dear diary

today was pretty boring didnt really do much but went out to eat with the family yummm so much food i was realy full lols then had fortune cookies yum

heres my fortunes

1)Every man is a volume if yo u know how to read him
? i dont get this one ?
2)Your courage will bring you honor

3)you have an ability to snse and know higher truth




.:tony:.

Dear Createblog Diary,
My sleeping schedule is growing crazy!! I didn't know someone can sleep 17 hours until I did it . I had a lot of dreams...but one dream was pretty memorable. In fact, all his dreams are memorable. I think I'm obsessed. That's what. And it's pointless. I don't know what I'm saying. These are one of the times when I feel like I cannot write. Uh.

Dear Creatblog Diary,

I think its time I take this weekend to be a little bit alone and to think about me and the things I want/need/ask/wish for in like... I guess knowing those things is half the battle in this struggle i have.

Dear createBlog Diary,

I think I'm feeling much better now. I started talking with my ex. And he's been really helpful. He helps me with my schoolwork, he cheers me on, he's just so much help. Iono what I'd do without him to help me.

Love,
Winter

Dear CreateBlog Diary,
It's 3:25 AM and I haven't really anything to do. So I'm making my first entry into this diary here. Tomorrow around 3:00 PM, I'm headed to Leon's party, since he's turning fourteen. I'm looking forward to it, because I get to have some fun and hang out with my friends again, since this summer hasn't really been all that eventful.
In five days, my dad is coming home from Italy for the rest of the month. We're planning on driving through Reno, then Washington (where we'll stay with my great aunt for a night), then head to Vancouver in Canada. We're planning on staying there for three nights. So that'll be nice. I'll be sure to bring my digital camera and takes lots of pics, so I can show my friends when I return.
My friend Paige, showed me this touch-typing test from typingtest.com, and it's weird, but it's kind of getting addicting. LoL. It's nice to see my improvements in my typing. Oh, well I just recieved an e-mail from Paige and Jacy, so I'll end this now and stop boring others with this pathetic life of mine.

~Sarah Joy

P.S.
I feel like an airhead for some reason!

Dear Diary,

I need to die.
Scratch that, We all need to die.

Seriously,
Kim Jr.

what are you talking about?? you're so nice.

Dear Diary,
The day just started for me. Kind of.
I'm really bored.
And sick.
great.
-julia

Dear CreateBlog Diary,
Tomorrow, i'm gonna release my xangas of the month in my site! I can't wait! And yeah...tomorrow will be Independence day! Yay! I'm so exceited!
Love,
Ron

This is from Friday

Friday already. Thank God it is July finally things shall be picking up. I want to see the notebook on Saturday, but you know those parents like to act a straight fool alot of the time so...Sunday is the 4th, and Chealese's birthday. Happy birthday girl, eventhough i will see you on Sunday. If her slacker behind will be at church. We are going to the church's thing and then fireworks at lenox. Monday-Bar b que(my sisters hooks that up every year), Wednesday-Six Flags, wuuu it better not rain, it has been like freakin monsoon weather over here, itz making me mad. Then friday KAYANE WEST...Jesus Walks with me! Can't wait for that. I am startin my birthday countdown and houston countdown.

23 more days till my birthday

20 days till Houston

I went up to the Lenox area with two of my sisters. We ate at Fat Matt's rib shack...mmmmm that tasted so good. Then we went to this Italian ice cream shop and that also tasted good. I realized i hardly ever eat during the summertime. People have said i look like i have lost weight but I don't think so. I shall post a pic at the end of this post that i took yesterday, i don't like the picture too much but it is alright. I realzied then when we were out i have stopped looking at people. I mean allthe way. Man this year i am going to be focused ON ME and ONLY ME. It is tiring worrying about others. I love people but...I am a bad friend during the summertime because i hate talking on the phone and then those people upstairs i swear never want me to go and do ANYTHING. I am goign to tell Brittney i am coming over her house soon. So i can get ou of this place. Then i need to go to Chealse's house also. then i need to walk up to farmer's market and visit Illiana working. Too bad my parents don't know most of my friends cuz if they did then i could be visiting them. Hmph well everyone is home now so i will be getting off for people complain i am always on the computer.

Love

dear diary


today has just begun alot of things yet to come and tomorow is July 4 witch means i will be on my way to california fun fun dont worry i will still visit cb i cant live with out it lols well i will edit this post later on what else i did today hehe





.:tonY:.

Dear Cb Diary,

4th of july is going to be another lonley day. Alot of my friends are gonna watch fireworks with their significant others. I however wanna goto a firework show but no one wishes to come with. I dont wanna spend my 4th all alone. If anyone would like to goto a firework show with me please ask...

*sniff Sniff*

Dear Createblog Diary,
this few days my internet is not working as well, so can't really post as much. but i had fun. i watched spiderman, hang out with this youth group, Bubble Tea fight
and slept over. =)

-- faithin felix

Dear createBlog Diary,

Hiya. I had an okay day today. I'm extremely tired, however. I've been awake for 39 hours and 47 minutes.. Yes, I kept track. ^_^
I'm shooting for 48 hours or more..
I hung out with my friend Zena today..
I miss Alec.
Oh, well. He's coming back tomorrow for the 4th. =-] I can't wait.
I miss him..
My new shirt roxx0rs. It is an Offspring shirt. :)
Anyway. I'm bored, tired, and a tad bit sad.
I feel like I belong here a bit now, though.
I mean, I was #1 on top 10 posters for the day for a while today.. and I'm now a tad bit more than halfway to the big 1,000 posts.
I feel like I belong.. a little bit.

Well, I guess I'm out.

--Brie

dear cb diary,

the forth of july is lame. it always reminds me that summer doesn't last forever . oh well. August is coming up which will be fun. i got 3 huge shows i'm lookin forward to.

it's hot out. grrr. i wish i had a drum set. i been playin the air drums alot and i know how good i'm doing it! i realy want a real set! then i'll be a real renecance man . i lvoe my guitars n stuf. and girls are so hott. i wanna kiss them all. laura has a crush on me and i find it laughible for 2 reasons: 1) she has a b'f and 2) it's me.

i need a haircut.

~lunchbox

oo cool!!

dear diary,
today i went to my friend ricky's house!!! we played video games and hung outside talking and playing sum b-ball!!! then i came home.. took a nap... and got ready to go to hang out with sum other friends... we went to see spiderman 2... very good movie!!!!! then came home... and talked with my boyfriend... haha pretty much it!

Dear createBlog Diary,
I saw Spiderman 2 today. It sucked big time booty. Then, I went home and ate some ..rolls..thingy. Yerp! It's 1:43 AM. Meaning it's the Fourth of July already! I'm not gonna do anything for it. No fireworks or anything. =/ Stay home and make out with my pillow is the plan. Phantom Memory has a great ending song. I'm listening to it right now. I'm also in the createBlog chatroom. We're talking about Yugi Oh!....
-______-;; Thanks for listening, sweet watermelon gelatin.

---Bob

Dear CB Diary,
I made it through a day without taking a shower.
I'll try not to take a shower again tomorrow, but I doubt I can.
We'll see.

- Chinkieeyedpnoi

whats a male parental unit...is that your dad?

you are correct.

Dear createBlog Diary,
I hate "selfish." I think I hated it more than I thought I would. It's another factor to why I hate myself so much. Because I feel so selfish. And then I have to contradict with myself...when they're sad I'm sad, when they're happy I'm happy. But that's not what it seems. It's natural, and I hate that. I have no say on my emotions. I have no power over how I feel or what kind of a person I am. It's like I'm being pushed here or there by everyone. I feel abused. I feel unlike myself, and incomplete. Lost...but never found. I want to know the feeling of being found again. But then...I'll be let down once again. Like any other time.

I've slipped myself away from reality again. I told myself last time, "not again...not again..." but I can't help it. Who could resist? That true appreciation given. That's the point though. It's not TRUE appreciation. They'll forget you. They'll change. They won't talk to you. Everything will fade and you will ponder to yourself why you fell in that trap. Again. I HATE IT I HATE IT!!!

Surely someone will kill me. Surely someone will believe me when I tell them what a selfish little whore I am. Surely someone will tell me I am one. So I don't have to "pretend." So I don't have to keep it inside so much. So I don't have to feel so trapped inside myself. I want to tell someone. I want to tell someone all of this. I want to tell someone about this pain that's never going to stop. Ever. Every second. I can't stop fighting with myself. I can't get over this. I feel horrible. No matter how many times I smile...it couldn't replace anything. It couldn't erase anything. I'm not the person I pose to be.

Why, f*ck it, I'm a hypocrite. I'm a f*cking poser. I hate for caring how the world thinks about me. Why am I caring? Why do I give a damn? Why can't I just let it all out of who I am and all the crap that's in me? Someone I don't know is taking over me. I hate everything that I am right now. I hate selfish people. I hate posers. I hate people who say "I hate...". I hate jealous people. I hate it. I hate lazy people. I hate me.

I seriously want someone to kill me. Run me over. Jump out the street. I'm not that strong. I'm just really weak. Like people always tell me. Like my "friends" always tell me. Even her. I'm even believing someone I loathe the most besides me. She says I'm too emotional. I laugh at her for hating me because I'm too emotional. But I laugh at myself because I'm hating myself for the same f*ckin thing. Everyone's been telling me the answer my whole life.

Even my sister hates me. She could stand everyone but me. I don't see how we're siblings. I don't see how we're related. I don't see how I'm related to anyone. I don't get along with anyone. I can't...do it. I don't feel love. Not anymore. I've had the lack of it for so long...I just feel lost and unloved again even if you shower me with the most care and love you could muster.

I feel hopeless. I feel like it's never going to end. It's been going on for 14 years. I feel like it's going to be too long. I'm dreading it. I'm dreading the rest. I feel like a failure. Worthless. Crap. Sh*t. What's wrong with me? Don't I have a normal and good enough life? Why do I have such a f*cked up mind?

I'm going crazy. And when nobody takes me seriously, I go even more crazier.

I wish I could tell someone. It's really painful. Really...painful. I want someone to kill me.

I don't feel like going out tomorrow. I don't feel like seeing anyone anymore. I feel like trapping myself and just cry. Cry. And wish to die.

Dear CreateBlog Diary,
(Since technically, my day has just barely started, I'll talk about "yesterday." LoL.) Hey peoplez!! Dang, just got home about twenty minutes ago, and I just got out of the shower. Damn that party was hella' fun!! LoL. I took some pics, but then the batteries on my digital camera died on me!! Which..sucks. Ah well. Nina was actin' like a model and I took pics of her. LoL, they came out prettyful. I'd upload them now and post 'em and all that good stuff, but I just started recharging the batteries, so...Nina! You'll have to wait a while to jack my pics and post 'em on your xanga!! LoL. Mhm. So it was all good and fun. Here's how it goes..(or at least to how I remember it) Oh and.. Happy 14th Birthday Leon!!

We were about the second group of people to arrive at Leon's place. We ate some and the adults were just chatting and the usual. Then Tanya, Myron (dunno if that's how you spell it), and Thomas come over. So yeah. Rozelle and I hang out for a while, since she was following me again, and Gabriel was following Leon. LoL. Rozelle and I were just walking around the house and stuff. There was a band there in the garage, and they're not so bad. Pretty good. Lol.

Mm, anyway, Myron and John start playing some DDR upstairs, then we move it downstairs, since the tv down there is bigger. Rozelle, Leon, and I just watch 'em a while. And so on. Nikko and Nina finally come over, and they play some DDR 'n' stuffage. Mm..then we moved upstairs again. LoL.

For a long while, we're all just talking and things like that, the usual, having a few laughs. Later on, Tanya, Myron, and Thomas leave. So yeah. Then..erm..what else did we do? Oh! We went outside to see what's going on..or something like that. The bands leaves and stuff, talk a while, then we go into the garage. LoL, we started playin' hide-and-seek in the garage with the lights off. Last time was fun, so we tried it again. Lmao. It was hilarious! I was laughing so hard when I heard Nikko scare Nina in the dark. Yeah..during the game..there was some accidental touches. When Leon was it Nikko and I were just sitting on the carpet and all that. So then I stand up when I feel Leon getting close, and suddenly I feel someone grab my leg, so I reach down and try to feel who it is. Accidentally, I touched Leon's butt. LoL. Then Nikko touched mine..ACCIDENTALLY!! Sheesh, what are you people thinkin'? Get your mind out of the gutter. LoL. But..err..yeeeaaah..

After we kinda' get tired of that, we bring out the cake and sing Leon "Happy Birthday". Rozelle, Nina, and I had a plan. That when Leon had his piece of cake in his plate, Nina would push it into his face. We even asked his mom for permission if we could do it. But..sadly, when she tried, it didn't work! But oh well. We got him good when Nina and I started running through the house after Leon with cake in our hands. We got him good. I couldn't stop laughing. Then we started going after the other guys. Nikko was runnin' and then he stopped in front of the counter in the kitchen, so I went to his other side and smashed a huge piece on his cheek! LoL. Nina got him on the other. Lmao. He said it went up his nose though.. Sorry 'bout that Nikko! Lols. Nina got me though. She got me on my cheek and some of it when on my hair, but it's all in good fun. When we tried to get John, he was running like crazy. Lmao. I only got him when we calmed down and he was playing DDR against Nikko. Hahaha. Funneh.

Um, we gave Nikko, Nina, and Auntie Shiela a ride to their house, so it was fun. John, Nikko, Nina, and I were all crammed in the backseat, but we had some laughs. The moon was yellow. Well..orangeish-yellow..LoL. Weird. We saw fireworks when we got close to their house. So prettyful.Then umm..we went into their house for a bit. We saw Mark, that was cool. And guys..lemme tell you..damn, I LOVE their house!!!! It's hella' big and so nicely decorated. LoLs. While we were there though, we just spent most of our time in Nikko's room. He was showin' us some funny stuff from homestarrunner.com..I think it was called. Lol. I had a slice of pizza while we were there, because I really didn't eat all that much while at Leon's. Good pizza. Haha.

Sorry for the long entry..? ;;

CB Diary,

Today I arrived in Malis, the second largest city and Aeonian Port of the Imperial Province of Pontus. The barbarian tribes to the South are engaged in a major revolt. Having been assigned here, under command of the great and brilliant general Traes Ptolemais, I am fully ready to crush this new rebel uprising.

The rebel forces, including many fearsome Scythian tribes, are focused inland, to the South, especially around the cities of Ouranos and Dura Europos. While the coast proper is secured from invasion, rebel raiders have penetrated as far as the capital of Pontus, just ten miles inland, at times.

I had a great talk with the General Ptolemais today. He informed me of the thousands of loyal Imperial soldiers recently slaughtered at the battle of the Cynoscephale Plains. I, however, am not afraid.

I did some combat trials. I love the new Decatian swords. Their iron is very sharp and durable. I used one to execute a captured prisoner of war today. I am very happy that the entire XVI Legion is using these new weapons. Together, we should have no problem to strike fear into those who dare oppose the Emperor of Caltha.

Wow Minda... did you write that? That's pretty darn good..

Of course I wrote it lol.

Dear CB Diary


As i stared in amazment at the glowing night I come to realize I've found the best way to describe a perfect kiss. For so long a people have been trying to describe a kiss, or better yet, compare it to something we all know about. Its tonight where I may have found something close to that perfect kiss. Before every big firework show there is so much talk, and so much curiosity of what the firework show may hold. Before everything there is the anticipation that everyone thinks about. The questions of "Whats it gonna be like" or "Is it gonna be long, short, colorful" is always asked amoung the crowd. And just like every kiss thats been waited for, you always ask yourself, how is this kiss going to turn out, how is this going to happen, what will it be like. We've all been there, and we all know what kind of questions we ask ourselves. And then "BOOM". The boom isnt the horrible sound of a mistake, but the boom is the heartbeat we have when the kiss happens. The beat may be irregular, and loud, nervous, and rushed, but its strong and passionate. And as the night sky is lit of with different colors, it shows how beutiful and liveley, and noticable your perfect kiss is. Slowly and softly the sparks turn to afterglow and your just there in the moment finally realizing that your perfect kiss has just happend to you. When the show is all said and done, your left lightheaded and live. Your body doesnt know whether to stand up, or sit down, and your left breathless in your shoes only longing for that feeling again...

I spent my 4th of July at a simple park with a beutiful girl by my side and great friends who just wanted to be with people who cared about them. This would be my second year not being with someone on this 4th of July. Which is sad but its funny how i always wanted to kiss under a glowing night sky, how I always wanted to be with someone I love under the burning after glow. Its also funny how everyone in my group wanted the same thing. There was no Eric, no kelly, no matt, no Jon, no Sean, no Rachel, no Alea, no significant others in our group. We were all single, and we all missed someone. As I looked around at my friends I can tell that this 4th or July was meant to be celebrated with someone else, but all of us, had nothing else... As we all sat in our little group, some of us in huddles, others in chairs, some just sitting next to each other, there was nothing but smiles all around. Our night sky was painted so beutiful and so prestine that it can never be repeated. For many people watching the same show, it was a celebration, but for people in the group it was so much more. It wasnt just a firework show, but for us 10, it was like watching a whole 20 minetes of bright and elegant shooting stars... We wished on every single one of them...

Dear CreateBlog Diary,
Well diary, I haven't really done anything special today, despite it's being Independence Day. I took pictures of fireworks from my loft window. It was nice to watch. While I was on my mom's balcony, I was just taking pictures. I took one of this really pretty red one, when all of a sudden a scud comes at me, and it was still on fire. I told my friend about it and he's glad I wasn't hurt. (He's so sweet..LoL.) But instead, it just landed right next to me. I didn't exactly want to wait and get hit by another flamed scud, so I went inside.

For the most part, I've just been online. Posting around here at CreateBlog[dot]com, I'm addicted..officially. Nina's cousin went to her house today, so that was cool. We were talking on AIM and I saw her cousin through webcam on YIM. She seems like a nice enough person. So it's cool that I met her. I've really nothing to do today, or tomorrow, or the day after. My life right now can be described in one big word, "BOREDOM".

~Sarah

P.S.
Dad comes home in two days, from Italy, for a month.

Hey hun...We all have our bad times...Some of them last longer then others...Hang tight babe you'll make it through... Your a CB family member, and we're pullin for ya K...Take care and god speed

CB Diary,
I spent the whole day trying to figure out my chemistry homework because I missed three days of class. I went crazy not understanding anything and unfortunately I still don't understand all of it. However, I understand some of it because my friend helped me and because I was blasting my music that helps me think. Well, back to chemistry homework...
-jennie-

dear createblog diary,

these few days, my net is not working properly so i couldn't post as much, but i'll try my best now, i am leaving on vacation in 10 days, i'll miss her a lot. and i didn't get to celebrate canada day on createblog either...so much for my canadian spirit. ><" i'll wait till next year i guess. thank you for everything.

-- faithin felix

Dear createblog diray,

My bio dad called again today. Since he left me and my mom, our relationship is sucking. We're drifting apart. We could no longer understand each other like we used to. He's in china doing his own thing, so no wonder that has to happen. I visit him once a year, but that's not helping anything. Yeah, I don't know how this is going on. Since he made the wrong decision to have an affair, I guess he caused his own suffering.

Today, hanged out with my friends. I'm so quiet, even in front of my friends. My personality wasn't like this before, I don't know why I changed

Dean

dear createblog diary,

today she came over and i went to her house and also i went to volunteer. thank you for all the fun i had today. i miss her very much. love her lots, hope tommorow will be a better day.

-- faithin felix

Dear CB diary,

Im so frustrated with myself... Every girl i seem to like seems to always have a boyfriend, or likes a guy madly that i cant even make my way in. I hate falling for girls who I have no future with... Its like I have no chance in getting what I want. What do I lack, what does he have that I dont? Does he listin to you like I do, does he tell you everything you want to hear? Maybe the saying really is true...Nice guys finish last

Dear mr.Createblog diary.
so again someone annonoymous sent me an IM sayingi was a hoe. how am i one.. ok scrtach that out. but if people are gonna start crap they shouldn't keep all quiet and not say who they are. that bugs me alot. and this isnt the first time. maybe same person. i dont know. its so annoying

dear createblog diary,
today she came over again and together we went to our friends house. i had fun. good times, and good memories.

-- faithin felix

7/8/04
Dear diary,
2day was same as always, Boring. So ne way i have nuttin 2do so i decided to write in here. Well 2morrow is gonna be Friday man this week past really damn fast well i hope next week i'll have sumtin to do n not be bored all summer, well that's it 4 now.

Dear diary,

I've discovered that my crush of 4 years has a girlfriend whom he crushed on for 2 years.
Sigh.
It's time to move on, I guess.

Dear Diary,

The end of the world is coming.
Soon.
Hopefully, today.
I need to die.
Stupid dream.
Stupid oracle.

And I want chocolate mousse cake before I die.
And that special somebody too.
Pfft, I'm so lame.

-- Kim Jr.

Dear CB,

Yesterday was so much fun. We went to Six Flags and i'll fill in the details later. right now i need some help. my bestfriend or used to be i don't know and i haven't talked in months. We had been bestfriends since 7th grade but then this year our 9th grade year i went to a different school and i would always be the one who called her throughout oru relationship and i just got sick of it. It would piss me off that i would be the one calling her and listening to her. I love listening to people because i don't know people like to tell me their problems and i like to know them so i can be a good friends. But i also need someone to do that for me. I mean we were the best of friends.. ..but now we haven't talked in monthsI wrote her this on July 1st and still haven't sent it to her, should i?:

July 1st
Hey Mary

I'm listening to nuck if you buck right now because my parents just made me mad. Mostly my dad, but now i'm listening to music so i feel so much better. But anyways that isn't why i wrote this letter. We haven't talked in a long time and that isn't right. Our friendship was such a strong solid one and now...something had just made it crumble. Because a lack of communication between us. There had been some issues i hwas struggling with and in order for me to get over them i have to tell you what they were.
#1 Race. It is so stupid I know but this year I made a huge change from a majority white(well a really diverse school) to an all black school. I know I've changed as a person. All my life i have been around a diverse gorup of people I mean my friends were black,white,hispanic,asian, and everything in between. Now I just have black friends with the exception of illiana(mexican) and van(Vietanmese). And I don't know, i guess i felt different by having a white bestfriend. Then during April i realized what does it matter? I love poeple of all races. I realized that no one even cares about who I am friends with and what they look like. Me having friends of every race makes me who I am and has helped me experience many things.
#2 Change. I know I've changed and i know you've changed. But I've been afraid that we have changed so much our relationship would've suffered. But I thought that we can change together or grow together and I prefer growing together.
#4 Communication. In the middle of the year I was going to call you and say maybe our friendship should've ended at Peachtree. I was going to do that because I was angry, angry that you never called me. The type of person I am is someone to depend on. I like for people to lean on me and for me to take charge, but sometimes I am sick of that role and I need someone to take lead and for them to initailize the ocnversation. But then i decided not to call you because that is a stupid thing to end a friendship over. But I do need you to know that I would appreciate other initializing a conversation with me.
Okay, those were the 3 things that were bothering me. But Ialso want to say this:
Thank yout so much for being there when Chi-Chi died. It meant so much to me. I mean when I called you to tell you I couldn't even get the words outbut you understood. And i love you so much girl.
My parents act a fool sometimes. But other than blaming me fore stuff and saying no to me they are alright. Your parents seem klike nice good people so you better be treating them right. I have some many questions i want to ask you.
I am so sorry and i meant to call you on the 1 year anniversary of your aunt and cousin but i want you to know that i was praying for you. Well that is everything I had to say, now it is your turn. I love you alot so call me.

Love

Uche

That is the entire letter, so ya'll tell me what's up

Dear Diary,

Life is GOOD! Just got a prelude and my bf already got me mods=) i am soo spoiled =/ work has been okay...10 hr days r real blowers tho...i never have time to just sit back and chill =/ at least my bf is bout to come scoop me up in his uber hott M3 =) ok that's enuff. byez0r =)

dear diary,
tonight i get to hang out with my 2 best friends. one of them is my ex. maybe he will re-fall madly in love with me. that would be nice. :] ahh, okay enough of that crap. we got my doggie groomed today. she looks like an alien. i finally saw a post by jordan inc. also, i took some more pics, but you can't see them yet.
xo
melizzle

dear createblog diary,

today i posted a lot, like 73 posts so far, i have to post a lot because i am going on vacation. yeah. and i webcamed sandra =) loving createblog.

--faithin felix

Dear diary
So right now i feel a lil upset n mad, well omg i g2g now will rite 2morrow.

dear diary im so bored i sat all day im not even joking all day on createblog so i think ive seen avery nook or however u spell it and cranny or however u spell it whoever up there taked about how he cant get a girlfriend u r not alone lol i read an interview for the perfect guy on my friend who is a girls xanga and she was like tall handsome nice well im missin two things from that the tall and the handsome

dear diary,
well, turns out that tonight i realized that i love my ex more than i could have imagined. seeing him just reaffirmed that... we hung out and made brownies and watched the surreal life and went to publix and watched finding nemo [again] and he played guitar and sang for us... hmm. makes me sad.
xo - melinda

Dear createBlog diary,
Today was my birthday. Nothing.

Dear Diary,

Today I realized that I'm a jackass.

Dear Everyone,


We are all lonesome people. No matter how we look at it. So, we should just all die. We are gonna die sooner or later. Whatever.


Dear Diary,

I'm afraid. I hear weird noises at night. Oh, it's just me crying myself to sleep. My bad. No one likes to talk to me anymore. I became a very boring person in a matter of 3 months. I shall now shut myself down. No one's gonna bother. I am an outcast. I am nothing. Cause you can look right through me, walk right past me.. and not even notice me. How sad... but that's how brutal life is.

Goodnight,
Kim Jr.

Aww Kim.
You should move in with me. :D

Dear Diary,
Being at my mom's SUCKS. I came down to Tucson to visit her right? WITH MY OWN FREE WILL. I never HAD to come down here. All I've done while I've been here is sit in the living room, by myself. She hasn't even talked to me that much! What she does, is go in her room with her fiancee' and shuts the door. I don't even want to know what she does in there. She's spent more time with HIM, than she has ME. And she is always complaining about how she misses me. IF YOU REALLY MISSED ME YOU WOULD SPEND TIME WITH ME WHILE I AM IN YOUR HOUSE WOMAN!

Life sucks.

Dear Diary, im still brooding over porn, (wow i have no life, diary please slap me)
and then i right some cool stuff in CB too, but damn was today boring. I hate my life

dear diary,

nothing feels the same anymore.. I feel like nothing without him. I can't stop thinking about him. I wish I could tell him how I feel. why did it have to end like this?..

your obsessed cb member,

kelly