to see what the rest of summer ( although I doubt anything will come ) and next year bring.

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For as long as I can remember, I've had my alarm clock on my phone set to 11:11 so I can make a wish everyday. And everyday I make a wish that revolves around you. Whether it's "I wish ------- would talk to me", "I wish ------- would call me", "I wish I could see -------", it's always about YOU. Finally, today, one of those wishes came true. I saw you. For some weird, unknown reason, you really wanted to go to my best friend's birthday party to which you weren't invited and whom you said you hated. Doesn't make any sense to me. You didn't even talk to me once really...for the entire night. Not only do you talk to my best friend but you hug her. You said you hated her. You even said this about three weeks ago when you weren't ignoring me. Today I just found out that you supposedly said you liked me after prom night. Then why did you ignore me again? What the hell is your issue? I swear to God, it's that damn weed f**king up your brain. You know why I'm crying right now? Because you came to her party. Because you weren't invited. Because you said you hated her. Because you gave her a hug. And because when I invited you to my party you didn't bother to respond, come, or even wish me a happy birthday. Tonight the dinner was at the same place you took me for our first date. I wonder if that even crossed your mind. I wonder if you even care at all and I'm guessing probably not.

____: life is cruel at times. Best thing you can do is not let it get you down.

JULY 18TH, 2006 - 2:45AM
[person A] i love you always and forever; you know that... ill always be there for you. we had so much drama back then and i look back at it now and dont regret a thing. it was all f**ked up though but we made through it and still love each other no matter the damage. im thankful that you're there for me, to listen whenever help is needed and even though we arent together physically; my love is always with you always! i love you.

[person B] i love you for always being there for me, i told you i care for you & watching your actions [even though we dont talk as much anymore], just dont make a stupid mistake with who you're with..

[person C] why the f**k you gotta be an a-hole -- yeah i accept your apology but you just over did it tonight

[person D] i really like you; and glad to have you for my boyfriend. i just wish we'd spend more time together and get to know each other more and more !

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UPDATE JULY 20TH, 2006 - 1:00AM
[person A]

[person B] i am soooooooooooooooo glad to hear from you! i mean with everything aside it just put a huge smile on my face... im glad to talk again, and suprised you called for the second time! i truely hope things go well with you and your new wifey.. always love !!

[person C] just b/c you THINK that i think its werid to talk to you w/o twin doesnt mean im uncomfortable...and its not true... i'd be glad to talk to you one on one! ... i also wish that i could tell you how i truely feel

[person D] I WANNA SEE YOU SO BADLY

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UPDATE JULY 26TH, 2006 - 7:23PM
[person C] ALL NIGHT I COULDNT STOP THINKING ABOUT YOU! YOU MAKE ME FEEL SOO

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UPDATE AUGUST 3RD, 2006 - 10:55PM
[person B] THANK GOD YOU CALLED!!!!

[person C] i just want to be friends... thats it.

[person D] i just want to see you one last time.

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UPDATE AUGUST 9TH, 2006 - 1:18AM
[person B] arhhhh i love you soo much, thank you for always being here for me!!!

[person C] i really had a great time hanging out w/ you for the past two days... and well i hope i can do that again soon!

[person D] DO MOTHER f**king YOU.... im mad that you said that shit.. i mean honestly man the f**k up.. all we did was talk!

: I'm sorry you feel like that...I hope things look up for us soon.
: I hope you like your surprise tomorrow.

i had a lot of fun today. i can't believe i backed out of that for almost a month. i love you babe.

Hey, I hope you're having fun in Greece. I'm missin you over here, and it's boring without you. Can't believe you come back next month.. gone the whole summer.

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I wish you'd stop chillin with you're girl all the time, cus you're barely there when we all hang out, and we barely play ball anymore. Kinda ditched your friends for her man. We haven't really done anything this summer.. I think we did more last summer, and you came back like a month late lol. Whatever makes you happy man.

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I had fun hanging out with you the other day, I hope you had fun as much as I did. I wish we could hang out more, but you're usually busy with work and stuff, but it's cool.

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Hey man, just recently heard you're goin to Argentina around the 1st-2nd week of August until October.. I kinda wish you'd go to college to get some big money, but you wanna go to the navy. It's cool with me, you're doin things you wanna do. You've been wanting to do it for awhile, I remember that time at BK and you told me you're plans for a coast guard.. mad long ago. I hope everything goes good for you, you're a good kid with good intentions man. But sometimes I think you try too hard to get the ladies, for real though lol. Kinda annoys me, but you know I got love for you.

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I'm kinda scared about this upcoming senior year, it's my last year of highschool; went by pretty quick. I'm just kinda scared about what's gonna happen at the end when the people I've found have to say goodbye, I'm not ready for that.. I've just met some people and I feel like I have to say goodbye to them already. Don't know if I could withstand that feeling again just yet, but that's the way life is I guess.. people just come and go.

: I'm so happy I saw you today. Thank you for the bear.

______: So, I guess that's it then? *sigh*

_,
You friggin suck. I wish I never said hi to you and started a conversation.

_,
I MISS YOU GUYS!!!!

I dont even want to go with you guys anymore -_-. Stupid a-hole, I feel like a burden or some shit. Thought I was passed that 'little sister' shit and that you all could f**king finally call me a FRIEND and by my name. Stupid assholes. FSKBLVABV OMG.

Why are you trying to act so hard around your ex???

Dear,... You know who you are..

I love you <3

<3 Shelby

______,
I wonder if you think about me? I had a dream last night about you. It scared me half to death. Hmmm, it's gonna be awkward seeing you in the halls but not saying hi to you.

i'm going to miss you!

you just drive me CRAZY,
i realy dont want to see you anymore.
i don't have feelings anymore.

* i dont f*kin care how close we are, friend or no friend. you NEVER walk into MY house uninvited. that is a HUGE invasion of privacy. i hate it even more when you pop over just because i dont answer my damn phone but how dare you just walk in acting as if its nothing. its my house, its the last place that doesnt include you. i hate you so much right now.

*i know your under stress but that doesnt mean im peachy too. you couldve atleast asked how i felt about my new job starting tomorrow. or how i was feeling....your not a mind reader i get that. but im really stressed and i need you. you always complain that i dont talk much but thats because when i do, you put me on mute unexpectedly. half way through my conversation with myself i realize that the silence isnt you listening, its you ignoring. you asked how i felt about a certain situation and as i explained you laughed. not at me but at your friend, then proceeded to hold a convo w/ him as i was about to cry. you didnt even say sorry!! you just went on as if nothing happened...well prepare not to hear from me tomorrow because i doubt ill feel differently. ill blame it on my job. but i hope you can see through that lie...but dont worry. i wont say anything. why would i? since all i do is fight. dammit now im mad at you...

call me.

i want to be able to tell you how much i care about you..and that i think you're a really awesome person even though we barely talk anymore. i still really like you and i'm still willing to wait for you, but the thing is i don't think you want me to wait so i'm just going to leave you be and let you go on with your life. i'm sure you don't need a little girl like me tagging along behind you for any kind of reason. blah! you just stink...if you're leaving it at this, then i was wrong about you and you turned out to be exactly like all the other guys i have encountered and i'm not loving it. ;\

: Hey, you just called me...how nice.
: Happy 18th Birthdaaaay! ILU!
: Aww...thanks for calling...but damn me not being able to go...

_____,
I really like you.
You're the most amazing guy i've ever met.
Do you like me too?

Love,
Ariana.

: Why am I waiting for you?
: Sorry I was cracked out earlier...haha.

____,
Your timing is so bad. I waited f**king 3 months for you to say that & you didn't. Now when I am completely over you, you say it? Shit boy, your timing is shit. Nothing I can do now but laugh it off. You should of tried sooner.

____,
f**k you, you stubborn little bitch. I don't need your shit in my life. Don't f**king start shit with me. Who the f**k do you think you are? Gahhh, f**k off & go play dress-up with your little wanna-bes.

Please ask me back out, i really like you and really miss you so much

Roar, I guess you're back in my life now? I don't know if I want it or not. I know that I sometimes randomly text you, but last night, it was you...It was weird too. Why can't I just stay permanently AWAY from you?!

: I'm not your damned fcking cleaning lady. f**k, you piss me off so much. Usually I can be patient but what the f**k. Every second you ask me to vacuum the floor when it's already f**king vacuumed, or you ask me to do the dishes over and over f**king again adn then you complain that I do nothing all day when I'm f**king here babysitting the damned kids. What the f**k? Why won't you let me just relax for a little while? It's motherf**king summer and give me a damned break. Those days I just came home from camp and the first thing you do is ask me if I got f**king skinnier. You're such a damned bitch. That's all you f**king care about. If I'm fcking skinny like I was before. Why the hell can't you f**king accept me for who I am? You're such a selfish bitch and I hate you sometimes. I can't believe you called me f**king selfish cause I do a whole lot of shit for this f**king family and none of you guys do f**king anything. Especially him. He can go f**k himself in hell. f**king damnit. What a beautiful family. Everyone one of you f**king piss me off.

:
i can't figure out if i miss you, or if i miss what we had. i miss talking on the phone for hours before going to bed. i miss knowing that you cared about me and looked out for me. i miss our naps together. i miss wrestling on your bed. i miss that first kiss in the rain. i miss the surprise gift you gave me on our first unofficial night out. i miss the surprise first date you took me on. i miss spending every single night with you. i hate the fact that i know i will probably never see you again. i hate the fact that you seemed to change your mind overnight about us. i hate the fact that you bounced back so quickly to her. i hate the fact that it's been almost 5 months and i'm still thinking about you. i hate the fact that i still cry over you.

you are a freaking dummy..i swear every action you take just makes me so furious..gosh i swear..what the eff is wrong with you? you're one of the main reasons why i can't wait until two years..i want to get away from you so i wont have to clean after your retarded self anymore..you freaking retard....

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omgss you're soo cute!! haha too bad you're like..old..and too bad you're like my brothers' friend...ahh! but i spotted you first! no fair! why couldn't you be my friend first before you was theirs?! meanie! lols..but you're still cute though...omgss but why the eff are you always staring at me weirdo? lols what are you trying to say here?! lolss ! ahh! and omgs...i'm really proud of myself..when you like pulled my hair back i could have died..but i didn't..hah aren't you proud? lolss ahh you're like soo cute

: ILU! You can talk to me whenever you need to.
: Frick...Ilu...I do...but you drive me crazy sometimes. You're obviously upset about something and I'm guessing it has to do with me going out with them but...what is it?
: I had soo much fun with you guys today. I'm tired but it was great.

I just wrote you a 1044 word article, I better not be paid 10 bucks for this one. You bitch.

: I'm trusting you. Please don't go blabbing. Uhg.

lol that's kinda f**ked up how everything stopped when i left to FLORIDA. and how your shit broke too. sigh. i was looking forward to these summer nights too.. DAMnnn broddie.

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f**k this shit i swear. WHY did i have to IM you. cause i like our conversations, but your ass had to mess it up. stupid, throwing yourself at me. damn.

___: I wish I could tell you that you're making a huge mistake. I also wish I could tell you that you need to be cautious. But I don't think you would really listen...

: AUGH! Why must you make my life so godamn difficult!? It's your own fault I feel the need to lie so I'm even allowed to go out...godammit all. I just want to have fun. I hope Saturday works out and that you don't ruin it all...same with next week.
: Ilovedyoursinging.

RACHEL,
We need to talk!!!!!!!

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Mm, funny thing is, I'm still wasting my 11:11's on you ):

People who came over,
I love you guys! I'm glad we had this little party. It was fun :)

poo head.

why are you always bothering me? i swear you are like forever in my business...you're like a stalker and i hate to be mean and tell you that you're annoying to the extreme and that i don't want to talk to you....gosh you're like a kid..oh wait you ARE a kid...i don't want to talk to you like at all..STOP BUGGING ME.

____: Why am I such a bitch sometimes? HAHAHA. Nice one. f**k you =) You're the only one I act bitchy to anyone. You're a jackass and deserve nothing. That's sibling love right there.