im really upset ............my cousin who was like 24 yrs old had cancer..........she recently died and we werent only cousins....we wer best friends.........going to her funeral was the worst experience of my life...........sitting around with a bunch of ppl and i was thinking that none of them knew her like i did.........well maybe her mom but ther were even sum of her cuzins that wer just talkin and even laughin thru it whil i was hystericaly crying i felt liek goin to them and just smackin them in their faces .......but i didnt ........losing her was like losing the sister i never had......i feel life will never be the same and my friends dont understand exept one whos cousin also died but a long time ago...........i just need cheering up.........plz thank you

that's so sad. i hope u feel better. GROUP HUGGLES!

awww im sorrie bout that but at least you know that shes been there for you and even though shes not here anymore in ur mind she will always be there just think of how she will feel if she actually sees you da way you are and you should be happy for her that she dont have to suffer anymore i bet shes been through a lot of pain and suffering and again im very sorrie h0pe y0u feel better soon

aww im sorry... keep your head up

thnx pplz! and also my frndz r getting really annoying b cuz they think im annoying cuz i really need sum1 to talk to and wen i call them they r just like "shut up i dont care about ur stupid cuzin so stop calling!" and that makes me cry more and no one will listen to me but thnx 4 listenin to me and if ne one can talk to me but duznt want to post just leev me msg's! so yea message me or w/e *thnx again* made me feel better but im not totally good yet ill just hav to get over it plz msg me pplz

I'm sorry...I can't believe your friends would actually say that. You know, if they did shut you up, they're not really your friends. I mean, friends don't shut others up. I'm so sorry this had to happen. I mean, I can't personally say from experience that this has happened to me but it would be hard to imagine. This is really tough and difficult to deal with but slowly the pain will seize away. Right now you're probably feeling disbelief...because that's how I felt when my uncle died too. I cared for him a whole lot and I mean, he was the greatest uncle ever. He was just so cool and then when I learned that he had a heart attack, it just killed me. I couldn't believe it and I didn't want to believe that he was gone. I can just imagine how you feel but I truly hope that you feel better. You deserve more comfort and that pisses me off that your 'friends' would actually do that to you.

I seriously hope everything goes well and you know, you can always e-mail me if you need someone to talk to. I hope you feel better.
Time will pass, and your cousin will still be with you there forever to give you guidance. Although you can't see her, you can always feel her presence because she'll still be with you.

not in a bad way but that made me cry! lol it sounded like 1 of those thingies from the chicken soup books! lol sry that was stupid to say but really!!!!

Aw... I didn't mean to


(it sounds like those thingies from the chicken soup books...haha, I didn't know. I've never read them[i've been deprived]).

aaww im sorry!!! wut mini said!!! lets hug!!!!!!!!!!

btw i dont think ur friends are even considered as friends at all if they are true friends they would be there for u and help you out and cheer you up so i think that you should make new friends that would be there for you when you need them and hope you feel better

I'm very sorry. I hope you feel better.

aww, poor sweetie. get better soon...

:: i hate cancer :(

aww im srry my mom has cancer jus think of happy times n try 2 keep ur self occupied im soo srry

sometimes for people the only way they know to deal with pain is the ignore it. to pretend to be happy.

i'm so sorry.. i went to my first funeral a few months ago.. I barely knew the guy and i cried.. feel better..

thanx everyone! i called my so called "friend" last night and told her that if she wasnt gunna be supportive to me then maybe we shouldnt be friends and she was all "oh no we can still be friends but really i dont care about ur stupid cousin" and then i screamed into the phone at her to shut up and that whenever anyone she loves (which is probably no one cuz she is so self centered) dies i wont care either and i hung up and then literally cried myself to sleep:cry: . i really hate her......REALLY hate her:mad: ...she is so mean! and she has been my friend for like 3 yrs and duznt care about me and all of you i hardly even know but you are being really nice to me! i really apreciate it! thnx! :biggrin:GROUP HUG!!!

aww sorry!!!!!!!!!! i hope you feel better!!!! man, your friend really isn't....friendly....
but anyway, feel better!!!!!

aawwwwwwwwwww i am so so so so so so sorry you need a group hug on check well i hope you feel betta okies





.:tony:.

i'm sorry to hear about that. =T more hugs for you!!! hope you feel better soon.
and i'm sorry to say this, but what kind of friends turn their backs on you when you need them the most? ahh wells, you'll always have the CB community. =]

and that "friend" isnt my friend anymore...........and i told my real friends what she said to me and now they all hate her and she is like "i was just kidding it was funny! what" like trying to make it a joke but she is just so stupid and now everyone hates her so.......HA to her!!!

yea, i know how thats feels... loosing the ones u adore the most and they have to leave. awww cheer up huns, ur cousin wouldnt wanna see u cry right? she wants u to smile cuz she knows that she putted an impact in ur life

dude, that was uncalled for; your ex-friend (if i may call her that) has issues. how can you be friends with someone who doesn't care about how you feel? if she had a brain right then, she'd be able to understand how your cousin's death affected you, which should also affect her, because she's your friend. i was there for my friend when her loved one died and vice versa. ARGH, sorry, but the way she acted according to you aggravated me, because it doesn't seem humane to be so... idiotic and uncaring, yet still spilling words of such... lies.


in a way, i can relate to your pain, as my aunt died because of cancer after a few years of struggle.. she was a very beautiful woman, but i'm glad she was able to live her life to the fullest extent. i'm sorry for you, because your cousin died at such a young age, unable to live a bright future.


yeah, that was pretty sappy... corny... weird... coming from a stranger. hope you feel better.

im sure ur cousin wouldnt want you feeling so down. its only been bout 10 days since u posted this, but i hope ur feeling better! and i dont blame u for yelling at that "frend". i would be sooo damn pissed... anyway, i hope things get better for you :)

I'm sorry for your lost n I hope u feel better.Atleast u knew ur cousin n got to find out wat a great person..... i CANT TELL U TOO stop crying cause I know how it feels to loose someone. Try to think of other things that make u feel happy n most of all u need ur family n friends w/u right now.I hope u feel better.... here have a hug n a kiss

i am so sorry about what happened. anyone who treats you like that is not a friend at all. my grandmother died after 22 years of pain from cancer and i was so upset you couldnt believe. i locked myself in my room and cried for hours.

if you need anyone to talk to you can always message me, really. i know you don't know me but sometimes talking about it is all you need.

<3

Greetings!!

chin up k. death is somethin we have to deal wit. we can't never avoid it coz it's part of our life. ya just gotta pick up da pieces left behind and continue wat ya been doin all along. anyway, ya must be proud tat she's watchin ya from above and tat she doens't have to carry on suffering in dis world of world sins. take note, HE is wit her rite now. or is it vice versa?! ya can always talk wit me too. imma a youth counsellor and i'll do ma best if there's anything. hook me up if ya want to aight?!

CHEERS CB!!

Aww, it's okay. Things will move.. Just don't ever forget the great times you had with her =] The best memories.

its okay that you are feeling bad and even lonely and its okay to miss her. but smile cuz im sure your cousin wouldnt want you so sad. and remember that you always have God! group hug----->

im sorrie...but now u kno shes in a better place and doesnt have to go thru the pain of cancer no more, ive never lost sumone to cancer.. i hope u fell beter <3

ehh...some frends huh?
talk to someone dat would actualli understand nd...stay away from ppl dat r less selfish bout demselves..
its ok dat ur styll having feelings bout dis..u ken miss her...u ken cry bout her...
do everything u kan to soothe urself...cuz its HARD...just giv urself some tyme..
besides...ur cuzin probli went to a place with happiness all round her...GOD bless her! wo0t!

feel better!!

I know it sounds corny and all, but you'll learn to have her there for you in spirit. Just remember the good times you've shared with her and maybe get to be closer friends than you already are with your friend who's cousin died too. You guys will be able to support eachother through everything.