Jump to My End
Just jump, it's all I need to do. and it's all over, the misery, the pain. Just JUMP! from a window, a roof.... just JUMP!! i lyk the feeling of wind rushing by me.... just JUMP!!! and it would all be over....
LOVE
What is love? and why do we humans waste our time on it when we know we'll only be hurt again and again? I seem to be up in the clouds when I think of Him. Into our own little world. Why does He seem to always end up into what I'm thinking? Can you love too much? Is there such thing as wanting what you already have? Love, the feeling, emotion, thought. You can't explain it. I'm my little cloud, thinking about Him. I melt in his presence, embrace, love, spirit. His smile seems to make my troubles disappear into the nothing that I was. I feel like myself around him. No need to wear a mask and be what I know him to want me to be. Comfortable, that's how I feel around Him. I can be ME!
Ummm iunno wut to call dis on.. any ideas?
wat will happen wen we die?? wer we'll go?? wat we'll do?? who we'll be?? how long we hav to live?? every second i wonder.. every minute i wonder..... the thought.. the thought that i could die tommorow... the thought that everything could fade.... in just one second.... one breath.... a blink of an eye... GONE... gone to some place where you know nobody... a place where it's just you and quietness... a place where you just float... float away... run away... swim away.... hide away... but where?? where will all this be?? who knows?? not me or you.... i close my eyes and wat do i hear?? silence... a breath of silence.....
The Light That Can't Be Found
Darkness. It's all i see. maybe i'm not seeing anything..maybe it's guilt, love, death, passion, hate, time. i'm trying to see. but theres nothing but complete and total darkness ahead of me. or is it already behind me? i try to feel my way, to who i am. but i can't seem to get there, to where i know i can escape. this feeling, i can't explain. i'm out of breath and yet i have not run. wat is happening? it's all crumbling, crumbling down on me. closing me in, into what i thought was right and wat was blinding me from the truth. but what is the truth? can you answer me that? i didn't think so.... i drift away into my cold abyss to escape from all of this.......
Another unnamed poemy thing
These rooms are all walled. Shutting me out from the world. I'm suffocating, I didn't want Death to hurt. I just wanted to be gone, rid of this life of mine. No one needs me, wants me, or hears me. What's the point in living on? The pain of death does not scare me, that I can take to the extent. What scares me is that people will mourn. Or will they? The mourning of the life that was wasted. Wasted by who? NO ONE. I am NO ONE to this world. Everyone sees me as smart, intellegent, always happy. Do they not see more? Am I just another pathetic teen? I can see it now, people shaking there heads at yet another death. Is that all that I will be? Another death in the community? I want to be remembered as a person, my own person. Will they ever remember me at all? Who will care to remember? Another life GONE and wasted. There was no point in me.Why did God waste his time on a thing such as this? And if I am so easily made, I am so easily shattered.....
yah i knoe.. dr all dark and stuff... it's always hard 4 meh to ryt abt positive things in life altho ppl say i'm a positive person... don't get myself..well i hope that u ppl lyk 'em!
