Its 1.14am now
Ahh dwelling in this darkness that engulfs my vision
The aura of light emitting from the monitor is shining on the wound on my hand
The music in my ears filling my world with a sense of deep sadness
Slowly draining away the power i have left in my body
The chill of the night vibrates down my spine
My head shakes and spins as winter takes hold of me
Am I alone?
I don't know
Is there a god out there to answer my prayers?
I don't know
Although I don't follow religion at all
Sometimes I just wish there was a greater power out there to watch over me
Watch as I grow
From a sprout
To a tree
Watch me as I sleep
Watch as I wake
Watch me as I live
What would happen if my branches were to fall to the ground
What will happen to me
If I were to lose something precious to me
Would be the pain heal me in time
Or will the tragedy attract a greater despair
Travelling through the tunnel of darkness
I crawl through with my aging limbs
Struggling to move
I tell myself things will be alright
Will it be alright?
Will I be able to achieve my dreams?
Will I be able to dream?
I'm scared
At every crossroad there will be a decision left for my soul to decide
The split second as a tear trails down from my lady's cheeks
The split second as a life precious to me passes away
The split second
I must...
Walk...
Walk through the plains of the unknown
Neither suffocating or choking on the venom of this place
I will move
There will be many sorries I must say to the people that mean a lot to me
And sorry to the memories that I neglected to acknowledge
Sorry to my parents who gave their lives to me
But I must go
I must become me
I am not the butterfly who will spread its wings and fly
But I am the human who walks a road and admires its beauty
If there is one moment I regret in this life
It is the time I let her out of my sight
Disappear into nothingness
Like she never existed
There is always a solution to life
The problem is if you want to walk its journey
I'm still engulfed in darkness
And embraced by the chills of winter
But I am strong
Because...
I'm sure
It's there
For me