there are threads here about "friends with benefits don't work out. somone ends up liking the other..." so i was worried that she was starting to like me, but it ended up the other way around.
the last time i saw her (before today) was june 8th. all day at school we just hid under the stairs and made out and stuff n it was so great. then school let out and she went on vacation in jersey. she got back a week ago, but i've been too busy to talk to her till today. so i call her and hear about how she likes this other kid, who, by the way, i DESPISE (before any of this happend), so i'm feelin kinda sad. i confronted her and it turned out all the rumors were true, and that she's going to end up going out with him. i know i shouldn't be believed but i'm actually really sad, for some reason. i really liked her, i guess, but i'm an idiot and didn't want a relationship i lost what now seems like the best part of my life. oh well...
(expect a song in the "writings" section shortly)