Ughh, your thirst for my life, like wtf, i don't even know you.
oh, and to you .. yeah, you over there .. why the hell are you so self centered. you expect everything, and that's not the way it goes .

____: hanging out with the TWO of you today was wonderful. I loved it so much. It was me and the two guys I'm interested in and no one else and it was awesome. Too bad that can't happen so often.

Boy#1: I wish you would get over your ex. You're too good for her. They were talking about how they want to find you a girl that can take your mind off of her and I want to be that girl.

Boy#2: I kinda hope that when Gio said that, she meant you. You are wonderful. I would feel bad because of Elena, but if it was you, I would be one of the happiest girls in the world. I don't hate you and I think that the only reason I treat you the way I do is because I'm mad that we aren't together. I think I have a bit of a bigger crush on you than #1. lol.

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: I loved sitting behind you and talking to you today and staring at your amazingly gorgeous eyes hehe.

: It's nice knowing that I have close to no chance with you. You are so cute ughh i want you so bad!

: What the hell? Did you not listen to anything that me, Hazel, or Jessica has said to you? I'm just mad that you would even after KNOWING what he did to me. Whatever...you just want it all don't you?

_: Hi. I just wanted to say thank you. That is all.

I was perfectly fine until you sent me a letter. Why? Why are you so f**king amazing? We're worlds apart. Six years of friendship and the truth comes out. You're a difficult woman to understand, and part of me wishes that you would have said something about this sooner. In April of 2007, you had the perfect opportunity to lay it on the line. I knew you wanted to say something, but maybe you didn't want to risk the friendship. Maybe you held back because my brother was there. I don't know what your reasons are, and even though I keep going through this in my mind; maybe I don't even care to know. As long as the end result is the same. As long as I can see you again. I just want to go back to those days when you would scold me for chainsmoking as we drank at my parents' house. I want to go back to those days when we would laugh about you and your Kid Robot obsession. Let's go back to competing about who's a bigger sneakerhead. And, most importantly, let's explore the waters we've always been afraid to jump into.

I just wish you didn't just sit by and let me get caught up in bullshit relationships with "ain't-worth-shit" women. Why didn't you tell me I was going to get hurt when that crazy broad flew to Texas? I never left you for the Marines, and you getting your commission doesn't mean you left me for the Army. That's how it worked out, I guess. Should I hold onto hope? Should I patiently wait until we're both in DC or am I kidding myself?

: I don't why you told me all that. It was totally unnecessary and none of my business...but you randomly said it anyway, out of nowhere. I've known you for such a short time, so it's not like we're even close enough friends to share that kind of information.

That stuff you said...I don't know what exactly that's supposed to mean. Were you trying to see if I was jealous? Sandy's right, you can probably see straight through me, but I don't think you should f**k around like that. Five minutes is nice to know, but a little stability would be a nicer. But should I be happy that your relationship is on the rocks? I feel like such a bitch.

You are terribly cute though...sigh.

: lol@ you totally passing Buchanan while talking to me. It's nice that I don't feel any sort of awkwardness, at all, when talking to you.

Your letter was dated over a week ago, but the email you just sent me negates the letter, almost, entirely.

*sigh

Whatever. Have it your way. Do me a favor, though. The next time you present an idea like that, you'd damn sure better be serious. Thanks for letting me down, kid.

i knew it was going to end.
but its forever in my heart.
i will have no other.

I completely love you, I know I have no chance with you, and I just want you to be happy. Although I wish it could be with me.

everything is ruined, but not beyond repair.

: i can't believe you dropped the class because of her. i hope i see you next semester.

: walking in the rain was fun... sitting in a cold asx class soaked was not as fun.

: hooray for my discounts and for yours!!!!!

: two weeks and we can go finish what we started.

: 5 weeks til i'm on my trip & 6 weeks til you're down here. i can't freaking wait.

: and now that we know maybe we should move forward...

: look here chicken head...leave dat alone...he don't need yo a**...

: pray to god you get your period.

- You should totally just hate me because I've been lying to you and you've been buying all that bullshit I fed you, babe.

: HOW DO YOU EVEN HAVE THE TIME?! SERIOUSLY.

: ok so let me get this straight...u like me?...hmmm...im flattered ...but as far as going further...just give me a minute to think...

: look i didn't say you were ugly...i mean you got a decent boyfriend...you must be kinda ok...

: ha! I wouldn't leave him fa dat...i mean he sexy and all but...no...

: hahaha we are so stupid...i know he was on to us...but man he was cheesin' hecka hard...got dat boy happy...

Dilemma. Do I go to your Econ class or no?

Maybe this is going too far.

I cant believe your making us do another band practice on our schools day off!

Okay. I went to your class. I have no will power.

Too much physical contact...... frick. Talking til 3AM two nights ago = very bad. I need to control myself, seriously. I actually missed not seeing you yesterday which is very inappropriate! GAAAAAAH

should've been youuuuuuuuu ;).

dude, you're an ass. but i love you to death. =D

I have a feeling that you're mad at me. For the past few weeks you've been more snide, and not in a joking-only way. What exactly did I do?

: man. fxck you.

: i'm going to do it. it'll be slow. but i'm going to do it for sure. because i have to, i'm done with it.

: i don't want you to work there. i don't think you'll take it seriously.

: you're obsessed and its disgusting.

:Tomorrow is going to be fun!

:You are awesome. I always smile to myself when I think of you. I just wish we could talk more often. I'm starting to miss you boo!

: I miss you. =(

: You too. Why don't I see you guys at school??!!

If we're on the topic of missing people:

George, I miss you so much it hurts! COME BACK PLEASE. You belong in Sauder!! :(

Benson, I miss you too. :(

OMG I MISS THOSE TWO SOO SO MUCH!!!!!! Georgie.... Benye.....

We can still see Benson though... he's only in Abbotsford, right?

You guys are only in friggin SFU and yet I see you monthly!

I just want a great big hug from Benson right now. Sometimes they hurt (LOL) but I just felt a lot better. I could use one right now...

Everyday I find myself wishing I went to UBC for about a split second. But I still wished it... there are so many of you guys there! And you see each other constantly!! I only ever see Chuiee and Melena and Rochelle and Peter and Bill. No Alison or Nelson ever.

: I felt so happy that you and I got to finally talk. I know it's been 3 months since we last talked ever since that day you asked me out and I said no. Now that I'm finally starting to realize I won't be getting back with my ex anymore, maybe I can move on.

Lunch tomorow sounds great. Can't wait to catch up with you. I miss you.

Okay that's just not going to work. You seriously have to sit down and MAKE SURE you see Alison more often because that's just unreasonable.

Honestly I care more for the people at UBC than at SFU though...lol...don't tell them I said that?

Come visit next Friday! :D

LOL

Isn't Chuiee the one Kevin scared away from cB? LOL

So you drove all the way back here just because in the text I said I had 'something to show you' huh.... and you admitted to liking the attention...... what. the. heck. are. we. doing. Obviously there is something more here. You are exciting and my boyfriend is not here and this is all so dangerous. You are so much fun and you seriously make me laugh so hard. I love how tall you are. I enjoy the talks that we have. BUT you smoke and you treat me like this while you have a gf and you know I have a bf. That alone should keep me from ever wanting to date you and I need to constantly remind myself of this. I'm afraid of falling for you because I know you are bad for me... but you make me wonder if I'm not ready to have such a serious relationship yet... after all I am only 20....

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Is it wrong that I'm with you because you are so damn good to me and I know you love me? You are safe and comfortable.... is that enough or am I just staying with you for those selfish reasons?

Chuiee's the girl that posted for like one day, and you said she was cute. I think.

Not sure about the Kevin thing but I wasn't even AWARE that she was active for a like a day about a month ago until just recently. If we ever got her to post here, it'd be like a triple verbal attack on Tung. What fun. Sadly she's too cool for cB. :(

Yep Tung, that's the one.


Alison's schedule does not work at ALL with mine! Well... I guess we have the same break time on Wednesdays, but she made friends with this really nice girl I feel awkward around. But I'll make the effort.

And haha, I can't blame you for caring more for the UBC people... I mean, you've got Antin and Clarus and Elisa and Nicole and all those other cool people, for goodness sake! I've got... Bernice and Bill. Meh. And I'll try to visit next Friday! And if not then, the Friday after that.




: I wish I saw the hot Korean Wonbin-like guy on the bus.

: I can't believe you actually went through with it. I've never felt so disrespected by you, so hurt. I would have thought that you'd care enough to make the right decision, but obviously, I just try WAY too hard for you sometimes. Apparently it is too much to ask for some of it back.


Note to self: CARE LESS.

TGIF Everyone.

You told your gf my opinion was the only one that matters? Wtf? Wow... what ----- said about guys holding on as long as they can to one vine until they're sure of the other is seeming to ring true...

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We actually had a good conversation today :). You are such a kind person and you're good to me and you are a good boy... but I really need to know that I like things about you besides that too...

: I'm worried about you... I hope you're not actually drunk...

omg, never mind. Your friends are funny though

I miss you =[
I hope it's not over between us. Even though it already seems that way.

I am trying so hard to not like you.

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You always call me when you say you will.
You always want to talk it out if you know I'm unhappy.
You always try to coax my unhappiness out of me.
You always want things to work out before you go, even if you are insanely busy. In the 3 years we've been together, you've never put off talking about something for anything.
Your work ethic is amazing.
You have a good heart.

There are so many wonderful things about you. Is this enough? To compensate for the fact that you are 5000 miles away, and that you are really not that entertaining? Is looking for fun just immature?

: Stop being so nice & cute. =p
: I'm excited for tomorrow!
: I really hope things get sorted out...really.

I won't assume, but I have a feeling your gf talked to you about me. Haaha. That's probably a good thing.

: i hope you don't call.
: you know, i don't feel the same way as you.
: you make me want to move away. NOW.

please don't make me cry.

: tonight was a lot of fun. good friends, good food, good movie, great time! thanks.

: you're very welcomed. i hope she loves it. happy anniversary!

: it was great to meet you. i hope you had as much fun as i did.

: next time.

Adultery. Damn.

Neither of us feel guilty about it. But what are you going to tell him? If I were in his position, I'd be pissed. Especially since we have no intention of ever being with each other. It was just a raunchy fling in the middle of the desert. I'm surprised I stooped to such a level.

But, holy shit, it was amazing.